"The soul that is like a night returning has lost its direction, and does not care about the eternity on the road of love is too short."
1997, a song by Xu Meijing , "All People Returning to Night" sings the voices of people who are confused about love in that era.
Everyone says that when people want to be comforted, they want to listen to Xu Meijing's songs.
But Xu Meijing herself has never been able to comfort her injured soul.
As time goes by, many people have forgotten Xu Meijing's name, but the song " Sunshine Always After the Storm and Rain" is still sung in the streets and alleys, and both the elderly and children can sing two climaxes.
Xu Meijing was born in Singapore in 1974. She is tall, has a good image and temperament, has a sensitive and independent personality, and always gives people the feeling of being cold and cold.
lyricist Xu Changde once said to her: "Xu Meijing is actually very good to people and is also very good to the people around her, but she is also very cautious about people. She keeps a distance from everyone's daily life and cannot touch her body."
"If you take a step forward, she will take a step back."
is such a woman who does not easily contact others, but because of her love, she ends up suffering from mental illness and wandering on the streets.
When he was eighteen years old, Xu Meijing had just grown up and was generous and exuded the beauty of a girl.
At the most beautiful age, Xu Meijing participated in the selection of Miss Singaporean Chinese, and won the titles of Miss Friendship and Miss Photos with her cold temperament.
Xu Meijing, who was recognized by her, has increased her confidence in her entire life and seems to be able to see her future brightly.
Xu Meijing also loved singing when she was a child. With confidence, in 1993, Xu Meijing signed up for the "Find Superstars" event hosted by a record company, and sang alone in the singing room.
She practiced over and over again, immersed in it, and lost herself, and did not notice a man behind her quietly appearing.
When she noticed it, the man was already standing behind her and looking at her quietly.
This person is the producer of the event organizer Chen Jiaming .
At that time, Xu Meijing, who was only 19 years old, didn't know that this man would achieve his career and ruin his life in disguise.
Chen Jiaming was deeply moved by Xu Meijing's clear and beautiful singing, and immediately decided to sign her into the company and began to make an album for her.
Based on her style and voice, Chen Jiaming tailored "Good and Beautiful Jing", which is Xu Meijing's own first Cantonese album.
It was already 1998 at that time, and it had been five years since Xu Meijing and Chen Jiaming.
fans and Chen Jiaming both found that Xu Meijing's voice had a soothing effect, so albums such as "All Returning to the Night" and "Repentance" were released one after another.
The song of the same name in the album "All Return to Night" and the "Sunlight Always After the Storm" which became popular all over the streets and alleys not only inspired many people in the low period, but also comforted many people who were entangled in love late at night.
At that time, Xu Meijing was only 22 years old. She was at a loss in the face of crazy pursuit of fans and the reputation of the media "another Faye Wong ".
And Chen Jiaming was behind her, telling her not to panic, it is what you deserve. I will make you a brighter star and I will give you a bright future.
Chen Jiaming's eyes when he looked at Xu Meijing, gentle and charming.
Xu Meijing developed an indescribable love for him, even though she knew that Chen Jiaming, who was nine years older than her, was already married.
But she thought she also saw love in Chen Jiaming's eyes, but she didn't know that Chen Jiaming just treated her as a carefully polished work and had never had real feelings.
At that time, many people actually wanted to cooperate with Xu Meijing, but Xu Meijing was unable to live without Chen Jiaming, and even she refused Lee Zongsheng .
In those years, Chen Jiaming wrote songs that belonged only to her style, and she also sang a unique feeling for each song.
Xu Meijing always exudes a kind of fragility and dependence that makes people love, and Chen Jiaming does like her more because of this.
And Xu Meijing, immersed in this kind of love and pity, her love for Chen Jiaming is becoming increasingly uncontrollable.
That's it, Xu Meijing and Chen Jiaming fell in love.
But Chen Jiaming has been unwilling to divorce under various excuses. Every time Xu Meijing questioned him, he said that he really couldn't find a reason to divorce.
The disappointed Xu Meijing gave up her job and went abroad to escape reality. But Chen Jiaming cheated her back with a sentence of "I have divorced."
full of hope and thought that he could finally be with his lover, what he got was still a lie after returning to China.
And Chen Jiaming called her back not only to need her singing, but also to her love for herself.
Because this love is the source of emotion when Xu Meijing sings deeply, and it is the reason why Xu Meijing will not leave.
This has been entangled for seven years. Chen Jiaming never divorced, but he has created many excellent album works for Xu Meijing.
It can be said that Chen Jia is indeed Xu Meijing’s benefactor in her artistic career. He discovered Xu Meijing, allowing her to gain high popularity and high praise at a young age.
However, Chen Jiaming and Xu Meijing's assistant started an underground relationship and was discovered by Xu Meijing.
, who suffered more than seven years of emotional consumption, but was eventually betrayed by the people around him, finally couldn't bear it anymore and went crazy to question and force his assistant. At this time, Chen Jiaming avoided talking, was unwilling to take responsibility or explain.
Xu Meijing's assistant finally couldn't bear this mental torture and chose to commit suicide.
Xu Meijing was also scared. Although she was hit hard and tried her best to question her, she just wanted an explanation and did not want to force her to death.
Looking at Chen Jiaming as if nothing happened, Xu Mei was as quiet as a pool of stagnant water.
She didn't have the courage to face him again, and wanted to escape from this kind of self-blame and painful torture.
2000, Xu Meijing temporarily retired from the music industry and went abroad alone.
In order to make up for her inner self-blame, she began to do charity and often went to the homes of widowed elderly people to take care of them and accompany them.
Sometimes, she would go to the orphanage to accompany the children, bring toys and clothes to the children, donate some funds, and also star in some awards ceremony.
Although she no longer sings, she used another way to bring comfort and hope to others.
But her own light has not been able to light up.
until she met Hong Kong singer Yuan Yaofa .
Yuan Yaofa is eight years younger than her, and he looks handsome and sunny. He has just debuted and exudes passion and strength, always bringing strength to Xu Meijing.
The past Xu Meijing was like him, confident and generous, and grew up selflessly in the world of music.
Xu Meijing saw love and the future in him.
Finally, Xu Meijing gradually emerged from the haze of the past and began to fall in love with Yuan Yaofa. This sister-brother relationship quickly spread to the media.
Xu Meijing also wanted to start singing, but Chen Jiaming was like a shackle. After leaving Chen Jiaming's creation, Xu Meijing could not speak up at all.
Her musical style has been firmly controlled by Chen Jiaming. Even if she leaves him, Xu Meijing will not be able to truly escape.
But she has always been committed to charity and helping her boyfriend's career develop. Even if Yuan Yaofa used her fame as a gimmick to promote herself many times, Xu Meijing did not blame her at all.
She just wants to be loved, even if she is used and deceived.
However, Yuan Yaofa's career not only did not improve, but was also hidden by the company.
Yuan Yaofa, who was at a low point in his career, began to abuse Xu Meijing and her attitude towards her became worse and worse.
This man obviously pulled her out of the abyss, but now he pushed her into another abyss.
But at this time Xu Meijing was helpless, she had no choice but to have only Yuan Yaofa.
Watching her boyfriend increasingly dislike him, his attitude towards him getting worse and worse, and even proposed to break up many times.
Xu Meijing has no way out, she wants to have a child for Yuan Yao.
She thought that this would win back Yuan Yaofa's heart, and she thought that Yuan Yaofa would not leave her in this way.
But when Xu Meijing became pregnant, Yuan Yaofa just hated her even more and even asked her to abort the child.
Xu Meijing was hit hard and gradually had the idea of suicide. She almost jumped off the building several times.
But Chen Jiaming appeared again, for the same reason.
"I'm divorced, come back, let's get back together." Chen Jiaming said to Xu Meijing on the phone.
When Xu Meijing heard the man's voice again, she couldn't control herself and was still moved.
So Xu Meijing returned to Chen Jiaming with her baby in her belly, but she didn't know that what was waiting for her would be new pain.
Chen Jiaming once again deceived her feelings.
What Chen Jiaming needs from beginning to end is probably not her, but her irreplaceable voice.
Finally, Xu Meijing was completely disappointed and began to have auditory hallucinations, and could not control her behavior.
She feels that she may be crazy and feels particularly tired whenever she is normal.
Due to long-term mental consumption, her health became worse day by day. In the end, the child was not saved and unfortunately miscarried.
This year, Xu Meijing was only 32 years old and was diagnosed with schizophrenia .
Due to the torture of mental illness, once she rushed to a stranger's room in the hotel without control and shouted. The guest was shocked and was so scared that he quickly called the police. This was the "hotel incident" that caused a lot of controversy back then.
After Xu Meijing went crazy, the people around her did not show kindness or help. After she became ill, her family directly sent her to a mental hospital and transferred all her assets.
The past thirty years of life are just chess pieces used by everyone around you to make use of and profit.
finally lost its value and was abandoned mercilessly like a pawn.
was diagnosed with mental illness just after he came back. The media's flash and the distance between the people around him made Xu Meijing increasingly tired and her mental state worse and worse.
She entered the mental hospital, watching the sunshine shine into the house and sprinkle on the ground every day, recalling the wonderful time this world brought to herself. She met Chen Jiaming the year she just debuted, and he brought to herself. And he really ruined his life.
Will the sun really appear after the storm? For Xu Meijing, everything has become a luxury.
Later, Xu Meijing, whose mental state is slightly more stable, tried to make a comeback. She stood on the stage and watched the stars flashing under the stage, but she still felt that all this was far away from her.
Her tone was hoarse, but the coldness of the past has not diminished at all. Her singing still touched people's hearts and healed the fans, but she could no longer get out of the abyss of a miserable life.
In 2020, someone photographed Xu Meijing, who was already 46 years old, actually sang on the street with a sign. She learned to start a live broadcast, but only a dozen people watched it.
The most beautiful era that belonged to her has long passed, and everyone will not care about the life of a "madman".
She puts in black and white words, saying that she wants to cut off relations with Chen Jiaming.
She was in a daze and confused behavior. Even so, she still couldn't forget Chen Jiaming's name. She said ruthless words of breaking up, but her eyes were full of heartbreak.
"Hotel Incident" Chen Jiaming did not stand up and said a word, but Xu Meijing still defended him: "Chen Jiaming is not a bad person. He is actually more brave than speaking out."
Chen Jiaming is still Singapore's "Little Leehom" and is a composer who everyone praises, a musical talent, and a low-key artist.
Xu Meijing's life has come to this point and can no longer look back. Even though she has so many songs that have been regarded as classics and have been covered by many singers later.
The first half of my life gave up on myself for love, and the pain I encountered will never be forgotten in my life. I hope Xu Meijing can spend the rest of her life smoothly and peacefully.
is just the little girl who was cold, sensitive, slow-tempered, kind and simple back then, and will never come back.
