I am a teacher. Female teacher.
At first, I didn't deliberately keep a distance from the students, even walking very close to a girl. Slowly, I realized that the girl actually liked me, and there was nothing to do. She disrupted the rhythm of my life, affected my mood at work, and disrupted my interpersonal relationships. You may think that I said this too much, but there is no way, facing her, as a teacher, I don't want to retain that little rationality.
She hid well at first, I really thought she regarded me as a good friend who talked about me. Then one day she became angry with me, because I had been taking care of a boy in her class recently instead of her. At that time, I didn't think too much, and dealt with it jokingly. As a result, she seemed to have succeeded in doing bad things, and she got worse. As for me, I still maintained my previous attitude towards her and didn't distance me from her. At that time, I thought she was very cute, true temperament, and cared for her very much. She is also my class representative, her grades are good, her work is serious, and I can accept a little bit of willfulness.
But slowly, I started to get bored. Tired of her coming to me on WeChat day after day, asking those knowledge points that she would never test. I'm tired of her always pestering me after class, so she doesn't leave me a moment of rest. I'm tired of her forbidding me to get close to other students and restricting my freedom.
"Who are you? Don't force me to say that I don't want to care about you." I finally couldn't help it that day, and WeChat sent her an angry and cruel sentence.
was silent on the other side. After a long time, she weakly sent a sentence: "I'm sorry."
At this time, I felt soft again, but now I regret and hate the softheartedness at that time. Why should I explain and apologize to her a lot of nonsense, making her think that I still treat her kindly?
She stopped for a while, but Christmas, from the moment I accepted her gift, she started again. Yes, she did help me with a lot of things, changing test papers, filling in forms, registering grades... However, her out-of-the-ordinary behavior made me behave cautiously and uncomfortably every day! !
Colleagues’ gossip, friend’s reminders, and even her class teacher’s interviews all made me devastated. I am straight and don't like women. I don't reject or hate homosexuality, but I don't want this kind of thing to happen to me! ! What's more, I am not young anymore,When I got home, I was urged by my parents to get married every day, and I was entangled by students every day when I went to work. Where is my resting place?
Even so, she was still the closest student I went to this school. At that time, the dislike of her was not frequent, but occasionally broke out. In most cases, she is still cute in my eyes, and she is still the representative of the class I am willing to be close to.
On the day of graduation, I even looked at her a lot of eyes and kept peeking at her, feeling very sad. However, I am also a little happy, after all, leaving her is a new life.
After she graduated, we still kept in touch, but I deliberately kept a distance from the next class of students. In their eyes, I am a cold teacher, impersonal. Mine was not like this before.
Distance produces beauty. After she graduated, I didn't dislike her that much. Her care for me is something I rarely have for so many years, and I cherish it very much. I thought that such a dull relationship would continue. As a result, on New Year's Day 2019-2020, after we blessed each other, she confessed.
I was in a panic when I saw the news, I chose not to reply, and went to sleep with a messy brain.
When I woke up the next morning, I still had to face the facts. I thought about thousands of different words, and finally decided to pretend to be stupid and pick a few sentences back, so that I would not be embarrassed in the future, and gave her due respect.
But she kept asking me, she said she knew I was acting stupid, she didn't worry about being rejected, she just wanted me to respond.
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I don't know what I thought at that moment, it was cruel to refuse, no matter how much she was just a high school student, she died the first time she liked someone...
I still chose to play stupid.
Later, she sent other classmates to inquire about my news, inquire about what I like, and inquire about my birthday. I never told her.
Speaking of birthdays, alas, she asked about it from junior high school, and I never said it to her sophomore year. Finally, I made up one to tell her, she wrote it down, and wished me a happy birthday on my birthday, but I can only tell her that I lied to her.
After her third year in high school, she rarely came to me. However, when I am in a bad mood or when I am struggling to study, I will come to complain. Although it hurts, I have to keep a distance,Faced with her long talk, she still only returned a few words. However, from her words, I also know that she has excellent grades and looks outstanding in high school.
The college entrance examination is over. She came to see me, but I refused. But after a while, she came to school again and offered to meet. I found an excuse to leave.
The college entrance examination has got results, she is here to announce the good news. I am very happy. She once again offered to eat with me, but I refused again. When she was in her first year of high school, I agreed. That meal was a waste of food. She didn't know whether it was for image or something. She ate very little, and in the end there was a lot of it left. We couldn't talk too much, we kept talking awkwardly, and the atmosphere at the time was suffocating.
Oh, I remembered again, after the middle school entrance examination, I asked her to watch a movie. When it was the third year of junior high school, she said that she was the key point in the entrance examination, so I asked her to watch the movie. At that time, she agreed in the faith of the teacher. NS.
Filling up the college entrance examination, she has been consulting me, I don’t know anything, what advice can I give? The college entrance examination is all in the past tense for me. She can obviously ask authoritative organizations, ask her high school class teacher, why do you ask me?
I don't know if it was a coincidence or something, she finally learned the same major as me. I asked her, is this what you like?
She said yes, it was her dream.
Dream...
She went to 985, a very good 985. Her junior high school grades were not very good, at most my subjects were good, we did not expect that she could go to this school in the end. The child is quite upbeat.
She is a good boy and a good student. She has a lot of shining points, but I'm sorry, because of her pressing and harassment, I can't discover more of her advantages, even though I try my best. But disgust is still greater than love.
If there are no ambiguous sentences, no unreasonable anger, no unnecessary questions, no daily interruptions, if she can respect me, give me a little private space.
Maybe, we are still a teacher and friend. Maybe, she will come into my life.
but nothing if.
Actually, I am a student. I once fell in love with my teacher. The above is the answer I wrote by imitating her through speculation.
if she saw it,Please accept my apologies.
I'm sorry.
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