Both my brother and his sister-in-law are vegetarians. My sister-in-law is pregnant and my brother allows her to eat eggs, but not meat. Although I didn't participate in the comments. But deep down, I don’t want her to eat meat. One day, my sister-in-law asked my brother to buy h

My brother and sister-in-law are both vegetarians. My sister-in-law is pregnant. My brother allows her to eat eggs, but not meat. Although I didn't participate in the comments. But deep down, I don’t want her to eat meat.

One day, my sister-in-law asked my brother to buy fish for her, but he refused to buy it. I think my sister-in-law told me about this just because she wanted to hear what I had to say.

Because I didn’t want her to eat meat, so I said I didn’t dare to buy it for you, for fear that my brother would be angry when he saw it. I just find reasons not to do it.

I knew that her sister was cooking meat secretly, and I saw it too, but I pretended not to see it (when my sister-in-law was pregnant, it was her sister who cooked the meat for her).

A few days ago, when my sister-in-law's sister, brother-in-law and I accompanied her to see a doctor, in the car, her sister complained that her poor health was due to her vegetarian diet. The sister-in-law was silent when she participated in this conversation, and her sister was mumbling alone.

I silently told myself that if I must eat, they will find a way. I'll just continue to act stupid. Just be myself and don't get involved.

My sister-in-law did a lot of tests but couldn’t figure out what was going on. But the doctor also said that she could not survive without eating anything. Especially breastfeeding requires enhanced nutrition. I don't agree with it in my heart. Her sister scolded her in front of the doctor for not listening to her. The sister-in-law was silent.

My sister-in-law asked me to take her to see my classmate (a doctor of traditional Chinese medicine). I had a sister-in-law and wanted to take my pulse but I didn’t say anything. Through this incident, in addition to seeing that my attitude was related to money,

also vaguely realized that I still have a desire to show off, that is: Look at how capable I am. There are students in both Chinese and Western medicine who can help. I'm trying to cheer up my sister-in-law (am I trying to be greedy and be kind)?

After seeing the doctor, we went home and first went to my classmate’s house. The classmate told us a lot and explained our questions one by one. I'm very happy. I could vaguely see myself feeling a little dizzy.

When we went back, our classmate and his wife saw us off, and they all got on the bus. I said a few words to my classmate and his wife before we got on the bus.

In the car, I said mv (the name of my classmate’s wife) asked me to cook you some meat. Of course my sister-in-law was happy and agreed. The question is, if you give meat to your sister-in-law, how will your brother pass this test?

I said, tell my brother, he will definitely not let me eat it, and let him know that he will feel uncomfortable after eating meat. It is better not to tell him and do it secretly. In the end, this matter was decided.

I regret it. I don’t understand my behavior. In order to show off my ability, I said in the car that my classmate’s wife asked me to cook meat for my sister-in-law. In fact, she didn’t say anything at all. I really don’t understand why I wanted to show off and why I said it. What’s even more incomprehensible about such a lie is that I actually made the decision to secretly cook meat for my sister-in-law without telling my brother.

I have decided that I can’t take it back, so I can only do it hard. I feel so uncomfortable and painful. I am deceiving my brother, and I am deceiving my brother and my sister-in-law together, as well as my sister-in-law’s natal family. Everyone will know this.

I didn’t want to be like this, but I was asked to direct it like this. My original intention was not to care, but I lied just to show off. I could have stopped acting, but I continued to take matters into my own hands. Step by step, I push myself towards things I don’t want to do.

It’s okay to do things by yourself, but it’s still based on cheating on my brother with his sister-in-law and his sisters. This really makes me unable to accept it myself. What should I do if my brother finds out? Will he be sad? Even my own sister deceived him, am I worthy of my brother? I feel sorry for my brother when I think of this, and I feel sorry for him for doing such a thing.

My mother has also been a vegetarian for many years. She knew about this and blamed me, saying that I shouldn’t do this.

I feel angry because I can’t take it back. I am conflicted, upset, entangled, regretful, worried, and afraid, which makes my life uneasy. It is too painful. I hate myself and blame myself...

1. Sometimes, I I'm thinking about how to convince my brother. ,

2. Sometimes I think it should be like this, otherwise what will happen if the child's nutrition is really not enough (looking for reasons to prove that my approach is right)

3. Sometimes I also think that maybe this is the best arrangement,

4. Sometimes I ask myself, why? This happened to me. Where did I go wrong? How can I change myself? (Okay, I should filter it out)

How can I be clean in my heart if I don’t deal with so many negative emotions and thoughts?

Is this the price I should pay for showing off and lying? The price is too high!

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