1. In 2004, I returned to Tingfang
My dad's small factory finally closed down after struggling with debt for several years. People are unlucky when they drink cold water and they are stuck between their teeth. After the
factory closed, my dad simply buried himself in alcohol and got drunk all day long. My mother was stupid, she would only cry with me on the phone, "I shouldn't have let him set up a factory..."
But who knows what happened back then? Who doesn't want to give it a go, fight for prosperity and success in career?
I don't know how to persuade my mother, and I hate myself for being useless.
At that time, I had just graduated from university for more than two years, and I shared a rented house with people for 1,000 yuan. From 9 to 5, I got a salary of 3,800 yuan before tax. He had some savings in his hands, but he gave it all to Zhong Lei when he went abroad. Aunt
called me several times and told me to go back.
"Do you really ignore or ask your parents like this? Lin Jia is so young, I can't discuss with him if I want to discuss it!"
Lin Jia is my younger brother, who was in high school that year.
I only found out how bad the situation was when I got home. There were strangers in the house and it was full of smoke. My dad is asleep in bed, snoring. Dad is thin, but he can still snoring like no one from his shriveled chest, which is ironic.
My mother smiled at others and said "definitely not less".
"It won't be less, where and when?" The people who came gathered in a group and asked the same question, with a strong momentum.
My mother had never seen this "wall down and everyone pushing" formation, and her expression was panic. When
was young, my mother was also a fashionable man in town, wearing a gemstone watch, wearing a woolen coat my dad bought from Shanghai... Now she is running for half a hundred times, but she is so humble?
It's one thing to hear my mom say on the phone, but it's another to see it in person. I hid in the room and wiped my tears. Aunt
also cried with me.
Shi Jianrong's name was mentioned at that time. Aunt
said: "Shi Jianrong-your round-faced classmate, came home a few times."
I froze for a moment and reacted. Shi Jianrong counts that the upper east side of our small town is not bright and the west side is bright-still big-bright.
"My dad owes him money too?"
"That's not it. People just see that your dad has turned over his leather jacket now...I can't stand it."
I seem to guess what my aunt meant to urge me back.
"Look at your mother, seven or eight years old...you see that a bunch of people are blocking the door every day." Aunt
and her mother have a very good relationship. When grandpa left, they were five and twelve years old. My aunt is the mother who carried the big one, and I was the one who carried the big one.
"I took everything I could take out, and it's not worth it. Who do you think this house can count on now? Lin Jia took the college entrance examination in the blink of an eye, and couldn't make a statement?"
Speaking of this, the previous vague guess was basic Sit down.
"What did he ask me for?" I asked, knowingly, what Shi Jianrong looked like when he was studying: a round face, big eyes, bright and sly, he always seemed to be smiling.
I am a little proud of myself. I have no prejudice against students who do not study well. I have no preference for Shi Jianrong, who loves to walk around the teacher. I don't like Shi Jianrong's transfer around the teacher. I don't like him to pass me a note.
I was timid, afraid of being caught by the teacher, but in desperation, I sent back to the past, saying I don't like this. Shi Jianrong smiled and scratched his head: "I'm sorry."
heard his name again later, he had graduated from university. At that time, it was not easy to find a job. I ran for interviews and asked my mother to transfer money to me.
My breast sighed, "What's so good about studying? You have a classmate in junior high school. His surname is Shi. He has no parents or mother. He hasn't studied for a few years, so he still sent it out." Z1z
"How did you send it?" I asked.
"I have money and drive a car."
My milk has never seen anything in the world. But in 2002, very few people drove their own cars in Tingfang Town.
"It's not bad that people are willing to stretch a pole at this time." The aunt continued, "Do you know how much your dad costs to fill this hole?" I don't know
.
But Shi Jianrong let me know: four hundred thousand.
2. From 2004 to 2005, I got married.
"I liked you in junior high school. For so many years, I went round and round..." Shi Jianrong said when he came to pick me up at home and "go out and sit", his tone was full of "willows and flowers" , As if thanking my dad for this tragedy, it made me and him "cultivating a positive result".
I can't afford to make waves, evenDisdain.
likes to be selfless. When Zhong Lei went abroad, I exchanged all my savings and the scalpers at the bank gates into US dollars so that he would not suffer himself.
Shi Jianrong knows what he likes? But take advantage of the fire.
But I have no face to leak out the disdain and thoughts in my heart. He Shi Jianrong is in business, and it is normal for him to have plans. Do you still expect him to like me to go to heaven and earth, to stay the same in this life, to throw 400,000 eyes into the water without blinking?
is not acting in affectionate TV series.
I don't speak, but use specious reservations to hide my heart. Shi Jianrong misunderstood me, "It's still the same as when I was in school. You didn't like to talk at that time." Z1z
I was the same as when I was in school in that I didn't feel much about him. Since
is insensible, there is no "love".
Thinking of "love", I feel like a needle. What irony! Zhong Lei worked hard for his and my future in faraway Venezuela, and I sold myself here. When
signed a three-year overseas contract, who would have thought of such a variable?
At that time, we were full of confidence and believed that there would be a prosperous future-we took the good time together to pawn the overseas subsidy of nearly double the salary. We sacrificed so much, how can we not pawn a beautiful future?
is good fortune.
However, I am thankful that he is not around, which makes my decision easier.
Shi Jianrong went to a technical school after graduating from junior high school. I never asked him where his first pot of gold came from. I only heard that he had done a hundred and eighty lines, from chemical solvents to mold processing to steel...
I read, work, and fall in love. It seems that I have just graduated from junior high school and now I am 25 years old.
Shi Jianrong and I were married during the Spring Festival that year.
"Just the Spring Festival, okay?" he said. It was a negotiating tone, but it didn't mean it. Aunt
still cried after hearing this, and cried even harder, "Some people are born to pay off debts...Don't think twice. Look at the aunt now..."
I looked up at the aunt.
My aunt is only ten years older than me. She used to be extremely thin, and when she persuaded me to "will be well", she already had a fat face and a round body with a good time.
Years have devastated people. My aunt has forgotten that when she was young, she had also struggled and cried for love. Now she is nourished and bought by the life of having children and daughters, and she is willing to hold the "good day" in her hand. Showed.
"And it's a good blessing to marry him, the master is not there, so much less annoying mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, as soon as you enter the door, you will be the master... it will be fine."
I don't know if it will be good, but I know my mother will never The sadness is bleak, my dad will not stagger with the drink, and the home will become a normal home again.
Everything is arranged according to Shi Jianrong's opinion.
The wedding ceremony is not extravagant, Shi Jianrong is a person who emphasizes on economics.
But there are a lot of tables, and he insists on doing it in the town-saying that "persistence" is wrong, and no one fights with him. What he says is good, everyone is grateful in their hearts, but he is the first to see-it is difficult to choose a place . The final wedding banquet of
was held in the cafeteria of our middle school. Tingfang Town Middle School was closed for reconstruction that year, and Shi Jianrong found someone to "expand" the cafeteria temporarily. The classmates who came to
all said that they have clever ideas, that Boss Shi still knows romance so much, and keeps up with the trend and goes nostalgic.
I don't feel nostalgic, nor romantic. However, Shi Jianrong, after holding the microphone coarsely and arrogantly, remembered a lot of the true feelings and falsehoods indistinctly from the past, and Yuanyuan's face looked funny under the tacky light.
That night, Shi Jianrong was drunk and unconscious, and I cried loudly in his snoring. Cry Zhong Lei, cry yourself, cry Shi Jianrong, cry his 400,000-what does he picture? ! Picture me an empty shell without soul?
opened my eyes the next day. I have forgotten the sorrow of last night. I pulled the curtains, dried the quilt, sat down to have breakfast...
blood relationship is sometimes like metaphysics, and I must be like my aunt." With the gene of acknowledgment of fate, my life has since been divided into two parts: the first part that is not bad, and the latter part of life with a smile mask.
3. From 2005 to 2007, ripples caused by ex-boyfriend
's marriage, I notified Zhong Lei by email. After beating
countless times, I deleted all the tear-jerking words. What kind of affection should the one who betrays the feelings say? You don't even need a defense.
I briefly describe the cause and effect, "...this is a helpless choiceselect. "Z1z
Zhong Lei replied to me "Happy newlywed". I stared at those four words and saw that my eyes were blurred.
Shi Jianrong was not as "sent" as my milk described.
He has a black old Audi and no house. I have been living in Tingfang, and I was late for socializing and slept in a hotel. I didn’t get a loan until I was ready to get married. He didn’t lie to me, saying that the villagers’ mouths were fierce, and they only made eight in seven or eight years. 900,000.
Let me do a mental calculation: give half to my house? My face is so big?
Shi Jianrong gave me two places to choose. One is in the city center, which is convenient; the other is newly developed, Linhu hardcover, but far away , And Tingfang Town are almost opposite. The total price is the same. I don’t pay for
, so I don’t think I have the right to speak. Z1z
, but Shi Jianrong is the best this time, and he refuses to make a decision, "You choose. "He said.
"It's near the lake." "Z1z
chose this way. One is clean, and the other is that it is close to Lin Jia school. Since he is back, it is convenient to help him learn math and English on weekends. Z1z
Shi Jianrong said: "I know you will choose there." Women are all so impractical. "Z1z
I thought in my heart: I'm not practical yet? I'm not actually married? Z1z
I have a more practical place: there is a 4A-level scenic spot beside the house. There used to be no people. Later, I did it every year before and after Ching Ming Festival. The dragon boat race at the meeting boat festival has created the influence of the momentum, the scenic area has expanded and expanded, and there are always recruitment advertisements in the newspaper.
I learn foreign languages, and the second foreign language is not bad. It is not difficult to find a job there.
Shi Jianrong listen I said I was going to work, which was strange, "Whatever you want. "Z1z
can be from tone to tone: "Why bother?" "Z1z
I don’t care. It’s not the practice of women’s independence, but Shi Jianrong’s 400,000 heart. One day, this marriage with a smile mask can’t hold back to the end. I hope I don’t owe him. To save some face.
's life after marriage is lacklustre, and it’s okay to say "plain and plain"-when a woman can’t show her strong affection and just be a well-behaved wife, the best thing is to be "plain and plain." "The degree?"
until the third year. In the year of
, several things happened. First, Shi Jianrong's Lirong Construction Company opened after the new year. He was very energetic and said I "Want Fu".
When I got married, I chose the "unrealistic" lakeside house for more than a year, and the total price nearly doubled.
Shi Jianrong began to pay attention to this industry that he had never thought of before. Even though it was just a " In the role of "fuck master", Qian looked like he had eyes and feet, so he pounced in his account.
My dad occasionally heard this son-in-law talk about a few numbers, but his eyes would not move. He must think people are more popular than dead people, a few sets As soon as the house was sold and bought, and once in and out of the room, the money came so easily? Why didn't he have such good luck back then? The second piece of
, in April, on the day of the dragon boat race, I met Zhong Lei.
"I didn't expect such a coincidence. "He said.
"Yes." I work here. Have you... talked about friends? "Z1z
" Not yet, busy. "Z1z
" I'm sorry. "I gave him the three words I owed for a few years.
" If you want to say sorry, it should be me. "Z1z
" Don't you hate me? "I suddenly felt aggrieved. At the beginning of last year, there was an extra 20,000 yuan in my bank card. No need to ask, I know that Zhong Lei "returned" it. I was so excited that I couldn't breathe.
"Don't be stupid," Whoever took it should be paid back. "Zhong Lei obviously understands what I mean.
"I am in the tavern at the end of the South Street of the scenic spot, do you want to come over?" After another moment of silence, Zhong Lei said: "No, I have to get up early tomorrow." Lin Li," his voice suddenly softened, "have a good time. You are doing well, I just... don't worry. "Z1z
I lay on the table and cried out-how am I? I haven't forgotten him. Every time
looks at the calendar, he will do a mental calculation and there will be a few days left for him to come back. Out of inexplicable thoughts, I look forward to Zhong Lei’s call and hope not to have it.
will miss him every night before going to bed. At first it was like a ritual, but then it became a habit. But I hide this habit. It's very good, quietly silent.
But that day, after seeing people and listening to the sound, the "hidden" was broken. What is there in
—not only missed, but also empty—not Zhong Lei Wish to see me, he and I may never meet again in this life, monsterUsually clamoring and throwing at me.
My face is against the table, my hand is against my heart, as if it is broken there.
I asked the waiter for sake and poured it myself. I was awake at first, and started to feel dizzy when I got home. I lay in the bathtub with a heavy nose and heavy head.
Shi Jianrong came home later than me that night. After getting married, he lost the habit of improvising in hotels, and went home many nights after eating and washing his feet.
Because of this, Shi Jianrong has an excellent reputation among relatives, saying that my life is good, "Where can I find people who can make money but haven't spent any money?" they said.
The woman in Tingfang Town demanded this from a man.
Shi Jianrong hugged me at night, I pushed him with my elbow, "Don't."
"Where is the temper?"
"Why, you bought it for 400,000 yuan, so you can't have a temper? Give you back? Give you 400,000 yuan. Are you away from me?"
God wants to perish, and must first make it mad. The "kyakuyan" of
made Shi Jianrong seem to have taken a whip suddenly, he stopped the movement in his hand, froze for a moment, and then picked me up from the sofa.
"What kind of woman do I want? Where have I wronged you? I gave you a face."
is already April, and the soles of the feet are still cold. The coolness made my head light.
I started to regret what I said just now-the words slid out without passing through my head.
has been married for three years. Shi Jianrong has never wronged me. Just like I am a well-behaved wife, he is also a well-behaved husband.
Besides, I promised to marry him, but he didn't hold me or tie me.
I shook my head.
didn't know that this angered Shi Jianrong even more. He waved his hand, and the shadow flashed across my eyes, and he stopped again. However, in subconsciously closing my eyes to avoid, I staggered, and my lower abdomen was hitting the corner of the coffee table.
A sharp pain swept me into a whirlpool...
This is the third thing: I have a miscarriage.
4. From 2007 to 2008, a blessing in disguise
"Don't tell the family." After knowing that the child is gone, I said to Shi Jianrong.
"How do you tell?"
Yes, speaking, it must be the reason. I said I was going to get a divorce, and then there was a conflict? It is difficult for anyone to step down, no wonder Shi Jianrong said the three words as cold as iron.
Our previous relationship of "respecting each other as a guest" has moved two more spaces toward the freezing point, and the words have become almost nothing. But on the third day, Shi Jianrong suddenly stopped ordering food from the restaurant. Instead, he cooked chicken soup and stewed big bones for me every day.
"You are busy with you, you don't need to drink every day." I can't bear the boring squeeze of people like that, so I would rather him not come.
Shi Jianrong touched the cigarette, remembering that he was in the hospital, his hand stretched out of his pocket, but then he stretched it back, and drew out one—probably because he wanted a single ward anyway.
He crossed his legs and spit out a smoke ring, "Send the Buddha to the West. Raise you and divorce. Doesn't it mean you?"
"I don't know I'm pregnant." He finally agreed to speak that night, I Explain to him. The month before the boat festival, I did not pay attention to the busy preparations all day.
"What's the difference, I can't keep it anyway."
I know he doesn't believe it-with the divorce sentence first, I thought I was deliberately concealing it and "conspiring" otherwise. What he meant bluntly was: Even if you know, you won't want it.
I am not chasing someone to explain, but I forced a pack of tears at what he said.
But he must be sad now. Going to the bottom, the source lies with me.
Shi Jianrong saw me crying, and pulled two pieces of paper on my face rudely, "Okay, don't cry. If you don't cry, it's gone."
My tears were more turbulent, and suddenly I realized that this man was mine. The noble but useless heart blocked the door and ignored it—he was angry and wronged, but he didn't forget to excuse me and comfort me.
My heart flickered, "I didn't want to divorce, I..."
"What are you? Didn't save up to four hundred thousand? I spend what I want, I should throw the fish in the water, and leave you." His mouth is not forgiving. I, fiercely, pulled out two more pieces of paper and pressed it on my eyes.
However, because of this "accident" between Shi Jianrong and I, there was a little more of the smoke and fire of ordinary couples.
I used to talk less at home, and Shi Jianrong was silent. I read books and he reads DVDs. Do not bother. It seems peaceful, but even the air is stuffy.
Now I put the book down-the book is my "polite, refusal" smile mask, sometimes I watch it with him, I have nothing to look forJust a few words about the things he is busy with-I don't understand, and I didn't really listen to it, but I am concerned.
For a long time, I felt embarrassed and thought it was a kind of "performance".
Later, I accidentally read a passage in a book to the effect that "love" is a verb. You have to "love" before you can feel "love". This passage of
cured my heart disease. The encounter between
and Zhong Lei brought back memories, past, and out of control. Because of that loss of control, I hurt Shi Jianrong and the unformed child in my stomach...
said that the rudder can be used by the wind, or speculation, life pushed me to the side of the fork. You have to go straight on the way you turn in.
-Didn't I say before that I have the gene of "recognizing fate" for my aunt? I also have a chicken thief who "just as it happens".
At the end of that year, Shi Jianrong really took over the widening of river channels and the layout of landscape belts in the two towns. He did not dare to neglect, and sometimes lived in a shed. Nine months later, when the project was over, he went black, lost two laps, and his face grew longer.
I feel distressed, "Let's take a break?"
"Listen to you. Wait until you get the next piece of fat." Shi Jianrong patted the bag with money on the table.
"Aren't you tired?" I glanced at the bag with money on Shi Jianrong's desk. He takes cash every time, saying it is convenient for others.
"You dare to be too tired to make money? I haven't suffered." He smiled, "Would you like to go with me tonight?"
"I'm not going, and I'm not familiar with it." I said.
Shi Jianrong said that I am a small family.
"Daughter of a bankrupt small factory owner, I want to be able to be proud." After
said, I was shocked by myself. The scars in my heart that other people can't touch and can't touch are so unremarkable that I don't mind to take the initiative to mention it? Also... brought Jiao? Does
format the past by time, or has it changed subtly?
"Talking about nonsense all day." He scolded me, but it was rare to get sticky. He must have been taken aback by me, and he has never seen me now.
He hugged me for a long time that day, vigorously and carefully, as if I was a lost treasure.
5. In 2010, I was "arranged" for
after graduating from Lin Jia University and went to work in Xiamen. The kid is quite filial. He just came in the winter of the third year, and he wanted to take his parents to live there. He said that it was warm and he was stable in the past two years. Before
go, invite relatives and friends to dinner. Shi Jianrong was on a business trip in the provincial capital. He said that he would be home that evening, but he called again in the evening and said that he could not make it. I asked him if he missed the train. He said it was in Tongcheng, but something happened at night.
"What's the matter? Eat with others? No, you come back to eat!" I am not the old cold woman who could only hmm, ah, or nod and shake her head. I would act like a baby and sometimes "order" him, especially that day.
But he was impatient, "Stop making trouble?"
I hung up the phone, really angry: Am I still making trouble? Is waiting for a husband on a business trip for nine days to have dinner together?
Shi Jianrong came that night. It was very late. Mom twisted him a hot towel and asked him to take two more bites, "You can eat a meal, you are all drinking. Sooner or later, the stomach will ruin."
Shi Jianrong wiped his hands, sat down beside me, greeted relatives politely as usual, but he was absent-minded and glanced at his mobile phone.
When the meal was almost over, the phone rang, he waited, stood up, and walked away to pick it up.
talked on the phone for a long time, and my mother urged me to go out and have a look, and I was worried that he would drink too much.
pushed open the box door, before reaching the top of the stairs, I heard Shi Jianrong say: "Are you worried that I would not arrange her?" After
had a miscarriage three years ago, he owed it to him and wanted to get pregnant again. Rong made up for it, but the day failed, and the child did not show up.
My good friend was two days late last week, but I didn't dare to test it for fear of disappointment. On the fifth day, I was more sure about it, and then trembling and holding my breath to "do an experiment": two bars.
I have this secret, so I want to wait for Shi Jianrong to come back and tell him.
Rural superstition, there is a saying that only after one month of pregnancy can you tell outsiders that it is good for the child and can be kept. I didn't tell anyone, not even my mother.
When Shi Jianrong called to check out, I said Lin Jia had settled.
"Jia Jia is rushing to check out with me now? Really grown up." He praised Lin Jia, sincere, and also for his parents.Compliment to the field.
Every now and then, I feel that Shi Jianrong's "world stability" of my family is given by Shi Jianrong. He is too good at making things happen. Once upon a time, I resisted. Now, it is appreciation and gratitude. When
arrived at the door, he shouted to Lin Jia again and patted him on the shoulder, "Take care of my parents. The man is."
"I know. Brother-in-law is my role model." Lin Jia said poorly.
A meal broke up happily.
But another play started without warning after we stepped into the house.
"Go and divorce tomorrow morning." Shi Jianrong sat on the sofa, looking at the TV wall.
I had freshly made lemonade in my hand, and looked at him in a daze, knowing that he was not talking drunk.
suddenly remembered the sentence I heard in the restaurant: Are you worried that I will arrange her?
"You" is the outsider, "she" is me.
is right. It's no wonder that he has been on business trips for a while, and he is always nervous about his mobile phone, and the portrait has lost his soul.
I think of this in my stomach. I was so hopeful, so hopeful, looking forward to her, but unexpectedly, it became a problem in an instant.
Life is really joking with people. When you are secretly happy that everything is going well, it has already dropped two big rocks, just waiting for you to take two more steps and throw a dog to eat shit.
Divorce is much simpler than marriage. No ceremony, no banquet, two chapters and one cover, it's over. Think about it then my parents hadn't set foot on the plane. More magical.
"I will pay you back as soon as possible." I said to Shi Jianrong when I came out of the Civil Affairs Bureau. For so many years, my salary card was only more than three hundred and ten thousand-including Zhong Lei "returning" my twenty thousand-even if he wanted to send it hard, it was not enough to throw it in front of him.
Shi Jianrong was taken aback and understood what I was saying, "Don't be like this." He seemed to be begging me.
"When is the transfer done?"
"What's the nerve!" Shi Jianrong stepped on the steps with his feet high and one low, his Adam's apple rolled twice, his hands clenched into fists. We are deadlocked, letting people passing by stare at us. Finally he said: "Follow you."
follow me? What do you mean by me?
"I said nothing. I'll go."
"Where to go?" he asked quickly.
I couldn't help but sneered. I couldn't help but threw out my suffocation, "Keep caring about others. Didn't you arrange me smoothly?"
Shi Jianrong looked at me, " Yes." After speaking, he turned and walked towards the parking lot.
turned around at this big step, and immediately irritated my internal organs. Five years ago, how could I expect that one day I would feel distressed because of his departure from Shi Jianrong?
I made the decision to resign. At the beginning, he put out four hundred thousand yuan to marry me, and I came back. What am I doing here today? Such a small city, even if you don't encounter it every day, the frequency will not be low.
resigned quickly.
6. Still in 2010, I left Tingfang
Shi Jianrong to mention the divorce night, after I was in a hurry, I decided to keep her. I'm thirty and don't think I will marry anyone again in the future. Having a child is not a kind of company. What's more, I love her, I feel that I have been in love for a long time, from the moment I started looking forward to it. I will be like her father, give her good, and love her like a princess.
I am not pessimistic about the future, and I have made a plan in my heart: my aunt will definitely be happy to help bring the child. After confinement, I will find a regular job and work hard to make money and pay back to raise a baby. I'm only thirty, not fifty, there is a chance. Isn't that the case with
?
But I didn't wait for the Spring Festival at all, and another thunder rolled in, making my scalp numb.
That morning, when I went to the hospital for an obstetric checkup, I sat in the car and passed by the Soochow Translation Agency. It suddenly occurred to me: Or ask Zhong Lei, if the translation resources he used before are still there. If
is here, I will introduce two copies. The income is higher than the current salary for consultation at the front desk, and the time is free. This is the most suitable for a pregnant woman.
But I haven't contacted for two years, so I asked someone to help me. I must talk about the current situation again... I hesitated.
However, it took only two minutes and the hesitation was gone-it was not me who made the mistake in the marriage that ended. What is my shame? Besides, in order to live a good life, what is there to be ashamed, what is not decent?
"Lily?" Zhong Lei's voice was very soft and very careful.
"Are you busy? How about I call later?"
"Are you busy or not. You said."
I asked about translation resources, and Zhong Lei said, "Is there money on hand?"
I sighed lightly and told him that he was leaving and he is now in Suzhou. Zhong Lei did not appear to be surprised at my divorce-it may also be because of my face.
"Money... is not a shortage. But I am pregnant, and I have to plan more."
"Are you pregnant? How many months?" Zhong Lei raised his voice at this time.
"More than three months."
"Does Lao Shi know?"
"I don't know."
Zhong Lei asked for my address and said that he would come to me after get off work.
"No need," I waved my hand in a hurry, God knows how afraid I am to cause trouble, "I am fine, and I am not short of money, really. I called just to find something I can do now."
Zhong Lei said that the high-speed train is very fast, so he will be busy first and wait until we meet.
hung up the phone, I sat on the bus swaying, and the leaves of the plane tree beside the road almost fell out. It was a cold and bleak winter.
"Well. Are you afraid that I will not raise a child? Am I that bad?" I poured water on him, but he refused, and put my hand on one of my shoulders, "Li Li, listen to me, Lao Shi he Something happened."
old stone? I never talked to him about Shi Jianrong, even the last name or name. Yes, I called Zhong Lei in the morning and mentioned "Lao Shi", "Does Lao Shi know?" He seemed to ask, but I didn't notice it at all.
"What's going on? How do you know, why don't I know?" I said incoherently.
"It's a long story...the other person is in the detention center, and the verdict has not yet come down."
"Last month. I heard you said that I was pregnant in the morning, I think I should tell you a bit, he explained that I would not mention a word to you. Yes."
"Is he stupid?" I couldn't help but yell. Wouldn't I know if I didn't mention a word? How big is Tingfang Town, and who can keep this from happening? In a few days, my parents and brother will all know.
I once again remembered the call "You worry I won't arrange her". It turned out that he made a fake shot, so he arranged me like this: divorce.
"But how did you know? Why did he call you?"
"Last month, one night, he roughly talked about the situation and said there was no room for maneuver."
"I was anxious and asked'Li' What should I do?', Lao Shi, who has been around for a while, rushed to choke me and said that he would arrange you. He planned it in advance."
"He said he lifted away, you must agree immediately. Let me help me in the future, take care of me... but he didn't count you as pregnant."
I was stunned. Yes, it is Shi Jianrong's style. Merchants, who are willing to eat others and lose money, but to find out. It's no wonder that when he was in the hospital that time, he returned to the hospital and sent him to the hospital every day.
is all like that, and irritated me with pretensions, waiting for me to take the initiative to admit his mistake and build a ladder for him. Real businessman!
I started crying, swearing a bit of "Bad son", so "smart", and in the end I didn't send myself in. Why is he so stupid! Can't you tell me? Why do you draw this line from me? Why can't I drag me down?
"I can't meet now. After the verdict is down, I can visit. If he knows that it is his father, he also has hope in it." Zhong Lei comforted me.
"Who is going to visit him. Bastard." I really hate him.
, but on the third day after Zhong Lei came, Lin Jia called, "Sister..." He was also cautious.
"Do my parents know?" I asked.
"I just found out today. Are you okay? Mom wants to talk to you."
"Lin Jia, you turn on your phone for hands-free. Mom, I'm fine, you can spend the Spring Festival with peace of mind. I will not go to Lin Jia when I am pregnant. "I'm pregnant."
"Pregnant?" My mother exclaimed on the other side of the phone, "What can I do now?"
"What do you do, if you don't bring it, my aunt will also come." I try to relax. thing.
"Didn't you say that you and Xiaoshi separated? Why didn't you tell us anything?"
I was dumb for a while, "I didn't know that he had something when I left. I'll wait for him to come out."
It's not a teenager. The company is closed..." My mother murmured.
"Mom, don't worry about it. I'm back to Suzhou now. I have a job and savings, and I will find a job in the future. When Shi Jianrong comes out, I will come to Suzhou, far away from home. My child knows nothing.Tao. "Z1z
Yes, I won't pay him back Shi Jianrong for the three hundred and ten thousand. From 2010 to 2014, the girl waiting for
to blink is four years old. During the day, my aunt and my mother take turns, and at night I lead myself to sleep— —The mother can only give as much love as possible to the child whose father is not around. There are many times when
is helpless. It is inevitable that children have fever and illness. Worry is the most disturbing, and I am thinner. The
girl always asks father, "What do I do if someone else has a father No dad? "Z1z
" Every child has a father. The girl's father is far away, we can't visit him now. "Z1z
" When will it be possible? "The girl's eyes are shiny.
"Dad will come to see us." "Z1z
" Does Dad recognize the girl? "Z1z
" of course recognizes. "Z1z
Zhong Lei got married last year and moved again to work. This time he went to Brazil. Before leaving, we had a meal together, and he asked me if I wanted to take a look. Z1z
I said no, I can’t go to step 99, this He must fight with him to the end. Z1z
Zhong Lei sighed, inaudible, and suddenly said, "Lili, you will be fine. "Z1z
I know it will be fine, I am not ashamed of him not to see him, I just want to punish him severely." Or you can take a picture of a girl to show him. "Z1z
Zhong Lei smiled strangely, and I knew he had quietly given it. Z1z
" He said he was like him. He also said that when he comes out, he will make a comeback, so you can rest assured. "Z1z
" Zhong Lei, thank you for all these years. "I said sincerely.
" What do you say. To tell you the truth, I actually hated you. "Zhong Lei drank alcohol today, his tongue is a bit big.
" But later I looked back, I am grateful that he helped you generously...I want to be by your side, but also helpless. In any case, live your life well. I am and so are you. "Z1z
I couldn't speak, drank the wine in the glass, nodded.
Another winter night.
I huddled in the bed and read bedtime stories to the girl. In the story, the mother swan said to the son of the swan: "Your father , In a far, far away place..." The girl
suddenly scowled, "My father is also dead, isn't it? Dad is dead, mother cheats children like this, right? "Z1z
all say that the girl is early-minded, the girl is only four years old, and she has spoken like an older child. Z1z
"Bah, baah, talk nonsense again." Mom didn't lie to you. Didn't Mom tell you that Dad will come back when you are about to become a primary school student. Now because of your good performance, when you go to kindergarten, Dad will come back. "Z1z
" Really? "Z1z
" really. "Z1z
girl fell asleep quickly, her little nose flicked, her round face and Shi Jianrong came out like a mold.
I kissed her forehead lightly, got up and opened the curtain slightly, the moon slanted Hanging on the roof of the building in front, there is a faint yellow, faint light.
I closed my eyes. Soon, there are three people without the need to face each other.
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