Text: Middle-aged Liu
Picture: From the Internet
Yesterday, I learned that Mr. Gao passed away, so I wrote this article.
Last Wednesday, when I was having lunch, an old classmate called me and said, I heard that our first year teacher Gao is critically ill. We are very close, why don't you go and see!
After listening to this, I said to him without hesitation, I have been very busy recently, and I can't get out and can't go with you. But then, in my mind, the picture of when I was reading flashed back.
Today, I am also a teacher, and I have been teaching for nearly 20 years, but this incident has always been suppressed in my heart, making me regret and sad.
In the first year of junior high, Teacher Gao taught us mathematics. Because of my excellent grades in this subject, I naturally became the representative of the mathematics class. In my impression, he was about 50 years old at the time, about 1.75 meters tall, wearing a Chinese tunic suit, and often had a pen in his jacket pocket. He was usually stern, but his speech was very and .
Now I recall that unbearable scene again, I don't know whether I hate it or should I continue to forget it. It is undeniable that he has affected my life.
I was 13 years old. Compared with other classmates, I dress cleaner and I am more obedient and sensible than the average classmates. Since I took class to represent , before each class, I go to When he was holding a workbook in his office, he would always ask me with great concern. If there were any questions he could not understand, he would ask him directly. At that time, I had a good impression on me.
When it was Teacher Gao's turn to "watch the school", he would leave me to eat , and then buy some snacks that I can't usually eat at the consignment store in front of the school, he always touched my head affectionately, or Tap me on the shoulder, or squeeze my little cheek. After dinner, he took me home twice on a bicycle. He told my father that he was giving me a make-up lesson, and my father thanked me again and again with joy.
His love for my and was obviously beyond the normal teacher-student relationship, but I didn't think about it badly at the time. Instead, I felt that it was my honor that the math teacher treated me well.
This lasted for half semester , the happiness cared for by the teacher enveloped me, but one day in the next semester I finally understood... , he asked me to eat at his place after school, he bought me a bottle of soda, and he bought a bottle of Yutai rice wine himself. When I was eating, Teacher Gao said to me, today is his birthday, let me I drank two drinks with him. It was the first time in my life that I drank. Under his persuasion, after a few drinks, I felt dizzy.
That was the day that changed my life. In a daze, I felt like I was peeing, a very comfortable feeling.
Because I was worried about urinating in my pants, I opened my eyes and sat up, only to find that Teacher Gao's head was buried in my thigh, and I almost stopped breathing. Then instinctively jumped under the bed and quickly got dressed.
Teacher Gao sat there in a daze. His expression was full of surprise, fear and embarrassment. I picked up the schoolbag that was placed at the door and was about to leave. He rushed over, grabbed my arms, and kept explaining, I drank too much, I don't even know what I'm doing...
On that day, he sent me home. He first took me to the consignment store to buy two packs of peanuts and two packs of sunflower seeds. On the way, he repeatedly told me that such a thing must not be told to others, I just nodded helplessly.
Since then, he has been so kind to me and smiled at me, but I think behind his smile, there is filth and filth. I have a fear in my heart, but I dare not express it to others.
Later, Teacher Gao was also watching the school. He wanted to keep me for dinner, but I refused. Fortunately, when we were in the second year of junior high school, the class was adjusted and a math teacher surnamed Sun began to teach us.
In the third year of junior high, I went to another school, , to study, and we have never seen Teacher Gao since then.
After I graduated from middle school , I also became a middle school teacher, and then got married and had children. Everything seemed to be ordinary, but no one knew about the " dark " buried in my heart. But whenever I think of that incident, I always feel a sense of guilt with inexplicable .
Here, I also advise all colleagues to be a good teacher and not to do anything that goes against the morality of teachers. Otherwise, the negative impact on students will be lifelong.
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