For Tanya Tanya, this took her nearly twenty years - on July 18, Tanya Tanya, wearing a deep V dress, slowly appeared on the stage of the press conference with Universal Music.

Interview and writing: Beijing News reporter Yang Chang

Character photography: Beijing News reporter Guo Yanbing

New media editor: Wu Dongni

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How difficult is it to return to the arms of your “first love” and tie the knot with him again? For Tanya , this took her nearly twenty years - on July 18, Tanya Tanya, wearing a deep V dress, slowly stepped onto the press conference stage to hold a signing ceremony with Universal Music. Facing the VCR that detailed her music history on the background wall, Tanya Chua's eyes were a little moist. After all, it has been almost 20 years since she released her first Mandarin album on Universal PolyGram.

"It's hard to be a human being, and it's even harder to be a talented woman." During the conversation with the host, Tanya Tanya nodded with emotion. Over the years, she has experienced the era of record companies such as Universal, Warner, and Yashen, and has grown from a female singer-songwriter to a gold medal music producer. She is the first artist to win the Taiwan Golden Melody Award for Best Mandarin Female Singer three times. However, in addition to the joy of harvest, this journey is also full of uncertainty and sadness.

Character Photography/ Beijing News Reporter Guo Yanbing

“From being a singer-songwriter who was not in the situation when he debuted, he slowly entered a process of finding himself. At one time he lost his direction and wanted to give up making music, but then he finally made up his mind to be himself. Rebuilding and finding out who Tanya Tanya is, this is my life.” After the

press conference, Tanya Tanya accepted an exclusive interview with a reporter from the Beijing News. She admitted that her current life no longer revolves around music, so through those serious or naughty words and sentences, you can not only see the "musician" Tanya Chua who is working hard in the recording studio, but also the Internet emoticons. Of course, the "crazy" Tanya Tsai, the "baker" who makes baking desserts as her main business, will definitely not be absent.

PART 1: Main business or side business

"If I can't write a song, I will bake desserts with all my strength"

"Has my Weibo recently become 'Tanya Tanya's Food Diary'?" One day in July, Soda Green sang the lead singer Wu Qingfeng said with emotion.

Since the break from the group on New Year's Day this year, Qingfeng revealed that he has gained seven kilograms, and behind the scenes when his weight reached the peak of his life, he identified Tanya Chua as the culprit. "I bear half of the responsibility," Tanya Tanya admitted with a smile, "because he is closest to me and we are neighbors. He seems to be following me all the time. Wherever I move, he moves there. ”

You can see Tanya Chua’s baking works on Wu Qingfeng’s Weibo every now and then.

Anyone who has followed Tanya Chua’s Weibo knows the power of her use of desserts to incite hatred. “I like to put poison late at night and am very ‘perverted’.” Tanya Chua said, “You will see when you come to my house. Although my kitchen is small, it is very ‘perverted’. It is already a professional baking dessert kitchen, and it is full of everything, pots, baking sheets, and all kinds of things. "

In the first half of last year, Tanya went to France to study for three months. Baking, regardless of fans’ crazy comments about “losing one’s energy with toys”, she is still baking desserts with all her strength recently, “My attitude towards making desserts, every friend will be scared to death by me when they see it, because as long as one dessert fails, , I would cook day and night, keep baking, even if I spend all my money, I still have to buy ingredients to achieve my ideal state. I once really came across a recipe that completely defeated me. The Japanese matcha zebra cheesecake is similar to a soufflé. I didn’t expect that the first time I made it, it went bang in the oven, and it felt like a flat tire after it came out. It was a huge shock to me at that moment. I tried it again, with the same result. , and changed to another recipe, still the same. At that time, I didn’t care about my own life, and repeated it, and finally succeeded in baking it. "

After many failures (left), Tanya Chua finally succeeded in making this Japanese recipe. Matcha Zebra Cheesecake.The picture comes from the artist’s Weibo

. This kind of persistence makes Tanya Tanya’s friends talk about it. In fact, this comes from the habit she has developed over the years while making albums, "Because she always asks herself to do her best. If there is no upper limit, she will get into trouble."

When faced with questions such as "Dessertist, please ask. "How is your amateur songwriting work going?" In the message, Tanya Tanya also revealed her writing habits, "I have a concentrated volcanic eruption period about once or twice a year. When inspiration comes, I put myself together with the piano and guitar. I locked myself in the house and didn’t go out for a week or two. At most, I wrote 30 songs at a time. The outbreak period of 2017 has not yet come, so you can tell that I am still baking desserts, haha. 2: From the trough to the peak

A. The 17th Golden Melody Award: "Amphibians" is the time when I want to give up the most.

Tanya Tanya is the first artist to win the Taiwan Golden Melody Award for Best Mandarin Female Singer three times. "Actually, these three times The impressions are very classic and profound,” she said.

On January 28, 1975, Tanya Tanya was born in Singapore . She studied business administration at the Polytechnic and has loved singing and performing since she was a child. Later, she became the lead singer of a bar resident band. When discussing song arrangements, a band member said, "You are a girl, what kind of music do you know?" She silently bought a guitar and guitar tabs, determined to make excellent music. work.

First Mandarin album

In 1997, Tanya Tanya released her first English album "Bored" in Singapore. In 1999, she signed a contract with PolyGram and released her first Mandarin album "Tanya Tanya". Since then, this talented music star has entered the public eye. . Tanya Tanya bluntly said that in the first 10 years since her debut, she was completely out of shape. “I only knew that I could write songs, but I never thought about becoming a singer, and I didn’t know what to do on stage, so I just It would be very stressful and there would be no sense of accomplishment.”

After entering the record company, Tanya Tanya found that after she finished producing each album, some of her employees would leave. "Why do I have to meet new colleagues every time? Why are everyone leaving? Is it because I'm not good enough?" The creator's delicate thoughts always make her concerned. After experiencing the development of Universal PolyGram, Tanya Tanya signed with Warner Records. Since then, she has experienced the most lack of self-confidence in her life -

"At that time, there was a new opportunity, which was to sing popular songs written by others. I tried to please everyone when it came to singing, but at the same time, I began to doubt myself. I originally made music because I could write songs, but now you don’t let me write songs and only want me to sing because I don’t like it. Did I write the song?" Gradually, Tanya Chua felt like an "unwanted orphan" who had been "pushed around" by others.

"Amphibians"

At the 17th Taiwan Golden Melody Awards in 2006, Tanya Tanya won the Best Female Singer Award. Picture/Visual China

"The time when I wanted to give up the most was during the album "Amphibian". Halfway through the production, it was suddenly stopped. I didn't know the reason at all. Then it took half a year to continue, The promotion period after the release was very short, so I thought, okay, after the album was finished, we could all get together and leave music. But instead, that album won the Golden Melody Award. Life was so wonderful that time. Winning the award really gave me a boost, and I said to myself, 'Cheer up, kid, you can really continue to make music, but you have to understand the situation.'"

B. The 19th Golden Melody Award: "Goodbye Hello", After experiencing unforgettable feelings

it is a habit of Tanya Tsai to settle herself in a strange environment. Not long after she won her first Best Female Singer trophy, she went to India alone.

During her days in India, Tanya Tanya learned yoga. The muscle lines on her arms are still the "legacy" left by her long-term practice of yoga. She also re-experienced the charm of music there - "At that time, after doing yoga every day, I would go to a friend's house with a group of students and play music.We also often go to coffee shops to perform small performances at night. Everyone brings small musical instruments, and I also bring a small guitar to sing there. No one knew that I was a singer. Those foreign students kept applauding after hearing me sing and said that your song was so good. I was very moved and felt that making music must have this feeling on stage. "

"GoodbyeHello"

The original enthusiasm brought by this kind of music made Tanya Tanya decide to return to her identity as a singer and songwriter. After returning to Taiwan, she signed a record contract with Yashen Music, and her first album after signing the contract The album "Goodbye Hello" is regarded by Tanya Tanya as a complete turning point in her life, "It really allowed me to return to the path of singer-songwriter and find myself. The company told me, why don't you do the album production yourself? I really shamelessly said yes, yes, I'll take care of it, but in fact I don't know how to do it at all. Fortunately, my mother treated me as a boy when I was a child, so I may have some sensitivity to machines. In addition, I used to stand behind the producer and observe details, which allowed me to 'give birth' to this album by myself. "

At the 19th Taiwan Golden Melody Awards in 2008, Tanya Tanya won the Best Mandarin Female Singer Award. Picture/Visual China

"Goodbye Hello" not only won Tanya Tanya the best female singer, but also won the best album producer, "Darwin "" blank space " and many other masterpieces are from this album. "I just experienced a very unforgettable relationship during that time, so all the elements combined made me very inspired. I think the Best Album Producer Award is really a gift from God to me. Maybe the judges saw that I was very concerned about face and insisted on making an album well. "

The 23rd Golden Melody Award: " Speaking of Love ", the darkest, so dark that I can't breathe

Tanya Tanya has two very conspicuous tattoos on her arms, one is a scripture she often recites, and the other is an English The word "Breathe" is a song composed by Tanya Chua, but this tattoo comes from a dark time.

Tanya Chua's parents divorced when she was young, and she has always been unwilling to treat her father. During the production of "Speaking of Love", Tanya Chua experienced physical torture from chest tightness, and her father also passed away during that time. "I really couldn't breathe and couldn't control my voice. , I couldn’t sing on stage, which really affected my health. It was my darkest and darkest time, and I was in a very bad state. The death of my father is actually the loss of a familiar yet unfamiliar person, which is really emotionally taxing. "

"Speaking of Love"

"Speaking of Love" is actually a healing album. "I made such a positive album, but I have to spend a lot of effort to control it every time I record. Winning the award later was a great comfort to me. I always want everyone to feel that the music is light and airy, but the story behind it is very complicated, and I really worked hard to record it. "

At the 23rd Golden Melody Awards Ceremony in 2012, Tanya Tanya once again won the Best Mandarin Female Singer Award. Picture/Visual China

Even more than making desserts, Tanya Tanya in music is 200% perfectionist. Nowadays, Nearly two years have passed since the release of her last album " Aphasia ". After she tried her best to escape herself in the music, she has not fully "recovered" until today. "Every day at that time They all think that I am not good enough, not good enough, or good enough. Maybe because of this, after finishing "Aphasia" to now, I am a little afraid to touch music, because I really put a lot of thought into it.

PART3: From hating myself to embracing myself

"A group of Parisian women made me re-recognize myself"

Different from the perfect and sincere music, during the interview, Tanya Chua was casual and cute, and would dance when she was excited. When she heard the reporter Praising her makes her shy. As she said, "I am a very talkative person."

During the interview break that day, Tanya Tanya asked the makeup artist while touching up her makeup, "What brand of lipstick is it that will make your lips look shiny?" Nowadays, she often shows off her red lips and will recommend lipstick to her fans on Weibo. I will study the color of my eyebrows and eyeliner myself, although I still pay attention to the details - "One more eyebrow or one less eyebrow will make a difference, and no matter how much eyeliner is 0.001 centimeter more, it will affect the proportion of the entire face." And these things used to be done just now In the eyes of Tanya Tanya during her debut period, none of them were considered.

Character Photography/Beijing News Reporter Guo Yanbing

"I used to think that companies would dress up girls like butterflies, but I just don't want to be like other girls. Because I'm not pretty either, I'm just a carefree rock girl. So I didn’t have too many ideas.” What made Tanya change was a trip to Paris. “Seeing women on the streets of Paris who were full of femininity and were very confident and comfortable suddenly gave me a big blow. I wonder why I am a girl, but I don’t feel like this at all.”

So Tanya Tanya decided to embrace herself, “When you like yourself, a lot of energy will really start to change. In fact, I have hated myself for many years. I look down on myself. I’m obviously a person with great ideas, but I just can’t execute them because I’m stuck with language skills, timidity, and many other things. So from debut to now, the most touching thing is that I really see it. I have transformed from a person who completely refused to wear high heels, skirts, and red lipstick to now being able to control everything with confidence, even if I am thrown into a farm in the corner of the world to chat with people. "

" Then you're actually pretty rock 'n' roll," the reporter said.

"I've always been a rocker. I'm a rocker girl who pretends to be elegant." Tanya Tanya winked.

[Fresh Q&A]

Q: "Love" is a very important proposition in your works. What is your attitude towards love?

A: I long for love very much. I like falling in love very much. I believe in the power of love, but I am also afraid of the destructive power of love. It can make a person lose himself, but when you are at your best, you will feel that the whole world is in the palm of your hand. .

Q: What kind of state makes you feel comfortable when creating?

A: I must be at home, and I must be very sloppy. Now I don't think about music every second, but when inspiration comes I will be obsessed with it, very much like a hyperactive child, or like a toy rabbit with too many batteries. I would play the guitar while I was playing a melody, but in the middle I would feel like it was not working. I still had a song to write, so I kept writing. I couldn't sleep at all, because the melody would keep popping out of my head, and I just wanted to say, when will you stop, I need to sleep.

Tanya Tsai and Jolin Tsai have a very good relationship and often travel together. The picture comes from the artist's Weibo

Q: You have written songs for Eason Chan , Jolin Tsai, Faye Wong and many other singers. Are there any impressive collaborations?

A: The one who impressed me most should be Jolin Jolin Tsai. Many years ago, when we met backstage, we were just casual acquaintances. Then one day she said she wanted to ask me to write a song. I was flattered because I really felt that her and I were in different worlds. But then she came to my house and chatted with me, and I knew that she was also in the process of self-searching and self-reconstruction, so the song "I" was born. We became good friends after that, discussing desserts and going on trips together.

Tanya Tanya’s Weibo is filled with delicious food.

Q: Your desserts are so professional, do you really not consider opening a dessert shop?

A: Everyone is actually waiting for me to do this. But, you think, if I want to write a song today, I need to concentrate on writing it. If I want to bake a dessert, I also need to concentrate on it, so I can only choose one of the two. I think people will still choose me to sing. Unless one day everyone says, good Tanya Tanya, stop singing, and I can open a dessert shop.