I saw a post today, which is a self-report of the heroine. It tells the love and hatred between her and the married man, from the first acquaintance, to passion, to pregnancy, and finally to knock out the child to recognize the reality of reality Emotional story.
The story is a bit long, please take a small bench to sit down and listen to me. In order to make the article more coherent, the plot has been slightly changed.
The storyline is very old-fashioned. I work in a KTV. He came to drink. At first glance, he is unsightly and unfashionable. He is also very fat, almost 180 kg. Compared to the old man, I always thought he was in his 30s. I didn’t expect him to be a few months younger than me. That year, I was 25 years old and went to work in KTV because I broke up with my boyfriend who had been talking for 8 years, so I made a decision. Determined not to fall in love anymore. At that time, I didn’t want to talk about relationships anymore. I just wanted to make money. So, even though he chased me, I just treated him as a guest and stayed with him for a while. .
After breaking up with my boyfriend, I found out that I was pregnant. There is no one here to know, and colleagues are not very familiar with each other, so I had to send him a message, he accompanied me to the hospital, I did R stream Since then, he has been taking care of me and giving me food every day. He thought he was a good person, but I didn't have any special feelings for him at that time.
Two months later, my hemorrhoids were undergoing surgery. After the surgery, he stayed with me at night, and the next day he ran to our dormitory to give me medicine. Women tend to fall in love with someone when they are most vulnerable. At that time, I had a good impression of him, but I knew that he had a family and three children, and I didn’t want to get involved with him too much, , but once people have feelings, they will be out of control. .
He came to see me every day. At that time, I was already leading the station. There were many boxes running back and forth every day.He waited for me there by himself until I got off work.
The night work usually ends at two or three in the morning. He will leave at seven every day and go to work. I start to feel sorry for him. I said to him, "Don't come, so the body will be overwhelmed."
He still persisted. In October, the boss asked me to be a manager. In fact, I wanted to do it. He told him he disagrees and said he wanted me to come out, open a clothing store, and live a good life. I was hesitating all the time. Because I don’t think the man’s words are credible, he is a married man and the father of three children, I can’t believe him.
Until that time, he was waiting for me in the box. I was very busy that day. I couldn't get a dozen boxes. I went to see him after all I was busy. He used his arm to prevent me from working here. Bleeding, a long wound, I feel distressed, so I told him, I agreed to come out, not to work here.
I went to drink with his friends at the end of October. One of them was his classmate. He drank too much. His classmate called me outside and said a lot of ugly things. Roughly speaking, I was coveting his money. I was very wronged. I have an income of at least 20,000 to 30,000 a month when I work there. If he is not so good to me, I really don’t want to come out.
I left that day. That was the first time I heard someone say that I was not good. Although I was in the night scene, I did not do any bad things. If I didn’t contact him, I went back to my class. He didn't see me when he woke up. He called me more than 20 calls, but I didn't answer. Finally, he went to my dormitory and knocked on the door. I opened the door, and I said I want to break up with you.
He was very sad and said, if I break up, he will go down here. That day, I forgave him and made up my mind to come out. He can die for me and he will definitely not be disappointed. I!
I told him, I’m a very stubborn person, and I will not let go if I fall in love with someone.Will always love him, he said: I will always be with you, after my wife and I divorce, I will marry you.
I haven’t gotten pregnant after this time. In June 2018, polycystic ovary syndrome was detected. The doctor said it is not easy to get pregnant. Many people have been checked online. I can’t be born for many years, I’m afraid of anxious
He told me, don’t be afraid, we will have children of our own, I asked him if he wanted to divorce his wife because he knew me, he said, even if not I, he will leave too, it’s just a matter of sooner or later
I actually believed it, woman, it’s not easy to be in love in a relationship
Since I came out of KTV, he has started his own business, he said this It was for the two of us. I didn't expect to lose a lot of money in a year.
I want to do a good job in 2019, but unfortunately I don’t have that much money. In June, I mortgaged my car and borrowed 250,000. I myself gave him another 50,000. He was very touched, he said Will always be with me, never leave me alone
Unexpectedly, in just two months, he changed. His dad was sick. He said he was angry with him, and he gradually changed. I'm not happy, and our ring was also lost during that time. He said that he accidentally lost it. It was the ring that he said he would never take off his whole life.
Suddenly on this day, he called me and said: Let's break up....
I feel that the sky is going to fall. Since I came out with him, I have determined that he is my lifelong lover. For more than two years, he has been meticulous and considerate to me, and we are so good.
He drank a lot of wine that day, he cried and called me, saying that he had troubles, and he didn’t want to break up, but there was no way, we could not go anymore
I went to him and saw He later felt so strange that he would hold me when I came back.Now I’m just sitting there coldly
. It happened to be his wife’s birthday that day, and he even ordered cakes for her. I was mad after seeing the order, so I just got people back. We drank a lot of alcohol, and I felt unhappy. Nothing to love, holding the blade and thinking of ending his life, he saw it, took it back, and swiped it on his wrist, and a lot of blood came out at once, a lot of blood.
I took him to the hospital, stitched a lot of stitches, and when we came back we said that we would not separate, but I felt uncomfortable, thinking all day at home, thinking about whether he would sleep with her, what are they doing... every day with tears After washing my face and drinking alcohol to dissipate my sorrows, two days later, I couldn’t control myself anymore. I drank 50 tablets of Yao to sleep peacefully, thinking about ending myself and freeing him. I called him and locked the door, so I fell asleep. It’s good to think that I die like this...
I woke up again in our bed. My sister was with me. He and my sister said he sent me to the hospital. My sister said, I gave him in the hospital. The trouble was fierce, and I smashed the phone, but I didn’t remember at all. I called him and said that I scared him so much and didn’t want to contact him anymore. Then, I deleted my WeChat and blocked the call. , Alipay was also deleted. I desperately looked for him, went to his store, and waited for him downstairs. I didn’t see him all night.
The next day, I sent him a video through his friend’s WeChat, he answered and told me that he is not here, in a field, because I went to his house to find him, and his family didn’t want to let him We were together, so let him go out of town for a few days, I cried and begged him, don’t leave me, I really can’t live without him.
We are reconciled again, but I don’t feel safe and he won’t come back. I was even more afraid of not seeing him. I was afraid that he would change again after a long time. We would be noisy every day for a few days. Then I apologized and reconciled...
The third day of contacting him , I found out that I was pregnant. I don’t know whether it’s happiness or worry. Why didn’t I give it to me when I desperately wanted a child before, but now I have it, but when I broke up? I went to the hospital and told the doctor about my condition,The doctor said that I was not easy to get pregnant. If I get rid of it, it will only increase the condition. If it is serious, I may not be pregnant for a lifetime.
It has been half a month since I broke up with me on the 9th. Months are suffering every minute for me. I can feel that he loves me. Later he told me that I took sleeping pills that day and he crawled in from the window on the third floor. He was dead, and his wound opened again in order to carry me, and the stitches and threads of the stitches rotten the flesh.
No. 24, we quarreled again, he said that I changed easily, after a while, he said he was gone, I am particularly afraid to see the word "go" now, I sent him a video and asked him where he was going He didn't pick it up, I was afraid, so I picked it up later and told me that in the hospital, I was going to help his sister in the past two days, and asked his brother-in-law to come back and help him deliver the goods, saying that the wound on his hand could not work. I went to the hospital to take him home. I really wanted to talk to him, but I would cry if I didn’t say a few words. He used to see me crying because of distress, but now he is only upset
I asked him "Do you still love me?"
He said "love"
I said, "Do you love me very much?"
He said "I don't have a lot of love, love a little bit"
strong I feel sad
I asked him "Do you really want to break up with me?"
He said "it is true"
I feel like I can't breathe
I asked "Why?"
He said, "Because you are too noisy,All day trouble"
I said, "Then I won’t make trouble anymore."
He said, "We’ll be fine if you don’t make trouble."
I asked, "Why don’t I love it very much now?"
I’m now"
He said, "It’s almost with you."
He strongly3strong promised to marry me when my child was born. Actually, I don’t believe it very much in my heart, but I’m in a dilemma. I don’t want to. Give up the child, if he is the last one of me, what is the meaning of life without him? Also, I don’t want to give up my lover, even though he doesn’t love me so much now, but I love him and love love so much.
My emotional experience is very simple. I thought about it from the time I decided to come out with him. No matter how hard it is, I will be with him in the future.
I will be there at night He waited for him downstairs and wanted him to accompany me for a while. He was angry and said that if I don’t go back, then he won’t meet again. He said he’s tired. Yes, I know he’s tired and I’m tired. , He said two days ago that he wanted to go back because he wanted to go back because of his children and his parents. You have said that if you don’t stay together, you will spend a lifetime together. You promised me to give me a home. The bit by bit in the past two years made me open my heart to accept you. Why do you want to be like this now? If you know yourself Can’t do it, why did you come over to provoke me at that time?
The current me,I am pregnant with a child and vomit when I eat, but I still can’t have any complaints. I can only take it myself. I hope that he will come back for a little time every day. I really can’t figure out how to become so fast by myself. ? I don't doubt that he really loved me before and really wanted to marry me. I still can't figure out what caused him to break up.
I had a dream last night. I dreamed that the child is two or three years old. I have been looking for him with my child, but I can’t find it. There was a flood behind, and my child and I were trapped in the big water. I wish he could save me as hard as he did before, but when I saw him, I didn't say anything to him. So helpless, so scared, so I woke up. Remembering what he said before, I asked him what should I do if I fall into the water, and he said I will save you. Although I can't swim, I will get you up.
In the past two years, he has been saying that he will divorce, that they have no feelings, and that his wife no longer wants to spend time with him, so I have never forced him, as long as he comes back to accompany me every night, and now I know His wife never thought about getting a divorce. She always knew about me, but she didn't stop it. Let us let it go, making me think they really can’t make it through.
In the end I became a joke, but sometimes I Knowing that he was not busy, he said that he was busy just because he was seen talking to me, or he didn’t want to talk to me now. In the morning, I knew that they both sent their children to school together, but he said he was picking up the goods in the store. Why can't you tell me the truth?
A few days later, he broke up with me again, and I said: If you leave, I won't live anymore. He said: I won't stop you.
Hehe, why can a man become so fast? I felt very distressed when I met a little bit of him in the past. I felt crazy. I drove to find him, but I didn’t dare to go in, so I waited outside for him to come out and stand. After 3 hours, I finally saw him,
He said, it’s impossible for us, I asked him, what about the child, we finally have a child, you just don’t want it? Then why was thinking about letting me go to the doctor and have a baby every day?
I went home desperately, and I found a little blood on my underwear when I got home at night.I feel very uncomfortable. I should have stood for more than 3 hours and hurt the child. I was hesitant to have a child. But when I saw blood there was still a pain in my heart. I was afraid of losing you. You were me waiting for two.
Although your father has changed now...If he wants to leave, I really can’t want you, and I can’t see that you were born without a father, so I struggle every day, I don’t know what he thinks Yes, I don’t know which sentence is true and which sentence is false.
I couldn’t fall asleep no matter how I fell asleep, and finally fell asleep, but had two completely different dreams, the first one, he was discovered by his wife, and his wife wanted to delete me, he said, "Since you already know Then I’ll confess.” He said he loves me and we have been in touch. All the harm done to me these days is lying to them... What else, I don’t remember, Anyway, I’m in a dream So happy, we have lived our original life again!
It’s fine if I wake up and no longer fall asleep. The second dream is particularly painful. In the dream he was lying to me. He went out to play with her and didn’t care about me at all. I was looking for him and finally I found him. I went home, but he still said that we can't go back. Later I learned that his wife was also pregnant. The pain in the dream was extremely painful. She was pregnant and that meant he was lying to me these days...
Wake up Five flavors mixed grains, these are two completely different endings, which one will I be? Send him a message after 5 o’clock and tell him that I had a dream, two completely different dreams, except that the second dream was the clip of his wife’s pregnancy. He said whether he didn’t sleep well again, and he opened a video for me. I said, "You won't let the second situation happen, right, you will love me well" He just hmmmmed and said that the most important thing for me now is to raise myself and my children, don't make me think too much, don't So many...
How can I leave it alone? Now I, like a crazy person, think about things every day, making myself like this ghost!
I met just now. In just half an hour, every time I meet will make me heartache. It seems that every time I see him, I will ask him
"Do you love me?"
"love"
"Do you really love it?"
"I can't forget you in my life anyway"
I don’t know what strong does.I know the answer, but I still don’t give up
I asked him
"If the child is really born, will you take care of it?"
"Will you leave me?"
"no"
knows that this is unwise, but still does it 7_strong_strong_ just wants him to hurt me completely, so I can give up
I asked him "Will you marry me?"
"Yes, but it will take a long time"
"How long will it take?"
"Is the kid growing up"
"How old is strong?" "more than ten years?"
your distrust of me,I’m really sad for all the harm to me
Maybe, you really don’t love me anymore
Maybe, I really want to give up
You really didn’t want to marry me from beginning to end
Actually, I know that if I insist on giving birth to this child, he won’t ignore me. When I saw her, I thought he was a good character. Kind, affectionate and righteous to people.
It's just that if he doesn't love me, it makes no sense for me to give birth to this child. What I want is a man who loves me, not trap him with the child.
He did not sorry for me, nor did I sorry for him, it seems that as long as the marriage certificate is obtained, the original partner is at the moral commanding heights, and everything is right, no matter what their feelings are, no matter what she does wrong, of course I am like this It’s not that his wife did something,
It’s just that if one party cheated, there must be a problem with your relationship. Without me, there will be others. If she used to treat him like this, He is not going to cheat. I am not saying that I was not wrong with him. He was wrong in ignoring his responsibility to be with me. I was wrong in completely believing that they could not be together anymore, so I accepted it without divorce. Up him.
A girl in her 20s, even if she is a third party to someone else, she will find someone with power or money, but he has no money, no power, and can't grow up. I just fell in love with him, in my heart I'm sure I will live with him for the rest of my life.
A lot of people said that I let me give up on him, and I am waiting for his answer. If he asks me to kill the child, I will give up. I will never contact in the future. There is no disconnection. I don’t like the feeling of separation and reunion. Now that I have decided to break up, I won’t go to him again, and let him say that I don’t want a child. This is my reason to convince myself to give up completely
If he says to stay,I will listen to him. After all, I love him and our children. I don’t want to give up a chance. If I miss it, it will last a lifetime. Therefore, I let him choose by himself, even if the result is not good. At least, I have worked hard. NS.
waited for more than two hours today. He finally found a chance to come out. When I met, I held him and smelled his body. It was very reassuring.
I asked him, do you have an answer?
He said, "I haven't thought about it yet. Didn't you say you want to give me time?"
He asked me if I have already thought of a countermeasure.
Hehe, who am I now in his eyes?
Are you serious? Do you want to count others every day?
I said, "I don’t have any countermeasures. I will listen to you this time."
He said, give him two more days
I really don’t want to wait anymore, I told him to have it today. Speak out
and he said "leave him"
I am not happy at all after listening, because I know that he is not from the heart
what I want now Woolen cloth? Maybe I just want to give myself a reason to leave.
As long as he says to kill the child, I will die, and then leave him without hesitation
for so long,I’m tired too, just want to give myself up completely
Today, October 1st, yesterday I had a fever, 38.2, and I measured 38.5 again in the morning, I said let him come back, he said let me go and see it by myself, he doesn’t I know if I have a chance to come out. It's very difficult. I didn't meet yesterday. I feel that it is difficult to walk now. I have never been to the hospital by myself, especially at this time. I don't want to go, I just want to wait for him.
I feel very sad, maybe he doesn’t love me anymore, but I still can’t do without him stupidly, although I will go to bed with video every night, but I know, maybe he will someday Will sleep with her, it's just a matter of time, sooner or later, I never understand why he changed, since when? He no longer puts me in the first place, he can bear to let me bear it, and he can be cruel no matter if I am uncomfortable...
Pregnancy is really uncomfortable, and now I want to vomit when I drink some water. The only thing that persists is his love, but does he still love me?
I try my best not to think about the bad things, and habitually think of people in the good way, but is the truth really what I think?
On October 3, I went to the hospital for a check-up in the morning. In fact, I had a heart beat for the child, but I was reluctant to see the result. After more than 40 days, the baby had a heartbeat. The doctor said that he looked pretty good. Yes, I was even found out with a double gestational sac. I felt that I was hit by some big prize. I was very happy, but this kind of happiness only lasted a few minutes. Later I wondered if he would be happy?
I asked the doctor how long is the best time to be Liu, he said there are still ten days, let me go back and think about it again, after all, the child is very good, and I have finally had a child
over 10 Good day, that’s October 13th
I am going to let myself wait until the 10th, give myself 7 days, and give my baby another chance
women really don’t want much, as long as he loves me and has me in his heart, That's enough
I'm afraid he doesn't even have this.
I had a showdown with him yesterday, I really can’t hold it any longer,The answer is like this. Actually, I should have thought of it long ago, but I didn’t give up on wanting him to tell it personally. I desperately gave birth to him. He said that he didn’t look forward to it.
Oh, I want to give birth Just born, how ironic, really tired, I feel that what I have done is meaningless, people are eager for you to leave, do you still make sense to stalk you like this?
I have drunk a lot of alcohol, and I can fall asleep if I drink too much. I don’t think about these bad things, but I still can’t fall asleep. I feel uncomfortable over and over again.
I should give up. The stalker looks really ugly.
Those questions that I don’t understand may not be understood for a lifetime.
On October 10, I went to the hospital to make an appointment for an L birth operation. The doctor told me that the child was old. It took a day’s medicine to do it, and my heart was broken. He let me delay it for so long. Finally, he told me that this child couldn’t stay. He also said that he didn’t want to be with me. My heart died. I couldn’t. Forgive him, if I won’t get pregnant in the future, I can’t forgive myself.
His wife told his mother that we are together again and asked him to give me an attitude, so he sent me a message saying: Don’t let me in the future Contact him again, don't harass him, he is his wife.
Hehe, I just took the medicine and he can say that to me before the operation. Can people have no conscience?
Can people really be so inhumane?
If you don’t say that you were so good to me before, even if you are an ordinary friend, come here at this time and tell others about the past?
When I was most helpless, you chose to give up me
You forced me to give up our children
When I took the medicine, you were not there
I was so painful to die When you were not
When I had the operation, you were not
I just lost a child, but you are loving her father and son
, don't you feel any guilt for them?
I hate you
I will never forgive you in this life!
After being a human L,I spend every day in regret and self-blame. I can’t see my children. I cry when I think of my own children. I regret killing them. I hate him.
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