Genius is repeating and repeating

genius only means lifelong unremitting efforts. Genius and mediocrity, one sky, one earth, most of us are in the middle, like a pyramid, everyone has their own steps, my previous thinking was at the bottom of the pyramid, and I had no fighting spirit. Not too diligent, diligence does not refer to physical diligence, but ideological progress. I have been doing housework since I was a child, undertaking all kinds of farm work within my ability, and being considered by my family, neighbors, relatives, and everyone who knows me to be a good child, an obedient child, a sensible child, it is not how diligent I am, how willing I am to do it, and how much I think more. I did it because there were old, weak, sick, and disabled grandmothers, aunts, and hard-working parents. I knew how to share and bear responsibilities for them since I was a child. Because my parents have limited knowledge, they don’t have much culture, and they can’t give any opinions. They only want me to read more. I know how to read more. And know, there is no achievement, there is no excellence to describe oneself. Learning from hardships, art from diligence, lazy thinking has created my lazy behavior in learning, I have abandoned myself, I used to write and by making up the number of words to complete the task, I was afraid of writing since I was a child Days, writing, reading for so many years, I dare not express myself, my brain has no accumulation, no thoughts, no ideas. Because other people say that I read so many books, I can’t say it, and it’s useless to read, yes, I am even more inferior and dare not speak, dare not write, dare not communicate, my study of mechanical manufacturing is even worse. I don't have a major, so I have no chance to write anything. Recently, my good teacher thinks that I am ordinary. This ordinary sentence is a kind of encouragement to me. The reason is that I have no writing skills. I have been reading books to improve myself in these short three months. Because of writing, my expression is so weak. I can't be weak, I have reached the writing level of normal people .This is a kind of recognition, probably because he has a high degree of education, it is just an objective evaluation, but he does not know my experience and growth, that ordinary sentence is a kind of affirmation to me, come on.