Human nature is neither black nor white, nor is there an absolute distinction between kindness and malice.
People have too many helplessness in their lives, but as long as they have a trace of kindness and belief, they may make the people around them feel warm.
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At five o'clock in the morning, Pei Qiu was awakened by a strong sense of rhythm.
She followed the sound to the kitchen and saw Li Xueqin standing in front of the chopping board chopping the filling. She yawned and asked, "Mom, why are you doing so early?"
Li Xueqin's eyes did not leave the knife in her hand, and she said in a half hoarse voice: "Make dumplings, bean meat stuffing. It's really hard to wrap this filling! It took half an hour to cut the beans, and she had to fry it with oil to remove the smell of beans. Is it too late to get up early?"
Pei Qiu felt a little embarrassed. This is her favorite stuffing, which she ate at her classmate’s house many years ago. After returning home, I muttered for a long time. Li Xueqin made it for her twice, and every time she was like this. The complaining sounds continued from picking beans to putting the dumplings into the pot.
also did not want to do it, but never made Pei Qiu happy.
Li Xueqin twisted her heart, and Pei Qiu had long been used to it.
Pei Qiu went to the bathroom to wash up, rolled up his sleeves and came to Li Xueqin, and helped pinch dumplings together.
Only then did she realize that Li Xueqin had also made a pot of bone soup. Dumplings with bone soup and bean stuffing, such a hearty breakfast, Pei Qiu never dared to think about it before.
The two of them worked silently. It was getting brighter and brighter. They came in through the oily kitchen glass window. Li Xueqin stretched her neck and looked at the living room wall clock, and asked with a cold face: "When is they coming?"
"Huh?"
"When is the person from your real mother to pick you up?"
"Eight o'clock."
Li Xueqin nodded, stood up with her knees and boiled water. Pei Qiu leaned on the door frame and watched her thin body twitch between the pots and pans, and the more she looked, the more sad she felt.
She really didn't expect that Li Xueqin would prepare such a meal for her on such a special morning.
②
She didn't know what kind of mood Li Xueqin was holding, because she was afraid that she would never come back, so she deliberately showed goodwill? Or do you still feel that you have to get rid of the burden of being disgusted for a long time and want to use a good meal to put a perfect end to their fragile mother-daughter relationship?
Then Pei Qiu and Li Xueqin enjoyed the breakfast together. Li Xueqin talked a lot today and told Pei Qiu that her brother was on a business trip and could not come back, and her sister was unable to go out for the second child during confinement.
Pei Qiu held the dumplings and said, "Mom, my brother and sister have told me. You guys are really, I'm not coming back, why do you make it like saying goodbye?"
Li Xueqin didn't say anything.
Pei Qiu understood that Li Xueqin didn’t believe it, and the reason why she didn’t believe it was because she was not confident.
She knew she was not good to Pei Qiu.
③
Pei Qiu has a bad fate. He is a cleft lip and palate. After being born, he was abandoned by his biological parents at the gate of the welfare home.
It was late autumn at that time, and it was very cold, and Pei Qiu almost froze to death. Perhaps she fell into the root of her illness at that time, and her health is not very good until now.
Pei Qiu lived in a welfare home for three years. During this period, he was funded by a charity and underwent repair surgery and slowly grew into a lively and cute little girl.
Later, she met the family who adopted her, the eldest couple of the Pei family. The eldest son of the Pei family was unable to have children, and the couple wanted a young girl who was young and didn't remember, so they brought Pei Qiu home.
They are very kind to Pei Qiu, and Pei Qiu grew up slowly with the love of her adoptive parents.
However, unfortunately, when Pei Qiu was ten years old, he came again. The elder and wife of the Pei family were driving a big deal and were in a car accident due to fatigue driving, and neither of them came to rescue her.
Pei Qiu became an orphan again. After the old Pei family took over the funeral, Pei Qiu's destination became a difficult problem.
The elders of the Pei family all recommend sending Pei Qiu back to the welfare home for fear that the child will fall into his hands. Every family is not rich, and it is not a matter of adding a pair of chopsticks to multiple children. But the elders in the clan disagreed and wanted to leave a back for the boss.
The whole family had a long dispute. In the end, the second son of the Pei family, who valued friendship, took Pei Qiu in.
is also the Li Xueqin and his wife.
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Li Xueqin was extremely unhappy. It was already difficult for her to support her two children, but she could not resist her man. She always regarded Pei Qiu as a disaster star. When the second son of the Pei family was not at home, she had an extremely bad attitude and wanted to force her daughter away from the sky.
Pei Qiu's life was not easy in those years. After the second son of the Pei family died of illness, she lost her last protection and her situation was even worse.
Li Xueqin opened a bun shop at that time. Pei Qiu was like a small odd job. As long as he came home from school, he had to do any miscellaneous work. Even so, Li Xueqin can't get any good face.
There is no man, and he pulls three and a half old children with one hand. Li Xueqin often collapses. She cries and throws any ugly words into Pei Qiu's face, treating her as a punching bag.
At this time, Pei Qiu could only work hard, or squatted in the corner like a quail. She knew she was not popular in this family, but she had to endure it anyway. In this way, she can still have a home. No matter how bad Li Xueqin is to her, she at least never said anything to let her drop out of school.
Just because of this, she must also hold onto the corner of Li Xueqin's clothes firmly and prevent her from getting rid of herself.
No matter how rugged the road that changes destiny is, she has to swallow her blood and tears and walk down barefoot.
⑤
Destiny seems to be joking about Pei Qiu.
Pei Qiu's brothers and sisters graduated and got married one after another, the situation at home gradually improved, and Li Xueqin's attitude towards her also improved.
Who would have thought that at this time, her biological mother came to her door.
Pei Qiuyuan didn't want to pay attention, but she had a biological brother who came to me every day and asked her to meet her, saying that the old lady had a terminal illness and was no longer able to do it.
In the end, Li Xueqin said, "She gave you a life, you go."
Pei Qiu remembered that in the days after Li Xueqin helped her make this decision, she always sat on the chair. The result of repeated thoughts is this hearty breakfast.
In Li Xueqin's mind, this is probably the last breakfast.
After the two of them had breakfast, the car there arrived before eight o'clock.
Li Xueqin rushed Pei Qiu downstairs with a bluff. When the car slowly drove out of the community gate, she chased after him. Pei Qiu leaned out and asked, "Mom, what's wrong? What's wrong?"
Li Xueqin covered her chest and gasped. Looking at her, Pei Qiu saw the water vapor in her eyes getting heavier and he comforted her with a smile: "Mom, I'm going to see her for the last time, I will come back."
Li Xueqin smiled with tears in her eyes and said hard: "You will not come back or not." After that, she left.
Pei Qiu looked at Li Xueqin through the rearview mirror. Thinking of when she was still young, Li Xueqin always called her the most redundant person in the family.
She also knew that she was like a polyp growing somewhere in Li Xueqin's body, but when it was time to cut it with a knife, it would cause Li Xueqin to lose blood and make Li Xueqin hurt.
So many years have passed, even though they have more pain than joy and scolding than pity, they have long been connected.
⑥
Pei Qiu's biological mother has always lived in a neighboring city. When she gave birth to her, she threw her so far away in the middle of the night, which shows how strong the abandonment is.
Therefore, Pei Qiu really didn't understand why her biological mother had to meet her. Are you faced? Don’t feel guilty? Or do you think that one should be forgiven if one dies?
What a selfish person! If this person has a little conscience, how could he just care about not having regrets before his death and insist on disturbing her life? If you really worry about it, why didn’t she show up when she was not doing well in the past few years?
Pei Qiu was taken directly to the hospital by her biological brother. The moment when
opened the ward door, Pei Qiu felt that he had become a target, being surrounded by various meaningful eyes.
Her brother smiled and wanted to introduce the people all over the room to her one by one. He had the intention of letting her integrate into this family, but Pei Qiu refused: "No, didn't you let me meet people? I just meet people." There was a strange woman next to
. There was a strange woman next to
. She was not very happy: "The old lady also had difficulties at that time. The family was too difficult at that time, and you were born again. You were given the capable family at least to be treated. You are so old, you should understand. Besides, it's definitely not good, your life was given by her."
Pei Qiu sneered and disdained to reply.
Starting from being forced to leave, she felt that everything she had experienced, if she said it on this occasion, was insulting herself.
As soon as the woman finished speaking, the coma in the hospital bed slowly woke up and made a faint sound. The filial men and women sitting around spontaneously gave up a vacant seat and signaled Pei Qiu to come over.
Pei Qiu approached with expressionless face, looking at the strange old lady lying on the hospital bed, and felt that all her nerve endings were frozen.
She didn't know what posture and expression she should make at this moment.
The old lady stared at her for a while, hummed twice, and others understood and took off the oxygen mask . The old lady slowly calmed down and raised her hand tremblingly at Pei Qiu, with an urgent desire in her eyes, like a little light gathered on the turbid crystal.
Pei Qiu's face was expressionless and motionless.
Other pushed Pei Qiu and asked her to sit down: "You kid... she is all about to die, why bother?"
Pei Qiu glanced at everyone in the house. Those people's eyes touched her and avoided them to varying degrees. Pei Qiu realized that not only she didn't want to come back, but others seemed to be welcomed by her.
⑦
At this time, the old lady called her, "Be good."
Pei Qiu thought, this is probably her nickname, it is hard for her to remember it after many years, when she was terminally ill.
The old lady was exhausted and couldn't say too much. She looked at the side and said with a stern face, "Mom left you some property, a real estate, and a sum of cash." At the end, he added, "Brothers and sisters, I will give you the most."
The woman with a bad attitude sighed, "Just be content. It was not easy for parents to earn this family business back then, we all suffered with it. A few years ago, my father was sick, and my mother was sick in the past few years. You didn't do any filial piety in front of you, but you got the most, hum."
Pei Qiu then realized what the reason for his unpopularity was. She didn't want any property at all, so she refused: "I don't want any property. You can keep it and share it. I have a mother myself."
The old lady on the bed was a little excited and sobbed gently.
Pei Qiu's anger was extinguished by the old lady's tears.
This person is going to die. Pei Qiu thought that if she dies, many of her resentment will be gone. She cannot keep these emotions, she has to let the old lady take them away.
Thinking of this, she stood up and said, "I don't hate you now, nor did I hate you before. Although you abandoned me back then, I am very lucky. I have always lived a very good life. My parents are very nice to me. They have no money, but they have been to college. You don't have to feel that you owe me, let alone compensate me. I have everything else that I didn't get from you."
Pei Qiu finished saying this and was already full of tears.
The old lady died three days later. The funeral was held very grandly, and Pei Qiu was dressed in plain clothes and insisted on not wearing mourning.
The relatives who came to attend the funeral watched her one by one, and the knife never stabbed them, so they could naturally easily say words to her forgiveness.
"Your mother had her own difficulties back then, you must understand her."
Pei Qiu thought, this time I went, I didn't want to understand the person who abandoned me back then, I just wanted to understand the person who was reluctant to raise me. She didn't complain about Li Xueqin in her heart, but at this moment, she finally stopped coming. No matter how bad Li Xueqin treats her, she did not abandon her. This is just how many times better than her biological parents.
Someone else said, "A person dies like a lamp goes out, don't hate it."
Pei Qiu thought: Her lamp goes out, but my lamp is still on.
⑧
Pei Qiu insisted on rejecting the legacy left to her by the old lady, which eased her attitude of the brothers and sisters in the sense of blood. When I returned to
, the brother who picked her up to send her off.
On the way, the brother said, "Don't be familiar with them. You should collect the money. I know that your foster mother's family is not in good condition."
Pei Qiu said, "No need."
The brother smiled and said, "Your foster mother is also very interesting. When I found you, I thought, after all, she is your foster mother, and she should know her for the sake of emotion and reason. I contacted her first, but she kept stopping us to meet."
"Why did we meet again?"
"Because I gave her a sum of money."
Pei Qiu was stunned.
The brother smiled: "But she confiscated it, but when she saw the money, she suddenly decided to let us meet."
"Why?"
The brother sighed: "She said that the family who can give out so much money should be very good. You have suffered a lot from such an age, and she wants to give you a chance to change your destiny. If you want to recognize your ancestors, she will not object."
The pain suddenly arose, and Pei Qiu felt that his heart was suddenly pulled into a place and could not be relieved.
Li Xueqin is such a conflict all her life, and her temper is always so bad, which is the result of the inner tumbling.
Back then, she didn't want to adopt Pei Qiu, but she felt that she was really pitiful and couldn't care. After adopting her, she really regretted it every day. The burden on multiple children was too heavy, but she couldn't be determined to leave Pei Qiu halfway. Every time she paid Pei Qiu's tuition, she felt very angry. Why should she save money to support an irrelevant child to go to school, but she couldn't be determined to let Pei Qiu drop out of school and ruin her life.
That morning, she made dumplings and bone soup for Pei Qiu, and sent Pei Qiu away with her. She felt so hated. She tried hard to raise a little kid into a promising girl. Why did her biological mother recognize each other when she said she could recognize each other? But she was reluctant to let Pei Qiu keep it in the dark. After all, her biological mother could give Pei Qiu a higher starting point.
Li Xueqin is mean and has a bad temper, but she is the kindest person in the world. Every time she faces a dilemma, no matter how hard she struggles, she will eventually put the weight in her heart on Pei Qiu's side.
⑨
The car turned from the intersection into the alley. Pei Qiu saw Li Xueqin from a distance, standing at the gate of the community like a street light.
As a result, before Pei Qiu got closer, she turned around and walked away.
Pei Qiu understood that Li Xueqin wanted face and was looking forward to her coming back, but she didn't want her to know.
My dear brother parked the car at the entrance of the community. Pei Qiu thanked him, ran into the unit door without looking back, and rushed up the stairs.
Li Xueqin was standing at the door. Seeing Pei Qiu, the joy of regaining regaining the mistakes flashed in her eyes, but soon she stretched her face and said in a rough voice: "I thought you were not back."
Pei Qiu rushed over and hugged Li Xueqin: "My mother is here, my family is here, where can I go if I don't come back?"
Li Xueqin sneered: "Go back to your mother's house. I heard that their family is rich, and they have left you a lot of good things."
Pei Qiu hugged her tighter, and she felt her body The body's temperature and tremble, and she said in a trembling voice: "Mom, that person only gave me two things, life and death, and nothing else. What I have now is given by the old Pei family, and it is all given by you."
Li Xueqin's back froze. She didn't speak for a long time. Until the kitchen sounded puffing, she broke away Pei Qiu's hand: "Oh, less sticky people, I'm making a fuck."
Pei Qiu was like a little tail, following Li Xueqin, watching Li Xueqin pick up dumplings from the pot.
Pei Qiu was about to ask what it was, and the wall clock on the wall began to report the time, at exactly 4:00 pm.
The sun sets, and a warm light shines in through the oil-stained glass window.Pei Qiu leaned on the door frame and watched quietly, watching the light softly covering Li Xueqin, wrapping her sharpness and kindness.
That is the glory of maternal love.
——Finish—
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