A woman, the wind and clouds are calm and welcoming to pay attention to the bright moon. Here are the most beautiful ancient poems... I hope one day, I can tell all this to my younger generations in a calm and quiet manner. But when I think back now, I still feel scared. ...On th

A woman, the wind is light and clouds are light and clouds are light and

Welcome to follow the bright moon, here are the most beautiful ancient poems

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Hope one day, I can tell all this to my younger generations in a calm manner.

But now when I think about it, I still feel scared.

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019 28th day of the twelfth lunar month, my mother had a high fever, accompanied by a violent cough. In fact, at that time, few people knew about Wuhan. Because I was engaged in a job, I heard some discussions by chance, and I was a sensitive girl again, so I took my mother to a local hospital (a small county town in the north) that night.

When I asked whether my mother was symptomatic of " new crown ", the doctor who was instructing the was also confused and had no idea what kind of disease it was. But he enthusiastically brought my mother to the flu window. The doctor who was receiving the doctor told us: You have to go to the city to check, we can't do it here.

There was no way, so we had to drive back again.

Thankfully, after care, my mother's fever finally subsided in the early morning of the next day, so the family began to have a happy New Year.

The second day of the Lunar New Year, there are all kinds of discussions, and I believe everyone still remembers them freshly.

The situation at that time was that there were cards at all intersections, and high barricades were piled with bulldozers, and there were special people holding tools such as wooden sticks and iron rods to take care of them. The posture was really ferocious, as long as you dare to cross the line...

Several police cars patrolled back and forth in the town, and all the shops were closed, leaving only two supermarkets for the supply of necessary daily necessities.

I was really scared at the time. I couldn’t buy masks and didn’t dare to go out to shop. The rumors became more and more evil, and the case data also increased sharply.

What's even more annoying is that my father got sick again and was initially diagnosed with deep thrombosis of the lower limbs, which was at risk of pulmonary embolism . Since he could not go to the hospital for detailed examination, he could only take medicine to control it.

So, this one lasted for three months.

When early summer came, the epidemic gradually came to control, so I took my father to the hospital where I lived for more than a month. The most painful thing during this period was not the long wait. To be honest, I became a little numb to the number of cases that increased.

For ordinary people, survival is always the first major event.

I have just bought a house for three years and have mortgages and car loans. The wages in northern cities are generally not high. I can barely live a good life, but now the pressure is doubled.

My brother was young and had no energy left. My father was sick and emptied some of my savings, so after he was discharged from the hospital, I immediately went back to work. The subsidy the company gave me at that time was 400 yuan a month, so naturally I didn’t have any salary.

But what people didn't expect was that even harder days were still coming. More than a month later, there was another sporadic epidemic in my city, so it was blocked again, and I took a vacation again...

In autumn, this wave passed, but I couldn't breathe because I was not sure when I would continue to be isolated.

I am not afraid of difficulties, but I am afraid that life will not see hope, so I have to work part-time and even try to contact self-media. After all, such work is not restricted by the environment.

Sure enough, in winter, the epidemic swept over again, and I had to stay at home again. The whole year of 2020 has passed like this. After all, not only did I not earn money, I also paid more than 30,000 yuan. At this time, I was in debt, afraid that something would happen again.

is probably Murphy's Law. Sure enough, just after the first month of the year, my father fell ill again. This time it was even more serious, it was a heart attack.

I can't remember how many times I have cried, because even when I think about it now, my eyes will still turn red.

At that time, I borrowed almost all the money I could borrow.

htmlIn April, my father's illness improved and I continued to come back to work. During that period, I only slept for four or five hours a day, and there were no rest days. I only had work and making money in my mind.

During this period, in addition to a half-month lockdown, the epidemic in my city was still stable, which made me feel a little better.

Then winter entered, ushering in the worst outbreak in 2021. Unfortunately, I was laid off. In fact, it was difficult for me to come to the company to continue, so I cruelly sold my car and after converting the car loan, I didn’t have much money left.

Time has come to 2022. I didn’t come out until March. During this period, I had no income and I often encountered obstacles when looking for a job. I could only rely on part-time jobs to make a living.

htmlIn June, my father and mother were hospitalized at the same time. They were not seriously ill and it was just time-consuming. My younger brother wanted to study, so I could only go to bed.

After returning to Shenyang, the city was blocked again before he vowed to work hard, and it lasted for a month.

calculating carefully. At this time, I was in debt of more than 70,000 yuan. A mortgage is essential, so I can only save money. In my impression, I haven’t watched a movie once in at least two years, nor have I added a new piece of clothing. This is a shame for a naturally born shopaholic.

Then in November 2022, policies were gradually promulgated and were completely relaxed today.

I saw many people talking about it, and even participated in hoarding medicines and grabbing canned yellow peach , but I can no longer see panic and anxiety in other people's eyes.

is more confusion and helplessness.

I believe most people are the same as me. We are not afraid of virus , but we are afraid of not living a good life in the future.

My experience must not be the worst in the past three years, and I was even a little embarrassed. But compared with my own income ability, I still find it difficult.

The future direction is, I haven't figured out yet, but I shouted from the bottom of my heart: Let go, don't block it anymore. Even if I fight for someone's life, I still have a chance.

I am not afraid of "yang", because the experience in these three years has been much more painful than "yang".

Three years, I have passed my thirties. I used to think of thousands of troops and the tides of the world, but now I just want to live a simple life. After

, I like money and love things and try to be a righteous vulgar woman.

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