I have read Fang Wenjun's story and it has also brought back many memories. The world is rolling, and my life has actually started a new journey since I left Shanghai and my father passed away.

Original illustration: Meow Meow Xia, narrated by: Ziqiu, female

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Hello everyone, I am Ziqiu. I have read Fang Wenjun's story and it has also brought back many memories.

But it is just a memory of a meal.

The world is rolling in, and my life has actually started a new journey since I left Shanghai and my father passed away.

And all of this has nothing to do with feelings, and it is different from what everyone thinks.

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2012 is my year of embarrassment.

First, I couldn't bear to drag Fang Wenjun down and left Shanghai. In fact, I also hoped that he would come to me and overcome the difficulties with me.

He has indeed been here. I suddenly added 5,000 yuan from my father's payment record, and guessed that it must be him.

However, even though he knew I was in a desperate situation, he didn't even have the courage to meet him.

To be honest, I had resentment in my heart at that time.

However, during that time, I saw too many cold and cold worlds, and my close uncle from a good family actually rejected me.

My mother said to me: "Your uncle hopes that you will stay in Shanghai so that his son can join you in the future. Now, you are back with nothing, and people may feel that there is no hope."

So, compared to the closest relatives standing by, Fang Wenjun is already kind and loyal.

What's more, I and my life at that time could not see any possibility of wealth.

When I blame others for being careless, what I should reflect on the most is my own incompetence.

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The blow and growth brought to me by these three things are epic.

I finally came to the real world and began to understand that if I had no money, I could not keep it, whether it was love, family or anything else, and I was not worthy of having it.

People who don’t cry in the middle of the night are not enough to talk about life.

The experience of not seeking people to borrow money from the hospital is not enough to talk about life.

Before that, the deepest nightmare in my subconscious was in the college entrance examination room. I either didn’t know one question, or when I handed in the paper quickly, I realized that I had finished half of the paper and had no answers.

After that, I borrowed money everywhere in my dream and was constantly rejected to replace it.

So, the day after my father passed away, I started looking for a job.

In my opinion at that time, every day when I didn’t make money was a humiliation.

Therefore, I submit various resumes.

On the way back from the talent market, I would go to the restaurant along the street to see if I needed hourly workers, and I could be a chef, dishwasher or waiter.

Before I officially went to that training institution to work as an English teacher, I worked odd jobs for 25 days.

Later, I officially entered the vocational school training as a teacher. The workload was not saturated. I usually had one class a day and all day classes on Saturdays and Sundays.

So, I used my time without classes to continue working odd jobs in the previous restaurant, which can be considered double salary .

At that time, I was so tired that I lay down in bed every day. My mother was so distressed that she burst into tears, but I said to her, "Mom, I'm completely busy. I feel safe only when I have a day to record my accounts every day. I'm very happy."

Just as Fang Wenjun said: I'm afraid of being poor.

The feeling of dignity sweeping the floor is like hunger, and it will be written into the genetic sequence.

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However, my plan to make money every minute and every second was stopped by the leader of the teaching and research group.

She met me in the restaurant where I worked.

After listening to me telling me about my own experience, she said to me without hesitation: "Making money is right, but your method is wrong."

Then, she settled the bill for me. As for her one-to-one course, it is between 300 and 500 in two hours, an average of about 200 per hour. May I ask: "How many days can I buy a bowl? "

The important thing is that teaching and learning is mutual. While increasing your income, you have also improved your professionalism, so that you can have the ability to be a specialist and concentrate on your work. The leader of

said bluntly to me: "Your rhythm now seems to be very hard-working, but working hard requires methods. Listen to me, teach your class well, teach your books well, be truly responsible to your students, and your income and sense of accomplishment will be patronized by you. "The words of the leader of the

were enlightened to me who was almost poor and stress disorder at that time.

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After hitting there, I was dedicated to teaching.

books were used until I was used, so don't say that the truth is too big.

Do you remember the original New Oriental English teacher Dong Yuhui said that when he was learning English, he was crazy Memorize the test papers wildly.

I almost did this back then.

Children who come to our off-campus training basically have short legs in this subject and need to improve their grades urgently.

So, after leaving campus for many years, I used this stupidest method to memorize the real test papers of the final and middle school entrance examinations every year, understand the question types, find out the intentions of the questioners, and then on the basis of full understanding, give the students a targeted question.

That was a period of forgetting to eat and sleep, and devoted to it. Days.

are either memorizing questions or reading a lot of information related to the high school entrance examination.

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I am hardworking and not ruthless to my students.

Some children don’t like to memorize words, and after class I will accompany him to memorize it, when to memorize it, and when to let him go.

Some children have a flaw in reading, and I will do it after every class I will give me some tips and leave one or two reading articles for him each time.

Although I am an off-campus teacher, I have also set up a class group. I will take them to read morning at 6:20 in the morning every morning.

Homework cannot be completed at the specified time. Sorry, I will also call to urge him to submit it in the middle of the night.

I remember a parent came to plead for my child, and I didn’t give me face at all: “If you think it’s not important for your child’s English grades to improve, then you will take it away, but if you want him to not only improve, but also get high scores, you must cooperate with the teacher. "

Another time, the whole class had 19 children in private and colluded with me. They didn't cooperate with my teaching in class. They had enough of my harshness.

That day, facing their collective silence and non-violent non-cooperation, I finally broke out and told them about my experience. Even the matter of squatting on the ground in the hospital corridor and calling and borrowing money everywhere.

I pointed to the classroom door and said to them: "In the future, I don't want to kneel down and beg for life like I did at that time, so I stayed to listen carefully. I wanted to lie to my parents and think there was a mine at home, so I didn't want to keep them. "

Then, no one left. The class of

went very smoothly later, and each child answered questions octaves octaves higher.

The first batch of children I brought, there were two classes and 37 children. In the middle school entrance examination, 32 children went from failing English to the final Youga.

At that time, everyone thought I was a person who could create miracles.

But I know that the name of miracle is to focus, and to do something good with all my life.

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Xinxi is the most difficult one among all my students, and it is also the one who finally led me to become a dark horse in the middle school entrance examination.

Back then, I signed a special contract with her parents who were in Shangyan Business: If Xixi's English in the middle school entrance examination reaches Youga, they will give me double rewards at one time; if it fails, I will refund their tutoring fees.

From the first to the third year of junior high school, Qianxi and I ate, live and study together.

Finally, I won.

In order to thank me, her mother not only paid twice the reward, but also sent me an invitation to join their foreign trade company.

has been doing business for many years. She believes in her own eyes. She said that with my ruthlessness in doing things, there is nothing I can't do.

Yes, my teaching and research group leader and Qianxi’s mother were both the most important nobles in my life.

One woke me up when I was most confused and panicked.

A ladder was handed me an upward ladder when I was a little successful, so that I could still explore other possibilities in life.

There was no hesitation, and I accepted the invitation from Xixi's mother.

My confidence at that time was that at worst, if I failed, I could continue to be an English teacher.

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For me, it is a completely unfamiliar field.

All I can rely on is hard work.

Xiqian's mother hopes that I can do management, but I still choose to start with the warehousing department.

I have done warehouse management, logistics, and sales, setting a record for ten months of business trips throughout the year.

said without shame that I did not waste any time. At that time, the exam-oriented English I learned before was useless. I used all my spare time to make up for my business English and financial knowledge.

The mall is like a big river and the sea. I suddenly feel that I have been hollowed out again and need to accumulate knowledge and ability again.

I remember one time when Qianxi came to the company to play with me during a holiday and followed me for a day.

She said, this is too hard, why do you let the good master not do it and suffer this hardship?

In fact, I don’t feel bitter at all. The kind of continuous farewell to the comfort zone and further exchange for further gains made me excited, down-to-earth, fulfilling and full of security.

Facts have proved that you will never be wrong by constantly forcing yourself.

In 2021, the double reduction policy was introduced, and a group of education and training personnel were unemployed and re-employed.

And I have already landed elsewhere in advance.

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In July 2021, Xixi's family chose to immigrate after the Xixi college entrance examination was over.

Xiqian's mother officially handed over the company to me for management.

In fact, before this, she had asked me to manage it on my behalf for nearly seven months.

When I said goodbye to their family, I did not say thank you, but just promised her: "Don't worry, I will manage the company well and strive to make it a famous company."

Xixi's mother said: "I'm very relieved. In the past two years, you have let it survive the most difficult times. It's amazing. In a person's life, it's not easy to find someone who can leave his back to the other party. It's the luck of our whole family to meet you."

I, why don't I think so.

Over the years, I have met many people and many things, which make me feel that my life is magnificent and any encounter is worthy of gratitude.

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includes my current husband Wangli.

He is an employee of our company's overseas affairs department. I have worked with him in the same department.

I am a person who is meticulous at work, and he is more serious than me.

Although he is three years younger than me, his rigorous attitude towards life and work has taught me a lot.

Once, we went on a business trip to the UK together. He was looking at a sales contract on the plane, one word, one word.

I also read it twice at the time and felt that there was no problem.

But, he always felt something was wrong.

got off the plane, and he couldn't sleep all night and asked his domestic colleagues to pass on the original contract version.

He sat in the airport, compared the contract word by word, and finally found something wrong with his intuition.

That is a legal trap like a text game. If we really sign according to the other party's intention, our losses are really unimaginable.

is even possible to get involved in a lawsuit because of this.

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On that trip to the UK, I looked at Wang Li with admiration.

Later, we successfully cooperated to win several projects.

colleagues started to joke with us, thinking we were very good.

We came together naturally.

Although I am three years older than him, a person's maturity is really not measured by age.

is with him, I am very down-to-earth. I know that he works hard and rigorously like me, and our lives will continue to upgrade under the combined force of this quality.

So, over the years, I really rarely think of Fang Wenjun.

is too busy. The main thing is that I am completely different from the one I had before 2012.

I became realistic, even tacky, and my mind was full of work, making money, making money, and working.

all say that people who are dissatisfied with the status quo are willing to indulge in the past. I agree with

.

When I make money while constantly improving my life, eat better food, and see better scenery, I don’t have time and feel there is no need to look back.

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That day, Fang Wenjun suddenly called, do you know what my first intuition is?

I want to pay back the 5,000 yuan he had back then.

Perhaps, the poor memory written into the gene sequence really made me particularly self-esteem and sensitive, as if I could rewrite that painful experience after paying back the 5,000 yuan.

But when I put down the phone and was about to see him, I calmed down.

He did everything he could do at that time, and I actually owe him a "thank you".

If I can't face him calmly and express this thank you in person, then, after so many years, there is actually a cowardly little girl living in my heart.

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So, after ten years, we have met.

I prepared tea. Although I also drank tea, I have never been willing to buy this one I gave to Fang Wenjun. The price of

is also twice that of 5,000 yuan.

I thought of paying back the money to Fang Wenjun directly, but after thinking about it, it would be embarrassing, like a kind of liquidation.

And how do you calculate the timely help?

, just convey the meaning you want to express in the way of tea.

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3 Not seen in ten years, it can be seen that he is no longer the embarrassed boy he used to be.

Of course, if you were still as embarrassed as you were back then, you probably wouldn't have come to see me.

Fortunately, we can all meet in glory now, which can be regarded as a ceremony to thank each other for not marrying or not. When chatting with

, Fang Wenjun once mentioned several things from the past, such as when he was in Shanghai, he went to eat fish on his birthday...

I silently changed the topic.

doesn't want to be nostalgic, mainly because I think that the old is actually nothing to be cared about, and that kind of memory of bitterness cannot bring sweetness.

What’s important is that nostalgia can easily make people ambiguous. I don’t want us to sit together today, and there is any emotional difficulty or explanation.

Fortunately, everyone is an adult who has experienced the ups and downs. If I create such distance and measure, he will understand it.

That day, we gave the past a meal time and went our separate ways.

He drives his Regal, I drives my Mercedes-Benz .

In fact, I originally wanted to take a taxi and didn't want to leave any suspicion of showing off or showing off to others.

But then I thought about it, this is my reality. What can I hide from the moment I earned with my hands?

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That day, I was as calm as water.

But Fang Wenjun said in the article that he cried.

Once you part, you will see each other again. The feelings of each other are very different.

You can say that I am heartless and even cold-blooded.

However, after so many years of hard work in the mall, I have long turned me into a person who will not waste too much energy on minor matters.

At the beginning, there was no capital, but now it has become a habit.

I have changed, completely changed.

I can't say whether this is good or bad, but this is me.

And this is exactly the reason why I chose to accept Xiaonian's interview.

I really feel that in this era, each of us should make a living first and then make love.

The cost of living a good life is too high. The biggest self-discipline of adults is to make money. The saying is not the truth, but the truth.

Premature love is too easy to rely on and easily blame. It is easier to get rid of the blame in the less abundant trivial matters, and it is easier to get in the internal friction between each other and tie up, thus blocking one's eyes and not seeing the vastness and boundlessness of life.

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I saw a sentence that day and it was all about my heart:

If I were a woman, I would choose to make money first, and then marry love with money. If you see any love, just use money to smash it. This is the joy of life.

If I were a man, I could only work harder and accumulate more money. When I met her destined, I could raise her as my daughter.

Yes, when I was young, I thought this was so cheesy, but now I think it's just a big truth.

For young people from ordinary families, what is truly valuable is not a trip wherever they want, the luxury goods and sea view villas, and a passionate love.

is the deposit in the card, the knowledge in the brain, and a healthy body.

So, about Fang Wenjun and I, I don’t talk about regrets or debts. Every encounter and parting in life is actually meaningful.

What’s important is that we were all young and we will eventually grow up.

I hope everyone will have a period of youth, work hard, be excited, not embarrassed, not barren.