My family used to be a landlord, and people were criticized and their property was divided, and even the homestead was dug three feet deep. Back then, my grandfather took the whole family to live in the bullpen of the production team!
At that time, my family was really barely covered with all my widows. My brothers have been with four, and I have never had enough food and clothing since I was a child! We are the poorest and lowest in the village. We, who are very motivated, have lived a very painful and depressed life since childhood. Other adults beat and scold our parents, and other children beat and scold us landlords!
grew up in such an environment and my psychology was a little distorted since I was a child. After growing up, although I was admitted to university and left my hometown, my psychological problems have never been solved! The day when
broke out was after the Spring Festival in 1998, when the only sister died in an accident. That heartache was really a broken feeling, and I could feel that my heart was broken halfway! Not long after, my grandparents who loved me also passed away!
Two years ago, the three dearest people died at home. These three people treated me much better than their parents. My father suffered grievances outside and went home to exhale us (I am the boss, and I am naughty. Those few are still young and can’t beat me). These three people are the ones who love me the most in this world. Three of them have passed away for two years. My heart is really painful, really painful! So much so that I had the idea of suicide!
I fell ill completely. I didn’t want to see anyone, didn’t want to go out, and often slept for several days, didn’t eat, and didn’t feel hungry! Apart from going to the bathroom, I slept for twenty-four hours a day!
I got married at that time, and my father no longer cared about me. My wife is a very strong person who shows off her power. She is not gentle, but only quarrels and fights!
They, don’t know, I’m very sick: I’ve been sleeping for several consecutive years, not going out, and not seeing anyone. They never thought of taking me to see a doctor.
At that time, apart from sleeping, I woke up and thought about committing suicide. Which method can reduce pain if I commit suicide! In pain, I lived by luck for many years and did not choose to commit suicide!
The improvement was that the ex-wife was having a divorce, she didn't go home all day, and she would have less quarrels and less fights. She felt more at ease and calm down! So, occasionally, I got up, went out for a walk, and exercised. Still unwilling to contact others! No one wants to see or speak!
The real improvement is the person I admire and fear the most after my father passed away!
I was beaten by him since I was a child. How afraid can I be? I was in my forties and knew that my father was out, for example, I was having a meal or talking, suddenly, when I heard him coughing in the distance, my whole body would tremble subconsciously. I had never experienced that kind of fear and I didn’t understand at all! I guess, my depression has a direct relationship with my father!
I didn’t suffer much pain in his death! Because of his death, I reduced my psychological depression a lot! After his death, his mother lived alone in the countryside and was unwilling to leave her hometown!
The three brothers have professions and cannot go back to accompany my mother, so I went back to my hometown to accompany my mother, plant vegetables, water them, tie some vegetables and wooden stakes to repair fruit trees, and plant fruit trees and flowers in front and behind the house. Spring is here, it is very beautiful!
In such a quiet environment, there is no pressure, no fear, and no fear. Whenever I want to get up every day, when I get up, every day, do whatever I want, basically I am responsible for planting trees, repairing trees, and planting flowers! Mother likes to grow vegetables, raise chickens and ducks, and German Shepherd !
When my mother couldn't get busy, she called me to help, usually just water and spray!
District the German Shepherd takes a bath every day. I take the German Shepherd to the river to take a bath every evening. I am so relieved to see the tall and sensible German Shepherd looking happy in the water!
In such carefree and rural pastoral life, depression gradually improved. I took the initiative to do things and chatted with the villagers occasionally!
has passed more than a year. My brother told me to enter the city and show people the gate.My mother's complex was also untied, so I returned to the city to live together! Occasionally, I miss my hometown in the countryside, so I went back to see it once, stayed for a day or two, and then returned to the city!
Summary: I have never taken depression medicine. I saw some doctors said that it is difficult to break after taking the medicine!
The best way to treat depression is to actively exercise!
Relieve psychological stress in an environment without stimulation! Do your favorite things easily, such as: raising flowers, raising kittens and dogs, planting trees, planting vegetables~
In an environment without stimulation, it is easy to relax your mind! Do something you like, pass the time, and do things, your mind will not be confused and want to die!
Another important point: living with people who cannot resist psychologically will increase the psychological burden. Living with people who are gentle will be able to talk along with things, reducing the stimulation of quarrels and quarrels, and the effect will be better!
In short: Do what you like with the person you like, and do what you like actively and exercise! It will be better slowly!
I have been working for three years now and have never stopped!
Because there is no medicine, no communication between patients! For many years, I have been resisting myself! I hope you who are suffering from trouble can be well!
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