Wen: Shen Junyan
map: from the network
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Longnan in Gansu Province, located in the West Qinling Mountains, is Qinba Mountains , the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau, and the Loess Plateau are three topographical intersections. This is my hometown.
My hometown has beautiful mountains and rivers, suitable for traveling and spending my old age in peace. But the mountains and ditch are deep and there are many people and little land. Most young people, in order to support their families, can only choose to work outside all year round, and I am one of them.
At the beginning of the job, due to a wrong choice, I ended up being unemployed for half a year. Later, I took care of the relationship and went to work in a factory in Chongqing. At that time, the salary was more than 3,000 yuan, and when the profit was not good, he only got more than 2,000 yuan.
Poor and lowly couples are sad. At that time, due to the pressure of life, I was waiting for my salary every day in torment. However, once the salary arrived, there was a sense of loss. In a depressed mood,Roughly calculate the expenses in one month and leave myself three to five hundred dollars. Reluctantly, tap the screen of the phone with a finger, hey! The child is still waiting for the milk powder.
My wife takes care of the children in my hometown, and I am away all year round. We live in two places all the year round. As the saying goes: a long absence is better than a newlywed. But in the past few years, the relationship between our two people was in dire straits. Every time I talked on the phone, I started to feel cold and asked, but as long as I talked about wages and work, I already smelled the smell of gunpowder in my words. Finally, hang up the phone during the quarrel.
I still remember that on the evening of October 10, 2017, in the staff dormitory, because the salary was just paid, my colleagues were discussing where to improve their lives. I was lying on the bed, pretending to play with the phone. Because of the shyness in the pocket, I dare not stubbornly.
The colleague politely called me, my face was slightly red, and I lowered my embarrassed head, and whispered: Go! I lose weight. In fact, they know that I usually eat free lunch and eat more than anyone else.
With the bang of the dormitory door, the sound of my venting is left in the dormitory.
Whenever this time, I always get up and stare at the window sill in a daze. Why! Who doesn't want to have high-ranking officials, rich in wealth and good food; who doesn't want to have a decent job and a good income? Unfortunately, things are counterproductive. When is my life like this?
boil a pot of water,After soaking a pack of overtime, you will get the benefits-instant noodles, and save a few bucks for the days of careful planning.
The fragrant smell, I was about to eat noodles, my phone rang. Seeing the caller ID, I was in a daze. I didn't know how to face it. I hesitated and thought about my lines, but I answered the phone.
"Hey! Daughter-in-law, is the child's cough better?"
Crying and coughing like the eldest daughter vomiting. However, the external environment has no influence on the fierce quarrel between our couple. She thinks that I earn less and send less money to home. I blame her for spending money like water and don't know how to save. While accusing each other, "Hmm!" The phone was thrown to the desk and sat down on the bench.
The dormitory is quiet again, only what she said to me is still floating in the air. She choked and cried and yelled: "XXX, you are not a human, and I regret it in my life. I am married to you!"
I am not to be outdone, I said: "Okay! You can find a man who can make money!" No good at beating, no good at swearing. In anger, anyone can say sad words.
Take a chopsticks for instant noodles, stuff them into your mouth, and chew hard with your eyes dull. Teeth creaked and tears flowed down his cheeks without knowing when.
The man has tears but never flicks, as a low-income migrant worker, it is so difficult to live!
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1span It is cold, and it’s hard to sleep at night. Alone, walked out of the dormitory, strolling in the quiet place outside the factory, feeling sad alone.
Looking at the flowers and plants in front of me through the dim street lamp, as well as the bats that occasionally fly by, I envy their freedom and ease.
sighed and took out the phone. It was early morning and I saw a message. Then I thought: "Huh~, aren't you, don't you think I earn less? What's the use of sending messages now?" But I still clicked.
When I clicked on the message, I was dumbfounded. It said: "We have been married for so many years, and I have had enough quarrels with you. We are so good to get together, come back and bring the children, I Go out to work.
I hurriedly responded to the message and asked: "Stop kidding, where are you going?"
"Xinjiang, I'm going to work on the construction site!" Don't worry, I will never ask for money from you again in the future. "
It’s hard to make money after more than ten minutes, and it’s been more than ten minutes after that. "Will you come back? If you don't come back, I will leave the baby to your mother, and I will leave tomorrow! " picked up the phone and dialed the phone: "You can't go anywhere, I think about it, I will resign until the new year!" I'm going to Xinjiang! " Time will solve worries and time will dilute all the small things. My wife is an honest person. I lied to her and said she was leaving, but she took it seriously. Maybe she was too short of money. That’s great. It just so happened that several of her uncles are working at construction sites in Xinjiang, and the salary is not bad. My wife,Asked his uncles to contact me in advance to work in Xinjiang. She was still on Taobao and bought me a large suitcase. three 1span I can’t laugh or cry when I receive the suitcase. I work in an engine factory and painting department in Chongqing. Because in this factory, the leaders care and take care of, work relaxed and comfortable, and live a comfortable and worry-free life. I can get in touch with this industry and learn this technology thanks to the training in this factory.
I am a tech-savvy person, and practice makes perfect. After a few years, I can do everything well with my eyes closed. Another thing is that I have a limited education level. In this society where university diplomas are all over the sky, I am afraid that I will be unemployed again when I resign.
At the gate of the factory, I took the suitcase, and a colleague asked me: "What do you do with such a big suitcase?"
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p Say: Pack your luggage, resign, and go to Xinjiang to work.
The daughter-in-law asked twice in three days. I was forced by the pressure of life and after repeated consideration, I submitted my resignation application.
In the afternoon of the second day after submitting the resignation application,I just walked out of the physical and chemical room (where I work) and looked up, but saw the Minister of Painting Department approaching me. Somehow, I was like a kid who did something wrong at the time, I was pretending to be a little rabbit in my heart, pounding and panicking, and my palms were sweating nervously.
I pretended to be calm, and walked to the other road casually, I wanted to escape his sight as soon as possible.
I ran away from the scene, let out a sigh of relief, and patted my chest with my hands. It's dangerous! In the blink of an eye, the leader was standing in front of my eyes.
I stammered and yelled: "Span, good minister!"
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He smiled at me, and then asked me what I’m doing lately, what are the difficulties in life, and do I need him to help.
When I heard this, my head lowered, and a slight voice from my mouth said: "No, Minister, I'm alright."
0 span1 And asked me about work and life,But in my mind, I remembered that this leader was kind to me. Those things that can't be erased, come to my mind at this moment, as clear as the aquatic plants and goldfish in the fish tank.
I pressed my head lower, listening carefully and thinking. We just stood like this, he said, I listened, and then I kept nodding and said "Yeah!" Finally, he promised to give me a promotion and a salary increase.
The speaker is unintentional, the listener is interested. This may be the arrangement of fate! Most of my colleagues know about my resignation, but I am definitely not going to Xinjiang. I have a new choice.
Some time ago, after I had the idea of resigning, a friend introduced me to a better unit. He said that the salary is high and the room for improvement is also large.
But now I have agreed to the head of the painting department and will not resign.
Where to go, difficult and tangled!
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night,Tossing over and over again, I couldn't fall asleep. I found a new job, my daughter-in-law knows it. But now I don't know how to tell her that I will not leave my job again.
In a money society, high wages are the most attractive thing, but love is also priceless. After tossing and turning, getting up, walking to the balcony, I dialed my mother's phone.
"Mom, Are you asleep?"
"just asleep, you say, what matter ah?"
when After I told the tangled things in the past few days, my mother criticized me severely.
Yes, which parent does not want their children to have a stable job? As a migrant worker, good health and stable income are the most important.
The next day, I went to the office and took the resignation application.
I will never mention the resignation. Work steadily and hard. No matter how low your salary is, there will still be a bit of a month in January. If you go the wrong way and cause unemployment, you will lose more than you gain.
As time went by, my life fell into peace again. Although the salary does not increase much every month, the disappointment from the time when the salary was first paid will become forgetful as time goes by.
Life is like this, worry about what comes, I haven't told my daughter-in-law, I made the decision not to resign, but my mother told her about it.
My mother still has her own set of principles. What she said to my daughter-in-law was spitting and triumphant, but she didn’t understand that a housewife had no financial resources. What is it like to worry about the baby's milk powder and all the expenses?
The mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, from the initial theory, rose to quarrel, conflicts intensified, and even to the extent of scolding.
There is a fire in the backyard. How can I work safely when I am outside?
The sky in Chongqing is very blue, and the wind is very cold, and it is overwhelmingly cold.
Raise your trembling hand and smoke alone in the smoking area to relieve your worry.
I don’t know when there is someone sitting next to me. He took the initiative to greet me and asked: Are you the pre-processing application?
I nodded listlessly. He asked again: "I heard that you are leaving?"
"How did you know that you are?"
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I said what the Minister of Painting Department promised me, but he said that there is a good company as a technician. Adults need to think about their own future and their families.
This sentence pierced my vitals and penetrated my heart.
finally he promised, I will go to their company,The salary is 2,000 higher per month and 20,000 more a year. We added WeChat to each other, I can only reply to him-consider.
Leaning back on the chair, looking up to the sky and sighing, the head is a bit big, tangled, annoying!
Job hopping, high salary, good development prospects, but the road ahead is black, who knows what will happen? Staying, the salary is stable, the job is easy, but staying in place, it is possible that nothing will be achieved in this life.
My mother said, let me do it hard and don't be greedy for others. She also said that fate sometimes must be there, and there is nothing in fate that cannot be forced or cannot be forced.
My wife, her attitude is firm. Let me quit my job and earn more when I am young.
Thinking of going, it happened to be a three-day holiday on New Year's Day. Since the opening of the Lan-Yu Railway, I have never returned home due to economic reasons. I can only make an exception this time and take a trip home.
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1span is a sumptuous dinner for the wandering home.The whole family sits together, but the atmosphere is like stir-fried chili, not daring to gasp-choking people.
At this time, my mother broke the deadlock. She put a chicken leg into my bowl and said, “It’s not easy to go home. Eat more. Leaning back under the big tree is good for the cool. This time I went to do a good job."
heard this, she put down the dishes, stared at me and asked: "Are you not leaving?" My mother said hardly: "If you do a good job, you will know to toss!" When my daughter-in-law heard this, her face instantly darkened and she squeaked~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ He fell off the bench behind his ass and wriggled his ass and went out. I just got up, my mother coughed. I can only pick up the food in the bowl. After eating in a hurry, I ran to our bedroom The bedroom door was locked, I knocked on it a few times, and only heard a stern voice in the bedroom: "Go ahead and go with your mother." , Don’t sleep in my old lady’s bed tonight." The sofa in the living room,It is designed for men. I don’t know where the men slept when a couple quarreled in ancient times? In the middle of the night, I suddenly woke up! Let something hit me, and I realized that it was a quilt. Then I heard a loud bang on the bedroom door. Turn over and sit up and light a cigarette. The night is quiet, and the sound of the child’s sound asleep is soft and steady, just like playing soft music. violently inserted the cigarette butt into the ashtray and extinguished, holding the quilt, walked to the bedroom door, plucked up the courage, banged, banged, knocked on the bedroom door twice, and pleaded Said: "Daughter-in-law, I will go to the temple tomorrow and let the old lady of the temple (a god in the local temple) give us an idea." The bedroom door is open, my wife He dragged me into the bedroom and said, "I'll go too!" Six will turn back to the factory soon. NS. Before leaving, my daughter-in-law made a cheering action for me,I nodded slightly. My mother handed the luggage to me and instructed: "Go and work hard, steadily, don't mess around."
Not long after I got in the car, I opened WeChat and saw my daughter-in-law send it. After receiving the message, she said: As long as you work hard, you will beg for food in the future, and I will share the joys and sorrows with you.
Looking at the rolling water of Bailongjiang through the car window, I silently said: "Good man, I am in every direction." Half a month later, in all the suspicious eyes, I left my job. In the second year, I walked into a new environment, and the company sent me to the small county town of Fengxian, Xuzhou, Jiangsu.
New job, new opportunity, new challenge. After several years of struggle, I learned a lot of knowledge, increased my experience, and expanded my contacts. I also started as an ordinary employee, worked as a monitor, and then dispatched an engineer, and now I have become the person in charge of Xuzhou, Jiangsu.
Thank you for the company's platform and thank me for my choice.
Good food; who doesn't want to have a decent job and a good income? But these are the results of my own hard work and my own choice.
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