Years are not forgiving
I am in my early 40s, divorced for more than five years, and my child is six and a half years old. Raising children alone without the help of the elderly. Every morning, I go to school and then go to work. I rush to the nursery to pick up the children after I get off work at night, and then wait for meals, baths, and sleep. All day long, I’m so busy like fighting and I don’t want to talk. My body is not good, plus I can’t eat well and sleep well.
35-year-old photo
Currently life is not worried about food, clothing and foreign debt, but it is definitely not good. Our family should be the worst among children. After all, the standard configuration of other people's homes is two incomes and two suites, and our homes are all discounted. I have no material desires or love to eat, drink, and play, but I feel very indebted to my children. First of all, I lost materially at the starting line. I am too busy with work and lack of energy and can not be with me often, so I feel a little anxious.
Reasons for personality
The personality is relatively strong and independent, relying on yourself inside and out. I can tolerate physical fatigue, but mental loneliness and helplessness have nowhere to hide. Sometimes I think I'm hypocritical, but when I'm desperate and sad, I still want to cry, want to hug, want someone to care about someone's pain. But because of the lack of love and the indifferent relationship with parents since childhood, and the unwillingness to disturb friends, the negative emotions are digested by oneself in the end.
The warmth of the family
Desire for family
Still longing for family, wanting to have a companion, but occasionally I think about it, I don’t have any extravagant hopes, and I am not interested in men; I want to earn money A lot of money provides children with a better life, but it’s the same on their own, and there won’t be any mutations, and the company doesn’t feel very happy with bonuses.
's biggest problem is emotion. In fact, I can understand everything at this age, but I'm getting unhappy, lacking enthusiasm for life, and anorexia. The root of the problem can be traced back to childhood, but there is no solution, which can only force my heart to become stronger. I also understand the responsibility, so I won't let myself sink.
But still often feel lonely and desperate, will envy the humble little happiness of other people's homes, and will yearn for the embrace and tolerance of parents like a child.
Finally, I hope that middle-aged women can live their lives and find their own happiness.
A happy family
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