Do you remember the person who accompanied you through the youthful years?

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I once loved a boy very much. His love was almost crazy. He is in all my illusions about the future. But I still lost him.

Whenever I think of him, I can only bite my emotions into pieces and devour it in my weak stomach, and then coldly tell myself that fools are sad.

I am a person with hindsight, even my tears are half a beat slower than others. You have to wait until there is no one around, and you are cold and lonely enough before you dare to let your emotions run wild. Words are always the best healers, as cowardly as I am, I can only use words to tell the thoughts that have no way of opening up.

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Over the years, time has gone by, and we have long gone out of campus. It’s just that we have become totally different from each other. From then on, I began to examine those past?

probably from what I saw in " ", Zhan Qingyun mentioned that she had a choking with a partner when she was studying in Hong Kong. She said that life will teach us a lot of choking Many things we thought we could not do. Later, she learned how to fix the toilet by herself. Later, she was robbed on the streets of Boston. When she went to the police station to make a transcript, what she thought in her mind was how to ask for leave from the boss. Later, she was invincible. But when she was walking on the streets of a foreign country and saw the falling leaves floating down in the sky, even if she was as firm as her, she would hesitate about the choice she had made, and regret that she would abandon love in pursuit of the future at the best age.

At that moment, I felt that I knew her again. She is no longer a deified strong man who was admitted to Harvard from Guizhou, but a flesh and blood person. Just like us, she occasionally thinks of the person she once loved, and asks herself what is there in this world. We can't let go. Is there any road in this world that is so difficult to walk? Let us miss all our youth and autumn.

That episode of the show made not only Cai Kangyong, but also me, who was drinking beer and chewing duck neck in front of the screen. So I squinted and remembered the back seat of the bicycle that summer in the dark night. I wrap my hands around his waist, and my side face is close to his back. And he carried me like this, circle after circle, that was the most real happiness I could touch as an adult.

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I never thought my life would become like a movie, so romantic that I was a little bit more unreal. When I was a student, everyone didn’t have much pocket money. I remember the first Valentine’s Day we were together. He folded a large bouquet of roses with colored paper. I held them and walked on the campus, enjoying everyone greedily. Envying eyes. It was so beautiful at that time, and the living expenses were not much. What was the point of not being able to buy flowers, he would give it to me with his own hands thinking of Fa'er. That is the beauty that never fades, and I am deeply moved. He made me think that life is enough, just want to indulge in his arms, what is the wind and rain outside to me. The world is full of vegetation, but he is the green mountain.

In our senior year, we traveled to Changsha together. This is a graduation trip for both of us. In the window of the world, I am afraid of heights and dare not play those exciting games,He said it didn't matter, just grab his hand. I think that the cloud that day must remember our madness, because of him, I have become more brave. We lined up in a long and long line together and squeezed into the crowd of Huangxing Road to eat stinky tofu. He laughed at me as a lady, but I clearly saw that he was full of spoiling in his eyes.

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After the trip, we got back to school, we started to get busy, graduated design, preparations for the interview, the interview was completed, Jianghu completed the interview. The wave of growth is raging, we have no time to dodge, and the romance of the past has been drenched in the rain. Later, the stories inevitably fall into stereotypes. They each signed offers in different cities, and the children studying civil engineering are destined to wander around. We agreed to stay away for two years for our ideals, wait for each to gain a firm foothold, and then compromise for love.

When he was planning to marry me home, I broke up with him on the verge of a two-year agreement. With a firm attitude, even I felt extremely hateful. But my boy, you can understand the words that I never said before, so young and immature, I have no bargaining chip to propose a job transfer to the company. I can't hold on to anything except love. The sky full of fear eroded me little by little. Several times, I held the phone and burst into tears, but I could only pretend to be relaxed and chat. I didn’t even dare to tell him how hard the project department I was in was. The engineer didn’t deserve to have a decent working environment. In the wilderness, we would sleep and eat in the wild. Sometimes I woke up in the morning and watched my once-clean face slowly printed on it. The traces of the sun, I want to cry without tears.

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After an emotional breakdown,Raised to him on the phone to break up. I remember that " will love " was shown in the cinema in full swing that year. He was on the phone, following what Yang Zheng did to Wenhui, listening to me the sound of the sea. I cried as I listened, and I couldn't help myself in the office. At that time, I wanted to ignore it, so I rushed to his city like this and couldn't find a suitable job. Let's set up our home by the sea. He fished and I cook. This is also a lifetime.

But I still didn't walk towards him. Like many graduates of this era, I buckled for five buckets of rice, busy watching the rush of life. Later, I had a good and bad life, a step-by-step life. I haven't written love poems for a long time. I haven't stopped to watch a fallen leaf for a long time. I occasionally think of him and the days when I walked together. A period of time that cannot be loved.

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is dedicated to all those who are as obsessed with the past as me.

Thanks to those who have appeared in youth and accompanied me on a short journey.

I hope everyone who reads this article will be happy.

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