After two years, the same situation has been different. More than two years have passed. In 2020, I was in the third year of high school, which is probably the same season. Due to the epidemic, I had to be closed. I don’t know how many days I did. When I was not closed for management, I went home to see my children at most every two days. In many cases, I went home once a day.
But the life of direct closed management is equivalent to cutting off the connection between me and the world. There are only children who are about to take the college entrance examination every day in front of me. Of course, the days of accompanying them to study and grow up are also very happy and lucky. In the second year of the college entrance examination, the children did a good job, and some children now often report small surprises in life to me.
But after 20 days of closed management, I finally came out and went home. The heart-wrenching scene of me coming home at night is still unforgettable for me. The child was about to go to bed when he saw me coming back, but he didn't let me go to bed and still let my grandma sleep with me. I squatted on the ground, not daring to say or speak, and the child cried once he made a sound. I forgot what I was thinking at that time, but it seemed that I didn't think about anything. After he fell asleep, I lay beside him but couldn't sleep.
At that time, I had no choice and I don’t know what else is possible. In the past few years, every day seemed to be like this passively being pushed forward by life. When I was helpless and helpless, I looked back and found that I had already walked a long way out. No one knew about the days of crying behind me, and I would not mention them. However, the difficulties I faced were becoming more and more advanced, and experience became wealth. It is possible to transform life in two years.
Today is facing similar choices from that year, but I smiled and prepared things to be managed in closed management. On the one hand, the child is getting older, I hope he knows that his mother is a person who is dedicated to life and work. On the other hand, I have many more choices now than before. Among all the choices, I choose to move forward step by step. Among all the choices, I choose to happily take the child to explore.
and with joy and confidence, as well as beauty and happiness.
things haven't changed, I've changed.
Body pain is not a matter of fact
It's almost the end of the year. Let's take a look at the year that is about to pass. The biggest thing seems to be the fall in July and a fracture of the tailbone is directly a fracture of the tailbone. This is the biggest physical pain I have suffered since I was so old. However, I still drove my mother and child home in the car, took a movie to the hospital, bought medicine, and went home to sleep for a night. I felt uncomfortable and felt that I was not suitable for exercise. I was directly recuperating from the building for more than 20 days.
was the only time I spent in the room for so long except for the confinement period. It turned out that the pain of a fracture and the pain of a normal person were different. It was not ordinary pain. Fortunately, my good sister mailed me the folk remedy and my mother helped me get it done. I started taking it. Three days ago, I had to lie down and didn’t dare to reach out to hold the things. On the fourth day, I didn’t know if it was my recovery or the folk remedy and medicine management, so it didn’t hurt that much. After
, I always felt like a patient and couldn't sit anywhere. Because I didn't dare to sit, I was even more reluctant to participate in any occasion. My colleague asked me to take leave. I felt nothing was wrong, but I just didn't sit. I insisted on it. I didn't expect that it really responded to the old saying: It hurts 100 days, but it hurts 100 days ago, but it didn't hurt after 100 days. Is it magical?
Later, had stomachache . I just recovered from the trembling of tailbone , and fell into the fear of stomach pain. Suddenly one day I couldn't bear the pain anymore. I actually changed my mind, why is it so painful?
Because many emotions make me feel depressed in my heart and I can't relax. I made myself feel so uncomfortable. I was planning to record a book to share, but I didn't expect that I would not be able to continue after July. I was full of doubts and denial about myself, and was entangled and internally tangled in the self-strike.
But after that sudden change of thought, I was not uncomfortable any other day. Looking back on so many helpless and confused people, and when I was unable to make up my mind, I had no reason to make myself decadent. I believe that I can do more meaningful things and help more people have a more relaxed life, so where can I still have time to emote myself?
The pain in the body is an attack on oneself. When you put the focus out and do something useful to others, your body really has no time to feel uncomfortable.
But I sincerely thank you for the one thing I have always insisted on during the trough, which is to study and read, which is to continuously learn new content and update new thinking. I know that when I am not doing well enough, the faster I upgrade my wisdom, the faster I will climb out of the trough. This is the truth.
After several months of adjustment, I found that there is no good or bad experience. The key is how you give meaning to it. Happiness or gratitude is in your heart.
Fun and interesting life is to play the best
A few days ago, I suddenly realized that reading is just an appearance, and fun is life. Every time I have something to be unthinkable about, I go to read the book, and suddenly I find it clear that life is just like this. There is nothing new under the sun. Others have experienced my helplessness, and they are even more helpless. People walk more beautifully, so what else do I have to worry about.
In the past, I always pursued the right thing, just like when I was in school, I had to be a good student and a good child at home. I expected others to say that I was a good person and a decent person. I paid too much for this decent, but when I didn’t care much, I didn’t care so much.
I no longer pursue what others think good, I only care about the peace and peace of mind I want, it is a fun and interesting life.
I can not be a good boy, but I am happy and content with my current state, so I am fine, right?
Just like now, my mother and son are lying on the bed reading picture books. I am typing at the desk, watching my thoughts gather into words bit by bit, and I see my heart and respect for life. My life is so ordinary and ordinary, but I know that a seemingly same life has been much better, and it has become more and more extraordinary to me.
I am a mother born in the 1980s. I am a cute little cutie who loves reading. She takes care of her children and goes to the workplace with the other. I hope my simple and sincere sharing can bring you some of the power of light in life.
