My name is An Zhi, I am 32 years old, and I am a married little woman from a small city in the 18th tier.
I am a woman with a story, this story is very long, it can be traced back to 17 years ago. Maybe if I say it, you will look down on me, you will call me a scumbag, and you will call me a bad shoe, but I don't care, I still want to tell all these past events. I dare not say to him now that I have been holding back in my heart for so many years, it is so uncomfortable, I can only vent it in this virtual and real online world! Next, I will talk about my 5 boyfriends before the age of 27 and who he is now (husband).
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About B.
After learning that A has married, I was sad and angry at this time in my third year of high school. I am a relatively quiet girl. In addition to being small and cute, I also love to learn very much.
In addition to the front and rear desks, I basically don't know other students. At that time, there was a tall, thin boy (B) sitting at my front table. I had a very good relationship with him, very iron kind. We always make all kinds of jokes. He always likes to tie my shoelaces to the legs of the table when get out of class is over. As soon as I stand up and fall down, I am angry and funny. The next step is to hit him with a book. It seems that we are just a pair of little lovers.
His grades are better than me. When he encounters problems that he can't, he always explains to me over and over again.
At that time he liked a girl. That girl is in our class, in the dormitory next to me, and she is not very familiar with her. But in order to help B catch up with the girl, I did my best. The result was not caught.
During this period, I vaguely felt that B liked me because he looked at me differently. Since I was aware of it, I was a little unnatural, and sometimes deliberately avoided him and deliberately didn't talk to him. In such a day, it was the college entrance examination in a blink of an eye.
After the college entrance examination, we are free! At that time, the sky was always so blue, and my mood improved.
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One day, he asked me to go shopping and lie down on the lawn in the name of a classmate. We walked into a community and sat on a stone bench to rest. When I was not paying attention,He kissed me forcibly. He put his arms around my neck and kissed me wildly with his mouth. My face was red and hot, and my heart beat faster. He gasped while kissing me: "Cute, don't move, you have something in your mouth, I will help you suck it out!" Then, his thick and big hands slowly moved along his neck towards me. Wandering around, finally stopped at the shoulders. This feeling is weird, but very comfortable! Feeling like never before!
was forced, but at that moment I felt so nervous, and I actually enjoyed the feeling of being kissed and touched. When I was kissed for the first time, I couldn't help but kiss him, blushing and heartbeat, according to his later memories, the deer was so nervous and excited that he bumped into each other! That was my first kiss! Taken away by B!
No ceremony, no confession, just a strong kiss, I became his girlfriend, and he became my first love!
On a windy and dark night, the two of us walked to a park. The environment of this park is particularly good, and there is a light balloon show. Many couples also date here. He told me ghost stories while holding my hand. When it comes to horrible places, I am terribly scared, like a frightened bird. I was so scared that I threw into his arms, and he took advantage of the situation and held me tighter.
We were tired from walking and we sat down on a bench. He called my baby, asked if I was tired, and helped me squeeze my feet. At this time, it feels so good to be in love, so sweet, sweeter than eating honey.
The two of us sat cuddling and didn't speak. At this moment, it was so quiet that we could even hear our breathing. At first his hand was still pinching on my calf, and then... Oh my God, what is he going to do at this moment. Last time was... what is he going to do this time? My heart beats faster! While I am nervous, I look forward to it! ...I will never forget this feeling. He gave me too many surprises, and I was flustered and looking forward to it. Then he became more and more presumptuous...I have fallen! This is the first time I have such a wonderful feeling! There is a fishy smell in the air! He is really bold. I didn't refuse, I still enjoyed it! I feel really shameless, what am I doing, but I let him continue...
After that day, we seem to have become more and more skinless and faceless! In other words, it's not ashamed at all. However, we are even sweeter.
After two months of summer vacation, we both chose to repeat.He is in the top class, and I am in the ordinary class. His family was building a house during that time, so it was a little short of money. But I never spend his money, go shopping and eat, I pay for it.
We studied very hard during the repetition period. We dreamed about taking college entrance exams together and taking exams in the same university. Every day after school at noon, he came to our classroom to teach me how to do problems.
He always wants to eat together in the dining hall like other couples, but I don't like it very much. I am afraid that the way I eat will scare him away, and I am also afraid of being discussed by my classmates. In front of my classmates, I did not admit that he was my boyfriend, I only said that he was my brother. I also don't want others to see us walking together. He was still angry with me because of these things. He said that I was hypocritical, which meant that I despised him. It is true that he is not handsome enough, and is far from the Prince Charming in my mind, so I really don't want others to know that we are dating.
When I am angry, I am happiest at that time than on weekends. On weekends, we held hands and pressed the road. Although he was not handsome enough, I still enjoyed the moment when he was hurt by him, hugged by him, kissed by him, and held in his arms by him.
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As the college entrance examination is approaching, we are getting busy studying. He said that he would be upset if he didn't see me, so he often wrote love letters to me, almost the next day, asking my classmates to help me. I really admire his writing and can't say a few words, but when I write a love letter, it really makes me happy! The warm and ambiguous love letter made me feel the presence of being loved and needed, especially enjoy! I feel like a happy little princess.
In these love letters, we imagine beautiful things and look forward to the future! We even think about having a few children after we get married, and we feel very happy!
busy studying, he still spares time to accompany me. One weekend night, we went on a date. We walked further and further away from the school. In addition, it is getting dark and the school is closed and we can't go back. He took me to the hotel. This is our first time to open a house.
took the room card and opened the door. Without a word, he pushed me onto the bed. We both vented like a prehistoric. God, this damn feeling is coming again. Then, he let me try fresh for the first time.When he tried hard, it hurts! I almost cried! My shy and painful expression made him a little panicked. He slowed down and asked me softly, "Baby, didn't it hurt you?" At this moment, it was the first time for me to feel the feeling of being integrated with others. He comforted me, don't be nervous, and get used to it a few times. I took a deep breath and listened to his instructions. Whatever he asked me to do. That night, we lingered three times.
God, this feeling is amazing and wonderful. For the first time, in the following days, we went out to open houses one after another. Lingering is really addictive! I gave him my most precious thing for the first time, and silently identified him in my heart.
Later, the college entrance examination again, he was admitted to a second college in Nanning, and I stayed in this city. In the first year he went to Nanning, our relationship was still so good. He often said on the phone that he missed me, thinking about lingering with me every second and every second, saying that he loved me, fearing that I would be hooked away by other boys. He also threatened me, daring to date other boys, and exposed my nude photos. Because I know he is joking, I am not afraid. I always tell him with a wicked smile, I just want to date other boys, and I have to go with a few at the same time! Because I know he loves me! He can't bear me!
In his second year of university, he started to change. He didn't call me as frequently as before. Sometimes I called him and he always said he was busy. I felt his obvious change. Later, he couldn't help the temptation outside, and went to open a room with a girl in his class, and was caught by me on the spot.
I propose to break up, although I have begun to fall in love with him and rely on him. In fact, I just want to stimulate him, want him to stay, want him to admit his mistake, want him to swear he will never make the same mistake again, who knows he promised faster than anything. This means the man who loves me forever! How can you turn your face faster than a book? Where has the once each oath of the mountain league gone? The feeling of being hurt again is really bad.
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B is my true first love, my first kiss, my first night I gave to B. After breaking up, thinking of every minute and every second we were together, thinking of our lingering scenes, I felt like a broken heart, crying to death! I couldn't listen to the class every day. I thought about it and called him to get back together, but he had decided to go! He is so cruel! I know I lost,Very thorough! Our once pledge of eachother has disappeared! Perhaps he is now in someone else's bed, hugging other girls!
Later, in order to avenge him, I hooked up with his best buddy. As soon as I was free, I went to see his buddy, and stayed at his buddy's house for several days as soon as I went. My buddy's mother thought it strange why B's girlfriend would be so close to his buddy. I deliberately, I just want to stimulate B! Later, this matter finally reached B's ears, and he began to question me. Asking why I should give him a cuckold, I think it’s ridiculous to think about it, "Why can you cheat, but I can’t give you a cuckold?" I said, I love his buddies, it's as simple as that.
From then on, B and his buddies are strangers! But B didn't apologize at all. He never realized that I had a leg with his buddies because of him. If he hadn't derailed first, and he would have abandoned me first, there would be no today!
On the surface, I am very happy to take revenge on B. I am very happy. Actually my heart is tingling! I still can't forget B! Still waiting for him to change his mind...
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