Talking about Zhang Ailing, in addition to her literary attainments, her outstanding life experience is always a topic that cannot be avoided.
Her grandfather Zhang Peilun, Li Hongzhang’s son-in-law, is also a famous minister;
Her aunt Zhang Maoyuan, also a strange woman, only a few English words in order to get rid of the feudal family Dare to travel across the oceans to study, invest in stocks, and be a translator after returning to China. In terms of emotions, the two aunts and nephews share the same idiot. Zhang Ailing is in the dust for Hu Lancheng, and she is for Li Kaidi For half a century, he buried love deeply in my heart, and even took care of his seriously ill rivals, and finally married a proud man at the age of 78.
And his stepmother, Sun Yongfan, is the daughter of Sun Baoqi, Prime Minister of the Beiyang Government.
Zhang Ailing and Zhang Maoyuan▼
Only her mother, Huang Yifan, has very little ink in the world, but in fact, she is the key figure that made Zhang Ailing become Zhang Ailing; at the same time , Her greatest achievement in this life is not to give birth to Zhang Ailing, but to become herself.
She leaned on a pair of three-inch golden lotus to travel far to Europe, skiing in the Alps, playing cards with Hu Shi, learning painting with Xu Beihong, working as secretary for President Nehru’s sister, and divorcing her husband bravely... Among the legendary women of the Republic of China, She has a strong and colorful stroke of her own, and she does not need to rely on Zhang Ailing to be remembered by the world.
01
Born from a famous family, antagonistic dark life
Everyone knows that Zhang Ailing’s father is from a prominent family, but when she was paying attention to the right family, her mother Huang Yifan came from It's not bad.
Huang Yifan was originally named Huang Suqiong. His grandfather Huang Yisheng was the admiral of the seven navy provinces of the Yangtze River. He was heavily relied on as Li Hongzhang’s deputy and was awarded the baronial title; his father Huang Zongyan inherited the title and served as the salt road in Guangxi. However, he served less than a year later. Dying with a miasma.
Fortunately, before Huang Zongyan took office, he married a concubine at home. After Huang Zongyan's death, in 1893, his concubine gave birth to a pair of twins. The baby girl was Zhang Ailing's mother Huang Suqiong, and the boy was Zhang Ailing's uncle Huang Dingzhu. (It is also said that Huang Dingzhu is a child bought by the servants of the family for the sake of Huang's family.)
The left one is Huang Yifan▼
Because he is a posthumous child, he is still a concubine When she was born, Huang Suqiong had an unhappy childhood. She was so cold-spoken and used to intrigue. Therefore, the girl with her feet wrapped around her feet was a rebellious and rebellious one.
When she was 22 years old, she married Zhang Tingzhong, which is a perfect match. On the occasion of the wedding, the couple and a pair of children also had a happy time.
However, the good times did not last long. was originally not two people on the same road, so they could only drift away .
Although Huang Suqiong didn't have much dowry at the beginning, she and her younger brother Huang Dingzhu shared most of the family's wealth. She got countless valuable antiques, and her younger brother got real estate and real estate.
Only if you have money, you can have the confidence to live the life you yearn for. In Huang Suqiong's bones, he hates the old style of life and yearns for modern civilization. She burned her Aisi's head and played cards with Hu Shi. A robe and red kodan set off the strong Greek style. Hu Shi still missed it many years later.
Zhang Ailing once wrote: “ One of my first memories is that my mother stood in front of the mirror and put an emerald brooch on the short green jacket. I looked up at the side and looked up at it. I was so envious that I couldn’t wait. Grow up .”
And Zhang Tingzhong has the side of old-style talents, and also has the bad habit of the eight-headed brothers. He is good at drinking, watching dramas, going to the kiln and smoking opium.
She wants to "flee".
Zhang Tingzhong▼
02
Leaving Europe, like a fish in water
The opportunity is here.
My sister-in-law Zhang Maoyuan is going to study in the UK, and Huang Suqiong leaves together in the name of guardianship. It was fleeing and rebirth. She didn't want her youth to be soaked in this deep moss house, she wanted to flap her wings and see the outside world.
That year, Huang Suqiong was 31 years old and left a pair of children: three-year-old Zhang Zijing and four-year-old Zhang Ailing. That year, she changed her name to Huang Yifan.
Zhang Ailing and her younger brother ▼
This new-style woman with little feet finally stood in the center of her stage.
She has a high nose and deep eyes, a petite figure and a graceful appearance. She is the focus of the dance.
She went skiing in the Alps with Zhang Maoyuan, and the wind whizzed past her ears, and the girl with big feet couldn't slip past the girl with small feet.
She wanted to learn painting, so she lived upstairs with Xu Beihong, Jiang Biwei, and Chang Shuhong. With weak lungs, she learned to sing, which sounds more like poems...
黄逸凡, in London in 1926▼
And what about Zhang Tingzhong in China? With his two children alone, he sang songs and recruited prostitutes every night, indulged in opium smoke, unable to extricate himself, and later lost his official position.
When life was in a mess, he began to miss his wife, so he sent her a photo with a seven-character quatrain: Only listen to the sound of the Lumen Jinjiaming, and then heard the sound of the drum. The scholar is embarrassed to embrace the book city, and the two characters are safe to report and Qing.
Maybe it was the poem that touched her, maybe the occasional maternal love awakened her, maybe it happened to be going back, Huang Yifan, who had been away for four years, returned home.
03
Free women, failed mothers
From four to eight years old, Huang Yifan was absent when a child needed his mother the most. Her return made Zhang Ailing Both happy and timid.
They moved to a garden house, raised a dog, planted flowers and plants, and put a fairy tale book that children love to read. They are friends with trendy ideas and avant-garde styles at home.
She hopes that her children can also get rid of the shackles of the old-fashioned family and move towards a new and open Western civilization. She asked Zhang Ailing to learn piano, wear western clothes, learn Western etiquette and culture, and send her to school to learn English, with the intention of raising her into another self in this ancient family.
At that time, it should be a rare pure and complete happy time in Zhang Ailing's life. It is impossible to imagine that a woman who was so acrid and alienated later could roll happily on the wolfskin mattress.
Huang Yifan at that time was the goddess in her heart. And this happiness is only two short years.
The barriers and cracks between the parents have not healed and disappeared, but have become ill. Zhang Tingzhong continued to opiate and even started to inject morphine. The quarrel continued, and the things that threw things filled the tip of the ears, and the marriage finally came to an end.
Huang Yifan, who was completely free, rushed out of the country again and never looked back.
The brothers and sisters who just tasted a little sweetness were left behind by their mother again.
When Zhang Ailing was fifteen years old, her father continued to marry Sun Yongfan. The stepmother is a powerful character. Under her instigation, Zhang Ailing's father-daughter relationship is getting more and more distant.
04
The growing family relationship, the broken relationship
At the age of 16, Zhang Ailing graduated from middle school and Huang Yifan returned to Shanghai.
After returning to China, Huang Yifan lived in the most prosperous Huaihai Road. Zhang Ailing inevitably went a few more times, which made her stepmother dissatisfied. During the dispute, her father imprisoned her. After half a year, Zhang Ailing could not bear the abuse of her father and stepmother and fled home to find her mother. The mother took her in, but who knew that "mother's home will soon cease to be soft."
Sixteen-year-old Zhang Ailing is a favorite of heaven in school, but when she gets to her mother, she is so dumb that she has to learn everything again. "I get free development in school.My self-confidence became stronger and stronger until I was sixteen. My mother came back from France and studied her daughter who had been away for many years to study ' I regret taking care of your typhoid fever ', she told me, 'I would rather you die than watch you live and make yourself suffer everywhere . '”
Huang Yifan hired a tutor for her daughter at a salary of $5 per hour. She also taught her to practice walking posture, look at people’s glances, look in the mirror to study facial expressions... She wanted to put Zhang Ailing into a lady’s sleeve. , But ultimately failed.
And Huang Yifan did not have a job of his own, and only depended on his own ancestors to survive. After the war broke out, prices in Shanghai soared and Huang Yifan’s life became increasingly stretched. But Zhang Ailing had to go to school every month. Mother asks for money, Huang Yifan’s temper is getting more and more irritable.
And Zhang Ailing, who grew up in love, is also a strong and sensitive person. In order to save money on the tram, she would rather go a long way to make up classes. When her mother was dating a man and she had to vacate her bedroom to stay on the roof, she even thought about jumping off the building and slap her on the ground.
Once, Zhang Ailing was suffering from typhoid fever and Huang Yifan had already dated her boyfriend before. When I came home, I wanted to cancel the appointment but couldn't answer the phone. I was anxious to my seriously ill daughter: " You will hurt others if you are alive. I am afraid of you now, I am really afraid of you...Like you You should let you fend for yourself. ”
Under internal and external difficulties, the relationship between mother and daughter gradually took shape, until finally it turned into an out-and-out tragedy. After
, Zhang Ailing later considered Entered the University of Hong Kong. She worked hard to study and make money, because she would never forget the embarrassment of asking her mother for money.
She wrote about her experience at the University of Hong Kong in "Little Reunion".
The living expenses she gave Rarely, Jiuli can’t go home on vacation in order to save travel expenses. She stays in the dormitory of the school-she is the only student who does this.
But Rui Qiu, who came to visit, lives in Hong Kong for many days. I spent the whole day at the Repulse Bay Hotel, hanging out with my friends. I said that I came to visit my daughter, but I was actually crossing the border to marry my lover.
Finally took my daughter to the beach, but after seeing the handsome British officer Quickly send Jiuli away.
Jiuli’s grades are really good, and life is too embarrassing. Teacher Anchuss gave Jiuli 800 Hong Kong dollars as a private scholarship out of appreciation. Jiuli was very happy. This is a bright spot in her bleak career as a girl, and it almost has the meaning of a "survival permit".
She is happy in her heart, but pretends to carelessly give the money to Rui Qiu. You can imagine the line in her heart: Mom, look. , I am also useful?
But, the next day, she heard that Ruiqiu lost money at the table, no more than 800 yuan.
That lost together , There is still a lot of mother-daughter love that has accumulated.
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Silent but passed away, not seen in this life
In 1936, Huang Yifan returned home from Egypt and Southeast Asia and bought one in Malaysia The iron box is green snake skin, ready to do leather shoes business with her boyfriend. Since then, she has collected Malaysian crocodile skins, processed and manufactured handbags and belts for sale.
But in 1941, her foreign boyfriend died in gunfire, so she went again I went to India and taught to President Nehru’s sister secretary, and then taught at the Overseas Chinese School in Malaysia for half a year.
This experience, although she herself described as "exciting", it also precipitated her half of her life. The tone of solitude.
In his later years, Huang Yifan settled in London, Zhang Ailing and Lai Ya married in the United States, and the mother and daughter have never met again in this life, only the very few Hongyan Biography.
Zhang Ailing (left) Huang Yifan (Right) ▼
In August 1957, Huang Yifan became seriously ill. She wrote to Zhang Ailing, hoping to see her daughter for the last time, but Zhang Ailing could not even afford a ticket to London, so she could only send it Give mother 100 dollars. 0 4a7d#
At the end of the year, Huang Yifan passed away, and she sent all the remaining large boxes of antiques to Zhang Ailing. According to Lai Ya’s diary, Zhang Ailing heard the news of Huang Yifan’s death and suffered a serious illness. Two months later, she had the courage to sort out a large box of antiques left by her mother.
A mother and daughter in this life, no matter whether they love or hate, they did not have a photo. Only when Huang Yifan died, he still kept a picture of Zhang Ailing. Such a simple Zhang Ailing is not familiar to us.
And Zhang Ailing loves to paint. She paints her mother's appearance: "Slim, pointed face, pencil-drawn eyebrows, eyes like the sun on the horizon, and the light is the eyelashes."
1937年张爱玲's graduation photo▼
Zhang Ailing in her later years lived alone and rarely interacted with people.
When Mr. Wu from the Los Angeles Chinese Literature Association went to visit her, he only listened to her whispering there.
He couldn't help but ask: "Do you need help?" Zhang Ailing turned her head back: "I'm sorry! I'm sorry to be waiting for you! Please understand, I am talking to my mother. 来日, I will definitely go to her to apologize, ask her to leave a gap for me! ”
The famous Hong Kong host Liang Jizhang once said: There is only one fate for family members, no matter we are in the next life Love or not, never meet again.
On September 8, 1995, Zhang Ailing passed away. Did she forgive her mother? We don't know.
But we are convinced that the crack in the door has been reserved for her......
