Original illustration: Meow Meow Xia, narrated by: Lin Xiaowen, female. Sometimes a look of a boy is enough for a teenage love. It was a physical education class in the first year of high school. I was running the third lap of 800 meters and fell down.

Original illustration: Meow Meow Xia, narrated by: Lin Xiaowen, female

01

The love of a boy, sometimes a look is enough.

That was a physical education class in the first year of high school. I was exhausted and fell down when I was running the third lap of 800 meters.

stood up with some annoyance and accidentally ran into Qin Beidou's gaze.

was running, stopping in place, looking at me with concern.

Heart-pounding.

From then on, we started the youth story of silent film .

02

3 Someone will definitely hand in a note: It’s not the college entrance examination, and there is still room for improvement for the failure proof.

Every week, the day I am on duty to wipe the blackboard, Qin Beidou would not make a sound, as if he had passed by and wiped the blackboard cleanly.

Then, I didn't forget to "hit me" in the note: I'll wipe the blackboard in the future, and you'll jump up and down to wipe the blackboard, it's really funny, and your height is a flaw.

So, I drew a cartoon and gave it back to him: a villain with a slipper on his face.

When the teacher read the compositions many times in class, he asked, "What are the secrets?"

So, every month, he would go to the newsstand to help him buy "Reader" and "Youth Digest", and move the books at home to him locally.

, and I finally found out by my classmates, asking if we are in love?

Qin Beidou denies it, and criticizes that classmate with a strict and stern voice.

Then, he explained in the book he returned to me: "I deny our relationship with my classmates because I don't want to bring you burdens and prejudice.

was relieved and moved.

03

After the semester of high school, we started to have morning and evening self-study.

During evening self-study every day, my father would ride a bicycle to pick me up.

But Qin Beidou was still following our father and daughter not far and near.

Watch me upstairs and wait for me to wave goodbye to him at the window of the room.

In winter, there was a slight water vapor on the window, so I drew a big love on the window with "Good night" written on it.

He turned around and waved his back to me, feeling affectionate and handsome.

Sometimes, he had already walked a long way, and I was still standing in front of the window.

Then, many times, he didn't know when he suddenly rode back at lightning, and gave me an air hug from afar.

Then, many times, he didn't know when he suddenly rode back at lightning and gave me an air hug from afar.

04

At that time, we not only talked about love on paper, but also wrote long letters to tell each other about their ideals.

I want to be a lawyer, he wants to be a policeman.

We made an appointment, he took the police school in this city, and I went to the same city University of Political Science and Law .

We made an appointment, we will eliminate violence and maintain justice in the future.

We will also Let’s meet up. After graduating from high school, I will hold hands and KISS to talk about the most ostentatious and passionate love.

So, in the three years of high school, our greatest intimacy is to pretend to be in parallel and stand in a casual manner when we were exercising .

Occasionally, when stretching, his fingertips will touch my fingertips.

The throbbing of water from fingertips to the tip of the heart, passing the year.

05

That year, we got what we wanted.

At that time, admission notice was still sent to the school.

When we both held hands to get the notice, our respective class teachers happened to be there (in the second year of high school, Qin Beidou and I were separated into different classes).

They widened their eyes: "You two...so..."

Teacher said that we should not do a very good job in keeping confidentiality.

Qin Beidou scratched his head and pulled me to bow to the two teachers and said, "Thank you."

Then, like a big man, he said to the teacher, "When Xiaowen and I get married, we will definitely come and give the teacher wedding candy."

We ran out of the high school campus with our admission letters.

He ran and asked me, "Do you feel like I was worshiping the world when I pulled you to bow to the teacher just now."

I didn't agree, but I felt that I had been with this boy for many years...

06

4 years in college, it was my honeymoon period between Qin Beidou and me.

One of our schools is in the north of the city and the other is in the west of the city.

When he had no classes, he came to our school to find me.

Qin Beidou, wearing a police uniform, will be as cool as it is.

At that time, his mother came to school every week to see him, brought him delicious food, and took his dirty clothes, shoes, and bed sheets and quilt covers along the way.

Every time, he will share the delicious food with me, so that I can feel the warmth and taste from my in-laws' house in advance.

In fact, we didn’t tell both parents about our relationship.

The universe is not determined, and we don’t want to be disturbed by their excessive interrogation.

But to be honest, Beidou's mother's skills are really good, especially the ribs and lotus root soup she cooked is simply a master level in my eyes.

"Eat people for a short mouth", I couldn't help but stand up for Beidou's mother: "In the future, don't let your mother help you wash clothes and shoes anymore. Don't you think you are a giant baby?"

Beidou's face turned red at that time.

It was not until that day that he told me that when he was five years old, his parents divorced.

Dad soon remarried and had children, and had almost no contact with them, mother and son.

After the divorce, my mother put all her energy and expectations on him.

took it to school to deliver food and take dirty clothes home to wash. He had clearly refused 10,000 times, but his mother did not miss it.

On the one hand, it is because I miss him, and on the other hand, it is because I can do something for him, so that she feels that her mother is still very important.

I remember feeling so sorry for Beidou, who became a single parent at the age of five.

touched her head and said to him very seriously: "We are adults. In fact, we can't continue to let our mother serve us, but we should let her have her own circle and hobbies. She has lived for others for most of her life and should also have her own life."

Beidou accepted my suggestions very seriously. After

, he really never asked his mother to come to school to deliver food and help him wash clothes.

According to him, when he tried to make a meal for his mother, the first time he helped her to wash clothes, his mother cried for a long time.

When these are said, Beidou's eyes are wet.

I stood on tiptoe and liked him with my big thumb: "In the future, when we get married, we will love her together."

Beidou hugged me in his arms and gave me a wet and affectionate kiss.

07

Four years in college, we have been in love every day, saying all the sweet words of our lives, and doing all the most romantic things in our lives.

Once in the early morning, Beidou dreamed that I was bitten by a vicious dog. It was obviously a dream, but he could no longer sleep.

So, I got up and climbed over the dormitory courtyard wall, and walked from his school to my school.

The streets in the early morning, there are no buses and no taxis.

When he walked to our school, it was already three:40 in the morning.

He stood outside the courtyard wall of our dormitory, until our dormitory opened, until I finished washing and went to the cafeteria with my roommate for dinner.

When I saw him, I was shocked.

ran over and asked him what happened?

He held me in his arms and told me that he had a nightmare and was worried, so he came and took a look.

He said it calmly, but I felt all kinds of tides of love in my heart.

At that age when we are full of each other, we believe that the future is promising.

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graduated from university, and we all got what we wanted. Beidou became an prison guard , and I started to intern in the law firm.

I remember when we got our first salary in our lives, we happily went to buy gifts and then met our parents.

My parents like Beidou very much. After seeing him, my father, who was picky about it, commented: "He should be the man in the world who cares about you the most after his father."

I asked my father, "But I just met, how did you see it?"

My father sent me one sentence: "Of course men understand men the most."

I was recognized by my parents, and I was very happy.

09

However, for the first time I saw Beidou's mother, I obviously felt her full of hostility.

From the moment I saw me, she had never looked at me in front of me, but just observed me around the bush as I looked elsewhere.

She counted the little things that Beidou had since grown up, and her tone contained a sense of arrogance that no woman in the world deserved her son.

Although Beidou interrupted her repeatedly, this did not affect her persistently finishing her words and declare her position: "He had no father when he was 5 years old. I brought him up alone. Even if he was wronged by fingernails , I couldn't stand it."

The three of us had dinner together. She pointed to each dish and emphasized: "This is Beidou's favorite food."

Beidou helped me pick up food from time to time. She threw a cold look over and helped Beidou pick up food...

It was already late autumn, and Beidou was so nervous that he was sweating profusely.

finally stood up until I bid farewell and left. Beidou's mother said to Beidou who sent me downstairs: "Remember to get a taxi for Lin Xiaowen, don't let her take the bus back alone." The sentence

contains too many meanings.

full name "Lin Xiaowen" should be more alienated, "Take a taxi and don't let her go back alone" imply that Beidou should not send me.

As soon as he got downstairs, Beidou wiped the sweat beads on his forehead and said awkwardly: "My mother, she..."

Looking at him in such a difficult situation, I pretended to be fine: "A writer once described my mother as a mother beast. For them, if my son has a girlfriend, someone openly robbed their children. It's okay, she and I are not enemies, because we both love a man deeply at the same time, and it's good to see people's hearts over time."

Beidou hugged me in his arms and said 10,000 thanks.

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However, I underestimated motherhood.

If we were to meet for the first time, Beidou's mother was quite polite to me, but in the days that followed, she showed irresolvable hostility.

I first entered the workplace, Beidou and I were very busy. His work often required on duty, so we usually only meet once a week.

However, every time he meets, his mother will find him in various ways, either he feels uncomfortable temporarily or his relatives have something to do.

There have been two times when she said she was feeling uncomfortable, and Beidou and I hurried home to see her.

Seeing me, she directly issued an order to expel guests: "I feel dizzy, and I can't breathe when there are more than one person in my family.”

Beidou asked her: "Mom, why do you speak like this? ”

She said with red eyes: “I am a patient, I feel uncomfortable, are you still going to lie? "

To be honest, I really can't think of why I made Beidou mother so uncomfortable.

Although I didn't like it much, I also thought I was not that annoying.

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During that time, although Beidou didn't say it, I saw his pressure in his obvious weight loss.

Several times, when he was with me, he quietly turned off his phone.

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Results, once, when we were dating, another of his phone still rang, and it was his mother called.

Her phone was turned off when she called Beidou. She was as clever as hers. She actually called Beidou unit and asked his leader for the emergency contact information of Beidou from his leader in the name of an urgent matter at home.

On the phone, after chatting with him for a few words, Beidou's mother said that she hadn't contacted me for a long time and asked me to listen to the phone.

Results, I took the phone, and Beidou's mother asked me in a cold tone: "Why are you trying to instigate my son to turn it off? He doesn't understand you, I think I can see through you, you are too scheming and our family can't afford to marry you, I advise you to stay away from my son. ”

Then, she asked me to hand over my phone to Beidou in a command tone, asked him what he wanted to eat at night, said she was feeling uncomfortable, and asked him to go home early.

That day, Beidou saw that I looked bad and asked me what his mother said to me.

I pondered for a moment, and said to him with a smile, "Auntie hasn't seen me for a long time, I'll say hello. "

Beidou was skeptical, then sighed, and when he raised his head, his eyes looked at me red: "Xiaowen, no matter how my mother treats you, please don't care about her for my sake, she..."

I didn't let Beidou continue to talk, and he also reassured that I was not that greedy.

But, seeing him who was thin and gloomy, I decided to take the initiative to do something.

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Once, Beidou was on duty on Saturday and Sunday. I bought vegetables and fruits, and a piece of clothing that was very expensive for me at that time. I went to visit Beidou's mother.

Beidou was not there, and her attitude towards me was the freezing point.

She didn't move at all when facing the delicious table I bought.

Just took out a stack of photos and explained to me one by one whose girl the photo was, how to know the roots and how gentle and gentle.

I looked at her incredibly: "Auntie, I don't know where I offended you? Why are you so disgusted with me? "

She looked at me very calmly and said something that made me fall into an ice cellar: "Because Beidou loves you so much, as long as he marrys you, he will marry a wife and forget her mother, and I will be in vain for this son. So, as long as I am alive, I will not agree to you being together. "

" You can go to Beidou to complain, and he will feel sorry for you and will run back to argue with me. But one day, if he really has to choose between me and you, he will still choose me. There is only one mother, and there are women everywhere. "Is this reason absurd?

But, but it is so tough.

At that moment, I knew what it means to have a cold back and fight with my heart.

At that moment, I witnessed the selfishness and terror of maternal love with my own eyes.

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I never mentioned that meeting with Beidou. After being humiliated and warned by his mother like this, I felt sorry for myself not myself, but Beidou.

Under the deformed maternal love, how helpless and suffocating he should be.

After this, we rarely meet. Either I am busy or he is busy. After finally meeting, his mother has killed all kinds of deadly calls.

The more I express my understanding, the more guilt Beidou feels.

During that time, we actually had our own thoughts. I felt sorry for him, and he felt sorry for me.

I performed well in court for the first time in my life, and the way I could think of was to buy a pair of leather shoes for Beidou.

He spends very little time wearing casual clothes, so I just want to buy him a pair of expensive but comfortable shoes.

Results, when we met that day, he gave me a pair of shoes. He said that I spent less time sitting in the office every day and more time running around to investigate and collect evidence, so I had to have a pair of flat shoes that could walk as fast as I could.

This is not the first time, we have a good relationship.

Just like every time I feel the pressure, I will have low fever . Every time I have a fever, Beidou will feel the normal, appear in time, and be by my side. He is my best antipyretic medicine. Sometimes I just need to lean on his shoulder for a while and feel like I am resurrected.

Once, when Beidou was handing over the prisoner, a prisoner attacked the police. At the moment he was attacked, the cup I had originally held suddenly fell to pieces...

Two people would have such telepathy after they were together for a long time.

14

That day, we sat in the huge Zhongshan Square and happily tried our shoes.

Then, Beidou's phone rang "in timely".

If nothing unexpected happens, it must have been his mother.

However, this time, she was using her mobile phone, but the nurse who spoke on the phone was 120 - her mother fainted on the street.

Beidou and I rushed to the hospital. His mother had woken up. The doctor said that we were not seriously injured, but our blood sugar and blood pressure were low. We should pay attention to rest and strengthen nutrition. After observing for a while, we can go home.

However, she insisted on being hospitalized, saying that she often had palpitations and insomnia, and saying that she felt that she had not had much time.

In the end, the doctor had to help her get hospitalized. As soon as

entered the ward, she said to Beidou, "You ask Lin Xiaowen to go back, I'm upset that she is here." The sentence

made Beidou and me stunned.

Looking at Beidou's red eyes, I immediately said, "Auntie, you have a good rest, I will come to see you later."

As a result, she was not polite at all: "Don't come in the future, I don't want to see you."

I held back my tears and patted Beidou: "I'll leave first, call if you have something to do."

I walked out of the ward, and Beidou chased me out a few seconds later, hugged me from behind.

His helplessness was passed to me through his body that was so thin that only bones were left, which made me feel painful.

Then, his mother's angry shout came from the ward: "Qin Beidou, are you not caring about me?"

Looking at Beidou let go of me in tears, turning back to the back of the ward. That was the first time I felt that the future between me and him was uncertain.

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Later, his mother used to being hospitalized when she was sick.

She only has such a son, and she always loves him as if she is life, but she just lets him go to work during the day and stay at night to take care of him all night. I don’t understand the love like

.

I suggest Beidou take his mother to see a psychiatrist.

However, facing the psychologist, she cursed at Beidou: "You are like that femto and scorpion woman, and you think your mother is mentally ill."

Finally, after such repeated tossing, Beidou became tired: "What do you want me to do so that you can not do this? "

His mother blurted out: "Break up with Lin Xiaowen. ”

Beidou asked her: “What if I don’t? ”

She said frankly: “Then you make a choice, if you have her or me, if you have me or not. "

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In those days, Beidou traveled between units and hospitals, and the naked eye was haggard and thin.

The relationship between us for nearly eight years suddenly became the same as underground love.

Meeting in a hurry, and he had to go home to put out the fire without saying a few words.

I felt so distressed, but I could not do anything.

During that time, I was distracted and had no spirit.

My parents who used to support our feelings became extremely worried. My mother thinks that my daughter is not bad, why are she so disliked?

Dad is worried about this situation. Even if we really get together, the relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law will be the biggest worry.

I am too afraid that my parents will suddenly become an obstacle for me and Beidou.

So, I decided I decided to meet Beidou's mother alone, chat with her heart and make another effort for our relationship.

Hello everyone, I am Xiao Nian. The most helpless and sad thing in love is "I'm sorry, I love you, but my family doesn't agree." Today's story is a bit long, I will continue to write the follow-up and strive to post it tomorrow.