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In my humble love, I became his stand-in for Bai Yueguang.
This should be ten years.
His name is Jun Cheng. He and I are at the same table in high school and college classmates. He is very good in science, but he is partial to serious. Mathematics can get full marks all year round, but Chinese will fail. Jun Cheng is very good-looking, more delicate than a girl, and has a very good personality. He is super patient.
I have a crush on him during his entire student life, and only became his girlfriend the year he graduated from university. Before that, I had always been his good "brother" and good "follower".
has always been close to him, so I always know that he has white moonlight.
Juncheng's Bai Yueguang is the school flower Jingshan of our high school.
Jingshan has good grades, good family background, and beautiful appearance. She has been concerned and loved by boys since she was a child.
My name is Jingshu. I am only one word away from Jingshan, but I am so different from her. My academic performance is average, liberal arts are good, but science is not good, mathematics is hovering on the pass line all the year round. My family is also an ordinary working-class family. My parents are honest and have no plans for me, and of course I don't have much expectations. The most important thing is that I am quite average, with super short hair, four-eyed frog, chubby, and a tomboy. There is a huge gap between me and the school girl.
Juncheng and I have been at the same table since the first year of high school. He thought I was ugly, like a pig head, so he called me pig head sister. And I think he is noisy, like a dog, so I call him Brother Kotou.
From the moment I became a tablemate, no, it should be the first time I saw him, and I fell in love with him. So I take good care of him during my studies. What he forgets, I can help him make up for it. For example, if he forgot to write a Chinese weekly diary, I could imitate his notes and give him a weekly diary.
Because of this, my writing style has been recognized by Jun Cheng. So he asked me to help him write a love letter.
He wants to write a love letter to Jingshan.
"Brother Dog, what do you like Jingshan?"
"Pighead girl, why do you ask this?"
"I need to know your specific thoughts before I can write it down. The true feelings can move people."
"emmm, first of all she looks good,The eyes are bright, the smile is sweet, the voice is very nice, and he is very gentle, very good at taking care of others..."
Juncheng smiled madly while describing.
"Appearance Association!
I gave Juncheng a white look, then I found good-looking letter paper and wrote a love letter.
It was from that time that I knew how much he liked Jingshan, and from that time I completely hid it.
My love letter works very well.
After Juncheng sent the love letter, Jingshan also expressed his kindness to him. They were ambiguous under the teacher's nose. But somehow, they did. I didn’t become a public boyfriend and girlfriend.
I think it’s probably because the teacher doesn’t allow dating, and Jingshan is the kind of good girl, so I haven’t agreed to Juncheng.
They agreed to study together in the library, Because I was afraid of being discovered by others, Jun Cheng asked me to come over to cover. That is, I want to follow them, they are smiling and chatting, you and me. And I feel uncomfortable and have to squeeze a smile to accompany them.
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In the summer vacation of the second year of high school, Jingshan told Juncheng that she would apply for the art exam. The school that Jingshan was applying for was in Beijing. The good schools in Beijing generally had higher scores.
After Jun Cheng heard the news, she immediately Found me.
"Sister Zhutou, I'm going to prepare for the college entrance examination soon after school starts. We can take advantage of each other in liberal arts and sciences. You fish for my language, and I fish for your mathematics.
"Oh, why did you study hard all of a sudden?"
"If you want to enter a university in Beijing, of course you have to study hard."
I was stunned for a while, and suddenly thought of Jingshan. Studying hard is for the university to be with Jingshan.
I felt sour, but tried to adjust my smile: "You can try. But you also know that my math is very hip, I don't know if it can be picked up.
Jun Cheng smiled and said, "You also know that my language is very hip, and I don't know if I can be picked up."
Just when Jingshan was preparing for the art exam, Juncheng and I joined forces to face the college entrance examination.
Regardless of why Juncheng has to study hard,When I study with him, I feel very motivated.
At that time, I thought, after the college entrance examination, I would go to different things, and cherish the last time to fight side by side.
We struggled and worked hard, and finally handed in in the college entrance examination and got a satisfactory answer.
Juncheng and I complemented each other's shortcomings and achieved remarkable results. We got a good score of 985 in both exams. Jun Cheng is even better, and his results can be among the best in the province.
Now it’s time to fill in the volunteers.
I know Juncheng will fill the school in Beijing. As for me, I can pick a good school wherever these scores go, but it's a bit difficult in Beijing.
The end of high school is the difference. My unrequited love in high school is almost over. From now on, Juncheng and Jingshan can openly fall in love in the university, and never need me to cover them.
Thinking of this, I breathed out softly, feeling relieved.
After I filled out the application, I received a message from Juncheng.
"Which school did you fill in the last?"
"Don't worry, it's not Beijing anyway."
"Don't you want to go to Beijing?"
"It was Jingshan who went to Beijing, not Jingshu =="
"Then where did you fill in?"
"School in Shanghai. Goodbye in the future~"
I thought I was very free and easy, but when I typed the words "goodbye bye" in WeChat, I couldn't hold back tears. Flowed down.
I filled in the results of the volunteers as I filled in. I went to a prestigious school in Shanghai as I wish.
Jingshan also went to Beijing university to study broadcast host after hard work.
Just when I thought I was going to go to university alone, I heard an unexpected news: Juncheng, a high-score player, was not admitted to the school of his first choice because of carelessness in filling in the report, so he went The second choice school. It's a coincidence that this school is the Shanghai school I chose.
By an accident, Juncheng and I are studying together again, but Jingshan wants to go to Beijing to study alone.
3
Separated from Jingshan, Juncheng is in a bad mood.
University opening report, I also asked Juncheng to go to Shanghai with him out of politeness. The result was rejected by him coldly.
Jingshan is in a bad mood, and she used to talk to me politely. After graduating, she completely put down her pretense, and repeatedly yin and yang came to me strangely.
I'm surprised!
I didn't do anything, why did these two people suddenly start targeting me? It seemed that it was me that caused the two to separate.
Since they don't want to talk to me, I won't make myself boring.
On the day of the school report, I went to the school alone with a big bag.
Compared with other people who are accompanied by their parents to report, I am even more helpless. Just when I was carrying my big suitcase and preparing to go to the dormitory building, I saw a familiar figure.
"Brother Dog?" I called out subconsciously.
Jun Cheng followed the voice and looked at me.
Originally, Jun Cheng, who had just arrived at the school to register, started to help female students who were in difficulty after finishing their own affairs. Helped the newly-registered female classmates to move the heavy boxes into the dormitory building.
Jun Cheng gave me a cold look, and continued to carry others' boxes up the stairs.
"Hehe, separated from Bai Yueguang, did you start looking for the next Bai Yueguang as soon as you arrived at university?" I held my arms and looked at his back and couldn't help but complain.
I dragged a big box downstairs and moved hard, but no boy came to help.
Who makes me look down?
Which guy will help a tomboy?
Just when I was going to get rid of the uncle security guard, Jun Cheng went downstairs after helping others.
In the face of interest, I plan to lose my face.
I shy face and smiled and came to Jun Cheng: "Brother Dog, did you lift things up for Miss Sister?"
Jun Cheng looked at me sideways and said, "What's wrong, do you want me to help you?"
I chuckled, nodding harder than a husky.
Jun Cheng held his arm,Condescendingly said to me: "You white-eyed wolf, you can help you, but you can't help for no reason."
Oh!
How can I say that we are all three years old at the same table, so we can't help directly? !
My heart has exploded, but there is still a smile on my face: "Brother Dog, how are you willing to help?"
"I will help you carry the box up, and you will cover my breakfast for this new semester. ."
Jun Cheng's request was justified, without a hint of embarrassment.
I weighed it for a long time.
Anyway, I have to eat breakfast every day. When I buy breakfast, I will buy him another one by the way.
"Okay, deal!" I gritted my teeth and agreed.
So, I bought Juncheng's breakfast for him for four years in college.
Juncheng treats me as a girl, but I treat Juncheng twice as good. Because I know that he will not belong to me, and I treat him well for a while, and there will be Bai Yueguang belonging to him by his side in the future.
Every time I work as a follower by his side, I always comfort myself like this.
4
After four years of university, Juncheng and I have kept a good relationship carefully.
Because Juncheng and Jingshan are officially together. Even though they were separated from each other, they ended up together.
Speaking of which is really moving love!
And I accidentally glanced at the chat history of the two and found that Jingshan was complaining about me. From the tone of voice, it disgusts me very, very much.
Since then, I have paid more attention to keeping a distance from Juncheng.
Except for the breakfast that I have to help buy, I find reasons to leave the rest of the time.
After I arrived at university, I have a deeper understanding of the view that ugly people will affect personal development.
Inspired by my roommates, I plan to lose weight, change clothes, make a new look, and re-behave. Although the hardware is not good, I can do some software to upgrade myself to a certain level. In this way, it will be easier to get mixed up in society in the future.
After I lose weight,If you grow your hair, take off your glasses, you can also dress up. Gradually I started to get the attention of boys. Some boys came to fetch me water, and some boys asked me to study together.
So I tried to forget my love for Juncheng, or to bury my love for Juncheng deeply.
It is probably because Jingshan said a lot of bad things about me to Juncheng. Juncheng's attitude towards me is getting worse and worse. Sometimes he will yell at me, or even blame me for no reason.
We were good friends since high school, but maybe not anymore.
I'm a little frustrated, but I think it's okay to break, so that I don't have to watch Juncheng and Jingshan chat remotely every day and feel sad.
I thought that the relationship between Juncheng and I had completely reached a freezing point.
The accident happened again.
In her senior year, news came that Jingshan was planning to study abroad for graduate school. This means that either Juncheng will go abroad or the two will break up.
For me, Juncheng going abroad means that I will never see him again. Because my family situation does not allow me to go abroad, and I have already planned to find a job in my senior year.
In the senior year, everyone was busy looking for work internships and rarely went back to the dormitory. Some people already rent houses outside and live alone.
During my busy internship, I heard news about Juncheng. His friend said that Jun Cheng was very depressed. He rented a house outside by himself. He didn't look for a job and didn't plan to go abroad. He stayed in the rental house every day.
My first reaction to this news was that there was a problem with the relationship between Jingshan and Juncheng.
Although I already have the first ambiguous boy in my life at this time, I still can't help but remember the news of Juncheng.
5
A bigger accident happened soon after.
It was 9 o'clock in the rental house after my internship, when I suddenly received a call from Jun Cheng. Jun Cheng on the phone was obviously drunk and said a few words without beginning and ending.
I am extremely worried. Although he was very tired, he took a taxi to his residence for the first time.
Jun Cheng has never told me where he lives, but I can find his address from others.
knocked on the door for a long time,Jun Cheng finally opened the door.
He did drink a lot of alcohol, he was unshaven, and his face was a little haggard.
"Brother Dog, are you okay?"
"Why are you here? You still care about me? I thought you had forgotten me! Aren't you going to leave? Go as far as you can!
When I listened to this, I froze in place.
He is drunk, he must treat me as Jingshan.
"I won't go. I still buy alcohol and medicine." I raised the plastic bag in my hand and walked into the room carelessly.
may be the sentence "I won't go" to make Juncheng feel at ease.
He obediently obeyed my arrangement, drank to learn about alcohol and medicine, and lay down on the bed.
"Why do you want to drink boring alcohol? Drinking hurts the body."
I put a hot towel on his forehead while chattering.
Jun Cheng looked a little impatient after hearing these words.
He frowned, and Nuo Nuo replied: "So you still care about me."
Sure enough, he regarded me as Jingshan.
If I said these things, Jun Cheng would definitely dislike me. After changing what Jingshan said, he would say that you still care about me.
My heart hurts again.
After so long, I thought I didn't care anymore. But... but I still care about it!
In an instant, my eyes were red. I sniffed and held back my tears.
I took away the towel, ready to get up and leave.
As soon as I turned around, someone grabbed my hand.
My hand was pulled, and my center of gravity became unstable and fell down. In this way, I fell into Jun Cheng's embrace. He hugged me tightly and buried his head in my hair.
This is the first time I have been hugged by him in my life.
Although the me in his arms is just Jingshan's stand-in.
I didn't push him away. Because if I push him away, I will never have a chance to hug him again in my life.
let me be a stand-in for Jingshan,Just let me hug you instead of Jingshan.
6
Early in the morning, Jun Cheng kissed my teary face.
"Last night... I'm sorry..." Jun Cheng apologized to me in my ear.
Sorry what?
You just used me as a stand-in for Jingshan, you are just drunk.
I pulled up the quilt to cover my body. I got up from the bed and looked around, looking for the clothes I lost on the floor yesterday.
I didn't speak, so I quickly dressed and organized, and escaped from this space.
"Jing Shu." Jun Cheng stopped me.
I was standing at the door carrying my bag. This is the first time he called my name. I hesitated for a moment, then turned and looked back at him.
Jun Cheng came to me and asked: "Jing Shu, I...you...it's not right..."
"Brother Dog, just say whatever you want. It was a misunderstanding last night."
" No, I will be responsible for what happened last night. Jingshu, will you be my girlfriend?" Jun Cheng finished what he was about to say in one breath.
What he meant was to let me be Jingshan's stand-in for a long time.
In this way, I still agreed to Juncheng unconvincingly.
In the last year of university, I finally became Juncheng's girlfriend and also Jingshan's stand-in.
In countless dreams, I thought I was Jun Cheng’s girlfriend. But when I really became his girlfriend, I was not happy, even a little sad.
After Jun Cheng had me as a substitute, his mental outlook was completely renewed. He began to prepare for foreign language exams and applied to foreign schools.
The direction of his efforts is to go abroad after all.
Juncheng's results have been very good. As long as the relevant materials are ready, you can apply to a good school.
I also found a job that suits me as I wish.
On the day Juncheng got the acceptance letter from the Ivy League prestigious school, I asked him to break up.
I never thought,My relationship with him was ended by me.
"I don't think we are suitable."
Because what you see through me is always someone else.
Jun Cheng looked at me regretfully, but after all, he didn't say anything.
After graduating from university, we broke up. In the years after
, I was ups and downs in the workplace, and he was learning to swim in the sea. We did not contact again, and did not want to contact again.
In the dead of night, I will also miss and miss the delicate youth in the lush years.
7
I have worked for many years, and I am already the head of for a media company. In an event, I am responsible for docking with many artists. Jingshan is among these artists.
After many years, we have all grown up. Goodbye in the workplace and greet you with a smile.
At work, Jingshan is harassed by the organizer's boss. I coordinated and arranged for Jingshan to leave, so that Jingshan was spared from the boss's picks.
Because of this incident, Jingshan's attitude towards me has changed a lot. After
, I also introduced a lot of resources for her. In order to be grateful to me, she specially invited me to dinner.
Unexpectedly, many years later, I and Jingshan sat down to eat and chat.
We talked about Juncheng.
I thought Juncheng would restore contact with Jingshan after he goes abroad. But Jingshan said that after her senior year, she never contacted Jun Cheng again.
"Did you remember each other's hatred for so long after the breakup? There was no contact." I took a sip of red wine and teased Jingshan.
Jingshan stared at me in surprise: "Break up? We have never been together."
When these words came out, the surprised person became me.
Jingshan looked at my expression and continued to ask: "Did he not tell you everything after you and Juncheng were together?"
"What is he going to tell me?" I was even more puzzled.
Jingshan said in disbelief: "I thought Juncheng had a high emotional intelligence, so why didn't I just say a word in front of you!"
continued,Jingshan told me everything she knew back then.
It turns out that Juncheng has always liked me.
At that time, Jingshan showed good wishes to him, but Jun Cheng directly refused. But Jingshan didn't give up, so she always came to Juncheng. In order to reduce misunderstandings, Juncheng always pulls me to study with Jingshan.
In this process, Jingshan has discovered that Juncheng seems to like me.
Filling out the volunteers for the college entrance examination, Jun Cheng thought I wanted to go to Beijing, so he also chose Beijing's volunteers. Unexpectedly, I didn't fill in my Beijing wish, but went to Shanghai. When he heard the news, Jun Cheng was furious. In order to be with me, he changed his first choice school before the deadline and came to Shanghai.
After coming to Shanghai, Juncheng tried every means to contact me. But because I kept avoiding him, he was very distressed. So he found Jingshan for her help.
Jingshan couldn't help but complain about me. Because I was too stupid, I didn't even see Jun Cheng's intentions.
Later, Jingshan met someone she liked and began her love. Jun Cheng also asked her for help less often.
However, she occasionally heard from Jun Cheng that I was pursued by many men. Jun Cheng gets very angry every time he sees a man showing his kindness to me.
"I guess he was down during the time he graduated because you had a boyfriend!" Jingshan took another sip of red wine and looked at me meaningfully.
I smiled and shook my head: "At that time, a nice boy would graciously return from me to the dormitory. But in the end I refused him."
"You obviously still have him in your heart, why did you finally break up?
"Well, maybe... we didn't know how to express it at the time."
"We are so close, but we don't tell the truth. You two are really enough."
That night, I He drank a lot of wine with Jingshan.
I went home drunk and stared at Juncheng's WeChat account drunkly.
After hesitating for a long time, I slowly typed out a sentence.
"Brother Dog, I know all about it. I always thought I was a stand-in. There was no stand-in.I just lost to my inferiority complex.
After typing this sentence, I fell asleep.
I slept for a long time, and when I woke up, it was already 3 pm the next day.
Ding dong ding dong, it was the doorbell that bothered me Wake up.
I opened the door in my pajamas: "Who? I didn't order takeaway.
opened the door, and Jun Cheng stood outside the door.
He hugged me: "Sister Pig, I'm back.
"Are you not in the United States?"
"It happened to be in Hong Kong. I saw your news and I went directly to Shanghai by plane."
"Oh, uh. "
I still want to say something, but I can't say a word.
All the words are blocked by his kiss.
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