I put the knife into his hand and asked him to kill me. He refused, begging me to let go with red eyes.
It doesn't matter, I can help him.
I took his hand and thrust it into my heart inch by inch.
He cried, but I laughed.
1
My name is Yao Niang, and I am the most famous oiran in the capital.
It’s not because of beauty or talent.
Just because I smashed the head of the young master of the Chamberlain's family with an inkstone five days ago, and yesterday I pushed the precious grandson of Chen Guogong into the river.
As for today, I just kicked the prince of Prince Qi downstairs who tried to touch my waist. But he could only hold his waist and huddle in the corner, daring to be angry but not daring to speak.
Yes, they are afraid of me.
is afraid of the power behind me.
As for who is the person supporting me, that involves another story.
Seventeen years ago, Concubine Gao, who was favored in the harem, went to Yu'an Temple in the capital to pray for blessings, but she was frightened for some reason. Concubine Gao, who was pregnant at that time, could only give birth to the little princess hastily in the temple.
The little princess is cute and well-behaved. She was named Princess Pingle when she was less than one year old.
Ping Le, peace and happiness.
This is the best blessing for the little princess.
When the little princess was fourteen years old, the mother-in-law who had delivered Concubine Gao found Concubine Gao and said that when she delivered the little princess at Yu'an Temple, the princess had a birthmark that looked like a butterfly on her right leg.
She once saw a little girl with this birthmark in the most famous brothel in the capital.
And the little girl's appearance is similar to that of Concubine Gao.
And that day in Yu'an Temple, there was another woman who delivered her baby.
That’s it for now. Is there anything else you don’t understand?
And I, Yao Niang, was the little princess who was miscarried, was abandoned, and ended up in a brothel.
When Concubine Gao found me, I was being dragged into the room and humiliated by drunken guests. I took the hairpin and scratched my thigh, completely destroying the butterfly birthmark. It was dripping with blood to prevent the guest from succeeding.
Concubine Gao was very angry and stabbed the guest in the heart with a sword. She felt very sorry for her biological daughter who ended up in a brothel and was in such a miserable state.
"So, you are my mother?" I washed my hands carefully, but there were still blood stains on them, staining my nails red.
Concubine Gao wiped away her tears and cried so hard,
"Yao'er, you are my biological daughter!"
It turns out that I have a mother.
I asked her: "Are you going to take me home?"
She hesitated.
She said that there was already a Princess Pingle in the palace, and if the original incident was revealed again, everyone present would be implicated. Furthermore, if the daughter whom she has pampered for fourteen years is found to be not a real princess, her life may very well be in danger.
"Yao'er, you are Pingle's sister, you won't bear to see her die, right?"
I really want to say, what does her life and death have to do with me?
can't.
Because I knew that the woman in front of me did not intend to take me home, but wanted me to give up my status as a princess and make way for her baby Pingle.
But she feels sorry for her daughter, so she will try her best to make up for it with me. How to make up for
?
I told her: "I don't want the title of princess, but you have to promise me that from now on, no one in the capital can bully me."
She agreed.
The power of the Gao family is overwhelming, and she is the favored queen of the harem, and the power in her hands is three times greater than that of the queen of the middle palace.
So as long as I don’t kill anyone or set fire to someone else, or at least leave no obvious evidence behind, she will protect me.
She kept her promise, and in the next three years, no matter how ridiculous I acted or how many people I offended, I was safe and sound.
And everyone who wants to bully me will be beaten for no reason the next day. What's more serious is lying in the grass outside the city, dripping with blood.
As time goes by, the number of times increases.
Everyone believes that there is someone behind me, and no one dares to bully me easily.
Even the children of the noble families are afraid of the power behind me. But they are also greedy for my good looks and always come close to me.
On her seventeenth birthday, I waited for her all day. She said she wanted to celebrate my birthday with me, and that this day would only belong to me.
But she made a mistake.
She didn't arrive until evening.
I know that the princess in the palace has the same birthday as me.
She probably doesn't care about me.
"You don't have to come." I've never been nice to her.
Concubine Gao looked apologetic in her eyes and hurriedly explained to me: "Le'er has caught the cold, and I have to guard her. So..."
"I told you, you don't have to come." I interrupted her and pushed away. The door of the room said, "I have guests coming, please go."
's last attachment was finally completely gone.
Her eyes were red and she turned back three times. As if he couldn't help it, he stood at the door and said: "You are my daughter, how can you live in a brothel all the time? Yao'er, if you are willing, I will send you to Jiangnan and give you a new identity. That is the Gao family "Your territory, no one dares to bully you there."
I was too lazy to listen to what she said every time she came here in the past three years, so I simply closed the door.
Asking me to go to Jiangnan is really just for me, okay?
I smiled, feeling cool in my heart.
At this time, the window in my house was opened from the outside, and then a familiar figure came in.
Xie Shu, my ideal person.
2
"Why do you always like to climb through the window?" I covered my mouth with the handkerchief and chuckled.
"If I don't climb through the window, how can I come in to celebrate your birthday?"
Xie Shu raised his hand and touched my head, holding my hand and sitting on the chair. As if by magic, he took out an exquisite hosta from his arms.
"My dear, birthday gift."
I leaned over and asked him to put it on for me. He smiled, took me into his arms, and put on the hairpin for me.
He then said: "My dear mother, wait for me for one more year. After one year, I will give you a phoenix crown and a beautiful pei, and I will marry you in eight carriages. In this life, you will be the only one."
I blushed with embarrassment. , I couldn’t help but be excited in my heart.
Love words are so nice.
Even though it was poison that penetrated the intestines, I drank it willingly at that time.
Just because he is Xie Shu, he is my ideal person.
3
The first meeting between Xie Shu and me was not a good one.
The drunk guest pulled me into the room. I was only fourteen years old at the time and had little strength, so I couldn't struggle at all. After my skirt was torn to pieces, I took the hairpin and scratched the thigh where he touched me.
If his body is hurt and he sees blood, he will stop.
I thought naively.
But when he saw the blood pouring out of my legs, his eyes were filled with mad excitement. He tied my hands with a belt and then touched the butterfly birthmark on my leg that was stained red with blood.
The pain is mixed with endless humiliation.
At that time, I wanted to bite my tongue and kill myself, but the window was suddenly pushed open. Xie Shu, who was in a panic and climbed over the window to escape, accidentally bumped in. Seeing that I was being insulted, he knocked the man unconscious without saying a word and saved me.
I burst into tears. Xie Shu comforted me. He took out a candy from his arms and put it in my hand.
He told me: "Eat a candy and stop crying."
That was the only light I saw in the dark years,
But before I had time to ask his name, there was another movement outside the house. Xie Shu only said "Wait until I come back" and then jumped out of the window and left.
After he left, Concubine Gao came.
The scene where mother and daughter recognize each other is so touching.
And for the next year, I have been waiting for Xie Shu to appear. I want to meet him and thank him for saving my life.
Finally, a year later, I met Xie Shu again.
It’s just that he doesn’t seem to remember me.
4
The eldest son of Prince Qi’s Mansion celebrated his birthday and invited a group of friends to the brothel.
called me by name and asked me to play the piano for fun.
I was in a good mood that day, so I played a song for them.
But those people drank too much and wanted to tease me. The secret guards that Concubine Gao left behind for me to hide in the dark were about to throw them out at my signal.
But before the secret guard could take action, Xie Shu somehow stood up from the crowd and pulled me behind him to protect me.
He is always silent, but now that he saw me being teased, he couldn't sit still.
The prince was startled at first when he saw this, and then he laughed and said: "Since Xie Shu likes Yao Niang, then take her upstairs, a spring night is worth a thousand pieces of gold, hahaha..."
Xie Shu was probably dragged to the brothel by them. , or the relationship is not good, otherwise it would be impossible to say such things.
Although I am in a brothel, no one has been able to enter my room so far.
They wanted to see Xie Shu, like those who bullied me, have his arms removed and thrown out of the city the next day.
It's a pity that they made a mistake.
Xie Shu, he is someone I have been thinking about for a year.
I grabbed his wrist and went upstairs in front of everyone's shocked and surprised eyes.
Xie Shu's face turned red. He originally wanted to struggle. But as soon as he moved, I stared at him pitifully: "If you don't follow me upstairs, then the prince..." I believe he understood what
didn't finish.
Therefore, Xie Shu only hesitated for a moment before following me upstairs. But he was extremely well-behaved, sitting on the chair obediently and staring intently at the scenery outside the window.
"I will leave when they leave. Don't worry, girl, I won't do anything to you."
Obviously, Xie Shu did not recognize me.
I also thought of teasing him, picked up the wine on the table and poured him a glass.
"If the young master goes out like this, they will definitely become suspicious. It is better to get some alcohol and lie more smoothly."
My attitude is very sincere.
He hesitated over and over again while holding the wine glass, and then drank it down directly.
But Xie Shu had a bad drinking ability, so I coaxed him to drink three glasses of wine before he threw his head back and fainted.
I could only put him on the bed, take off his coat and cover him with a thin quilt. Then he sat on the edge of the bed and raised his hand to carefully trace his eyebrows.
"Xie Shu."
As I read his name, my heart became sweeter and sweeter.
Just like the candy he gave me that day.
He slept for too long, and there was only one bed in the house, so I leaned on the bed and fell asleep deeply.
Perhaps it was due to habit, I got on the bed in a daze, and even pulled the quilt to cover myself.
So that the next morning, before I woke up from a good dream, I heard a huge clang.
was like a heavy object hitting the ground.
I stood up and saw Xie Shu sitting on the ground. He stared at me with his wide-open astonished eyes.
I know he misunderstood.
After all, I still have his coat.
I threw my coat to him and said, "Young master, don't worry, my lady is just a brothel girl, you don't need to be responsible."
Nothing happened.
Even if there is, I will not blackmail him with this.
But he had a thick head, pursed his lips and had a solemn expression on his face. He walked up to me and said, "Since I have physical contact with the girl, I will know the three matchmaking and six etiquettes, and Fengguan Xiale will marry the girl."
Me Laughed.
Even though I do like Xie Shu, it doesn't mean that I think he must be a good person.
This is the first time we met, so he dares to promise me a lifetime?
How many girls in this building believed these poisonous words of love and ended up with bruises all over their bodies and a miserable life.
I like him, but I don’t believe in him.
But Xie Shu was very stubborn. After announcing his identity, he gave me the seemingly valuable jade pendant around his waist.
He said: "My mother said that this is a token left to my future wife. As a proof, I will marry you."
I still don't believe him.
But I fell in love with the days with him.
He is knowledgeable, intelligent, and handsome. When I played with him, he would draw pictures for me and play the piano for me.
I like this feeling of purity and alienation.
I will not express all my sincerity to him.
In the future, once he changes his mind, I will not feel sorry for myself.
However, changes came so quickly.
5
At that time, Xie Shu and I had known each other for half a year.
He always remembers his promise, and now he is just waiting for my nod to marry me.
I was afraid of being let down, so I deliberately made things difficult for him.
"In that case, in three days at Yu'an Temple, if you can persuade your parents to come see me, then I will marry you."
I am the most famous oiran in the brothel. Almost everyone in the capital knows about it. People don’t know.
I have known for a long time that Xie Shu is the son of the prime minister.
His mother, like me, was originally a brothel girl. Once he was favored by Prime Minister Xie, he cheated on his mother by being drunk.
Three months later, because she was pregnant with the prime minister's heir, Prime Minister Xie took her into his house as a concubine.
But even if he is a concubine, his status is extremely noble. There is a huge difference between
and me.
How could the current Prime Minister be willing to let a brothel girl be his daughter-in-law of the Xie family?
I knew it was impossible, so I brought it up without any scruples.
I want him to quit.
It's enough to be happy once, why do I have to give him my whole heart?
That hurts too much.
But Xie Shu didn't hesitate at all. He grabbed my hand and promised me: "I'm just a bastard. If my father doesn't allow it, I will leave the Xie family. As for my mother, she likes you. She said Yao's mother She is a beautiful and wanton girl, and she is worth the pain in her heart."
Is it worth it?
My firm look wavered a little.
Would you like to take a gamble?
When Xi Jing knew that I was planning to leave the brothel and go to Yu'an Temple in the suburbs, he immediately half-knelt in front of me.
"There must be many dangers in the suburbs. For your own safety, the girl had better not leave the brothel!"
Xi Jing, he is the best secret guard of the Gao family. Concubine Gao said that he would be mine from now on and would protect me with his life.
But I know that he is also an informer. Helping Concubine Gao monitor my every move makes it impossible for me to convey the information that I am the real princess to the current emperor.
Xi Jing is not only handsome in appearance, but also highly skilled in martial arts. Concubine Gao gave him to me, so I will make the best use of him to bring out his greatest value.
So I learned martial arts from him. I won’t say I have any opponents, but I will never be bullied again.
I know he is worried about me, but I have said my words and there is no way I can go back on my words.
"Xi Jing, I must go to Yu'an Temple in three days." He could hear the seriousness in my words.
Therefore, Xi Jing was silent for a long time before slowly speaking: "I will definitely protect the girl!"
With his promise, I felt a lot more at ease. Although
is an informer, he is undoubtedly loyal.
Three days later I dressed up and took a carriage early to prepare to go to Yu'an Temple in the suburbs.
But when the carriage was halfway through, dozens of men in black rushed out. The cold sword energy is approaching, and they want my life.
"In the past three years, you have really persevered." I said with a sneer, feeling increasingly angry in my heart.
took my place and now it wants my life again and again?
How can there be such a good thing in the world?
One day, I will get it all back with interest!
I opened the curtain and jumped out of the car, quickly taking out a soft sword from my waist.
"Xi Jing, deal with these people."
I stood behind him holding the soft sword, not intending to take action myself. The soft sword is only intended for self-defense.
Today I specially changed into a new skirt, but I can’t let it get dirty because of these people.
Xi Jing is as cold as ever, but he is undoubtedly tough. In less than half a stick of incense, the group of men in black were eliminated.
originally thought that after solving this group of men in black, he would be able to go to Yu'an Temple smoothly. But I obviously underestimated her viciousness. When passing by a bamboo forest in the suburbs, hundreds of arrows were fired.
Xi Jing stood in front of me, but the opponent was coming fiercely, and there were countless men in black hiding around the bamboo forest. No matter how powerful he is in martial arts, he can't stop so many hidden arrows.
And those people who were hiding in the dark and who were supposed to be the first to protect me when I was in trouble, all disappeared.
I had no choice but to kill those men in black together with Xi Jing. In the chaos, he and I were forced to separate into two places.
The clothes I wore today are cumbersome and not suitable for fighting. But in order to survive, I could only tear up the hem of my skirt to move more freely.
She spent a lot of money to end me completely today. Therefore, the group of people in the bamboo forest were all highly skilled in martial arts and numerous in number. Xi Jing was entangled by a group of people and could not come to help me.
I was forced to retreat to the edge of the cliff.
Seeing them picking up their bows and arrows again, I jumped off the cliff without any hesitation.
I have been here secretly several times, and there is a pool of water under the cliff. I am good at water and there is no way I will die.
But it won't escape unscathed.
When I fell into the deep pool, my right leg hit a rock and made a big gash. I couldn't leave, so I had to find a nearby cave to temporarily stop the bleeding.
From the bamboo forest to the edge of the cliff, I tore the cumbersome skirt into many strips just to leave a mark for Xi Jing.
Now, I can only wait for him to save me.
I waited for a day and a night. The injuries on my legs became more and more serious, and my forehead was also very hot.
In a daze, I seemed to see Xi Jing.
6
When I opened my eyes, I saw Xie Shu standing beside me. His crescent-white coat was draped over me, and the wound on my leg was bandaged.
"My dear, I'm sorry, I'm late."
When Xie Shu saw me waking up, she hugged me tightly with a look of distress on her face. He rambled on and said that he and his mother had been waiting for me at Yu'an Temple all day, worried that something would happen to me and came here to find me. When I saw torn pieces of fabric on the edge of the cliff, I quickly followed the vines on the cliff wall to find me.
For this reason, he left many small scars on his arms.
His skills are not as good as mine, and the best he can do is climb over a wall.
It was already late at night when Xie Shu came here, and now the sky was white. Xie Shu carried me out of the cave, looking for the exit.
But after searching for a long time, I couldn't find a way out. I lay on his back and put my hands around his arms: "Xie Shu, if we can't get out and die here, will you regret coming to save me?"
"Save" My wife, have you ever regretted saying that?" He looked back at me with a gentle tone.
a lady?
My lips curled up unconsciously.
I admit, I'm shaken again.
After searching for a long time, we finally found a secluded path leaving the bottom of the cliff.
Although it was difficult, we returned to the brothel. He put me on the bed and ordered someone to find a doctor for me.
made a fuss for a long time before everyone in the room left.
"Xie Shu, do you really want to marry me?" I leaned in his arms and listened to his strong heartbeat. Wherever he looked, he saw the tiny wounds he left on his arm when he was looking for me.
My frozen heart is slowly cracking.
Maybe he really won’t let me down?
Xie Shu lowered his head and placed a kiss on my forehead, detailing his love for me.
He spoke cautiously, as if he was very worried that I would refuse: "Yao Niang, when we meet my mother together, how about we get married under her witness?"
I nodded without hesitation.
Surprise flashed in his eyes and he hugged me.
Behind me is the red luan warm tent, and in front of me is my lover.
Many things happen naturally.
Afterwards, I leaned in his arms and looked at his slightly sluggish look, and couldn't help but cover my mouth and chuckle.
"You yourself misunderstood before. But now... if you dare to betray me, I will never let you go!"
No one can betray me.
Xie Shu, it’s not possible either.
He hugged me tighter: "Yao Niang, you are my only wife, and I will definitely live up to you in this life!"
He also said that he didn't want to wait any longer, and he wanted to go home to find his mother to take care of him. We perform marriages.
I nodded in response and told him, "I'm waiting for you to pick me up."
7
I waited for Xie Shu for seven days, but he never showed up.
Xi Jing stood behind me, looking a little pale. During the fight in the suburbs that day, he was seriously injured and has not recovered to this day.
He walked up to me, grabbed my eyebrow-drawing hand, and frowned slightly: "Do you regret it?"
"Regret it?" I smiled and opened his hand directly, "Every decision my beautiful mother makes , I will never regret it!"
Furthermore, is regret useful?
My heart was lost, and I gave it to him. What’s the use of regretting it now?
Concubine Gao learned about my injury, and she hurried over to see me. When I saw the injury on my leg, I was so distressed that I burst into tears.
Looking at the face that was 50% similar to mine, I threw a veil to her.
She looked at me in surprise and was interrupted by me when she was about to speak: "I'm going to get married, and I will reconcile with him and grow old together. You can reassure the princess in the palace that no one will compete with her to take the princess' throne." Bit. "
is weird!
My position, how could I let go?
But now, I have to endure it.
"Yao'er, Le'er... Le'er is just worried. She is worried about what happened. She is a good child."
Concubine Gao knows some inside stories, for example, her precious daughter wants to kill me, so It was only when she came that her eyes were filled with guilt.
I really can’t figure out why she is so indulgent and pampered towards Pingle, to the point where she is indifferent even if she wants to kill me?
So I sent people out to check the identity of the woman who gave birth at Yu'an Temple that year.
Sure enough, I learned some interesting stories.
It turns out that I, the mother who dotes on the harem, once loved her too much.
Before going to the palace, she fell in love with a poor scholar at first sight, but the status of the two was very different, and the poor scholar already had a fiancée.
Heartbroken, she entered the palace. But she still missed the poor scholar deeply. After learning that the poor scholar died unexpectedly, she became seriously ill.
The most coincidental thing is that the woman who gave birth to her in Yu'an Temple that day was the wife of a poor scholar.
After the poor scholar died, his wife was bullied and could only give birth to the poor scholar's flesh and blood in the temple.
Later, I got the wrong child.
That was the daughter of the person she had cared about when she was young. She loved Pingle as much as she loved her house.
is even willing to sacrifice his own daughter.
is really ridiculous.
So after I found out about this, the last trace of my attachment to her was gone.
is quite boring.
