In 2010, just after the Spring Festival, I couldn't wait to buy a ticket and came to the ancient city of Xi'an alone.
only because of my sweetheart - Zhang Kai. He lives in Yanta District . In Xi'an in early spring, , snow is falling sporadically. When I walked out of Xi'an Railway Station , I thought Zhang Kai would come to pick me up, but he didn't. He said on the other end of the phone that he drank too much last night, slept late, and couldn't get up.
I didn't think too much, I loved his hot heart, and the closer I got to Xi'an, the more I jumped.
In such a huge city of Xi'an, he is the only one in my eyes.
Zhang Kai and I have been separated in Guangzhou for half a year. I miss him very much in the past six months. We were in love when he left. He said he was tired of Guangzhou and wanted to return to his hometown of Xi'an to find another development.
At that time, I suppressed my sadness. Once he left, we were breaking up. I tried to keep him and said that Guangzhou is a first-tier city with greater development opportunities and space. I even said that if you think Guangzhou is spending a lot, you can let him live in the apartment in , Tianhe District, .
But Zhang Kai was very impatient and said that I looked down on him. Xi'an was also the largest city in the northwest and the largest city in the Tang Dynasty.
The more anxious I was to explain, the more angry Zhang Kai was. I don’t know how obsessed with him in my heart, but I hesitated again after following him to Xi'an. The night he left, I washed my face with tears all night, hugging him tightly, wishing I could melt into his body.
I swear I will never love someone so much again.
According to the address mentioned by Zhang Kai, I called a taxi. Zhang Kai’s home is in Ankang . He rented a one-bedroom and one-living house in an urban village in Xi’an. In the city of Ankang, when I was in geography class when I was in school, I knew that there was a railway passing by, so I knew so much.
Zhang Kai was not very happy to see me, and he was even a little impatient. I saw it in my eyes, but my heart began to feel cold.
I followed him into his rental house. As soon as I entered the house, I was afraid that I could not wait to hold him, but he said he was going to work. Tell me to lie in bed and rest.
My sudden arrival seemed to affect his life. After the half year of separation, I don’t know if he has found a new love. I was hesitant and sad.
But I was more happy, I saw him again, sleeping in the bed with all his breath, I slept soundly.
After he came back from get off work, he took me out for dinner and went to Big Wild Goose Pagoda Square to watch the music fountain. I am particularly happy because of his company.
Xi'an, an antique and historical city, seems to burst out with new power.
That night, we were dry and burning, and we were as close as paint. Ah, how much I love him.
Zhang Kai took leave the next day to accompany me to visit the ancient city of Xi'an. We went to Terracotta Warriors and Horses in Lintong , climbed Lishan , and visited Huaqing Pool where Yang Guifei bathed. When we were tired of the trip, we went to the hotel to rest.
"How many days are you going to stay?" Zhang Kai, who was lying on the bed, asked me.
"I don't plan to leave." I blurted out.
"You are stupid, it's impossible for us." Zhang Kai got up from the bed, picked up the pants on the ground and put them on.
"I am serious, I want to live with you for the rest of my life. After the half year of separation, I miss you all the time." I actively proved to him my courage and determination.
"I can't afford to support you, let's say I'm engaged. I'm back from Guangzhou to Xi'an just to get married soon." Zhang Kai said, lowering his head.
"Do you love her?" I tried my best to control my emotions.
"Maybe, but I think it's enough for her to suit me." Zhang Kai said while putting my face on his face. "I'll leave her for the past two days to accompany you. She is an authentic rural girl. I plan to wait until after getting married, she will be at home when she has children. I go out to work and earn money. The girl here is simple and obedient."
I immediately realized that Zhang Kai despised me. He is scumbag and handsome, and I still love him.
Leaving Lintong, we return to Xi'an. Zhang Kai said that her partner will come back from Ankang in two days and I have to move out.
I slapped him, but I still slept with him that night.
Zhang Kai rented a suite for me nearby, and I lived in it myself. I know time will make everything fade, and when I don’t love him, I will be free.
Zhang Kai confessed everything to me, it would be a bad thing, at least I started to heal.
The place where I live was very close to Qinglong Temple . The poem "The sunset is infinitely beautiful, but it is near dusk" was written here. This place is also called Original Entertainment.
I just wander around here in the evenings of weekdays. There were still a few snowfalls in Xi'an in early spring. Zhang Kai accompanied me to play with snow and build snowmen here. I'm having a great time. Zhang Kai said that in March and April, Qinglong Temple will be filled with many cherry blossoms .
I began to look forward to the arrival of the cherry blossom season in my heart. Zhang Kai will accompany me for two or three days a week. I think it's enough, it's stolen happiness. I knew Zhang Kai first, but I couldn't be considered destroying other people's happiness.
After the snow melts, the weather is warmer. The cherry blossoms bloomed as scheduled, and more people were coming from Qinglong Temple. When I was enjoying the cherry blossoms alone, I saw a girl next to Zhang Kai, who I guess was his fiancée.
"No wonder Zhang Kai left Guangzhou for her." I felt sad. Suddenly I felt very humble and squatted on a stone, just wanting to cry.
"Beauty, are you uncomfortable?" A voice asked with concern.
I raised my head, looked at him, and shook my head. The man obviously didn't want to leave just now, and he still wanted to talk to me.
"There are many people here and the air is not good. You might as well go elsewhere."
I deliberately stretched out my hand and asked him to help me up. I really felt dizzy. I deliberately guided him to help me and passed by Zhang Kai.
Zhang Kai found me and the man around me, his face turned green. But he didn't dare to have an attack right away.
He couldn't wait to come to my room to ask what was going on. I said you will do whatever you see and don't want to explain anything more.
Zhang Kai kicked the door and asked me when I started to interact with the man and how many times I slept.
I feel really funny and don't want to answer him. He pestered me all night.
Anyway, everyone knows that we have a speechless ending, so what can I say? I need time to cool my hot heart. He just took so much time to sleep with me, and he didn't lose much.
I want to go to Zhongnanshan to see where Wang Wei writes poems.
"Hidden flowers at the end of the wood, red calyx in the mountains.
The stream houses are silent and blooming and falling."
I like this poem the most, quiet and selfless. If I have this mentality, it is the most free time.
I seem to be getting tired of everything about Zhang Kai, and I don’t want to kiss him anymore. Every part of his body made me disgusted, and the movements on his bed made me vomit. He seemed to be proud of his hard work in bed.
Oh, he is just a butcher, an animal with a boring soul.
I climbed Zhongnan Mountain alone, stopping and stopping, and there were temples and inns on the mountain. I decided to stay in the inn and watch the sea of clouds every day. Zhongnan Mountain is indeed very suitable for seclusion.
I completely deleted Zhang Kai. Return to nature by body and mind.
lived in the inn for half a month and became familiar with the inn owner. He was also a young man and asked him why he opened an inn here. He said directly, "I have money to make."
We all laughed, and the clouds above our heads gathered and dispersed, dispersed and gathered again. Summer is coming, and birds are roaring on the mountain.
Recalling the heart that came to Xi'an to tie a person with a tight heart, I am calm and free at this moment. I enjoy the quiet life of Zhongnan Mountain.
The boss asked me how long I will stay? I asked him if he was rushing the passengers or was worried that I could not afford the room fee.
The boss said no, no, no, I said at first glance that I was a rich man, and why can’t I afford the room fee of about 100 yuan a day?
Sometimes the boss went down the mountain to ask me if I would go, and sometimes I would take his car and go down the mountain to play with him. Sing and drink. Drunk, I returned to the inn on the mountain to sober up. How comfortable this kind of life is.
One day Zhang Kai suddenly appeared in the inn and said that he had put a lot of effort into finding me.
"I'm going to get married tomorrow. I just want to see you again before getting married." He said tremblingly.
He and I were walking around Zhongnan Mountain. The inn owner watched us out with a smile on his face.
Where there is no one in the empty mountain, Zhang Kai suddenly hugged me tightly. At this time, I love the flowers and plants here more. I pushed him away, and my heart, which didn't want to calm down, stirred up again. But Zhang Kai didn't care about it and said he would go back and forth before and after marriage. He took my clothes off his best. The sunlight reflects into the forest and shines on the moss again. The birds fly away with tactful thoughts, leaving the quiet sunlight shaking.
We walked back to the inn silently, and no one said a word. The inn owner seemed to have been standing at the door waiting for us to come back.
"I'm leaving." Zhang Kai said.
seems to say goodbye to me again, and I understand that this is our last one.
Back to the inn, I locked myself in the room and hid in the quilt and cried bitterly.
The inn owner knocked on the door several times and asked me if it was important. I don't want to pay attention to everything.
There are no people in the inn, so there are more holidays. At night, the boss used guqin to play a song " Yangguan Sandian ". "The morning rain in Weicheng is light and dust is light, and the green willows in the guest house are fresh. I advise you to have a glass of wine, and there is no old friend when you go west to Yangguan." The owner of the inn seemed to comfort me. I was really moved inside. On this quiet mountain, there are moonlight, piano sounds, and men breathing at night. I went to the front desk to buy a dozen wines and invited the boss to have a drink.
He said why are you so embarrassed, and asked you to pay for my wine and ask you to invite me. I told him to be less verbose and drink if he is so brave.
What are you afraid of? I am a Northwest Wolf , and I am still afraid of you, a weak woman. We just started drinking one cup after another. Drink until you are happy. The boss played another song himself.
Moonlight shines into the room through the windowsill. I felt a little cold, although it was summer, it was still quite cold on the mountain at night.
"The sea of bitterness, love and hate, it is hard to escape fate in the world, blind dates, but they are inaccessible, or I believe it is fate."
The boss plays the piano and sings.
I listened silently and shed tears silently.
