What is it like to have sex with a male colleague who is 13 years younger than me? After happiness, sorrow is sadness.
I am 36 this year and I have married my ex-husband very early, so my marriage relationship has not been harmonious for almost 14 years, mainly because of disharmonious sexual life.
We met through someone's introduction and got married soon. I didn't understand anything at that time, so I followed my parents' arrangements.
We don’t have much feelings. I don’t like him, so I don’t want to accept him completely. Our marriage is more like living together, respecting each other, but without passion.
Especially since we have children, we have never kissed and have very little sex. In more than ten years, it can be at most once a month on average, and every time it is like completing a task for me. I once thought I was cold and sick.
Because the economic situation is good, we rarely quarrel. Our marriage looks bright and beautiful, happy and fulfilling to outsiders, but only the feet know whether the shoes are comfortable or not. I feel that my life is just a pool of stagnant water, and there is no warmth at all when I get home.
To be honest, my husband has nothing big mistakes. He has outstanding appearance and ability to make money, but we always don’t have the tacit understanding of other couples. There is an invisible barrier between us, which is extremely strong and cannot be cracked.
At the beginning, we both tried hard to change each other, but there was no effect, so we had to give up.
Although I am 36 years old, I look tall and not distorted. I look much younger than my actual age. Everyone around me says that I feel like a little girl in my twenties.
I cheated in the second half of last year. The partner of my cheating was an employee of my company, a 23-year-old young man. In a few days, my husband and I filed for divorce.
Maybe he was tired of such days, maybe he had other women outside, anyway, my husband agreed readily, and he said that our marriage is a torture for each other, and divorce may be a better choice.
Talk about the feeling of being with a young man. The young man is like opening a door for me, giving me unprecedented happiness and passion. It is like the dry fields that have been suddenly nourished by rain. It is like seeing gorgeous fireworks in the dark night, allowing me to cross the mountain and canyon, and being intoxicated makes me feel happy...
But after happiness, there is only lingering sorrow. I know that I and a young man will not have any results, but with him, I can't continue to pretend in marriage. I don't love my husband, I am unhappy... I am not sexually cold at all when I am with a young man, even if he is not bad in that aspect, I like it.
After divorced my husband, the young man and I did not live together. The two of us talked a lot and felt that we should get back on track and find our own suitable partner.
But I work together every day and live in a house (company dormitory) at night. Although there are others together, each person has a room, the two of them are still moved from time to time and will get out of here whenever they have the chance.
He also wanted to control it and said that he could not continue like this, so we had a few quarrels about it. Every time I got angry and quarreled, he would come to coax me.
I was a little confused about what he was thinking. Every time he said it well, it was about to end, but in a few days, he would find another opportunity to kiss and hug me. On the one hand, I kept urging me to find a suitable man to live a normal life. On the other hand, I saw a married man who was tempted to me, and he would be hostile to others.
Recently, he found a little girlfriend, but he never touched her. When chatting with me, he still disliked his little girlfriend's ignorance and inappropriateness, but he just didn't break up.
After having a girlfriend, he also rolled the sheets with me several times.
Now, he actually has a better job to choose from, but my company needs him very much at the moment. He said he wanted to leave, but he never left. On the one hand, I rely on him and I cannot bear to leave him. On the other hand, I want to drive him away for his own good, but I just can't do it.
I want to know if he has love for me or just wants to fuck me? What should I do with him and I? Please give me some advice.
——The distress of a divorced woman
(Stories from the Internet)
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I personally think that it’s time for you to make a choice.
You have feelings but no love. You are just attracted to each other's physical body, just like you are addicted to something, you can't quit, and you are unwilling to let go.
Although it is not illegal for you to divorce and he is unmarried, and it is not illegal to be together for the sake of the need for each other's physical needs, you are destined to be unhappy.
You all know that it is not appropriate to make do with this. If you want the other party to find a partner, after all, it is actually just that you don’t want to be responsible and just care about desires and indulge. This is not love, nor will you be happy.
There is no perfection in life. Even if you can't bear to give up some things, you can only give up. As an adult, you should be responsible for your own behavior and live a rational life. You should command your lower body by your head, rather than letting your lower body control your head.
