Women are emotional animals. It is undoubtedly a kind of torture to let a woman face a man who loves herself and is indifferent to herself. But as a woman in Fengyue, impersonality or ruthlessness is the best shield.
Taiwanese writer Bai Xianyong’s short story "The Last Night of the Golden Class", based on the experience of a top dancer who has been in Fengyue place for more than 20 years, tells the inside story of their unknown life and reveals their love life. Confusion and bitterness.
Bai Xianyong is the son of an outstanding military general Bai Chongxi and a famous novelist. His novels describe the world of women and the psychology of women can be described as meticulous and intricate. Especially for women in a special environment, he was able to reveal their living state and psychological state to the fullest.
"The Last Night of the Golden Class" reveals the helplessness and bitterness of the dancers in the emotional life of the group from three perspectives: one is that true love is a poison and only hurts oneself; the other is that immobility is the best shield; Feelings are luxury goods, which can only be cherished in the heart; fourth is to feel guilty for the bad things did.
True love is poison, it will only hurt yourself.
Jin Taipan has been in Fengyue place for more than 20 years. The next day, she will marry an old and bald little boss as the wife of the boss. She married because she was old and her youth meal was about to be exhausted. She doesn't talk about feelings when she marries, only asks the other party to have money to support her, and she can play with each other. For those who do their business, she knows too much about how extravagant feelings are.
However, not all women in Fengyue places understand this. In the
novel, Jin Daban himself had an all-out emotional experience in his early years, and in the end he could only end up hurting himself.
When she was still young, she was pregnant for a little boy Yueru, and mom and elder brother asked her to have a baby. She was crying, and she said that she would have a child for her beloved. To get rid of the piece of meat in her belly, unless first strangled her to death with a rope. Mom gave her a handful of medicine and beat the male fetus down. She has found her short sight many times but never died.
Later, since Yueru, the high-ranking official Laozi, sent a few guards to abduct Yueru from their little nest, she knew that she would never want to see his little lover again in this life. . This experience of
completely awakened her, and she devotes real affection to those young Master Kuo who came to Fengyue place, and in the end hurt only herself. To this end, she also used this concept to educate her new sisters. However, feelings are more than just preaching.
Zhu Feng, a popular dancer under her guidance, is repeating her mistakes.
Zhu Feng is very excited about a Hong Kong overseas Chinese studying at Taiwan University. Jin Daban warned her time and time again: Kuo Da Shao runs the dance hall, it's a ticket. If you get serious, it is the dancers who suffer. But Zhu Feng was still pregnant with this person's child. And this person left only a word to comfort her and went back to Hong Kong. Daban Jin wants to take her to knock the child out. Zhu Feng was the same as she was back then, with a fierce look in her eyes, and she firmly covered her stomach. She knew that Zhu Feng was not saved.
Impassionate or ruthless is the best shield
Compared with Zhu Feng, Jin Daban is very optimistic about a Xiaohongmei named Xiaoruyi. Zhou Furui, the chairman of Dahua Textile Factory, came to praise her. Xiao Hongmei's amorous feelings, let alone a man catching fire when he sees it, even a woman has to be distracted. But she is the first class troublesome spoiled woman, with a black heart, and her hands. After playing for these years, she has never seen her planted in a somersault. Zhou Furui posted a dozen or two hundred thousand on her body, and she didn't even try her show.
Jin Taipan believes that this is the material for top dancers.
Feelings are luxury items that can only be cherished in the heart. Although the early contacts between
and Yueru hurt Jin Daban, she has always cherished the true feelings that she once had.
She will never forget that Wan Yueru went to Paramount for the first time, and when she was dancing with her, she didn't even lift her head ashamed, and her face was blushing. She took him home that night. When she realized that he was still a boy, she put his head tightly in her arms, and two lines of tears burst into her arms. At that time, her heart was filled with gratitude and compassion, and she got the virginity of such a shy man. For a moment, she felt that she was notThe humiliation and blasphemy suffered by the man in her body flowed away with her tears.
And, even now, when she is about to leave Fengyue place to marry a "coffin board", there is still a pure love affair with her. But she no longer treats this relationship with an innocent attitude, she knows what she needs. Z2z
is called Qin Xiong. He said that he likes women older than him. He died since he was a child and wandered on the sea for a lifetime without pain. To be honest, he treated her more respectfully than his mother. Even if he went to any corner of the world, he always sent something back to her, and a letter a week, he was a crazy man.
Once, he came back, drank some wine, hugged her and cried bitterly. For what? It turned out that he was lonely in Japan for a while, and went to sleep with a Japanese wife. He felt sorry for her and felt sad.
He said he had saved 70,000 yuan, and after waiting another five years, he would come back to Taipei to buy a house and beg her to be his wife.
But this time she married "Coffin Board", and Qin Xiong didn't even write a letter.
Forty-year-old women can't wait. Forty-year-old women don’t have the time to fall in love. Forty-year-old women don’t even need real men.
feels guilty about the cold and bad things he has done
As a person in the windy field, Kim Daban knows that he has done bad things. I don't know how many people were killed, how many people scattered because of her wife, and their families were destroyed.
In her early years, she had a good sister named Wu Xikui. Wu Xikui got out early, and married a businessman in silence. She was still wondering. When she came to Taipei, she went to see Wu Xikui. Unexpectedly, Wu Xikui changed his face and became a great Buddha. There is a big Buddha hall in Wu Xikui's home, which houses two emerald arhats. His family members said that she eats vegetarian scriptures all the year round and would not even go out for a half-step Buddhist hall. Wu Xikui saw her and sighed: Hey, Ali, Nong is still making trouble in that kind of place. She couldn't help but feel a chill.
Conclusion: "The Last Night of the Golden Class" shows us the life of a female group that everyone knows but does not understand. Most of the women in this group are people with misfortunes of various origins, but when they get here, they come into contact with the world of drunken flowers. Wealth, money, luxury goods, gorgeous clothes and elegant appearance, and these do not really belong to them. Behind these sensual luxury is the emotional life of a normal woman that they cannot have. The most taboo thing for a woman is to exist as a woman, which is the greatest misfortune. The picture of
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