Hello everyone, I am Wang Weihao. This morning I was fortunate to receive an invitation from the teacher to share my stuttering and correct the changes in my stuttering.
If I don’t stutter, based on my growth path, my personality should be a social bull. I was the root of the disaster laid in the fourth grade of elementary school, and after that, my path went astray.
I was very naughty when I was in elementary school. I was a problem student in the eyes of parents and teachers. I was interested in everything except learning. The math teacher in the fourth grade class talked a little stuttering, but he was fine with his lectures. The classmate asked him privately about the questions and he stuttered a little. When I learned about it, I was very curious. When a classmate came up to ask the teacher's questions, I followed him to listen to the teacher's questions, and the teacher was talking about the questions he was hesitantly, and I was laughing on the stage.
Several of our question students privately call the teacher "stutter" and we will also clumsyly imitate the teacher's stuttering. It should be retribution. Before I knew it, I stuttered.
A few friends who were traveling with me, saw that I was a little stuttering when I saw that I was speaking formally, turned to mock me for being a stutter. Their ridicule had no effect on me. Instead, I would learn a few more stuttering words on the spot, and then everyone laughed together.
I really realized the seriousness of the problem. It is in junior high school. Junior high school students are particularly proud of their face and show off, and they do things at all. As soon as I entered the school, I joined the Question Gang and sat in the last two rows, mixing with those who don’t like to study.
When I followed them to bully people, I felt a little uncomfortable inside, and I also paid attention to my buddy's loyalty. I had to play with them and learned to smoke.
At that time, in the eyes of most people, I was no longer a problem student, but a bad student.
When we are together, they sometimes laugh at me for stuttering. I didn't say anything. I felt very uncomfortable and only smiled awkwardly, so I paid more attention to speaking.
When I think about speaking, it becomes even more unnatural. It seems that I realize that I am breathing and consciously controlling my breathing, my breathing will become unnatural.
I was in anxiety because I stuttered and it was difficult to integrate into this group. His personality has gradually changed. As long as he talks less and his stuttering frequency decreases, he will not be ridiculed.
also benefited from stuttering, which helped me avoid going astray.
I started to study hard, but I couldn't be called hard work. Compared with my former friends, at least I got into high school. They basically either worked or went to vocational high school after graduating from junior high school.
After entering high school, our class teacher was a newly graduated college student with great ambitions and ideas. We call him Hua Ge .
Brother Hua is very good. He doesn’t look down on us poor students who have just entered the score line. Our class is almost the worst class in the school. He is very attentive to each of us.
I don’t like studying. I think that as long as I have the ability, I can shine anywhere. Brother Hua made me understand. Don’t take it very high. Education is the stepping stone. If you don’t have an education, you don’t have an admission ticket. You can only choose you for the job, not for you.
Later, half of the people in our class in the college entrance examination were admitted to undergraduate studies. In school, the admission rate was calculated as the middle and upper level, and the basic student source was there.
During those days of waiting for a happy college, if there were no friends asking me to go out and play games, I would almost stay at home during the summer vacation.
On the first day of school, I was defeated. The books have not been distributed yet and the military training date has not reached the date. I took ideological education classes the week before, and the first class was self-introduction.
I stood awkwardly for more than ten seconds. The slight noise from the audience slowly dissipated. Some students who were playing with their phones put down their phones, and all their eyes looked at me. My face was swollen and red to my ears. After stomping my feet, I stumbled and finished talking about my name and hometown.
On the first day of my official start of university life, I had already died of socialism.
Later, I gradually learned that many courses in college need to be grouped, all have to do PPT, and all have to go on stage to present and give lectures. In my first semester of college, I felt very stressed and felt very anxious all day long. When I thought about how many days I would go on stage to talk about PPT again in, I was upset.
I even had the idea of dropping out of school, but can I stop talking after dropping out of school? Escape can only be temporarily useful, only treat symptoms but not root causes. What should be faced can never be escaped in the end.
Before the winter vacation, I had psychological problems and I had symptoms such as insomnia, anxiety, and depression. I didn't dare to see a psychiatrist myself, so I asked my dad to pick me up at the university, and I went to the psychiatric department and was diagnosed with mild depression.
After returning home, my parents were also worried about me and had a long conversation with me. Stuttering caused me to rarely communicate with my parents before, and I told them about my troubles since college. My parents never expected that stuttering would have such a big negative impact on me.
During the winter vacation, I also calmed down and looked for relevant information about stuttering correction. I don’t want to go to other places. Some correction institutions also have recorded online classes. I have never been able to find a correction method (institution) that suits me until I saw Teacher Li Hui’s article, what attracted me to me was one-on-one teaching.
After understanding the teacher later, I read a lot of articles from the teacher and gradually learned the teacher's philosophy more deeply. I don’t really believe that stuttering can be solved in ten days and half a month, and I am also full of fear of public speeches. Haha, to put my thoughts bluntly, I was very afraid of public speeches. This is one of the important ideas I don’t want to go to other correction agencies.
When consulting the teacher, the teacher was as cold and straightforward as mentioned in the article, but he was able to point out my problems and difficulties to the point. After consulting with the teacher, I became more determined to correct my stuttering. After registering, when I transferred the tuition to the teacher, the teacher did not collect it. First, I reminded me that I had to wait for other students to graduate before I could rank for me. The time may be long. If I can't wait, don't sign up.
I waited for more than four months until early June when I finally received the information notified me of training by the teacher. During the four months of waiting, I was so anxious that I was stuttering every day.
In particular, I was waiting and saw the teacher training for other students, and I was looking forward to and nervous. I hope I can get better and better like them, and I am nervous that I can't learn well.
I still remember that during the first day of training, I was very nervous. I expected that the teacher might ask me to introduce myself in the first class, so I was always nervous and my whole heart was hanging.
In fact, at the beginning of the first class, the first feeling the teacher gave me was that he was very kind and understanding. In the first class, he mainly told his stuttering and experience, as well as his own story of changing and groping.
While I was listening, I seemed to have entered that scene. I felt that the teacher suffered a lot. Yes, my stuttering was not as serious as the teacher, but I saw his perseverance in the teacher.
From that time on, I told myself: What reason do I have to back down?
training is boring. During the consultation, the teacher has talked about this to me many times. I have already made a boring preparation after thinking about it, but the boredom of real training has exceeded my imagination.
However, during training, I saw the teacher teach and guide me step by step, and I also saw the little changes in my speech, which gave me gradually confidence.
I am very grateful to the teacher for his company and teaching. I know that it would be difficult for me to correct my stuttering without the company of my teacher. With the teacher, I have learned not only to correct my stuttering, but also more.
I am now in my junior year. Now I open my mouth whenever I want to say something. I like this feeling very much. Moreover, my personality has become much more active and I often participate in group activities of my classmates. Some time ago, they were laughing at my self-introduction on the day of school, and I also generously laughed at myself. They said I changed a lot, yes, because I know what I've been through with this change.
I have not experienced stuttering, so I don’t know how comfortable it is to speak freely now.
If, you have a stuttering; if, stuttering has an impact on you; if, you want to change your stuttering and have been prepared for your efforts, you can talk to me at any time.
