people say that the harm caused by the original family will be cured for a lifetime, and this is true.
(1)
My hometown is in the countryside. Although it is not a remote area, in the countryside in the 1980s, the idea of favoring boys over girls was common, but my family is still very good.
I still don’t understand today. My mother herself is also a girl. Why does she dislike her biological daughter so much?
My father prefers girls over boys. It’s a pity that he works outside all year round and cannot protect me.
In my house, my mother covered the sky with one hand. She had the final say on whether it was right or wrong, and it was not allowed to refute it. It was comparable to Wu Zetian’s rebirth in .
I have had personality and opinions since I was a child. When my mother is not right, I will try to argue with her. But she ignored this trick at all and cried out in less than a single ear.
Her arbitrary and rough style, as I grew up, I became even more dissatisfied with her discipline.
You can imagine that my mother dislikes me more and more. I am often beaten and scolded by her. She was originally a feudal idea, and my personality was not likable, which made me look like I was picked up on the road, the fate of Xiao Baicai.
Basically, I do the housework at home. After my brother eats the delicious food at home, it is my turn and my sister to eat it.
My younger brother is white and fat, like a silly child from a landlord’s family, with a pampered and laziness.
My sister and I have a pale face and skinny skin, just like the maid who serves the master. We are busy every day, otherwise we will be beaten up.
(2)
Mom raised dozens of chickens. When the chickens grew up, they would kill them one by one for their younger brother to eat.
The taste is constantly changed, braised, stewed, fried, put it in a sand pot and simmered straw. I put chestnuts at a time, and winter bamboo shoots at a time, and I also specially grabbed Chinese medicine for my brother to eat. It is said that it can help me grow up, for fear that he will grow up into a short winter melon and will not be able to marry his wife.
When my brother was eating chicken, my mother did not allow us to eat it, and even asked my brother to hide in secretly. My sister and I could only watch.
In the early stage, my brother ate it so proudly and deliciously. He swallowed it voraciously every time, and he was like a starving ghost reincarnated, afraid that my sister and I would compete with him.
What kind of delicious food? Eat every day, there will always be enough food. Finally, my brother got tired of eating it. When my mother was not at home, he secretly stuffed it to us. My sister and I were very strong and refused to meet.
Gentleman does not eat food that comes from pity.
What’s funny is that my younger brother can’t eat it, so when my mother is not paying attention, they pour it for the pig, because this is a task. If my younger brother doesn’t finish it, my mother will beat him when she comes back.
In the rural areas of the 1980s, was this behavior very luxurious?
Also, some children who came out of a womb are tired of eating, and some are greedy. This mother, looking back, how failed she did!
Sometimes, the whole family will eat chickens, but my daughter will never eat chicken thighs. As soon as the chicken is served, the mother will immediately put two big chicken thighs into her baby son's bowl.
My sister and I were angry and greedy, especially wanting to eat chicken thighs, but that was really a distant luxury.
(4)
Time flies. I grew up and got married, but I married a poor boy thousands of miles away. My quality of life plummeted, and eating chicken legs became even more of a dream.
In the years when my son was born, our small family was very poor. In order to keep up with his son's nutrition, when he was seven or eight years old, I caught twenty chickens and . When he grew up, the rooster would be killed for his son to eat, and the hen kept the eggs.
A son can eat one chicken, and he can finish eight liang of lean pork in one meal. This is all proven by practice.
I never stretched out my chopsticks. My son was reincarnated in my house. At a young age, he followed me and suffered from the bumps and poverty. He felt that he was treated unfairly from the bottom of his heart.
Other people's children's Wahaha instant noodles are always kept away from their mouths. I can't afford it. Even if my sensible son is very greedy, he will not ask me to eat it.
My husband comes back during the Chinese New Year, and I will kill chicken and cook for the table. I will use two chicken legs, one for my son and husband. They both give me food, but I won’t eat it either, and I won’t eat it anyway.
Do you want to eat it? I think, and I think it especially, but there is a kind of obstacle in my heart. I think women are not worthy of eating chicken legs. I think that eating chicken legs is a sin and a kind of greed.
I can't describe that kind of psychology correctly. In short, I just dare not eat it, I can't eat it.
(5)
It should be that after I studied psychology, I spent thousands of years to register to study this subject. On the first day after I studied it, I took the chicken thighs to take the surgery.
At that time, my family's living conditions were already very good. I went to the vegetable market and bought a lot of chicken thighs. If I didn't buy chicken, I would buy chicken thighs and cook them all kinds of roasted.
I can’t eat it in one meal, so I just chew it as a snack and bought a lot of chicken gizzards and gizzards as snacks.
When I was a child, one chicken and one gizzard was all in my younger brother's stomach. I don't know what chicken gizzard tastes like.
After all this, I finally made up for the shortcomings I had when I was a child. When I saw the chicken thighs on the dining table, I could easily reach out to pick them up, and I would never think that I was not worthy of eating anymore.
When my mother got older, she looked at her unscrupulous brother and burst into tears. She regretted that she spoiled him too much. It’s a pity that there is no medicine for regret in the world.
Sometimes, I would also bring up old accounts and condemn my mother for hurting me when she was a child, but she didn't know it and said, wasn't this the case in that era?
Yes, the light sentence is like this, but it has caused me to spend most of my life treating the layers of shadows in my heart.
I can't say that I'm completely cured. At least, facing the chicken thigh, I'm no longer nervous and can be generous.
年后的文, in this world, there will be no more harm from relatives, it really needs to be cured for a lifetime.
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