33-year-old late-married woman cries: the pain after marriage is not as good as the unmarried older age

Before getting married, I had a great dream of having a beautiful marriage. I want to leave my parents with completely different life concepts, I want to avoid the responsibility of helping my brothers and sisters with children every day (the children are basically at my parents’ home), I want to escape the neighborhood and gossip of 30% of the people I know in the entire community, but I Just can't get married.

I want to meet someone I like and who likes me to spend the rest of my life plainly. I want to have a family of my own and cry happily without worrying about my parents. I want to enjoy a warm life with firewood, rice, oil and salt every day.

Finally, in the constant blind date, blind date, and blind date, I found a partner with good conditions in all aspects. The only dissatisfaction is that the partner is a little short, 169, but it is very good to me, and I am considered satisfied.

But after he got married, he seemed to be a different person. His diligence when he was chasing me disappeared. He was sloppy, and all the panties and socks were washed in the washing machine. quarrel.

However, a few months ago, I was surprised to find that the originally sloppy husband started to pay attention to hygiene, and the originally lazy husband also started to work out. I felt that something was wrong with the sensitive one. Most people want to dress up when they face the opposite sex they like.

One night, his mobile phone suddenly turned on, and the app recommended information. I never liked to look at his mobile phone. Then I picked up his mobile phone and checked it again. No problem, his The phone will keep the recording of the call. I just clicked on one. After listening to it, my whole body was shaking. I couldn’t believe he would do this to me. I didn’t talk to Xiaosan, but also looked for a young lady. When I debunked it, I smashed the phone. , I woke him up in the middle of the night, and he turned over and pinched my neck, and I couldn't stop crying.

That period of time was really suffering. I was crushed by that frustration. The derailment caused great harm to the other party, like a huge shadow hanging over my head, the world was gray, my heart Full of resentment and anger, the whole person is very inferior. Yes, it is inferiority. After hating him, he will hate himself and ask if there is something wrong with him. Then he will treat himself like this! The mood fell to the bottom,The body is like a walking corpse, there is no hope for anything, like a dying person, watching his heart bleed continuously but there is nothing he can do!

I only found out when I chatted with my girlfriends. Not only me, but the two best girlfriends around me feel that marriage is a partnership to raise children. Every marriage is a chicken feather, and there are all kinds of things. The problem, outsiders look glamorous.

I just want to advise people outside the besieged city, not to enter the besieged city if you are not ready.

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