I feel very angry when I think about it. It’s all the fault of this old man’s virus. Why is it so hateful and hateful? I hate his teeth so much now that they are itchy. I used to be able to sleep with my husband all night long. It smelled so good when I slept in his arms! Thinking about it, I could do it every night before, because I could kiss my husband, touch my husband, and hug my husband in my arms, but now I have to end up with a man who is also a loner. I am also a resentful woman. I can only look at each other from a distance every day, but cannot get close to each other's body. Only those who have been there will know how uncomfortable this feeling is! From the moment my husband comes home, until he goes to bed at night, one of them lives upstairs and the other lives downstairs. It’s like living in two separate places. It’s uncomfortable and boring!
Not only am I bored, but my husband also looks helpless and hopeless. Especially when he comes home at night and takes a shower and wants to hug me into his arms, but thinking about the virus all over his body, he has no choice but to endure it, so he can only restrain himself! Sometimes when two people meet in the corridor, they just look at each other affectionately for a few times. The helpless look in their eyes is indescribable!
I went upstairs to take a shower again tonight. My husband was washing his feet at the door of the bathroom. When he met me, he said: It’s all because of the most stubborn virus that destroyed our relationship. I also want to hold you to sleep every night and love you well, but my conditions don’t allow it and my body doesn’t allow it. That would not be loving you, but harming you! I can't harm you!
It turns out that a man can be so affectionate! I love too shallowly!