01. One wave comes after another. I just stayed in the hospital for half a month. A few days after being discharged, my third sister fell down while riding a bike and was injured again, so we were admitted to the hospital again. Even healthy people will naturally become sick once

01. One wave after another

I just stayed in the hospital for half a month, and a few days after being discharged, my third sister fell down while riding a bicycle again, and we were admitted to the hospital again. Even healthy people will naturally become sick once they live in this place for a long time.

Here, there is constant noise every day, irregular work and rest, and everyone is lackluster. Even though it was past three o'clock in the morning, the ward was still bustling with activity. There were sounds of people watching videos on their mobile phones, flushing toilets, shouts due to pain, and people walking in the corridor... There was no silence for a moment.

During the day, there was an endless stream of relatives and friends of the patients in each bed coming to visit. The small ward was crowded with people and steaming. Even in such an environment, as long as they have nothing to do for themselves, the caregiver will choose to catch up on their sleep. Whether sitting on a chair or lying on the edge of the bed, they can usually fall asleep.

Because I have to take care of patients, as a caregiver, I usually sleep day and night. Only when I am tired and sleepy and my body cannot support it, can I have a chance to breathe. (This refers to family caregivers, and I am also a person who has experienced it myself).

02. When the body is extremely tired, it can actually ignore everything around it.

Recently, I stayed up late to take care of my sister. At around 7:00 in the morning, I drifted off to sleep.

html Around 08.30, the doctor came in for rounds, but I had no idea. I heard that the doctor called me several times but didn't wake me up. I slept until 6:00 in the afternoon. When I woke up, I felt incredible. I didn't take care of my sister at all this day. How did she solve every problem?

Later she told me that I was too tired and she couldn’t bear to disturb me. When I encountered a problem that I really couldn't solve, I asked other attendants in the same ward to help. As a result, everyone was very enthusiastic, including many strangers who came to visit patients in other beds.

After hearing what she said, I was very touched. This is the warmth between people. Even if they never know each other, they are still willing to lend a helping hand.

03. Why are you so tired? Because you can only rely on yourself.

The doctor told us over and over again: "There are risks in any operation. You must tell your parents. Don't say nothing." But what's the use of telling it? In addition to increasing sadness, it also adds new worries.

Ever since I can remember, I have felt that my life has been extremely tiring. It’s not like my parents were born to be their child, but more like they were born to let me be the elder of their family.

When I was a child, it was my essential responsibility to take care of my younger siblings. Even matters such as how to register for them were my sole responsibility. It cannot be said that the parents are bad, but that they lack the ability to deal with problems.

Just like my sister's surgery this time, once I tell them, apart from worrying and crying, they can't do anything to help, and it will only add extra burden. Every day I have to answer crying calls from them, take care of my sister who is undergoing surgery, and find ways to comfort my parents. Thinking about how tiring that would be, I might as well not say anything.

I've had surgery before, but I received nothing from my parents other than their tears and increased anxiety. For them, everything is a big deal, and when they encounter problems, tears are the best way to solve them.

So every time we present family matters to our parents, most of them are already handled. Sometimes I think about it, and I am very grateful to them. After all, they have given me enough training since I was a child.

Although sometimes it is really tiring, it is also a kind of gain; if I didn’t have so much training and experienced so many things, how could I know how to take responsibility, and how could I learn the ability to solve problems.