After the tragic song of the generation, he was finally sad because of love.
"The Little Words in Firefly Window" says: "When you reach seven minutes, you will be drunk when you drink; when you are sparse ink, your words are graceful; simple and broken, and your subtle and profound are the highest realm of endless beauty."
is appropriate in scale, and you will avoid overflowing. Whether you are writing or painting, you will be a person or a world-class person, you will talk about this kind of just right way, too much is just as inefficient.
But no matter how people walk in the world, how can they care about the worldly rulers and measure them with norms? So there was a ridiculous drama and a great tragedy.
The beginning of the tragedy is often: the extreme wisdom is hurt, and deep love is hard to live.
Among them, there are many people who are sighing, but Xu Meijing’s experience in is particularly regretful.
Once "His moonlight in the city" and " sunshine always comes after the storm and rain" to the streets and alleys, the songs are now accused of falling into the streets, and the ups and downs of fate are more like a play.
Just the song ends and the flowers fall and the mountains are gone.
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Zhang Ailing said that life is like a dance party. The person who teaches you the first dance may not be able to accompany you until the end.
For Xu Meijing, Chen Jiaming is the person who first taught her dance steps. Unfortunately, after half of her life, the man who taught her to dance eventually became a disaster in her life.
▲ Xu Meijing
Xu Meijing was born in Singapore in 1974. Her family is not well-off, but God gave her a gentle and moving voice: confused and melancholy, ethereal and cold. This voice later became the youthful memory of a generation.
In 1992, Xu Meijing, who had just graduated from high school, participated in the Singapore Miss Chinese Beauty Pageant. Because of her fresh and refined appearance, she finally won the Miss Friendship and the Miss Photos.
A year later, in the singing competition of "Find Superstars", Xu Meijing successfully signed a contract with a record company with her gentle and gentle singing voice. As a gold medal producer, Chen Jiaming has also become a mentor who changed her life.
▲ Xu Meijing and Chen Jiaming
From then on, Xu Meijing's wings spread her high and suddenly fell, both of which were closely related to this man.
Chen Jiaming is a famous lyricist and songwriter. Although he is not good-looking, he is known as "Singapore Lee Zongsheng ". Wu Qixian 's " too stupid ", Anita Mui 's "Love You Thousands of Times", Tao Jingying 's "Dreams", Asan 's "Your World" and other well-known golden songs are all written by him, and they are veritable musical talents.
But his best songs were given to Xu Meijing.
The first acquaintance between the two seems to have a destined fate.
Xu Meijing, who was still in a singing competition at the time, was waiting in the dressing room. In order to relieve the tension, she hummed a melody gently. Chen Jiaming, who came to the sound, praised her as if he had discovered a "new world":
"Singapore can never find a sound as beautiful as you!"
The recognition from strangers suddenly shocked Xu Meijing.
The two met for the first time and felt that they had met too late.
Since then, Chen Jiaming has not let down this beautiful voice. As a producer with unique vision, he did not vigorously package Xu Meijing, nor did he let her take the idol route. He grasped Xu Meijing's voice very well. Given her quiet, beautiful and simple temperament, unlike other women's lively and ostentatiousness, he tailored many songs that fit her style.
In the first album "Knowing", Xu Meijing received a lot of attention when she first tried the orioles. In 1995, Chen Jiaming signed a contract with Taiwan Shanghua Records Company, and Xu Meijing joined.
A year later, they teamed up to launch "Repent" and "All Returning to the Night". The two albums defeated the popular Andy Lau in one fell swoop with super high sales. 22-year-old Xu Meijing quickly joined the ranks of first-tier singers.
Xu Meijing perfectly presents the works written by Chen Jiaming: a slightly nasal sound, clean and clear, with a hint of decadence and laziness. In the singing, it also comforts many sad souls.
Many people fall in love with Xu Meijing's singing because there is not only a bright sadness in her voice, but also a warm and smooth characteristic. The song "Sunshine is always after the wind and rain" has inspired countless people to regain their hopes for life, get out of confusion, and even become a Chinese women's volleyball song that witnesses the wind and rain, failure and glory along the way.
In 1997, Xu Meijing entered the Hong Kong music scene and released a Cantonese album. Her "Thirteen Wonderful Songs" won the IFPI rankings for three weeks in a record-breaking manner.
In the 1990s, the heroes competed for the dominance. There were Faye Wong , Lam Yilian , Sammi Cheng and other queens. The same period, A-mei Zhang and Coco Lee were also the best in the music industry at that time. However, the perfect combination of Chen Jiaming and Xu Meijing quickly made Xu Meijing a stunning and unique existence in the music industry. She broke the impregnable pattern in the Hong Kong and Taiwan music scene with many popular golden songs, and was once called the "Queen Queen Killer".
▲ 1995 Singapore Golden Melody Awards, Faye Wong, Lam Yilian, Zhou Huajian
Young voices are difficult to sing the desolation of time, but Xu Meijing can sing the displaced life and the wandering of fate.
Someone once compared Xu Meijing with Faye Wong, believing that they are the two major sounds of nature in the Chinese music scene after Teresa Teng : Faye Wong's nature is in the sky and cannot be touched; Xu Meijing's nature is on the earth, in the world, around everyone, and you can understand it with just one turn.
If Faye Wong is cold, then Xu Meijing is cool: the night dew is slightly cool, regrets are long; how much sorrow is, the separation is heartbroken...
▲ Xu Meijing and Faye Wong
do not have gorgeous skills or idol packaging, but when people mention her, they can’t help but sigh, “Xu Meijing, that’s really a person who sings with life.”
Qingshan said that if a person has too much affection, he will hurt himself and hurt others.
Fortunately, the emotional Xu Meijing gave the song vitality and also made herself shine in the music industry for a while; unfortunately, the emotional twists and turns constantly consumed her life energy, and after several ups and downs, she finally withered...
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For Xu Meijing, Chen Jiaming is not only her "monique producer", but also her mentor and confidant. They went from close cooperation to mutual affection.
famous musician Xu Changde once commented on Xu Meijing: "This is another Faye Wong"; Huang Weiwen was fascinated by the charm of her voice and wrote a lyrics for her, called "The Legend of the Condor Heroes"; Leehom even crossed the ocean and invited her to join the Rolling Stone Records Company, which was at its heyday at that time.
She could have obtained these opportunities that others envied and wanted, but she fell in love with Chen Jiaming. Even if this love was the moon in the water and the flower in the mirror, she stopped and lingered.
Zhang Xiaoxian wrote in "The Fish Cheek of Happiness": "My heart has its own ends. No matter how vast the world is, it is not as good as wandering in a man's heart, and that is the ends of the world."
So, facing many olive branches, she refused one by one: "I only cooperate with Chen Jiaming. I like to cooperate with him. He will accept other people's opinions and understand my musical style and market taste."
Today, this is not the only reason. She once chose to stay in Singapore because Chen Jiaming was there.
No wonder Li Shaohong director once lamented: "Women are very emotional, and she is used to using sentiment to understand and judge the world."
This is the source of her rich life experience and will also become the culprit of creating tragic fate.
At that time, for the sake of Xu Meijing, Chen Jiaming also put down other work and focused on writing lyrics and composing music for her.
He appreciates her musical talent and understands the fragility in her heart. Only she can sing the many twists and turns in his lyrics and songs.
Chen Jiaming once wrote this passage on the inner page of Xu Meijing's first album "Ming Zhidao": "Meijing is born with neuroticism, which teaches people to love and pity. Her voice is like a pair of hands, gently grasping your person, making people want to cry."
He worked hard to cultivate her and create her, allowing Xu Meijing to sit from a newcomer to the position of the songwriter within two or three years.
He did his best for her, but he could not give her a marriage, and even a lasting love.
Let him give up his existing years of peace and well, undoubtedly subverting his life.
After all, there is only one Duke of Windsor who is legendary for the sake of beauty. Even Yang Guifei, who was once favored by three thousand, became a pawn discarded by Li Longji for self-protection in the Mawei Mutiny.
Chen Jiaming, of course, also loved Xu Meijing, but it was not enough for him to get married.
Because feelings are not his life, they are not his best choice. "Two evils are in power, and the lesser they are; two interests are in power, and the more they are in power." This is his realistic logic.
In him, she can gently wipe away all traces of love, but she is alone in the same place, secretly sighing, just as she sang in "The Expansion": "The world without you is desolate, and longing spreads quietly..."
She is too light, so light that it can be hidden in any noisy background; she is too thick, so thick that the cuckoo cries blood, and the heavy snow is overwhelming.
Someone said, "People who are too deeply involved in the play, or pure people, always make the bystanders sigh."
People who are too deeply involved in the play are completely unaware of the plot. The bystanders can only sigh through the gap of their feelings.
It is said that: "How many lovely things in life are there, and all the helpless people in the world."
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In 2000, Xu Meijing released her last album "Static Electrode", which was still produced by Chen Jiaming, but this album became her masterpiece.
It only has 7 short years of splendor.
At that time, Chen Jiaming's assistant, who was placed at the forefront, committed suicide because of his transfer to Xu Meijing's assistant. Afterwards, Xu Meijing, who was hurt by love, retired from the music industry and began to engage in public welfare. Two years later, she left Singapore for Taiwan, China. While in Taiwan, she met artist Yuan Yaofa .
that year, Yuan Yaofa made his debut and played the leading male role in his first idol series "Goodbye Firefly". He was called the "New Asian Love Song Prince" by mainstream media and was also teased as the successor of Jay Chou .
▲ Yuan Yaofa
She met him and thought it was the beginning of a new life, but unexpectedly, it was a recurrence of a nightmare.
In 2003, Yuan Yaofa accompanied her to Italy to relax. His compassion for the beauty and careful care made her frozen heart gradually revived.
A greedy woman has no intention of fame and fortune, but she cannot refuse to show kindness under the banner of love.
The new love affair has gradually healed her wounds from the past.
Soon after, she became pregnant and was ecstatic. When she happily told him the good news, he forced her to abort the child. Undoubtedly, the sudden visit of little life conflicts with the other party's plan to develop his career.
Later, Yuan Yaofa was hidden because he offended the company's upper class. After her career was sluggish, she took her anger on her. Since then, the two often make a big fuss about it. Her boyfriend, who was polite to her, fucked her.
She swam from this shore to the other shore. She had exhausted all her strength, but she still failed to reach a ferry for her to stay.
When her relationship with Yuan Yaofa reached its end, Chen Jiaming told her that she had divorced and hoped to renew her relationship with her again, and launched a fierce offensive against her again.
Because of her unforgettable love, she returned to Chen Jiaming.
" Yichan Little Monk " says, "If you like someone for too long, you will become obsession. In the end, you can't tell whether you like him or the halo that you put on with your infatuation."
She thought she had finally ended her hardships. But Chen Jiaming lies to her, and he did not divorce.
He put her in a state of embarrassment again. The child is gone, and both loves are hard to end.
This time the incident was like the last straw that overwhelmed the camel, completely overwhelmed Xu Meijing. She, who was already full of holes, has never been able to stand up again after experiencing this love scam.
In 2006, Xu Meijing was exposed to be in a six-star hotel in Singapore, following strangers into hotel rooms, kowtowed and shouting "Call Me God". The victim later called the police, and Xu Meijing was arrested by the police for suspected mental abnormality and stayed at the School of Psychology for observation. Soon, the doctor confirmed that he suffered from schizophrenia.
But her family did not take good care of her and immediately sent her to a mental hospital. As soon as the news came out, public opinion was in a big uproar.
The song that was once cold and quiet was actually crazy because of love.
How many fans who love her love are incredibly surprised and sigh: her songs have comforted many displaced and tragic people, but they are depressed here.
After that, she seemed to disappear into the vast sea of people.
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When her condition was temporarily stable and returned to the music scene, some media used "a return of soft, crisp and beautiful".
"When other female singers came out, they were the goddess descending to earth, only she came out, and old friends came to reminisce about the past. After ten years, it was not us who came to see her, but she traveled across the ocean to see us. Listening to her singing "Moonlight in the City", the night sky above her head was the moonlight in 2015, not from the late 1990s."
Later, when she participated in a program, she still didn't talk much. Before leaving the stage, she smiled and said, "Life is short, I wish you all."
She also served as a special guest and attended the "Shenzhenzi Sun K Bler World Tour Concert". In addition to loneliness and alienation, her singing also made her a little hoarse.
On May 18, 2019, Xu Meijing finally held a solo concert in Nanjing. Most of the fans who came were viewers who were obsessed with her singing when they were young. The past and thoughts they shared were the bridge connecting time. Therefore, as soon as the prelude to each song sounds, she evokes memories of an era.
But a few months later, she appeared on the streets of Singapore again. Because her family was competing for family property, she was forced to ask for help by singing.
The generation of queen has fallen to this point, which makes people sigh at the paradox and impermanence of human nature and destiny.
I remember the song "Interlaced Light" she sang in the movie "Late Night Cafeteria":
Please accompany me to the end of the rainbow. Forgot all the injuries must bloom for me. Even if the huge waves are in front of the darkness, please remember the interlaced light...
Although I have encountered too many ups and downs, when talking about my mental state back then, she said: "I am very satisfied with my current life.It is incredible to be able to emerge from a schizophrenia world. What kind of concept is that? Simply put, it means crazy! I don’t avoid this, that realm has given me some trouble and brought me deep thinking. I feel like I am reborn like ‘I’m back’. "
▲ Stills of the movie "Late Night Cafeteria"
The mental madness is nothing more than a soul tear. She escaped to that chaotic world, as a port to shelter. When she finally woke up, she could face up to all kinds of misfortunes in the world.
It has been more than ten years since she was diagnosed with schizophrenia. During the long time, she has been repairing her soul in seclusion.
"Life is like a journey against the back, and a reed sails with a reed. "If you don't rush to yourself, maybe any external rescue will be in vain.
The process of healing the soul may be like from the long night to the faintest, letting the sunlight slowly shine through the window frame, dispelling all the shadows until the sky is clear:
"The moonlight in the city illuminates the dream, please warm his heart
See through the gathering and dispersal of the world, can you have more happy clips..."
Someone once summarized the changes in the times we are in this way: "Running in the quicksand world, walking in the fast-dead world. The so-called gentle treatment is just to stay for a moment; the so-called compassion is just to let go of a smile and a frown. "
Quicksand is not strong and it is difficult to perish. I hope that the eternal one can be eternal beyond all collapse. Text/ Shepherd's wheat green
