1979, a baby girl was born in an ordinary house in Tianjin.
Her arrival brought vitality to the originally dull home, and even more hope for her father, who had been depressed and unsuccessful.
Unfortunately, these hopes from their father later brought endless glory to the girl, and also gave her a footnote to the tragedy for her life.
This girl, named Pang Xiuyu, entered Great Hall of the People at the age of 14 and received the award. However, she later chose to drop out of school and have children out of wedlock.
In the first 21 years of her life, she was sought after by others and ridiculed ignorantly.
And all this starts with her father.
Pang Yi is Pang Xiuyu's father. Before Pang Xiuyu was born, he was just an ordinary employee of a construction company. He loved calligraphy, but because of his introverted personality, he had no sense of existence in the unit.
He thought he would spend the doctor like this, but in 1979, his daughter's birth brought a new direction to his dark life.
He projected his dream onto his daughter in one fell swoop. He longs to justify himself by raising an excellent daughter.
When this crazy idea appears in his mind, he can't control it.
In childhood, there was never laughter and joy in Pang Xiuyu's memories. Some of them are just father’s sharp eyes, cold rulers, and piles of books.
Later in an interview, Pang Yi revealed that his family had as many as 12,000 books. In order to buy books, he had not bought a single piece of clothing for several years.
When she was young, Pang Xiuyu rarely had time to go out to play, but she did fall in love with books under the influence of her father.
book for her is not a burden, but a friend, and the best tool to get into dreams.
After Pang Xiuyu knew how to write, Pang Yi's requirements became even higher. By the third grade, Pang's father even asked her to complete a 2,000-word writing task every day.
So, in addition to going to school and completing the homework assigned by the teacher every day, Pang Xiuyu also has to read and write notes non-stop.
In the entire elementary school, Pang Xiuyu went to bed only a few times before 12 o'clock.
At that time, she felt that the warmest place was the toilet. Because when she was so sleepy that she could not bear it, she could only find a short sleep and a moment of peace in the bathroom.
is fine, "working" will pay off. Pang Xiuyu's writing skills are very high, and almost every article is model essay.
Since her father started to publish articles for her, in three years, the words she wrote have reached an astonishing 40,000 words!
Her articles are fresh and lively, and naturally have been loved and recognized by the public.
The most glorious moment in Pang Xiuyu's life was when she went to the Great Hall of the People to receive the award in 1993.
At that time, she also received a letter written by Ba Jin to her. In the letter, the great writer's appreciation for her was beyond words.
Since then, in the reports, the news media have all liked to add the prefix of "genius girl", as if only these words can show Pang Xiuyu's extraordinary strength.
The media's pursuit of Pang Xiuyu has almost reached a madness. The reporters and photographers who lined up for interviews every day lined up in the corridor.
Yes, Pang Xiuyu is famous!
Back then, the invitation letters from various universities made Pang Xiuyu's father receive the help.
Not only that, the publishing house also continued, and the once popular book "Hope" came out like this.
Pang Xiuyu became the "child of other people's family" mentioned by the whole country.
At the signing meeting, many students walked towards their idols with full expectations, and countless people regarded Pang Xiuyu as a beacon in their hearts.
However, this "beacon" that illuminates thousands of students, her life has never been illuminated.
At that time, while showing off his "excellent education" to everyone, Pang Xiuyu's fame also made benefits from various places.
Pang Xiuyu can only take turns to signing for sales meetings, school speeches, and reporter interviews every day. The long-term absenteeism has made Pang Xiuyu's academic performance plummet.
At that time, Pang Xiuyu's parents had a fierce quarrel. The mother believed that the child should be brought back to the right track and put learning first.
But Pang's father believed that he should make more money while he is famous now.
Lao She once said in "The Crescent Moon": "Money is better than humans. If a human is a beast, money is the courage of the beast."
It is obvious that Pang's father was blinded by money.
Seeing that Pang Xiuyu's grades were getting worse and worse, the quarrel between her parents became more and more intense.
During that time, Pang Xiuxu went home every day and faced his parents' cold faces. Pang Xiuyu is always worried.
No one knows what kind of torture this "genius girl" is experiencing in her heart.
When the popularity slowly faded, Pang Xiuyu's pride that grew up in the pursuit of the crowd was shattered by the poor academic performance.
In fact, since elementary school, Pang Xiuyu's grades in various subjects have been poor. Except for excellent composition, almost all the other subjects have been barely passed.
Before the first year of the high school entrance examination, the principal knew that she had no hope of going to school, so he talked to her once, hoping that she could reconcile the grade, and he would arrange the best teacher to help her tutor.
At that time, if Pang Xiuyu could seize this opportunity, her life might really create glory. But her parents divorced, and Pang Xiuyu no longer has the intention to study.
That day, it started to rain heavily in Tianjin. My mother was kicked out of the house after her father punched and kicked her.
Pang Xiuyu and her mother didn’t have a penny on them, and they didn’t know where to go in the heavy rain.
So she chose to take a break from school.
At that time, she was still full of confidence. She believed that by writing, she could live a prosperous and happy life in the future.
But, what life experience can a child who dropped out of school at the age of 15 have to support her creation?
Because he is too young and has no education, Pang Xiuyu has to choose to work as a waiter in the restaurant to support herself.
So, one step is wrong, one step is wrong.
After working in the restaurant for a few years, Pang Xiuyu met a man with the pseudonym Liu Desheng.
Liu Desheng is in his 40s. Every time he comes to have a meal, he would greet Pang Xiuyu enthusiastically, without the indifference and alienation of others.
After a while, the relationship between the two gradually became familiar. When they learned that Pang Xiuyu liked to read and write, Liu Desheng said that he would help her continue to study and support her writing.
The years of lack of fatherly love have made Pang Xiuyu immersed in the care from strange men. She is attached to Liu Desheng, just like her own father.
But Liu Desheng regarded her as his prey.
At that time, Pang Xiuyu had lost her childishness, and her face was young and beautiful, and she could always firmly grasp the gaze of strangers.
After a meal, Pang Xiuyu had sex with him because of drunkenness.
Pang Xiuyu panicked when she woke up, but Liu Desheng promised confidently, "I love you, I will marry you!"
Pang Xiuyu believed it true. Since then, Liu Desheng will give Pang Xiuyu 2,200 yuan a month to live and rent a good house for her.
Suddenly, Pang Xiuyu has money and love. She naively believes that she has met the true emperor and is immersed in her longing for happiness every day.
As a result, after she was pregnant with her first child, Liu Desheng knelt on the ground and cried, "I'm sorry, I'm married!"
Liu Desheng slapped himself in the face and cried, "My wife doesn't love me at all, she's strolling with other men outside. Only by being with you can I feel truly happy. Don't worry, I will divorce her and marry you!"
Just like that, Pang Xiuyu chose to continue this relationship in Liu Desheng's sweet words. Because she always thought that this man loved her.
And over there, Liu Desheng easily made her lose her first child.
Not long after, Pang Xiuyu was pregnant with another child, and she gave birth to a boy. 11 months later, Pang Xiuyu became pregnant again and gave birth to a pair of twin daughters.
It was from this time that all the hardships came to Pang Xiuyu, who was only 21 years old!
After the birth of the twin daughters, Liu Desheng never appeared again. He disappeared silently, and the original monthly living expenses of 2,200 yuan were gone.
In order to take care of three young children, Pang Xiuyu and her mother completely lost their source of life.
It was not until this time that Pang Xiuyu realized that love he had believed over the years to be true, but was just a complete lie.
In order to solve the livelihood problem, Pang Xiuyu chose to sue Liu Desheng, but the investigation result made Pang Xiuyu shocked.
When the judge announced Liu Desheng's property status, Pang Xiuyu realized that Liu Desheng, who has always lied to be an ordinary employee, actually had two companies with assets of up to tens of millions.
But, how can a little white rabbit like Pang Xiuyu beat a cunning big bad wolf like Liu Desheng?
He had long expected that the current situation would be, so when he disappeared, he did a big thing, that is, divorce his wife and leave the house with nothing. After the property was transferred, the final judgment was naturally helpless: Liu Desheng only paid 3 children's support per month, totaling 1,200 yuan!
1200 yuan, how can you afford 3 young children?
But Liu Desheng's ruthlessness was more than that. Five years later, he refused to pay even a 1,200 yuan in child support on the grounds of his health and work.
As a sudden rain , at this time, Pang Xiuyu's mother collapsed in a series of blows and her body completely collapsed.
Where should Pang Xiuyu go?
In 2005, when the reporter of Chongqing Morning Post received a letter of help from Pang Xiuyu, she could not believe that this idol she admired and fell in love with in junior high school now has a down-and-out life!
Yes, Pang Xiuyu, who was at the end of her life, decided to openly seek marriage.
When the reporter followed the address and walked through one dilapidated house after another, he finally found a simple house welded by iron next to a garbage dump full of garbage.
The room was very dark, and a heat mixed with a stinky smell came to my face.
There are two beds in the room, and an old man is lying on one bed. She breathes heavily and sighs from time to time.
On another bed were three children about 6 years old, one of whom was lying weakly, and the remaining two were playing beside the bed.
Pang Xiuyu said: "They haven't had a full meal for a long time. I decided to ask you for help when I was desperate!"
She had no requirements for the man, and she hoped to be older and willing to accept my three children and mother.
When the reporter asked, "Have you ever considered earning living expenses by writing?"
Pang Xiuyu thought for a long time and replied, "I hate to link writing with fame and fortune. It is not a tool for changing food. It is very sacred in my mind and should be able to exert a certain degree of social effect."
I don't know if Pang Xiuyu's statement is because he really thinks literature is sacred, or is he hiding his guilt in not daring to take a pen again.
No matter what, her light has long dissipated in the fragments of life.
The mud of life is still firmly wrapped around her. Whether she still has the courage to pick up the pen again in this life has become a strange unsolved case.
Someone asked: Who is the culprit who caused Pang Xiuyu to fall from a "genius" to a "hell"?
I think it is the education that lacks love.
The more a person lacks, the more he desires.
Just like Pang Xiuyu, what really ruined her was not her glorious experience, nor her childhood lacking love.
Children who lack love in their hearts are most likely to be deceived by sweet words, because they are extremely eager to get love and have no time to think about the traps behind them.
is like a moth. Knowing that fire will turn it into ashes, they still choose to drill into the sea of fire for that moment of light.
As Jin Weichun once said: The best education in the world is "nothing except love."
Only when a child who is full of love in his heart can he have the standards of distinguishing and judging when facing the kindness of strangers.
I hope you who are reading this article will always have love.
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Author: One piece of paper
Editor: Leftover grass
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