12 "Little fish, little fish." The noisy sound of the tavern disturbed my thoughts, and the white mist of the hot pot separated the figures. When I came back to my senses, the group of people at the dinner table seemed to be still chatting. The girl next to me leaned closely agai

12

"Little fish, little fish."

The noisy sound of the tavern disturbed my thoughts, and the white mist of the hot pot separated the figures.

When I came to my senses, the group of people at the dinner table seemed to be still chatting.

The girl next to me leaned closely against me and asked me to look in one direction.

"Changhong, the project manager of their company, what do you think?"

There seemed to be a man sitting across from our table who came to greet us. He was wearing a white shirt and his short hair was neatly styled. When

caught my eye, he smiled softly at me.

"He asked me for your WeChat ID."

I shook my head, fiddled with the buckle on my handbag, and spoke to her softly for a long time.

"I have to go."

"Huh? Won't you play for a while longer?"

"My father is in the hospital. I have to rush back to take care of him."

The late autumn wind rushed into the street, and I stood in front of the restaurant. , tightening the scarf around his neck.

The fact that my father was hospitalized was of course an excuse. I called a taxi and the destination was my home.

Think about it, it seems like two years have passed since my dad was diagnosed with liver cancer.

In the past two years, he has been confessing to me non-stop. I have long been tired of hearing his heart-wrenching and heartbreaking words, so I just avoid seeing him every time.

In the second half of my senior year, he didn’t sell my place.

Thanks to the strict screening of the examination team, and my usually obedient head teacher finally stepped forward to support me.

Before he could get the money, he angrily kicked me out of the house.

He told me to get lost and told me that he didn’t have a daughter like me.

He was drunk and fell into the arms of other women.

During those days, I slept at the house of the grandmother who took in Zhou Chiyu.

slept on the same bed where Zhou Chiyu had slept, as if he could still feel his breath.

I tossed and turned at night, suddenly hid in bed and cried to myself.

I would always cry at that time. I knew no one would watch me crying, and I knew crying wouldn’t solve the problem. But sometimes I couldn’t stop crying while doing the questions.

Sometimes I think of Zhou Chiyu and want to ask him why he left me here.

I tossed and turned and crushed his name so many times in the nights that were so quiet, with only the neighing of wild cats.

Later, I was admitted to the school I wanted to attend.

I was the only one on the day of check-in. I carried my luggage upstairs and made the bed myself. My roommate’s mother praised me.

said that I am very mature and sensible, and at such a young age, I can take care of my own things in an orderly manner.

...

After graduating from college, I joined the workforce and left a place that was too fragmented to be called "home".

squeezed into the crowd, like thousands of young people looking for their own destination.

In the year when my career first started to improve, I heard that my mother and that man had divorced, and I also heard that my father had liver cancer.

I still sent my dad to the hospital. He had gone through a lot of surgeries and seemed to be thinking a lot, and he felt more and more guilty about me.

I was busy with work, so I only went to see him a few times. Every time I left, he would always ask me in a trembling voice to stand there and let him take another look.

He said that he dreamed that when I was a child, I clamored to go to the amusement park to play on the plane, and he took me to play instead of locking me in an empty home.

He said that he still had some money left in his account and gave it all to me, although I may not need it now.

There are some things, I know it has passed, but it is stuck in the throat, I can't say it.

......

This year's autumn seems to be colder than before.

A cloud of white mist dispersed in the air. I got out of the car and walked slowly towards home.

I had drunk some wine, but I was not yet delirious. The fallen leaves in the distance were scattered golden under the light, and I stopped.

I'm not drunk.

Me neither, maybe it was a dream.

Under the street lamp stood a man wearing a black trench coat, but that face could bring up my endless thoughts.

is Zhou Yuchi...

He always reminds me of that time in high school, when there was a person who was my only white boat in the endless night sea.

The fluttering autumn leaves fell on Zhou Chiyu's head. When he saw me, boundless stars suddenly flashed in his eyes.

"..."

I passed him and walked quickly into the corridor.

He seemed to be stunned for a moment, and wanted to chase me, but he didn't run so close...

We didn't speak, I walked faster and faster, the night was silent, I was walking on the stairs on the upper floor, and he was on the lower floor tightly. Follow me.

The brisk steps under my feet gradually turned into running. I heard my breathing clearly. The voice-activated lights at the entrance of the corridor lit up one by one because of us.

My home is on the fourth floor, but when I came to my senses, I had already seen the door to the rooftop.

When I opened the door, the autumn wind rushed over.

I lifted up my skirt and wanted to step onto the rooftop.

"Don't go, be careful of catching a cold."

He finally spoke. Behind me, he seemed to have run away, his voice was muffled and hoarse.

I turned my head and glanced at him. The wind lifted the black hair from his forehead, and the neon light from the opposite building reflected in his eyes. He really hadn't changed at all.

"You don't listen to me, Lin Xiaoyu."

He followed me and walked into the rooftop together.

"My hair has grown longer."

"It seems to have grown taller too."

I didn't respond, so he continued talking on his own.

I turned around and looked at him, the autumn moon hung brightly behind him, as if he knew I couldn't forget him.

"You have become more talkative, Zhou Chiyu."

He was stunned for a moment and seemed unable to react.

I took a few steps forward and looked up into his eyes.

"Have you not heard this name for a long time?"

"After all, everything you told me is false, even the name."

In this night, I can actually count his eyelashes.

He chuckled and leaned down slightly, his breath almost spraying on my face.

"Are you angry?"

I distanced myself from him.

turned around and leaned against the railing, his eyes following me closely.

"I have been looking for you after... I ousted all my father's influence."

He spoke softly and slowly approached me.

"I've been looking for it for about... a few months. You've traveled really far."

"What have you been laughing at all these years?"

He stopped and raised his eyebrows.

"A filial son."

I pointed at him.

"You are talking about your father."

"Yes."

He deserves to be candid.

"I was still in a relationship, and he took me away. How could I not hate him?"

His eyes were wet and sticky, with profound meaning.

"Zhou Chiyu, I will never forgive you for leaving without saying goodbye!"

I shouted to him when a gust of wind blew up.

Such a tall building has no autumn leaves, but the desolation and loneliness in the sky wrap around the human body.

I squinted my eyes, and the alcohol seemed to be burning in my chest again.

"Okay, then I won't forgive you."

He just said it so gently.

"I'm not having a good life, Zhou Chiyu."

"I know."

"I didn't see you when I came back from training that day. I was really scared."

"..."

"You never came back after that. I I will always miss you."

"..."

"You have never come back, so I will gradually stop missing you."

"Why did you show up today?"

"Do you know that you have How annoying, how annoying you are, do you know how long it took me to forget you?"

Do you know that the day you left, the world of Lin Xiaoyu, who was 17 or 18 years old, went dark. .

I wanted to scold him, but I also wanted to hug him. The night breeze was too cold.

I really should have listened to him, otherwise, I wouldn’t have suddenly hiccupped in the middle of the sentence.

The atmosphere created by this book ended abruptly, and I turned my head away in embarrassment.

He laughed, leaned over and asked me.

"Will you follow me?"

"No."

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

"No."

"Do you like Zhou Chiyu?"

"No."

He came closer to me, cumming The straight bridge of his nose rubbed the tip of my nose.

"But I love you, Lin Xiaoyu."

13

The glass windows of the tall buildings in the distance still reflected the lights of thousands of families. I have never heard such straightforward words.

We were too close, so I could clearly see the autumn leaves rippling in his eyes, a gorgeous hazy color that enveloped me.

I looked at him and smiled, shaking my head.

The wind on the rooftop suddenly picked up, and I passed him by.

...

refused Zhou Chiyu, I thought my life would be peaceful.

My boss introduced me to him in the dance hall where music was slowly flowing in my ears.

The secretary who accompanied the boss to the annual meeting of an important cooperative company had an emergency at home. I was just rushing to get on the shelves, but I didn't expect such a coincidence.

I met him right after I arrived.

It was the first time I saw him wearing a suit, and the strands of hair on his forehead were pushed back to his head, giving him a chilly look.

When we shook hands, his hands were also cold.

falls apart at the first touch, as if it doesn't want to hold my hand for one more second.

The way he looked at me was no different from how he looked at other people. The boss was still trying his best to curry favor with him, while I stood aside and went about my business elsewhere.

His behavior is like the first time I met him.

gives people a sense of distance, indifference and calmness. In fact, if you think about it, he had the aura of a superior person at that time.

Later, there were more and more people chatting with Zhou Chiyu, and the boss couldn't squeeze in, so he slowly walked over to me.

"Is he very powerful?"

I asked the boss. When I went to see him again, a lady came to him with a younger girl.

The girl's words and deeds were very elegant, and she wore a long dress that looked extremely expensive. It was completely incomparable to a dress like mine that cost several hundred to rent.

"You mean Boss Zhou? Haha, who in the Zhou family is not great?"

"He is indeed young and promising, and he has not had any big troubles in the past few years at the helm of the Zhou family..."

The boss glanced at me and remembered What, wave your hand at me.

"You are not attracted to him, are you? Let me tell you, there are many girls like you."

"There is no chance. People like him can only be with the right person. For example, here."

followed his gaze and saw that it was the girl just now. She looked very ladylike, pursed her lips and smiled at him.

It turns out that such an outstanding girl also likes him.

"I also feel that I can't reach him."

I nodded, took a glass of champagne from the waiter's tray next to me, clinked the glass with the boss, and drank it in one gulp.

...

The banquet was an extremely boring and long process. The boss thought that I couldn't speak or hold up the wine, so he told me to stay and cool down.

I walked to the courtyard outside the hotel with a sad feeling that my year-end bonus was about to be lost.

There are beautiful roses growing in the garden. It is quiet and remote. I just took a few steps and was suddenly pulled to a dark corner.

After seeing Zhou Chiyu's dark eyes, I swallowed the scream that surged into my throat.

"What a coincidence."

I don't know why, but when I saw him, I felt a little guilty.

"Unfortunately."

He said, holding the cigarette in his mouth, and sprayed it on my face.

"I'm following you."

"..."

"I still don't understand why you rejected me."

He came closer to me, the silence of the tobacco mixed with the coolness of the cologne on his body, eroding it bit by bit. My sense of smell.

"Fortunately, I don't want to think about it anymore. If you refuse you, I will snatch you away."

"I don't want to be your brother anymore."

The person in front of me held a cigarette in his mouth and pushed me against the corner. The moonlight hung down melodiously, illuminating his sloppy face dimly.

He raised his eyebrows and gently scratched the mole at the corner of my eye with his finger.

"Be my girlfriend.

"You have to agree even if you don't agree."

"..."

I tried to see something drunk or sober in his eyes, but there was nothing there, only a scary dark red color of paranoia.

I attributed everything to him being drunk too much, broke away from him, and walked towards the end of the courtyard.

He followed me again like last time, neither of us spoke, passing through the rose bushes, and at the end of the road was a fountain mixed with floating light.

I took off my high heels, walked into the pool, stood at a slightly higher position and looked down at him.

raised the water arc, and the crystal and bright light splashed towards him. He didn't hide and was caught in the shower.

There were still a few drops of water hanging from his eyelashes, and he trembled, but he just raised his head and looked at me quietly.

"Zhou Chiyu, the distance between us is too far."

"Not far."

I never knew he was so stubborn.

"If you are really a gangster wandering on the street."

I lowered my head and looked into his eyes, where brilliant light was reflected, and I even saw my own shadow, swaying.

"I think I should be able to be with you."

"Does it matter who I am?"

He put his pockets in his pockets and took two steps forward. The fountain was gurgling behind us. Light bubbles rippled around him, and his eyes stared at me.

"It's very important." I said softly.

"It's not like I don't have money, and it's not like I can't give you a future, why are you..."

He stepped forward to grab my wrist, but I dodged it, causing the water to splash and create a circle of ripples.

"It's just because you have money, it's just because you can give me anything."

I sniffed, and he looked at me blankly.

"Our lives are inherently different. Your starting point is the end point that I will never reach in my life. I live in a crowded and dirty home. I have no one

and no one loves me. But you are different. "

"You have seen such a prosperous scene. Your office is on the top floor of the tallest building in the city. They all hope that you will marry a young lady from a prominent family."

"Zhou Chi Desire, I have nothing. You and I are not from the same world. You will leave me."

"I won't."

He hugged my waist suddenly and pulled me into his arms. .

He held me tightly, so tight that I thought he wanted to melt me ​​into his body.

"You can."

"Be good, don't think so much, I can't." He said.

I looked at the water splashing from the fountain, and the bustling lights fell mottled on the rose bushes. His hands kneaded into my hair and smoothed it down step by step.

"But, Zhou Chiyu, it's not like you have never left me."

I told him hoarsely, and his body seemed to freeze suddenly.

"You will eventually leave, you will get tired of me, and then throw me away."

"You will eventually marry the right lady. I know, just like eight years ago, it will be out of necessity or some mess.

reason, you will leave me, you will definitely leave me."

"I will never believe you again, Zhou Chiyu..."

He lowered his head and kissed me.

All the words I had no time to say were blocked between his lips and teeth.

It was like he was going to eat me.

I thought he was not such an aggressive person.

It wasn’t until my legs were weak from his kiss that he held my waist, which kept me from falling.

's breathing sounded clearly in his ears, his eyes were a little vicious, and he was a little unspeakably panicked.

He just told me repeatedly that he couldn't.

When the water light fell, his embrace was hot. He bit my name and made a promise in a hoarse and sticky voice, on a lonely and starry night.

We are all confused.

14

My dad was transferred from the general ward to the VIP ward.

also wants to know who did it.

I called Zhou Chiyu and told him that it was not necessary. It was not worth spending so much money for such a person.

He just passed by lightly and asked me what I wanted to eat tonight.

"..."

"Zhou Chiyu."

"Huh?"

"Are you chasing me?"

"Hmm."

's voice was slightly hoarse, but distinct.

"You know, you are actually quite famous."

I took a breath and said through gritted teeth.

"When your car drove downstairs of our company, my colleagues talked about whether I was being kept, and my boss tried to fawn over me."

He chuckled, obviously very satisfied with the result.

"That's not good."

"What's better! You make me feel... everything about me is not because of myself."

"Yes, Lin Xiaoyu, you have to be careful . ”

His smile did not diminish, and he was clearly plotting against me.

"I just want you to be unable to live without me."

"..."

Zhou Chiyu may look cold and cool, but in fact there is always a spirit of unwillingness to admit defeat.

is also the same when it comes to chasing me.

Zhou Chiyu has actually reduced my pressure on my dad, especially since his old man has been seriously ill recently and has been admitted to ICU several times, which is probably the end of it.

I looked at the old man sleeping in the ward through the glass. It was the first time in these years that I looked at him seriously.

I don’t know when his hair turned so white, but I heard the nurse mention that he doesn’t like to eat.

I know that the nurses and doctors in this building don't like me.

Because I always left my dad in the cold ward, and every time I went to see him, there were not many smiling faces.

When the doctor talked to me about his condition, he also told me in a roundabout way to spend more time with him, but I just ignored him.

I admit that I am somewhat vindictive, even though he is just a critically ill old man now, even if he begs me to forgive him.

But every time I call him, the sound is stuck in my throat, and I always think of how he and those strange women overlapped on rainy nights.

I will always think of how many times he forgot me at the school gate while he was picking me up, and waited quietly until dark.

I will always think of him in a dark and claustrophobic room, like a ferocious beast, roaring at me to sell my hard-earned ranking in exchange for money for him to gamble.

……

When my dad left, I was in a meeting.

Actually, I saw it. The call was from the hospital’s number. The hospital would call him every time he was critically ill.

I looked out the window that day and saw dark clouds, as if I had a premonition.

But I still didn’t answer the call. The hospital called me several times, but I didn’t answer it. Finally, at six o’clock in the evening, I received the text message.

probably had no choice but to send me a text message, telling me that my dad’s rescue efforts were ineffective and asked me to see him for the last time.

It was raining heavily on the way to the hospital.

There was still a traffic jam on the elevated highway. I stared at the window glass wiped by the wiper. The car lights were scattered into different shapes by the water marks. The driver in front of me kept honking the horn over and over again.

I wonder, is he really gone?

He is dead, really dead.

When I was young, I cursed him to death for countless days and nights, and now he finally went to hell as I said that day.

The temperature in the morgue was cool and piercing my skin. I finally looked at him covered with white cloth. His dead face could not be described as peaceful.

The doctor patted my shoulder and spoke to me gently.

"When he left, he kept talking about wanting to see his little daughter for the last time."

"So what is there... that cannot be reconciled before death and must be taken after death?"

"..."

That day The rain was really heavy.

I was sitting on the bench in front of the hospital, looking at the rainwater leaking under the eaves. People here were always in a hurry. The ambulance drove over with the red light on, and carried out a person who was covered in blood, a little boy. He followed them like crazy, shouting heartbreakingly, "Daddy, Daddy."

The rain soaked those people, and the dark night was an endless torture. I felt a little cold, and stood for a while, thinking that I should go back, but I found that my eyes were so sore after staring at one place for too long.

raised his head and suddenly fell into a pair of dark eyes. Zhou Chiyu held the umbrella above my head like this many years ago. The rain hit the umbrella surface, and he lowered his head and looked at me quietly.

Without any warning, I pounced on him, and he staggered when I hit him. In order to catch me, the umbrella fell off his hand and slipped in the rain.

How long did it take after I hugged his neck? I have never cried so loudly.

Did the rain cover up my crying? I only know that he hugged me very tightly. I couldn't feel the warmth. It seemed that something was slowly dying in my heart.

"Zhou Chiyu, really I am the only one left. Really, no one is here anymore. I don't have anyone anymore. I only have myself, Zhou Chiyu..."

I called his name over and over again. , as if you can desire something from it.

He didn't say anything and let me vent my anger. The autumn rain and wind roared by, and I shook violently.

He took off his coat and wrapped it around me, lifted my chin and let me look into his eyes.

His eyes still have the light of twilight, and have the autumn color of ripples in the fallen leaves.

"Yes, Lin Xiaoyu, you are the only one left."

My eyes couldn't focus, so I could only look at him in confusion. He put his head against my forehead, so hot.

"But so what? In this hour, this minute, this second, I am standing in front of you."

"You said I would leave you, yes, it is possible, I don't know if I will I won't lose you in a flash of my mind, but so what?"

"Am I in front of you now, am I yours now?"

"Lin Xiaoyu."

" If one day I lose you, then I hope my memories with you are as bright and beautiful as that. "

What did he say to me that day?

didn't seem to be trying to comfort me, it seemed like he was trying to talk to me.

I only know that I held him and cried for a long time, and my voice became hoarse. In the end, I couldn't cry anymore, so I huddled in his arms and slowly fell asleep.

When I woke up, there was a glimmer of light in the sky. I was on his back. I pulled his collar and talked to him in a hoarse voice.

"I am the only one left."

"You just said last night that you are not alone."

"What did I say?"

"You said you were willing to let me stay by your side for the rest of your life." ”

15

The heating in the car was quite sufficient, so I turned around and asked Zhou Chiyu who had parked the car.

"Do I look good today?"

He leaned over to help me take off my seat belt and kissed the corner of my mouth.

"It looks good."

"Well, you said that your mother is a teacher. I feel that she should like me more, because my temperament has been more popular with teachers since I was a child."

I turned around to show him, and he leaned on it The car door chuckled and he came over to hold my hand.

"Why are you shaking? Don't be afraid."

...I am indeed a little nervous.

This is the first time I have met Zhou Chiyu’s parents. Based on Zhou Chiyu’s descriptions in the past, I always felt that they were a strict and old-fashioned couple.

has strict rules and will send me away with a multi-million check.

The yard is well taken care of. This is the first time I have seen a home that is equipped with a gardener.

The entire villa is very stylish, but it is not just for showing off wealth, but also has a solemn and traditional beauty.

"Young master, you are back for the Chinese New Year. Who is this?"

A middle-aged man holding a water pipe to water the flowers in the garden had a loud voice, stopping Zhou Chi from yelling as he was about to pass him directly to go home.

I shrank behind Zhou Chiyu.

"This is my girlfriend."

Zhou Chiyu lifted me out from behind him.

introduced me to that man again.

"This is my dad."

"..."

your father?

Why does your father call you young master?

The middle-aged man and I seemed to be shocked by his words at the same time. The man put the water pipe aside and looked me up and down.

"Is this your girlfriend? Are you talking nonsense? How can you bring such a normal girlfriend home?"

"..."

Zhou Chiyu ignored our doubts and took my hand and pulled me home.

His father was chattering behind us.

"Didn't you just tell me last year that you were going to bring a 70-year-old woman home for a New Year's Eve party, and make me mad?"

"Didn't you also say that you won't go home this year? Don't you want to stay home for a second?"

"This little girl is so charming. Why don't we, young master Zhou, stop harming others and find an old lady to have a twilight love affair?"

"..."

Zhou Chi His father has a tone towards him that is somewhere between childish and a middle-aged man who likes to mock others.

"My dad has been doing this to me since he brought me home last time."

"Maybe he was afraid that he would be too hard on me and I ran away from home again. Now he will blame me if he gets the chance."

Brought to the sofa, he whispered in my ear.

then changed the topic and looked at me with a chuckle.

"What do you want to drink?"

I was just about to say casually, when his father walked up to us with his hands behind his back.

"Young man, please have some hot tea!"

After saying this, he sat down on the sofa without any hesitation. There was a complete set of tea-making equipment on the coffee table, and he began to boil water skillfully.

"Uncle, this Tieguanyin is not something ordinary people can drink."

seemed to be speaking to me, but he didn't look at me, and he was not angry or intimidating. It was like being called to talk by the dean in high school. He must have He is a man who has been in official circles for a long time.

"Don't scare the child."

A gentle voice sounded from behind me. You could tell at a glance that this woman was Zhou Chiyu's mother. Her facial features were similar and she was well-maintained. She put her hand gently on mine. on the shoulders.

"What's your name?"

"Lin Xiaoyu."

"Countless little fishes are jumping around, shaking silver flowers on the bottom of the glass plate. What a good name."

"..."

I guess my dad gave it to me. The name is for fish, not as much as you might think.

"Young master, you haven't played chess for a long time, right? Let's play a game."

Zhou Chiyu's father seems to be very happy to call him young master. Every time he calls him, Zhou Chiyu's face becomes a little darker. This time He rolled up his sleeves, murderous intent gradually rising.

"Come on, don't pretend to be drunk and flip the chessboard over for me like last time."

My only understanding of chess was the community league held by the old man at the gate of the community. Seeing that there was nothing wrong with me, I stood up and said I want to help my aunt.

...

His mother said she was preparing in the kitchen, but she seemed to be just watching the servants busying about.

saw me coming and waved to me.

The woman has a natural warmth and friendliness. She put on her reading glasses and clicked on her cell phone to show me her cell phone photo album.

"Come on, let me show you how Congee was when he was a kid. His dad just uploaded the photos to my phone the day before yesterday."

There are a lot of photos in the album, most of which are re-photographs. The little boy in the picture is cute to begin with. Love becomes more and more abnormal later on.

Climbing trees, jumping in mud puddles, fighting, hanging prizes...

This is simply not the childhood that a normal boy should have.

"When Congee was little, he was just like a little devil. You know, the one with two horns."

"His rebellious period was ridiculously long. When I was in elementary school, I was called over for a parent-teacher meeting. Seven or eight times in one semester, no exaggeration."

"..."

I used to pity Zhou Chiyu for having parents with rigid tutors, but now I pity his parents for having such a prickly son.

"His father is the kind of person who can't bear that his child is inferior to others, so he forces him to study. The struggle between the father and the father started when he was born. When he refused to drink milk when he was a child, his father would put a bottle in his mouth. Drink."

"..."

"Now that I think about it, hey, it's quite fun. His father has gradually figured it out in the past few years. Let him do it. After all, it is the world of young people...

Well, Xiaoyu , I haven’t heard you talk about your parents yet.”

The topic detoured to this aspect, and I felt a little stunned.

Yes, which parent doesn’t care what kind of people his in-laws are.

The soup was bubbling. I sighed in my heart and answered truthfully.

"My father is gone and my mother has remarried. I guess... she doesn't want to interfere with my affairs."

"..."

The woman still smiled softly, with warm silver light shining in her eyes.

"Really, then when you get married, you have to change your name to me as mom."

...

After I put all the dishes on the table, Zhou Chiyu's father was the most impatient.

"Hey, we can't play anymore, let's eat and eat!"

The chess pieces were neat and tidy. Zhou Chiyu sighed and sat down beside me helplessly.

poked me and whispered in my ear.

"Eat more, don't be embarrassed."

I nodded, not nervous at all, as if they wanted to integrate me intentionally or unintentionally. They would always bring up some topics for me during the meal, he My father was a bit clumsy. He often asked me some military questions that I was not interested in during the conversation, and his mother would naturally switch to some gentle questions.

I have never had such a meal with anyone like this.

It turns out that Zhou Chiyu's family is like this. His father can't help but start teasing him and praising him after eating half of it, which is somewhat ironic.

The two of them started to get angry at each other as they ate, and their mother didn't try to dissuade them. She only had a handful of melon seeds in her hands with her eyes bent.

There is a layer of ice outside the window, but it is warm indoors. The dishes are all home-cooked, but the taste is first-class. I think of the time when I stayed at home alone

and spent the Chinese New Year for myself, even a bowl of instant noodles. Cook until tender.

feels like home for the first time.

16

After dinner, his father seemed to continue to want me to talk, but Zhou Chiyu pulled me into the yard first.

The snow that just fell a few days ago has not melted yet, and a small stone path was shoveled out. I called Zhou Chiyu’s name from behind, and he turned around.

A small snowball happened to hit his arms.

He was stunned and raised his eyebrows.

was approaching me step by step, and this gentle smile made me a little scared. Suddenly I remembered that his mother said that he was just a little devil, and the smile on the corner of his mouth had a sinister meaning.

He blocked me in a small pavilion in the courtyard and raised his hand to sweep the snow off my head.

"Why are you running, huh?"

I looked up at him, and the white breath I exhaled rushed towards him. Is it too cold? I groaned and smiled stupidly at him.

His eyes darkened, and he lowered his head to kiss me.

I hid, but he held my waist. His hands were a little restless and hooked on the edge of my clothes. I told him that I was cold, and his hands stopped.

"Are you still scared now?"

He rubbed my lips and talked to me.

"What are you afraid of?"

"Afraid that I will leave you."

"Afraid."

He lowered his head and continued to nibble on my lips.

"Hey, please don't, Zhou Chiyu."

It was like this again. My legs were weak from his kiss. I was held in his arms and looked at him with eyes raised.

"I love you."

His words were straightforward, and his breath hit my ears , making my heart tremble.

"I'm tired of hearing this, change it."

I put my arms around his neck.

"You are my salvation, the treasure I hold in my heart, and the girl I dare not forget in this life."

"So disgusting, Zhou Chiyu."

I stood on tiptoe and buried my face in him of the neck.

He hummed, sounding soft and hoarse.

The light from the horizon broke through the twilight of the starfield, and the tiny streams of light flashed one by one, and the bright white moon hung dazzlingly in the sky.

I didn’t tell him, I was afraid.

I am afraid that he will leave, that his parents will not like me, that I will be criticized by the outside world, and that I will be ridiculed by others.

But he gave me the courage to face all this.

Facing the starlight, you can move forward without fear.

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