Later, on day after day, we began to find the meaning of life, and only then did we realize that we put ourselves in a dilemma. Many things are like this. We lost our initial expectations. After the initial running-in period, the next days were all repetitive before life. We inevitably had to feel bored in the same thing, but we could only repeat the same work tirelessly, trying to find freshness from a familiar thing.
It is the season that the Chinese New Year is coming again, and this year has passed again. Sometimes, as we grow older, we become more and more anxious. Perhaps most people have not become what they like! Life will eventually destroy us into a walking zombie's body. It seems that we are living well, but in fact, our hearts are already empty, as if we have lacked a firm belief, which can make us more confident in ourselves. When did
start? This situation has become a normal state in life. Every day when we walk home from work, looking at the bustling crowd, we often feel that we are out of place with the world. After we have lost our fatigue for a day, we have gained something besides giving time to exchange for rewards. There is not much space for improving ourselves at work. In the end, we disguise ourselves becoming more and more numb.
This is not the life I want, but it is inevitable that I will walk on this road and live for survival. The older generation always says that we were born in a good era, an era where we don’t have to worry about food and clothing. I admit that this is a pretty good era, but we also clearly realize that we have been looking for the value of being born as human beings throughout our lives. In this era, we pursue different things. In addition to fame and fortune, we also hope to find a suitable position in this world.
Our goal in life is to leave some traces of our existence. This may be the life mission we don’t want to live a life of vain. Later, through words, I recorded myself at each stage of time and the joys, sorrows and sorrows in my life experience. These seem to be the only things that can make me feel meaningful at the moment. Although the record of this matter itself did not bring me any actual economic income, I have always enjoyed it.
This is probably the only thing I can take out! I hope that many years later, someone will see a more complete side of an era in my words. Our generation of young people are not without dreams, but because they want more things. When they don’t know how to filter, they will inevitably be confused. I also hope that when I see these words, I can clearly know the way I struggle along the way. These growth experiences are mixed with a little sadness and gratitude.
At the age of twenty-six, while wanting to live independently, you are easily lost in the words of others, while longing for courage, while making choices are not firm enough. This is an age where you need to think carefully about every small step. It is an age where you like to bet but may not be able to afford to lose. It is an age where you often question yourself and don’t dare to face your own age. This age where you are no longer young, but you don’t have the age of getting married and having children all at once. Youth is already far away from you. It is an age where you are in middle age, an age where you will be pretentious and willful because of some minor injuries and pains. It is an age where you know what you want, but you will always feel a little unsatisfactory when you take the first step.
At our age, we are eager to become better people in the future, and clearly realize how important the accumulation is now, but there is no sense of direction. This is a stage where we like to amplify our emotions, and a stage where we wish the whole world would pay attention to us. At an age stage, we will push ourselves to the center of the stage and become the focus of the world, and accept everyone's applause and flowers openly. This is a stage where we yearn for young people to become talented.
is also an age that is easy to feel anxious, because at this stage of life, there are too many samples around us, and we will inevitably use other people's lifestyles to measure our lives. The most terrifying thing is that those people you are closest to have become part of your source of stress. Isn't people like this? The people who can really hurt themselves are often those who care about and care about, and they are always the most important people and are the easiest to put themselves to death.
At this age, I began to learn to identify and block some of the voices around me. Of course, some people are not pure enough when they are out of the matter, so they will still be affected. I often think about the future when I am quiet alone. In fact, most of the time, I don’t know what I want. Only in a few times can I clearly realize that I will follow the current pace of life. It seems to be quite good. Maybe there are still some big surprises waiting for me in the future!
I always think I am a person with good luck, but in fact, in many cases, I am the one who cannot afford to lose the most. Later, when I feel particularly confused about the future, I will subconsciously stop and look at the scenery around me. Walking along the way, not every choice is right, just have a clear conscience. Later, there are more and more things that bother me, and I also learn to find my true appearance bit by bit in these trivial things.
Later, even though I realized that life is meaningless, I still wanted to realize my value as much as possible. Later, I wrote a lot of words and went to some places. Later, I had a clear sense of boundaries about everything around me. I realized that everyone is an independent individual. We can only hold together to warm each other for a while, but no one will become the best support for anyone. Some people are already the best fate to be able to meet.
Many of the choices I made later took themselves as the first consideration. Later, I felt that it was good to be a person selfish, so that it would be good to avoid many unnecessary troubles. Later, I distinguished the sense of boundaries between people, no longer had too many expectations, and every relationship returned to my own position, without endless quarrels, and there would be no more too much excuses. It was nothing more than that I had truly independent myself in my heart, with less expectations, and people began to become much more transparent. Maybe most of the time, I would still be a little dazed. Fortunately, people always need to grow and need an experience to let themselves completely let go of some obsessions.
I am not an easy person to reconcile with myself, so I need to tell myself again and again that I should not look back too much after things I have given up, because some of them are too deep and I may not be able to bear them. When I think about the days ahead, I only need to be responsible for my life, I feel much more relaxed in an instant. Maybe I just like to add some false responsibilities and responsibilities to myself. Maybe I am a child who lacks a sense of security in my subconscious, so I can't wait to try to choose a safe haven and find a reliable belonging. But in this life, it is not easy for everyone to take good care of themselves. How can there be so many things that can support me?
The moment when we let go of the alert in our hearts, we also became clearer about what we wanted. In the end, we all need to face the world alone and face the joys and sorrows in life. One person will be lonely, but loneliness is just a mental state. We cannot blindly grasp any straw around us just because we are afraid of being alone. Instead, we should find our core strength and accumulate the courage to face life again. Growth is a stage of constantly unraveling ourselves. We will be confused and anxious, and we must have the ability to heal ourselves. Maybe in the last second, we felt that life was very desperate, and we might quickly return to a positive and optimistic state in the next moment. There are too many things that need to be considered in a lifetime. Sometimes, being able to face our hearts bravely is the best.
