For some time, many online beggars on the headlines who cheated friends with sympathy under the guise of depression patients and anxiety patients. They post headlines every day, just to guide everyone to give them money and let them get it for nothing! I feel very disgusted when I see similar headlines! There are actually people who use diseases to gain sympathy and cheat and consume the sympathy of kind people. I think I should write down my experience of fighting against depression and so that everyone can have a deeper understanding of depression. I also hope that my experience can give some encouragement and help to friends who suffer from the same disease.
What do real patients with depression look like? Many friends may not know it. Today I will use my own personal experience to tell you. I hope you will have a clear understanding of depression and hope you can stay away from this disease.
I am a depressed patient and have a second relapse this year (the first time was 11 years ago). After treatment, I have basically returned to normal. I also hope to share with my patients some ways to deal with the disease.
After 5 pm on July 15 this year, I suddenly fell ill at home, had difficulty breathing, numbness of limbs, dizziness, and then I got 120 and took it to the hospital. I had various examinations, blood tests, urine tests, and systemic CT. The results were that all indicators were normal. I stayed in the emergency room for one night, and the symptoms did not relieve. There was no psychiatric department in the hospital at that time. The doctor told my family that I might be depressed, so I asked me to go to the psychiatric department of another hospital to take a look, so I went the next day, and then, there was no suspense, and the depression recurred!
At that time, I didn’t realize that it was a recurrence of depression. Of course, before that, I had been in a state of bad mood for a long time, why didn’t I realize it? Because the first time I developed depression was 11 years ago, I was just very depressed and tended to commit suicide by being tired of the world. I didn't expect it to recur.
This time the relapse was even more fierce. I developed severe physical symptoms. As a former patient with depression, I was actually very ignorant of my condition. In the next month, I followed the doctor's guidance and started treatment.
Here is a popular science for you. Why do I say that there are many people who claim to be depressed on the headlines who are actually Internet beggars. It’s very simple. It’s enough for me to take a look at his photos. It’s impossible for a real depressed patient to have the energy to post headlines every day, and he can communicate frequently with everyone with a clear purpose.
Depressed patients can really tell at a glance, because they have obviously different characteristics from ordinary people. First of all, they have very bad mental state, full of sadness and sickness. To put it bluntly, they look like dead people. When I look at myself in the mirror, I feel that I am a silly person.
When my treatment started to improve, one day I was doing physical therapy and a 32-year-old girl was a prison guard . When I saw her face, it was like I saw myself at the beginning of treatment. She was also severely depressed. And the other patients I saw were similar to mine. The treatment plan given to me by taking paroxetine hydrochloride, Chinese patent medicines and instrumental physiotherapy, and I can only rely on myself to improve my mood. So first of all, if you suspect that you have depression, it is best to go to the psychiatric department of the hospital, because you cannot accurately judge. Depression is divided into depression and depression. Many people will have depression and can heal themselves. Depression is different. It cannot be cured by adjusting emotions. It is necessary to use medicine to adjust emotions.
Now looking back, I don’t know how I survived the more than a month I started the treatment. First of all, the reaction of taking the medicine. Depression drugs are different from ordinary drugs. The time it takes for the medicine to reach the nerves and start to work is very long, usually about 10 days, and some people are longer, which varies from person to person. And depression medications have certain side effects.
What is even more annoying is that the working principle of this type of drug is a bit like the treatment of poison in martial arts novels. It is necessary to stimulate the poison first and then detoxify. Therefore, it is the most difficult to endure in the first half of the month when you start taking the drug. All the symptoms will not be relieved at all, but will only aggravate. That's what I am.
Before starting treatment, my condition was heavy on the day and light on the night, and I was extremely depressed and had the idea of suicide, chest tightness , dizziness, numbness in the limbs, and my symptoms worsened half a month after taking the medicine, and I also developed insomnia. I went to bed at 11 pm and woke up on time at 3 pm, and I could no longer sleep and wanted to use my mobile phone to read books or watch TV. But I couldn't see it at all, so I could only wait for dawn with my eyes open. The situation in the morning became even worse. I lay on the bed and felt that I couldn't get up at all, and I couldn't move. My whole body was numb and my dizziness became more serious. I was dizzy when I forced myself to sit up. I had no choice but to lie down. There is no way to go to the hospital for physical therapy. One day I forced myself to go to the hospital, but I fainted at the entrance of the community shortly after I went out. There is no way, so I can only give up physical therapy first.
This condition gradually began to improve after taking the medicine for two weeks. The chest tightness still existed and the head was dizzy, but at least I felt a little energetic, so I went to the hospital to start physical therapy. When I was fine, I thought I had to get myself moved, so I chose to go out at the hottest time of noon every day and take a walk by the river. I call this a boost to my morale. Every night, I feel uncomfortable sitting, so I go downstairs and walk a few times, almost every half an hour. I feel that in the past month, I have gone downstairs more times than in the previous year.
After more than a bad month, I finally could do something within my ability, clean up and cook. Of course, I still can't do complicated things. I once tried to turn on the computer to do things, but I felt I couldn't hold it anymore after just looking at the screen for a few minutes, so I had no choice but to give up. I just took the medicine and combined with physical therapy. I have been doing more than three months now, but I still haven't stopped the medicine, but I feel it's basically normal. Otherwise, I wouldn't have the energy to sit here and write something that long.
The pain of depression patients is something that people who have not experienced before cannot understand, and it is difficult to describe the language. I think I have basically recovered. Looking back, I have had some experiences and want to communicate with my patients.
1. Be firm in your will, believe that you can recover, actively cooperate with the treatment, and it will be difficult to endure the period when you start taking the medicine, but you must persist and communicate with the doctor in time if there are adverse reactions.
2. If your body allows you, you must make yourself move. No matter how uncomfortable you feel, you must persist. I was in a state of being unable to run at all, so I took a walk and sat down to rest when I was a little tired. Have a good rest and continue walking.
3. You must find a way to keep yourself away from negative emotions, the outside world and your own! Depressed patients will unconsciously think about negative things, but once this idea occurs, they must force themselves to divert their attention. Although this is difficult, because I am like this, try to find a place with fresh air and take a deep breath. If you like animals, you can get close to the next animal. There are many people in our community who have dogs, and I also like dogs, so I go chat with the dog owner and touch the dog to do it.
Photos taken during treatment during the afternoon walk
Photos taken during the evening walk during the treatment during the evening walk
4. Learn to reconcile with yourself and don’t force yourself too much. In fact, what is the most important thing in life? Fame and fortune? wealth? None of them. Alive! Yes, it is to live. Only when you are alive can everything else be meaningful. If you die, nothing will mean to you. If you figure this out, I think you will truly understand how to reconcile with yourself. This is the fundamental thing. This is how I am, and most of the patients I see in the hospital are like this. Everyone must have their own difficulties in life, and this cannot be avoided. However, as long as you live, there is hope. What can support a person to live? It's hope. Don’t ask for pain to go quickly, happiness cannot last forever.
Come on! Friends suffering from depression, I encourage you my experience with you. I hope we all recover soon!
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