Because he is really not good-looking and has no amazing background. And I am a famous talented woman in the yard.
My dad is a diplomat , my grandfather is a banker, my mother is a professor, and my aunt is a well-known lawyer.
Fu Ling also said: Zhou Jiajia, you have been holding back until your senior year, ignore this and that, despise this and tease that. I thought you were disgusted with men, or you were more obedient than the top. What's wrong?
Qiu Lan said, Lingzi, it’s right that you can’t understand. This is like love—inexplicably, obsessed with ghosts.
Me: Cut.
It’s not their fault that they can’t understand. Shen Jian is a restrained person. If he can’t meet the right person, he would rather keep silent, so outsiders think he is cowardly and dull. But when he met me, he could talk all day long, from Nietzsche to Dostoevsky , from Shakespeare to Chaucer, from Oz to William Faulkner . He is the beautiful echo that appears in my long 20-year-old youth tunnel. The echo is close to my heart, elusive, pleasant and beautiful, as wonderful as many fireworks ignited in my mind.
I knew this person would be my peer in life, and I also made up my mind not to ask him to leave me again.
The second time I saw him, I asked him to have dinner together, asked him to borrow books, and followed him to the library. Later, I took him to the Mouse Street behind the school and walked over and over again, pretending to be unable to pick what he wanted to eat, and muttered to himself: "Hey, strange, I just saw a very small door face with XX Moon Mound on it, do you see it? Just here and the street, it is a sister-in-law's sign, either a sister-in-law, a mother, or a sister."
He was searching for the store with his eyes seriously, but the smile on his face was very doting, and I knew he was also interested in me.
Later we finally found the store called Aunt Zhou Moon Moist.
In the past six months, we traveled to every corner of the campus and spent all our efforts to prepare gifts for each other. In winter, he waited for me downstairs in the dormitory, put roasted sweet potatoes or roasted corn in his arms for a while, and took them out and danced a few times. In order to ensure that the temperature was not hot and cold, it was just suitable for me to eat a big stutter on the way to class.
Then I continued to study for graduate school. He was going to Hong Kong for two years. The days separated from the two places tortured us. As soon as I met, I started crying and hugged him and said, "Let's get married!"
He stayed motionless for a long time before saying, "This should be what I said."
got married in a hurry. After getting the certificate, he went to Hong Kong and I continued to study for a postgraduate study, but the world is so big that we have become inseparable from another person. This is a heavy happiness.
parents don’t like him very much, especially their mother. She said: “The child’s eyes look gloomy, deep, thin, and rarely look at people directly. Even if he looks at you directly, it is not bright. You don’t know what is hidden.” Mom sighed. Jia Jia didn’t know what she was possessed of. She has liked such a strange temperament since she was a child. "
I was too lazy to protest. She was talking about what year she was talking about. I kept talking about things when I was in junior high school. Besides, the boy I liked in junior high school was not gloomy, but a little arrogant.
Shen Jian has his own spiritual world. When he was immersed in it, he was rarely disturbed by outsiders.
It is precisely because of this that I fell in love with him. I believe that when he entered the small family belonging to both of us, he was also completely selfless. Our small world has a barrier that outsiders cannot destroy.
Unfortunately, everything is just my imagination, or everything has exceeded my imagination.
After marriage, Shen Jian was very busy. He first joined a newspaper and mingled from the social news department to the economic news department. His article was attracted by the director of the provincial station. It is said that when he was having a meeting in Taiwan, he sent their employees a copy of " Economic Guide ", asking them to open the second page, and then waved the one in his hand and said: "For the same thing, look at other people's perspectives, other people's words, and other people's attentiveness!"
Originally, reporters never showed up, but Shen Jian was an exception, because he was soon invited to be a guest by the station, and the "commentator" in the newspaper became the commentator in the camera.
I still remember that day when I got home, he excitedly asked me to turn on the TV and watch him talking about the economy calmly and concisely in the camera.
He asked me, "How is it? Doesn't you seem to be at all stage fright? In fact, I'm so nervous that I'm pinching my fist under the table. I've practiced it many times!"
I said truthfully, "It's not easy to be able to say this when I'm on TV for the first time."
Yes, many talented people, even those who have published books and biography seriously, can't express the meaning of a few complete sentences in the face of the camera. It's really not easy for Shen Jian to be able to perform like this.
Although I am a little awkward to myself: Isn’t he able to talk to me about philosophy, literature and history all day long? Didn’t he think politics and economy were too vulgar? Now he talks about the economic environment and economic trends on TV on the page, and is full of confidence as if possessed by the stock god.
Although he spoke very well, I couldn't listen.
Shen Jian said: "Jiajia, you don't understand. Times have changed. Everyone loves to read economic arguments. Small self-employed entrepreneurs, big entrepreneurs, retail investors, dealers ... They all need to read these. These are the pulse of the times. These books and programs are popular."
I said I know, I know you are really great, you can do everything you want to do well.
Lian Fu Ling also said when contacting me, "Zhou Jiajia is still different from us, with a vision. Look, how fast your man is going to be!
Qiu Lan asked me, "Did Shen Jian make some fine adjustments? Or did the studio give him an apple light? I feel that his facial lines have become tougher, and the overall outline has become wider, which is a bit like a male anchor."
I watched him talk from TV, and I said maybe I had fed him well, or maybe he was born with a handsome appearance.
Shen Jian's reputation became very fast, and he no longer found reasons to refuse to go back to his parents' home with me. Instead, he filled the car with precious health products, and he took it one trip after another to finish it.
My mother's eyebrows were still tight, which made me unable to feel the feeling of being proud, but instead became even more nervous.
It was only a year later that I slowly understood where the tension came from: In the past, I went home with Shen Jian for dinner, he was silent, I was arrogant, but my heart was tightly locked together, and we fought against our parents' words together.
But now he talks more and more, but his distance from me has become farther and farther away.
I am not the only one who sees Shen Jian’s goodness, the female anchor in the station, the young female director, even his makeup artist, the little fans on his Weibo... There are suddenly more women around him.
He has become a lot of social engagements. Even if he is at home, he keeps calling, sending text messages, chatting with people... directing this and arranging that, never stopping.
I went to the radio station to find him, and sat waiting for him in the lobby outside the studio. I saw him walking out surrounded by a large group of flower girls. I finally got out and walked up to me.
Among those little girls, there was a narrow face and round eyes, which was obviously more beautiful and mature than other girls, and more familiar with him. When she saw me with a sharp eye, she immediately asked loudly: "Teacher Shen, who is this? Is it the teacher's wife?"
Shen Jian tilted his head and imitated her coquettish tone: "Yes! Otherwise?!"
She then lowered her fist on Shen Jian's shoulder and smiled: "Why do you learn from me?"
Then she turned to me: "Hello, Master's wife, Master Shen, you also take care of Teacher Shen, he is bad enough!"
The voice made me feel goosebumps, as if I was acting coquettish, but my eyes were full of smiles, and the corners of my mouth were collapsed, which was a sense of provocation.
I have never encountered such a thing before, and my face suddenly became ugly and ugly.
On the way home that day, Shen Jian and I had a big fight. After getting off the car, I walked in front, but he didn't catch up.
"What kind of good knowledge do you have with the little girls? I told them your identity, what else do you have to be dissatisfied with?" He repeated these two sentences.
Before I went to the station to find him for the second time, I did a beauty treatment, a new hairstyle, and wore relatively fashionable clothes, and carried my most expensive bag.
As a result, I didn't meet the little girl with narrow face and round eyes. I saw the female anchor chatting with him in the dressing room, smiling so hard that she finally fell into his arms and put her forehead on his face.
I pushed open the door with a "bang" and wanted to yell, "What are you doing?!" But Shen Jian immediately turned his head to see me, and the open surprise and confusion on his face confused me. I thought: Am I too much of a problem?
I actually stopped in front of them, stunned, completely losing the ability to speak and speak. Although there was a fire in my chest, a ball of cotton soaked in gasoline was burning there, my heartbeat was like a drumbeat, and my face was like a red of death reflected in the fire, but I couldn't say a word.
The female anchor frowned, rolled her eyes at me obscurely, and said, "Outsiders are not allowed to enter and exit the dressing room. Please wait in the lobby outside if you have anything to do?"
I don't believe she would not know me, but her words seemed to mean that she didn't know who I was.
I really wish I had such good acting skills as her, but I didn't. When I turned my head, the two little makeup artists next to me were trembling on their faces, as if I was an angry lion.
I was furious twice in just three months. It is already difficult for Shen Jian and I to communicate normally at home. As long as I say a few words, I will sarcastically point the topic to his female colleagues, and then mock and belittle everything as much as I can.
At that time, it was the climbing period of Weibo . A lot of gossip was fermenting there, and everyone did not hide it when they used Weibo. So I learned that the two people who had "extraordinary" relationships with him were not the only two people I met, but also their female producers and female anchors in another column. They all enjoyed posting scandals. They either shared their photos with Shen Jian or posted a thought of it and then took a selfie. @Teacher Shen What do you think?
They all have very suitable reasons, for work reasons, maintaining this "intimate brotherhood" with Shen Jian, and at the same time secretly gave netizens a like "good match" comment. However, when I browsed these Weibo posts, my hand holding the mouse was trembling.
My temperament seems to have changed a lot. Shen Jian and I interpreted the six sins of human nature very well: his lust and greed aroused my jealousy and anger. Then he used arrogance and laziness to deal with me, without giving in and not giving in, so I became more and more narrow-minded and mean.
The war is burning all day long.
Once, I jumped up at home and shouted, "How can you not love work? There are little bitches and old bitches who always have thick makeup and powder, waiting for you. There are too many shameless things. They surround you like flies, which are maggot-raising eggs! How suitable are you, and they are together!"
Then I took out the vases, bowls and chopsticks in the house, including fruit baskets, and Shen Jian was annoyed and stepped out of the house.
After calming down, I was finally scared by myself.
I asked myself: Zhou Jiajia, is this what you do and what you say?
4 years ago, I at least didn’t believe that I could have such remarks and actions.
At that time, I believed that time was peaceful and that husband and wife were like a zither. If we could not advance and retreat together, we would shake hands politely and say goodbye, and forget each other in the world.
But now I am hysterical at home, furious and attacking those women with the most vicious words I know. Shen Jian stared at me with the disdainful expression of watching the juggler. When he felt upset, he threw me away and went out.
Love inspires my worst side, but it is actually a deteriorating relationship - why bother, why be controlled by deteriorating and rotting.
I sat in the fragments on the ground, and in a daze, I felt the wet and cold tears between my neck.
I suddenly thought: Why bother?
So I stood up, walked out of the sunny door, called my parents, and asked them if I could go back to have a meal?
After living at home for a few months, I calmly divorced Shen Jian.
After the divorce, he took me back to his parents' home, put me down and left, never put down the car window - my parents were standing at the door waiting for me.
But I seemed to hear the whistle blew from Shen Jian. I knew that he had finally completely relaxed in front of my parents: there was no need to pretend to be "not humble or arrogant", there was no need to force himself to say "proudly", and even not paying attention to it, it was the easiest thing for him.
is so strange. After calming down, the little "intelligence" between me and him came back.
I still understand him the same as before.
I didn’t give up on love – why should I give up? I am still so outstanding and talented, I don’t mind playing a song with others.
Ensemble has the joy of ensemble.
So I met Zhao Zhihua again - he said I made him obsessed with him, I thought he was simple and cute, and the suggestions he made for my career were all shining arguments.
So I agreed to go to the appointment and try on my new skirt repeatedly at home.
My mother said behind me, "The beginning is the best."
I smiled, "Yes, everything at the beginning is always beautiful, because everyone has a sense of freshness and dizziness. They only see each other's goodness and are willing to show their own goodness. But who knows what happened later?"
I have now locked up the out-of-control beast in my heart. I was also curious about what would be released from there next time. Maybe it would be a colorful butterfly, the best side I have never seen before.
