On March 29, 1978, an 81-year-old woman died in Fuyang County, Hangzhou City, Zhejiang Province.
At the time of her dying, she who had been eating fast and reciting the Buddha for many years was proud to say: "Recalling my life, I will ascend to heaven with peace of mind."
This 81-year-old man named Sun Quan, Speaking of her name, in China, of course no one knows, but if she talks about her husband, it is a household name, he is Yu Dafu.
Picture | Group photo of the members of the creation society, Yu Dafu sitting, Guo Moruo second from the left The life of silent death makes people feel infinitely embarrassed.
Sun Quan was born in 1897 in a prosperous family in Xiaojing Town, Fuyang County.
Her father, Sun Xiaozhen, studied hard for decades, but repeatedly entered the examination field, repeatedly defeated, and then abandoned Confucianism and went to business. First started the bamboo business, and then opened a paper mill. The business grew bigger and bigger, and it became more prosperous. In addition, the 100 acres of good paddy fields inherited from the ancestors. In the small Xiaojing town, the Sun family is far and near Well-known big family.
Sun Quan, who has rich family resources and outstanding talents, when he was in her boudoir, there were countless sons and daughters who asked someone to ask for a kiss, but none of these wealthy children could get into Sun Quan's eyes.
Although the spoiled daughter of the Sun family certainly has no worries about marrying, but after such a year-by-year delay, Mr. Sun can be anxious.
Just as Sun Quan was over 20 years old, and in that era, he was already among the older leftover daughters. A distant relative of the Sun family brought good news to Mr. Sun, saying that it was Yu Shixian, a deceased old Chinese doctor in Fuyang County. The third son of the family, Yu Wen (word Dafu), is studying abroad in Dongyang.
Picture | A half-length photo of Yu Dafu when he was studying at Tokyo Imperial University
I can inquire about the economic situation of this family. I heard that since the death of the old Chinese doctor,This family depends on the orphans and widows to do a small business to make ends meet. The old man can't help but make trouble. He feels that her daughter will definitely have to worry about her livelihood after marrying.
But when he heard that the other party was a scholar studying in Japan, Sun Quan believed that he was going to marry in this life is such a talented young talent who is academically motivated, so he directly expressed to his father that he was willing to marry Yu's family.
As soon as the matchmaker said that the woman agreed so readily, the Yu family were not at ease. They felt that such a wealthy family could appreciate their small family's grandson family. It's not that the woman has any physical defects. Or ugly.
With a lot of restless and doubtful mother Yu, she soon asked a matchmaker to invite Miss Sun Jia to visit the county. It is said that playing games is of course a guise, and Yu's mother has to meet the girl for her son in person to be relieved.
In this way, on an autumn afternoon, Sun Quan, in his twenties, came to Yu's home in Fuyang County, with his family in his twenties.
This Yujia is located on the banks of the beautiful Fuchun River, where the autumn sun is shining, gurgling water, Yangliu Xiaoqiao, the southern water town of the Yangtze River, Sun Quan, who has been reading poetry since childhood, suddenly fell in love with this poetic and artistic style. place.
What surprised Sun Quan was that the Yu family, who originally thought it was a small family, actually had a three-bedroom building.
The quaint and simple small building, reflecting the clear water in front of the building, crape myrtle , magnolia , acacia, begonia , hibiscus, flowers and trees of various colors sparse.
In the afternoon, the setting sun penetrates the wall and the courtyard, and the veins are scattered on the lush wood hibiscus , and the hibiscus flowers are blooming well.
This is the first time Sun Quan has come to Yu's house, but looking at the flowers and trees in the garden, the quaint small building, and the people with flowing water in front of the building, she feels that this is a place she has been to countless times, and she can't be more familiar with it.
For a moment, Sun Quan even felt that she was born here, and she blended with the plants, the tiles and the bridges here.
she suddenly thought,In the previous life, maybe she spent a long and happy life here, but in this life, she is back here again.
It turns out that this life and life has long been destined in the dark, and I will be the Yu family when he is born, and the ghost of the Yu family when he is dead.
Picture | The three Yu brothers, with Yu Dafu on the far left
It is especially rare that when Yu mother first met Sun Quan, who was generous and generous, she saw her pair of black and bright eyes, carefully The two jet-black plaits that he combed, as well as a healthy complexion, and a slightly plump body, were so happy that they were so happy from ear to ear.
From the perspective of a womanist, she is very satisfied with the future daughter-in-law of the grandson in front of her.
The approval of Yu's mother, Sun Quan's secret promise, and Yu Dafu's failure to pursue Japanese women in Japan at the time, all made this marriage unanimously recognized by both parents and the man and woman.
Soon, Yu's mother wrote to Yu Dafu, who is as far away as Japan, asking him to return to China as soon as possible.
In July of the next year, Yu Dafu, who returned from Japan, met Sun Quan for the first time, and she was disappointed by the dignified hometown woman described in her mother's home book.
In the eyes of Yu Dafu, who has returned from studying abroad, this is just an ordinary country girl with her feet wrapped in a rustic dress, and her appearance is dignified but gorgeous.
Sun Quan, who saw Yu Dafu for the first time, had a very good impression of him.
His clear figure, slightly disheveled lush hair, angular cheeks, piercing eyes, and the faint smell of tobacco from his body in front of Yu's small building, where the wind passes by, make her Enchanted and fascinated, she firmly believed that the man in front of her was the wishful man she was looking for in this life. She waited for more than twenty years, and finally waited for him.
Although not very satisfied, Yu Dafu did not have a beloved woman at the time. The country girl in front of him was spotted by her mother and got her consent. Therefore, he really couldn't find a reason to refuse, so he soon went home with his grandson. Quan completed the engagement ceremony.
After being engaged, Yu Dafu, from the beginning of July to the end of August of this year, had a few brief conversations with Sun Quan, as well as correspondence.
In the world of words, Yu Dafu quickly discovered this shameless woman in front of him,She was actually a talented woman.
In Yu Dafu’s diary, Sun Quan’s literary talent has been specifically mentioned many times, and he praised it:
"Chen Mo is here, hand in a secret letter, Sun Qiandi (Sun Quan's small characters Qiandi) handwriting is also , The text is clear and concise, and it has been able to overwhelm the old and old talents of the past!"
"The poems have great advances, and the rain in the night sky without a reason...The good sentences are also the poems that I want and the text (Yu Wen, word Dafu) Fight against it!"
In September of this year, after Yu Dafu went to Japan again, he often sang harmony with Sun Quan.
Across thousands of rivers and mountains, in the world of words, the poetry of Sun Quan, who is soaked in lovesickness, is lingering, deeply affectionate, and full of literary works, which makes Yu Dafu who is far away in Japan praised.
Autumn boudoir (choose two)
The bead curtains are moved by the wind at night, and the grass grows pitifully before the stage.
Orchid does not share the fame of the crowd, and knows my deepest love.
A century-old life experience, yellow flowers and thin double autumn under the lamp.
The geese cross the pond and the book never falls.
Most women adore men, but because of their talents and appearance; men admire women, but only appearance.
You are not enchanting and charming, you can learn only if you have a body. Men only have a long-term view of you, not a playful heart, so there is no way to talk about love between men and women.
Yu Dafu is no exception.
Since his engagement in his twenties, Yu Dafu dragged on for three years, until Sun Quan was 24 years old. Under the strong urging of the Yu and Sun parents countless times,He finally had no choice but to return home in a hurry to get married in 1920.
During the wedding preparations, Yu Dafu once again made excessive demands:
Everything is saved, worship and other things are not implemented, and the sedan chair drummer is not used.
In this way, at dusk on July 26, Sun Quan, the newlywed mother, was carried into the Yujia Xiaolou in the deserted sedan chair sitting on the big red sedan chair.
The most distressing thing is that in this hot July, Sun Quan at the time was still suffering from malaria , so the shyness and happiness of the wedding night in the bridal chamber are of course impossible to talk about.
Yu Dafu, who got married in a hurry, will soon return to Japan.
Figure | Only one photo of Yu Dafu and Sun Quan was found
On parting, Sun Quan put the precious diamond ring brought from her natal family on the ring finger of the newlywed husband with infinite affection .
But after returning to Japan, in order to redeem a prostitute named Longzi, Yu Dafu quickly pawned the ring.
In his hometown of Fuyang, guarding the small building of Yu's family, accompanied by the long running water in front of the building, Sun Quan struggled for two years, and finally waited for Yu Dafu to graduate from Japan's Tokyo Imperial University .
After returning to China, Yu Dafu began to teach in major universities in China. Sun Quan accompanied him from Anqing, Beijing, Wuhan, and Guangzhou all the way to home.
During six years of wandering, Sun Quan gave birth to two children and two daughters for Yu Dafu.
Except for the unfortunate death of the eldest son, all three children were raised by Sun Quan.
For countless days and nights, Sun Quan, a rich lady who has been used to clothes to stretch out her hand to open her mouth, has done everything by herself, and has gone through countless hardships in life.
As a husband, Yu Dafu, even though he is tired of livelihoods like his wife, still has his bad habits. Whenever he has free time, he will look for flowers and ask Liu everywhere.
in Anqing,He fell in love with the prostitute Haitang; in Peking, he dated with the prostitute Yindi.
In Hangzhou, he and Wang Yingxia fell in love with each other, until they abandoned his wife and children, married her, and Sun Quan finally chose to sever his grace.
She had also forced her to die, but he insisted on going his own way.
Even if she is determined to die, he will stay with the young girl who is 12 years younger than him.
She asked her mother-in-law to call the shots for her. The mother-in-law, who knew she was powerless, finally sighed and hated her son who was determined to abandon his wife and son. Everything depends on your temperament."
Figure | Yu Dafu and Wang Yingxia
After paying a thousand loves, I changed to a thousand hatreds.
At that moment, Sun Quan's heart was like a knife twisted, and there were thousands of resentments, like a mountain like the sky, and she had no way out of life and death.
Since then, he and Wang Yingxia, the first beauty in Hangzhou, who is 12 years younger than him, have lived a married life that everyone envied.
In order to take into account the reputation of the Yu family, she took three children and suffered huge internal pains. In the small building of the Yu family, she lived in the gray of a widow who teaches her children, eats fast and chants, and does not care about world affairs. Life.
Doing housework during the day and teaching her son to read poems at night. After the child is asleep, she gently recites the scriptures she has read countless times over and over again.
Day after day, year after year, she looks calm as usual, and her face is neither sad nor happy.
In countless nights of autumn and winter when she dreamed back at midnight, no one knew how deep her pain and loneliness resentment was.
The tears that flowed down the pillow, and the Fuchun River outside the window, flowed endlessly day and night.
Married Wang Yingxia in 1928 until 1940. In the twelve years, rifts between the husband and wife gradually grew until they turned against each other. Yu Dafu finally divorced Wang Yingxia.
When their husband and wife had many quarrels, Yu Dafu also returned to Fuyang for a short stay.
Yu Dafu at that time,Loved and hated, and finally tired, he wanted to return to the warm embrace of his original wife.
He thought she would be the same as before, and forgive him unconditionally again.
But, this time, he was completely wrong.
Twelve years of suffering, and twelve years of tears, flow from spring to summer, and from autumn to winter. Sun Quan, who has adapted to the companionship of the ancient Buddha of the blue lantern, has also penetrated the truth of the love between men and women in this world. I was completely awake.
In twelve years, her inner world has been turned upside down.
However, he was once her husband, the father of her three children, and the son of their Yu family.
Sun Quan, who had already shed his tears, still calmly opened the door and accepted him.
It is still the little black-colored building back then, with flowers and trees in front of the building, small bridges and flowing water, still gurgling, just as it was then, but looking at the full-fledged children in front of her, she knows that she is no longer her, neither is he He, they will never go back to the past.
She personally made Fuchunjiang white fish for him, made distilled steamed buns, Xindeng sesame cakes, and made tofu skins from Dongwu Mountain. They were all his favorite hometown delicacies before.
After dinner, in the eyes of his boundless expectation of guilt and affection, she gently got up, walked outside her bedroom, and resolutely posted a note on the door: "The bedroom is heavy, no one can enter".
He looked up at her with a slight embarrassment, then lowered his head silently, and finally turned around and went to the study infinitely lonely.
Yu Dafu later stayed in Fuyang County for a month. Sun Quan served him three meals a day, and he taught the children to write and read.
In this month, she has always treated him like a neighbor, like a friend, like a relative, but she does not treat him as her husband.
Because of the bondage of children, there is still the old love between them, but the love between men and women is gone.
With great disappointment, Yu Dafu finally chose to leave his hometown a month later.
He is going to travel again, so she takes the children and goes to the station to see him off.
She doesn’t ask him where he is going,He just lowered his head and said indifferently, if you come back, you can do it at any time, no matter when, this is your home.
At that time, Sun Quan and Yu Dafu would never know that this difference, for them, was Yong Jue. Since then, they have never seen each other again.
After Yu Dafu left, the situation of the War of Resistance against Japan became more and more serious. In order to prefer to die rather than be a survivor under the iron hoof of the Japanese army, Sun Quan finally chose to take the children to take refuge at the country's grandmother's house 30 miles away from the city.
In the era of war and chaos, in order to feed the children, Sun Quan, who was once a daughter of a big family, cultivated and weaving at night, and did not have a school to go to school. She personally taught the children Tang poetry, poetry and ancient literature.
On the other hand, Sun Quan, who has almost lived a life of isolation, didn't know that since the outbreak of the Pacific War , Yu Dafu went to faraway Singapore and became the local overseas Chinese anti-Japanese leader.
In Singapore, Yu Dafu, who is 45 years old, met He Liyou, a local woman who is 25 years younger than him and only 20 years old.
This woman does not speak Chinese, and her appearance is mediocre, but her personality is gentle and smooth.
When I first saw him, Yu Dafu suddenly remembered that he was in his twenties, gentle, gentle, dignified, and generous more than 20 years ago, on the banks of the Fuchun River in his distant hometown, in front of the terrace of the Yu family. Sun Quan.
He only feels warmth in his heart.
After Yu Dafu married her, he changed her name to He Liyou, meaning why Lizhiyou.
This woman later had a son and a daughter for Yu Dafu.
After the fall of Singapore, Yu Dafu moved to the central and western regions of Sumatra, Indonesia, under the alias Zhao Lian, and opened a "Zhao Yuji" winery.
Because he is proficient in Japanese and uses a winery as a secret base, he secretly rescued and protected a large number of exiled friends in cultural circles, patriotic overseas Chinese and local residents.
On August 29, 1945, Yu Dafu was secretly killed by the Japanese army in the jungle of on the island of Sumatra because of a traitor informant.
and now,In the remote hometown, after the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, Sun Quan, who had already returned to the Yujia Xiaolou, quietly cleaned up the study that he lived in for a month more than ten years ago, and quietly waited for his return.
It wasn't until five years later that Sun Quan accidentally read an article "Yu Dafu's Exile and Disappearance", that she knew that her husband, who was looking forward to returning day and night, had been killed by the Japanese in the tropical jungles of Sumatra and had not been seen. No one can see the dead body.
At that moment, she burst into tears.
For so many years, she has turned her grudges towards him from the initial grievances, to the strangeness of the strangers, and then to the relatives. In the end, he left her endless remembrance and remembrance with death.
She hung a picture of Yu Dafu when she was young in the main room of the Yu's Xiaolou. Yu Dafu in the photo is handsome and full of energy. On both sides of the photo, there are couplets written by him during his lifetime:
Yes, the outlook of Yujialou is picturesque. How much she thought, in the drizzle south of the Yangtze River, on the banks of the Fuchun River, accompanied by spring flowers, autumn moon, summer rain and winter snow, singing poems and lyrics with him, staying together, staying together, and living together.
But, in the end, she and him, in the end, are Lan Yinxu fruit, eight years of marriage, and love at one time.
Eight years later, she used her weak shoulders to help her mother-in-law and caress her baby. Even after Wang Yingxia and Zhong Xiandao remarried, her and Yu Dafu's two children were sent to Yu's house, and Sun Quan raised them as if they were his own.
Since that day, Yu Dafu and Fuyang said goodbye. Since then, she has spent countless long nights in loneliness and vague waiting.
In the end, it was a certificate issued to her by the Central People's Government of the People's Republic of China in 1952, ratifying Yu Dafu as a revolutionary martyr.
This certificate proves that she is the only legal wife of Yu Dafu, whether it is Wang Yingxia, who married him and divorced and soon married, or He Liyou, who she has never met, They were both dewy couples with him, so they were innumerable.
Only her, who has been in the Yu family for 30 years, has been short-lived by the world’s gossip,Finally waited for the highest recognition from the official.
Keeping this paper martyrs certificate, she lived for another 26 years, raising all her children to become talents.
The eldest daughter of the People's Teacher, Yu Liming, later won the honorary titles of "Advanced Worker" and "March 8th Red Banner Bearer" many times, and was elected as a member of the Fifth and Sixth CPPCC of Hunan Province.
In 1978, another spring came as promised. Sun Quan, who was already 81 years old, quietly finished her long and humiliated life.
In this life, her husband is half-hearted, and she will die from one heart; her husband wanders everywhere, and the world is home. She stays at her husband's house and caress for her children.
In this life, her body is upright, her feelings are strong, her behavior is clean, she is worthy of the sky, she is worthy of the earth, and she is worthy of the elderly in Gaotang, full of children and grandchildren, she only feels sorry for herself.
If she didn't insist on finding a talented person to match, but chose a wealthy child or an ordinary man as her husband, it might not be impossible to be her safe and secure wife and be prosperous all her life.
Seriously, every time you slaughter the dog generation, most of you are scholars.
I hope that in the next life, she will be able, and she will be one-hearted in the end, and the white head will remain inseparable.
text | Wu Meng Hall Master
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