When I was in my junior year, my grandma passed away. My sister told me the news that my sister has always cared about her most, besides her family. So when I heard this bad news, I was stunned. I couldn't believe what my sister said, and repeatedly asked her to verify the authen

When I was in my junior year, my grandma passed away. My sister told me the news that my sister has always cared about her most, besides her family.

So when I heard this bad news, I was stunned at that time. I couldn't believe what my sister said, and repeatedly asked my sister for the authenticity of the news.

sister cried and said to me, it was true, she died last night, and her mother accompanied her all night. I was in a terrible mood at that time and I couldn't believe the news.

Because in my impression, my grandma's health has always been very good.

Although she is close to 90 years old, she can drink a bowl of egg custard and eat two steamed buns every meal. Her daily entertainment activities are to carry a small stool to the village to listen to operas or watch the old men and ladies in the village play mahjong.

Although grandma is old, she is still energetic and occasionally becomes obsessed, and her brain is still clear.

She remembers many people, but sometimes she can’t recognize them clearly and needs a reminder to remember them, as if there is a switch in her brain, only family affection can twist.

I don’t see my grandma many times every year, and I can only see it once during the Chinese New Year. Every year on the second day of the Chinese New Year, my mother will take me to my grandma’s house.

When I was young, I was looking forward to going to my grandma's house because relatives close to my family would go, so the second day of the Lunar New Year has always been a sacred day in my heart, just like a pilgrimage to Tibet.

Because my grandmother was taken turns to live by my uncle and my third uncle, she would be told in advance which restaurant to eat before going there, and then she would go straight to that house with a gift every time.

In my memory, my grandma has always been kind and remains unchanged.

Every time I see my grandma, I will call her grandma affectionately. Every time I am very happy, and then trembledly took out the candy from my pocket.

So I am sure that my grandma's pocket has always been short of candy, and I thought I could always receive my grandma's candy, but later I found out that I thought it was just what I thought.

I began to realize that when my grandma was in poor health, it was my third uncle who said that my grandma no longer ate much and she often lost her temper.

I originally thought that my grandma thought the food was not delicious or sick, but later I finally understood that people can never empathize with it.

The reason why grandma is abnormal is because she knows that she doesn’t have much time left for herself and wants her family to spend more time with her.

Grandma’s request is so simple. In the last days of her life, she did not choose to eat more delicious food, but chose the family she loved all her life.

Mom had been at work all the time, but after hearing the news, she immediately took leave to accompany her grandma, and she went there for many days.

At that time, I was busy with graduation at school. Every day I was anxious like an ant on a hot pan, and I wanted to go home but I was afraid of delays.

Thinking of going home to see grandma after finishing her work, I didn't expect that before the school was over, grandma had passed away, and I didn't even see the last time I saw grandma.

For me, this is the biggest regret in my life in more than 20 years. When my sister told me the news, I immediately called my mother and said that I wanted to go back.

Mom sobbed and said that the relatives are all there, you don’t have to come back, so I didn’t go back until my grandma was buried.

Later, whenever I think of this, I have a hurdle that I can't overcome. Why didn't I insist on going back at that time? Even if I look at my grandma again, even if I go back and give my mother a hug.

I only realized afterwards that my mother had collapsed several times and even fainted several times. This was what my mother told me later. After graduation, I was not in a hurry to find a job, so I went home first.

Dad has been working outside, his brother works in the city, and his sister goes to school in , Xiamen , thousands of miles away.

So when I got home, my mother was the only one. Because I told my mother in advance that I was going home, my mother asked me on the phone what I wanted to eat and whether I would buy a chicken to make.

I said that you can buy anything, let’s talk about it when you get home. I like to eat whatever I do.

It was already evening when I arrived home. My mother had prepared the meal for me and had my favorite chicken stewed with potatoes.

Mom quickly took down my schoolbag and washed her hands, and had dinner quickly. Mom made it specifically for you.

The weather was not very hot at that time, but my eyes were filled with tears. I turned my back and said, "Okay, I'll wash my hands right away."

I clearly remember that I have never cried in front of my mother because I think a boy cannot cry easily no matter what.

But while eating, what my mother said to me deeply felt the true meaning of the sentence "I just haven't reached the sad place".

Actually, I can see that my mother was not in a good mood at that time, after all, she had just experienced the death of her grandma.

But my mother still cheered up and asked me what job I wanted to do after graduation and where I was going.

I said where else can I go? Go to the construction site to exercise.

Mom lowered her head and was silent for a while and said, "It's okay to go to the construction site, but she won't go home often."

I said yes, there are usually no holidays on the construction site, and you may only be able to come back once a year in the future, and you can't stay at home for a few days.

Mom said while picking up food and saying that that is good, you are not young anymore, so it’s the same for making more money, otherwise how can you get married in the future.

It’s just that your grandma is gone, and your mother never has a mother anymore. Don’t have such regrets like your mother. Come back to see your mother more when you have time.

My heart suddenly felt a sudden touch, as if I was stabbed by a needle. I realized the weight of my mother's words and my long-standing expectations.

I turned around and ran out, opened my room and lay on the bed and cried.

For mother, grandma's death left mother nowhere to go in the world, and calling her mother again is a luxury.

Since then, I realized that my parents are not as strong as we imagined, and they need our care more, so I will go home and see my parents more when I have time.

They are our support, and aren’t we also their support?