I, who have passed the years of no doubt, have been laid off by from today and has become unemployed! Yes, the thing I feared the most, was the thing that finally happened today, strictly speaking at 5 o'clock this afternoon.
This morning, I was the same as yesterday, taking my mother affectionately instructed to go to work:
"Son, don’t always stay up late and work overtime. Try to go home early. Don’t be too busy for lunch and forget to eat", "Son, the condition of your thyroid during the physical examination last month was very bad. The doctor asked you to make time to get the biopsy. No matter how busy you are, you should arrange it as soon as possible." You must take good care of your body, don’t let your parents worry about it"...
"Good mom, don’t worry about me, you have to take medicine and keep your body well, don’t always think that medicine is expensive I’m not willing to eat, no matter how expensive it is, I have the ability to feed you. As long as your condition is stable, and my dad can live a long and healthy life, this is my greatest motivation for struggle.
This morning, I was the same as yesterday, with my son's innocent request to go to work:
"Mom, you work so hard every day, so when you come home at night, you have to study and read carefully and help me with my homework. You This is my role model! Role model mother, you can help me buy a pair of genuine Nike basketball shoes. I like playing basketball so much. The pair you bought last time is so cheap. You must have been cheated. The soles came out within a few days of wearing them. "Mom, please help me sign up for another basketball class. I love basketball so much. I can save the tuition by myself, sell waste products and sell homemade handicrafts. You will not be so stressed.", "Mom, Teacher Yang of the remedial class said that if you don’t pay in advance to reserve a degree, my class type for the next semester may be out of place."...
"Good baby, when the salary is paid this month, my mother will take you to pick shoes. I’m sorry if you buy a pirated copy again. You got the 3rd place in the final exam last year." "Good baby, since you like basketball, mom supports you, let’s report 10 lessons first, and 30 lessons at once. It’s a bit high, are you optimistic", "Okay baby, mom quickly communicate with Teacher Yang to see if I can reserve the degree first and pay the tuition fee next month"...
This morning,I was still the same as yesterday. I took my father’s deep father’s love to work:
"Son, my parents know that you are very filial to your parents when you were a child. When you were in elementary school, you represented the school to sing solo and play accordion, the school rewards You are not willing to spend 4 yuan for you. The other kids are buying snacks, but you rush home in your pocket and divide me two yuan and your mother two yuan. If you have good food, you will also give it to you. We, you are not willing to eat. But now you can’t save yourself too much, so you don’t even have to spend lunch with a few pieces of cake and milk. Sometimes you work overtime and often don’t eat dinner. You save yourself so much, how can your parents heart? Don’t feel bad, you won’t be allowed to be like this in the future." "My son, father thought about it. I just need to grab some herbs for my vascular disease. I don’t have to go to the doctor to prescribe Chinese medicine every month, so I can save money to buy it for your mother. Medicine, her liver cirrhosis should be cured better. Your mother will never be easy"...
"Dad, I know, you don't have to worry about me. I am thin and eat less. It doesn't get in the way. I exercise every day. , The body will be great, I will take good care of you in the future", "Dad, my ability can take care of your old age, you must take your medicine, and you are not allowed to stop taking the medicine without listening to the doctor"...
This morning, as I did yesterday, I took my husband to work with deep self-blame:
"Wife, you spend all your time on work, tutoring children, and caring for your parents. You have never I have bought decent cosmetics. You always see you as a bottle of Johnson's baby lotion . You are always so simple and rarely buy clothes. Wife, I’m useless. The hundreds of thousands of savings you plan to study for your children and our mother’s hundreds of thousands of pensions are all lost in business. In fact, I only had debts a few months ago, and I didn’t have half a cent of income. The turnover expenses for you are borrowed from Borrow", "My wife, I closed the shop, and now I am looking for a job steadily, so that I will no longer suffer from you and worry about me."
"Husband, I cherish the fate of being a family with you, my son, and my parents in this life.I want you all to be healthy, healthy and safe. No matter how hard I am, no matter how tired I am, I will be happy. Our family must always be happy together." "Husband, don't blame yourself too much. Life is inherently capricious. Work." Don’t be too anxious if you find it slowly. I’ll hold on if I’m at home"... Years of loyalty and love (no, now I want to change my former company), with a persistent belief in this job, with a heavy sense of responsibility for this position, stepped into the company elevator with full energy, ready to start a day of hard work! I know After the epidemic, the company is not easy. As an old employee’s faith and love for the company, I am willing to give more to the company. I am willing to advance and retreat with the company to tide over the difficulties of the epidemic.
This afternoon, the departmental meeting was surprisingly punctual At the end of 5 o’clock, the boss motioned me to stay in the meeting room. Her face was as expressionless as frozen, and I quickly guessed what she would talk to me. She broke our short silence:
"Work with you quickly One year (I joined the company for 12 years, and it was the structural adjustment last year that I transferred to her). You are indeed a good employee with both ability and political integrity. Your learning ability is very strong, and your communication and coordination skills are excellent.", However, the style of painting has changed. "You also know that the company's situation is not so good after the epidemic, and it needs to make an impatient move to lay off employees. This time the tone is to try to preserve the strength of the new generation. Your age is more embarrassing. Of course, this decision is not because of you. I have worked with the leader of XX for 10 years, and my relationship with XX has been eliminated..."
I immediately understood everything, understood her intention to talk to me, and understood what she had said before It turns out that “unsuitable employees, such as those who are too old and unable to keep up with the rapid development of the company, will be eliminated; I will add the number of layoffs on the basis of the company’s quota, because I You must set an example; the rivers and lakes are very small, so don’t play tricks when you are laid off; my decision is selfless and no personal grievances." All of this is for me.
She often arranges tasks outside of work for me, I always It is an efficient solution, and then take the initiative to discuss with her, the end result is that she took my results to report to the leaders; she often asked me what books I read recently,Then let me buy a set for her; she often asks me why I can read 40 books a year and learn so fast; she often asks me to discuss the latest business insights. I am very happy to help her, and I don’t care whether the tasks she arranges are extra meals, or whether she takes my results to report, because I know that as a subordinate, I want to do my best to help your boss succeed. Become her powerful right arm.
However, to my surprise, she recruited a post-90s employee with her left hand and cut me with a knife with her right hand. Today's layoffs, on the surface, are a means for the company to tide over the difficulties, but in fact it has become a tactic for departmental leaders to fight against differences and eliminate outstanding ones.
At this moment, I tried my best to restrain my emotions that were about to collapse. I told myself that even if my heart is hurt and uncomfortable, I must end it decently. This is a structured and boastful The righteousness of the person. I know very well that, just like boyfriend and girlfriend, the man no longer loves you and wants to break up. Although you still love him very much, there is nothing left to say. I happily signed the resignation letter she handed over, and thanked her for training me over the past year. I and her, and this company that we have worked together for 12 years, parted peacefully. She also guessed that she did not expect that the resignation procedures with me would go so smoothly.
Back at the work station, I was still surprisingly calm, just want to leave this heartbroken place as soon as possible. For 12 years, this place is equivalent to half of my home. After a while, I put all my belongings in the company's suitcase, and I don't want to come back to this sad place again.
In the elevator, I came across a group of old colleagues who wanted to say goodbye to them. How did they know that they should have received the wind and knew my fate? When they met me, they shone like a plague, and they stared at each other. Tongue out, the scene is extremely embarrassing! Halfway through, I said goodbye to WeChat, a close colleague who had been in contact for 12 years. However, she faintly replied "It's a pity" and there was nothing to follow. It turns out that disaster is a demon mirror, where people or ghosts are nakedly revealed; it turns out that salting on the wound is like this. I no longer intend to say goodbye to any former colleagues.
I am so uncomfortable, I need to walk, I need to be quiet. After getting off the elevator, I put my luggage in the lobby, and rushed out of the plaza outside the building.
In the sky, the wind and raging horns, dark clouds, heavy rain, thunder and lightning...
On Monday evening, there was no one in the bustling square that should have been! Could it be that the heavy rain has confused my vision, and the tears have blurred my perception, making me unable to see a person!
No, there is no one! Yes, the weather suddenly changed from a gentleman with a bright morning wind to a beast with a fierce storm. Who is not afraid? However, I am not afraid!
I ran wildly in this empty square, like a wild horse. Let the pouring rain fall mercilessly on me, and let the roaring thunder and lightning roar fiercely in my ears.
fell and got up. Get up, fall again... Suddenly, there is a sharp pain, and I can't get up anymore. Well, since the body has been drenched with rain, since the face has been washed away with tears, since the knee has been cut to bleed, since the heart has been torn apart, I simply don’t get up and knelt down in the middle of the square where the water flows. Bar.
No, I am too tired, I want to lie down, I am really too tired, I must lie down... Lying in the cold rain water makes me feel calm, but after a short period of calm, I But I cried even more sadly. This is a kind of sadness intertwined with feelings...
I feel in a trance that a figure approaching me is a young lady. It turned out that the sky was clearing up. She helped me onto the stone chair and asked what was wrong with me. My tears broke the bank again, and was aphasia , and I just cried! She hugged me sympathetically, took out the tissue and hemostatic paste from her bag, and helped me simply bandage the wound.
I regret not leaving Miss Sister's WeChat account. I really appreciate her. I hope she can read this headline article. I want her to know that she made me feel a warm current in my cold heart at that moment. May her good life be safe!
I walked back to the luggage storage area of the office building like a zombie, and pulled back all my belongings in the past 12 years. I swear that I will never set foot in this place again when I am heartbroken!
Normally, I am not willing to take a taxi, unless I am reimbursed for working late.But today. I have to take a taxi. I don't want people on the subway to see my embarrassment, the embarrassment of being unemployed by a woman in her 40s who is burdened with a heavy family burden.
Along the way, I was too cold, curled up in a corner of the back seat, bleeding from two big openings in my knees. I want to be strong, I don't want to cry, but still can't help sobbing.
"Girl, what's wrong with you, is this being bullied?" The driver asked me when looking at the rearview mirror. "It's okay, I'm just being laid off", I tried to endure the tears of the embankment, pretending to be calm and answered. "Hey, isn't it unemployed? If the boss doesn't beat the west, as for crying," the driver said with a sigh of relief.
But the driver knows how much love and hard work I have put into this company and this job? He knows that I am a middle-aged woman of the age of social death. How easy is it to find another job? And I simply can’t afford the window period of looking for a job. Half the sky at home is waiting for me to carry it. My family needs money for normal operation. My parents need money for medicines for chronic diseases, and my children need money for tuition. My mortgage needs money...
How can I tell my old father and mother, my husband and children, that I have been laid off when I get home? Or do you hide it from them and pretend to go to work tomorrow to keep them from worrying? What should I do if I start a mortgage next month? What about my parents’ medical expenses? What about the tuition of the remedial class? What should I do if the child’s critical illness insurance will be renewed next month? How old is 40 to get a job? How long will it take to find a job? Can I still have income to support this family? At this moment, my mind was blank, tears once again blurred my vision, and my heart was suffocated...
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