always wanted to have
After losing it, he said to me drunk, "How great it would be if you don't have a boyfriend."
I turned my face and said, "Zhou Jiali, it's too late for you to say this now."
He grabbed my sleeve and asked me to leave.
"A chance... Is there no last chance?"
Many students turned their heads to look at it.
How could Zhou Jiali, the male god who was once highly anticipated in C, beg for such a humble manner?
He hugged me, pulled me into his arms with force, took out his phone and held it in front of me, sliding up and down in panic.
"He Xia, look, I have no contact with her at all, I have blocked her a long time ago. You said, I will listen to you who you want me to delete.
"I can have no one, but please don't leave me..."
Zhou Jiali's head lies on my shoulders and neck, muttering in a low voice. It seems that I'll disappear if I'm afraid of a swaying spirit.
I just pushed him away and said coldly: "I'm sorry, I'm late when I get home, my boyfriend will be worried. "
1
1
When the college entrance examination scored, I ranked in the top 200 in the province. Even if I can't go to the top 2, I can choose the remaining schools at will.
Zhou Jiali called me: "Caterpillar, how did I do in the exam? "
Caterpillar is the nickname he gave me, because when I did the questions, I was unkempt and disgusted with my relatives, and my unwashed hair exploded.
"It's okay. "
" Thanks to you tutoring me, if I enrolled in a school in City C this time, I would probably be able to get a 211. "
" Yes. "
Many people don't understand why I signed up for a university next to my home that year, and didn't go to Beijing or Shanghai.
When I was in my second year of high school, Zhou Jiali moved to the next door of my house. He knocked on my door, handed over a box of biscuits politely, and introduced himself, "Hello, my name is Zhou Jiali. I heard that you are also a student in Middle School, and we can go to school together in the future. "
He is so handsome.
My face suddenly turned red.
This is probably love at first sight.
Zhou Jiali is the center of the school basketball team, 185 tall, handsome and handsome. In C, he has countless fans. Whenever he shoots a beautiful three-point arc, there will always be a lot of screams off the court.
There are too many girls who hand him love letters.
He is too lazy to deal with it and directly asks me: "Caterpillar, help me collect the love letters. If there is a good-looking girl, write down her name and class, and throw it directly into the trash can. "
I hate the title of caterpillar and protested to him repeatedly.
He just smiled and flicked my forehead, "How cute caterpillar is, how can he hate insects? "
Okay, my face turned red again.
He said it would be OK.
Because I always helped Zhou Jiali receive love letters, I caused a lot of public outrage in the group of Zhou Jiali's fan girls in C. Some girls blocked me in the toilet and said, "What are you? Relying on your living close to Zhou Jiali, I thought he would look at you more? "Next to
C is a vocational high school, a societal senior with short hair. Because he couldn't go directly to our school to confess his love to Zhou Jiali, he simply stopped me at the school gate and asked me arrogantly: "Where did you send my love letters? "
The world is conscience, Zhou Jiali can't even read the love letters of these people.
She poured out all the things in my schoolbag, tore all the notes and homework, then took out the thermos from the crossbody bag, and poured hot water on my head.
"Bitch, I'll tell you to hook up again. "
The next day, Zhou Jiali and I went to school together. He poked my swollen cheeks and asked, "Catinella, why do you feel like your face is getting bigger today? "
I dare not tell him the truth. I am afraid that the girl will take revenge on me.
"Oh, the hot water for washing my hair is boiling too much. ”
He laughed, as if he heard something interesting.
Rumors are flying all over the sky.
Some fans even ran to Zhou Jiali and asked him with great fanfare what his relationship with me.
Zhou Jiali narrowed her eyes and said jokingly: "He Xia, no, no, I don't like nerds."
So I became a joke in the fan girl group.
"Look, it's that person, I'm rushing to paste Zhou Jiali."
"Is it really cheap or not."
In the third year of high school, Zhou Jiali fell in love.
His girlfriend is Lin Ran, she is a liberal arts class student, majoring in dance, tall and moving, standing with him very well.
Zhou Jiali said to me: "Catinizen, when I was sending small notes with my girlfriend, I really thank you for helping me block so many bad peach blossoms."
I only realized that he had already communicated with Lin Ran, but just used me as a shield.
I think I'm too pitiful.
Zhou Jiali and Lin Ran's performance dropped rapidly after being together.
Lin Ran is an art student and has little requirements for professional courses. She wanted to go to Beijing to learn performance, but Zhou Jiali didn't want to be separated from her.
But the reality is that the scores of schools in Beijing are not low.
Zhou Jiali asked me: "Caterpillar, help me tutor. Anyway, if you have good grades, you can go to Tsinghua University and Peking University."
I really want to reject him.
He never thought about something for me.
but I can't say it.
2
Later, Lin Ran was the one who performed poorly.
Zhou Jiali found her and said it didn't matter. As long as the two of them stayed in the same city, it would be fine no matter what.
But Lin Ran finally chose to go abroad.
She completed all the procedures and notified all the friends around her, but she kept it from Zhou Jiali.
The night before I went abroad, Zhou Jiali found out. He rode the bicycle carrying Lin Ran around the campus countless times and rushed to the downstairs of Lin Ran's house, shouting her name.
but didn't wait for her to explain.
In the middle of the night, Zhou Jiali called me out of my house. His eyes were red and he told me miserably: "Caterpillar, I'm heartbroken."
"You have to accompany me to have a drink."
I have a slight alcohol allergy , so I never drink alcohol.
But Zhou Jiali looked so pitiful that night. He kept recalling his love time with Lin Ran, and then filled a full glass of beer.
"Caterpillar, why don't you drink it? Do you hate me and leave me?"
I had to accompany him, cup after cup, my throat hurts, like a fever.
In the end, Zhou Jiali was fine. I was spitting on the toilet in the restaurant and was in a mess.
Zhou Jiali and I went to C University.
He reads civil engineering, I read c big ace computer.
Tang Jun called me to ask about my situation, and he was surprised that I actually went to C University. I am the number one in science in our school, and he is the number two in science.
We have been competing in secretly during the various basic tests in high school years.
With his grades, he can go to an unpopular major in Tsinghua and Peking University. But he chose the astronomy of Beihang .
I said, "Okay, I didn't expect you to have the dream of serving the country in aerospace."
Tang Jun was silent for a long time and said nothing in the end.
In college, the single Zhou Jiali naturally became the number one male god.
I have restored his female bodyguard identity.
He is the captain of the basketball team in the college department. When he was playing in the school basketball team, there were too many girls coming, and he didn't like the screams outside the court. I held up a big sign and stopped the girl outside, shouting at the top of my throat: "Be quiet! Be quiet!"
or a girl asked him to confess to him in the middle of the night, but he didn't want to go down, so I urgently called me to come downstairs of his dormitory to deal with the situation.
Fortunately, the public opinion environment in college is much better than that in high school, and I have never encountered such serious campus violence again.
At most, someone was ridiculed in the forum - "Zhou Jiali's dog skin plaster, I'm so funny."
During the summer vacation of his sophomore year, Zhou Jiali asked me to come down for barbecue.
The fly restaurant is coming and going in the summer, and the boss is very busy.
This time I didn’t dare to drink beer anymore, so I asked for a bottle of Sprite and drank it slowly.
Zhou Jiali doesn't seem to be in a good mood. He asked for two bottles of beer himself, his eyes drooping, “Caterpillar, let’s be together."
" Huh? "I didn't understand.
" Anyway, you like me. "
Yes, I like Zhou Jiali, a well-known secret.
He said: "Lin Ran will not come back." "
Zhou Jiali regarded me as Lin Ran's substitute, a trash can that can listen to him telling the past at any time.
If I have a little self-esteem and cherish myself a little, I should reject him righteously.
But I don't.
My heart was beating in panic. I said, "Okay. "
3
Bi Shishi is my roommate and one of the few good friends I can make in C.
She has a wealthy family. When she first heard that Zhou Jiali and I were dating, she hugged me happily and said she wanted to take me to a luxury store to buy two bags to celebrate.
But within a few days, her attitude changed from excitement to plainness to sympathy.
Although Zhou Jiali confessed to me on the surface, it seemed that I was chasing Zhou in practice Jiali.
Zhou Jiali was angry, I want to coax him.
Zhou Jiali’s final exam, I want to help him take tutoring public classes.
Zhou Jiali represented the school team in basketball competition , I want to stay up late to help him create promotional web pages and support animations.
Several other players of the basketball team were organizing to buy gifts for me, saying that I was the most indispensable non-staff member.
Zhou Jiali just touched my head and said with a smile: "The caterpillar is really good. "
is like praising an obedient pet.
I know Zhou Jiali can't let go of Lin Ran.
And what I need is to be a qualified stand-in.
I started to imitate Lin Ran's dressing style and asked Bi Shishi to accompany me to the mall counter to buy the latest skirt.
I learned to keep my long hair, learn to put on makeup, and learn to wear jewelry.
I was pretty originally looking, but after I was carefully cleaned up, some boys began to confess to me.
But without exception, after they heard that my boyfriend was Zhou Jiali, they all silently retreated.
The summer vacation of my junior year happened to catch up with the 100th anniversary of our high school.
Alumni from all over the world have come back one after another. Even if there is something wrong, they often shoot a video.
is to express their feelings.
Zhou Jiali has been looking forward to this school anniversary for a long time.
He pushed back everything that was nearly three days ago.
I know he is not looking forward to the school anniversary.
He hopes Lin Ran can come back.
But he was disappointed again.
Just like the summer vacation when the college entrance examination ended, he was wandering downstairs of Lin Ran’s house.
Our class had a dinner at night, and Tang Jun sat next to me.
He said, "He Xia, I heard that you are with Zhou Jiali. "
" Yes. "
I took a secret look. Zhou Jiali was surrounded by many classmates and had no time to care about me.
Tang Jun drank a glass of wine, "Congratulations. ”
I didn’t want to discuss this topic, so I asked him instead: “Tell me, why do you study astronomy. "
" Because..." His eyes seemed to be recalling a very distant thing, "A girl told me that she likes the stars very much. "
"Hi, what did Tang Xueba say to my girlfriend? "
Zhou Jiali suddenly put his hand on my shoulder and pinched me hard.
I was startled and looked back at him.
His face turned flushed, as if he was drunk. He lowered his head, his lips gently stroked my cheeks, and he pulled me to his side as if he accidentally.
"Caterpillar, it is wrong to talk to other boys with his boyfriend on his back. "
The first time he called me a girlfriend in front of so many people.
Many classmates turned their heads and looked at it.
Days, I pushed him at a loss. "You have drunk too much. "
" is it? "
Zhou Jiali lowered her head and kissed my lips, "No. ”
4
This is my first kiss with Zhou Jiali.
But he forgot about this the next day.
I asked him indirectly, and he looked at me with a smile: “Hey, caterpillar, you actually take advantage of me. ”
We didn’t have time to quarrel and didn’t have much time to get tired of being together.
is coming because of the grand graduation season for senior year.
The roommates go out early and come back late every day, and only Bi Shishi, a rich second-generation, is still watching fashion magazines in the dormitory.
"I really envy you for having a mine at home."
We all sighed like this.
A large factory in Shenzhen came to our school to hold a lecture.
Half of people went to the entire department, and Bi Shishi took me to watch the fun together.
"When did you care so much about finding a job?" I looked at her curiously.
She didn't stop while playing the game, "You can draw the game around you, please."
Later, the entire school of that big factory only had three people.
I am one of them.
The counselor talked to me and said that I gave up the opportunity to ensure the study and . Faced with such a job opportunity, I hope I can seize it.
I know the counselor is for my good.
But the workplace is in Shenzhen.
Zhou Jiali played basketball in the playground and he made a good three-pointer.
Then he ran down and took the mineral water I handed him, rubbed my hair, squinted his eyes and asked me, "Does the caterpillar want to go to Shenzhen?"
I don't know how to answer him.
After a while, I shook my head.
He smiled and turned around to take over the pass from his teammates, making another good-looking scoring layup.
From beginning to end, he never asked me if I liked that job.
5
Zhou Jiali's family likes me very much.
After graduating from university, we got engaged and took wedding photos.
Wedding invitation was designed by me personally, and there was a cartoon portrait of me and him on it. Holding hands, there is a big heart in the middle.
I thought Zhou Jiali and I would be the same as these two cartoon characters. Even if he didn’t have much passionate feelings for me, we would keep holding hands like this and keep going forever.
I sent the wedding invitation to all my friends.
Then one week before the wedding, Zhou Jiali asked me to come out to meet.
He said straight to the point: "He Xia, Lin Ran has returned to China."
My heart sank.
At that moment, I just looked at him calmly.
He closed his eyes in pain, supported his forehead with his hands, and his voice hoarse: "I don't know what to do. She called me and said she wanted to meet me, said she missed me, and said she wanted to start over with me."
"He Xia, you know, what Lin Ran means to me, I can't refuse her. She cried so hard, you have to understand her."
I smiled bitterly.
"Zhou Jiali, who will understand me?"
"Who will compensate me for my youth."
I kept myself in the house for a whole week.
only eat instant noodles and mineral water every day.
I didn't expect that I didn't even shed a single tear.
Perhaps because of the past, I have shed too many tears for Zhou Jiali. Faced with such hurt, my heart seems to have become as hard as a stone.
I took out the wedding photos I took with Zhou Jiali. We hugged under the Western-style villa, walked by the beach holding hands, and watched the stars rise little by little down the teaching building of University C.
now looks like a joke.
I threw that wedding photo into the trash can.
Zhou Jiali, goodbye.
I feel relieved.
6
I changed my new phone number and started looking for a job online again.
Our professional society has a relatively large demand, and soon a company with good development prospects extended an olive branch to me.
Emerging Internet technology companies.
I knocked on the office door in a well-dressed formal outfit, and a girl with a ponytail took me, "You are He Xia, I will take you to see your department head. We are a small company, you can wear it as you please."
I raised my head, and the next moment I frowned deeply.
"Tang Jun?"
also graduated in one year, and Tang Jun has become my leader. It's really a blessing to make people.
He said he had been internship here since he was in college, and because he performed well, he was directly retained.
plus some technical problems solved, and finally promoted to the youngest supervisor.
I drank the black tea on his table without hesitation and asked, "Didn't you learn astronomy? You are from Beihang University, why don't you stay in Beijing and go back to our small city?"
I feel a little guilty when I said this. What if Tang Jun remembered the story of me cheating him in high school and causing him to be half an hour late for the physics exam, wouldn't he have to wear small shoes now?
He just smiled and said, "City C is very good, there are many people I miss."
Fortunately, Tang Jun's work is very reliable.
If you get off work late, you have to take the initiative to send me home.
Sometimes we talk about our high school classmates, but every time we tacitly avoid Zhou Jiali.
Walking on the road, looking at the stars in the sky, Tang Jun asked me, "He Xia, do you still remember? The brightest and most conspicuous one in the sky is Orion , and the one in the north like a spoon is Beidou . In the opposite direction, the five stars arranged in the shape of W are Cassiopeia ."
I suddenly felt that I had heard this from somewhere.
When I was very young, I went to the planetarium and pestered the director of the planetarium to tell me every constellation in the sky.
Director html touched my head and said with a smile: "Little boy, do you like to see the stars? Remember, Orion is the brightest one in the sky..."
Tang Jun said: "That director is my father."
"At that time, I hid behind him and thought, if that girl came to ask me, I must recognize all the stars in the sky and tell her the story of every star."
My heart beats violently.
It turns out that Tang Jun and I met so early.
"He Xia, you are my star."
7
6
As I want to promote the company's latest products, as a temporary planner, I racked my brains to think about how to advertise.
Moments slid down one by one, and suddenly I saw Zhou Jiali's updates.
The short two lines of words:
—I am a stupid*. I haven't discovered who I love for so many years.
"Silly*." I followed and scolded silently, "Pretentious."
I patted my head, but did not delete Zhou Jiali's contact information.
WeChat, Weibo , all social software blocked.
After doing all this, I feel that my world is pure.
Tang Jun still sent me back downstairs.
Since the chat about planetarium when I was a child that day, I instantly felt that my relationship with him had been much closer.
I turned around and waved to him and said, "I'll go first."
As soon as I stepped into the dark corridor, I suddenly grabbed my wrist by myself.
I almost exclaimed.
The dim light shone on his face.
is Zhou Jiali.
He seemed to have lost a lot of weight. His already tall nose bridge was set against the sunken eye sockets, and a trace of green stubble on his lips.
He chanted my name, "He Xia. You are hiding from me."
I tried hard to pull my hand out, but he grabbed it.
"You crazy man," I scolded him, "Let my hand loose."
"No," his tone actually had a hint of prayer, "You are not allowed to leave. You changed your phone number and blocked all my contact information. He Xia, where are you going?"
I looked at him strangely.
"Zhou Jiali, if you are not wrong, we have broken up, right?"
He shook his head desperately.
suddenly exerted force and held me into his arms. He lowered his head and rubbed his ear, "Catinizen, I was foolish before, please forgive me, okay?"
either wanted me to understand Lin Ran, or wanted me to forgive Zhou Jiali.
I am not the world-saving Jesus .
I just feel disgusted.
I pushed him away.
Zhou Jiali stood in the narrow aisle like a wall.
I can't squeeze him home.
had to turn his back and walk out.
He shouted from behind: "He Xia, I have never said the word "breakup".You don’t have a boyfriend, why can’t we start over? "
joke.
Tang Jun stood under the street light.
He saw that the lights in my room had not been on for a long time and had not gone back.
Seeing me appear at this time, he walked up a few steps.
Maybe it was a sudden burst of blood.
I grabbed Tang Jun's arm and turned around and said coldly to Zhou Jiali: "Sorry, I already have a boyfriend. "
8
Zhou Jiali suddenly punched Tang Jun's face.
I was stunned and stood there in surprise.
He was originally from the basketball team, with a tall and strong body, and soon pounced on Tang Jun, punching him one by one, as if he had used all his strength.
"Damn, you dare to move my girlfriend, Tang Jun, you don't want to live anymore. "
Tang Jun quickly reacted.
Two people wrestled together.
I screamed in shock and grabbed Zhou Jiali's hand, but he was too strong, but he couldn't pull it.
In desperation, I had to pounce on Tang Jun.
Zhou Jiali's fist stopped in mid-air.
"He Xia," he said stutteringly, "He Xia, are you protecting him? "
Tang Jun stood up quickly.
He wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth and looked at Zhou Jiali coldly, "Zhou Jiali, there is one thing you said wrong. He Xia is not your girlfriend, she is mine. "
I told Zhou Jiali that if he pesters Tang Jun again, I will make him never see me in his life.
Maybe he has never seen me as serious as I am, so he just watched Tang Jun grab my hand and leave.
I took Tang Jun home.
There were many scratches on his arms and face, so I have to deal with it as soon as possible.
I took out a cotton swab, dipped it in iodine, and gently wiped it on Tang Jun's face.
He made a hissing sound.
I apologized embarrassedly: "I am hilarious today in my mind, and I used you a little. "
Tang Jun grabbed my hand and looked straight into my eyes. "He Xia, is it just using it? You said in person that I am your boyfriend, don’t regret it. ”
His hands were hot.
He used his palms gently.
I suddenly remembered that he solved a physics problem with extremely high difficulty in class in high school. It was the same at that time. He was so confident and persistent, and refused to give up.
I found that I could not refuse such a Tang Jun.
It was too late that day, so I let Tang Jun sleep in the guest room.
In the morning, I saw that he was not awake yet, so I casually tied a bun, put on a shirt, drooped a pair of slippers, and went downstairs to buy breakfast.
As soon as I got down, I saw Zhou Jiali sitting on the steps at the entrance of the community.
He didn't go back all night.
As soon as he saw me, he jumped up immediately, grabbed my arm, and asked in a trembling voice: "He Xia, have you let him stay in your room all night? "
I didn't want to pay attention to him, tightened my clothes, and hurriedly walked towards the breakfast shop.
Zhou Jiali still grabbed my wrist and did not loosen.
There was red blood on his eyes. I don't know if it was because he sat downstairs all night or for something else.
"You don't explain it clearly, you can't leave. "
I shook Zhou Jiali's hand away and sneered, "Zhou Jiali, do we have any relationship? What identity are you using to question me now? "
From high school to now, I have saved enough disappointment.
Zhou Jiali's lips were trembling and he didn't say a word.
9
I thought that I said that to Zhou Jiali last time, he would not come to me again.
I didn't expect that I could still see him often.
Sometimes after work, he would wait for me at the intersection.
or in the early morning driving at the entrance of the community, saying that he was sending me to the company.
A female colleague in the same office building lay on the window and pointed, and someone took a photo to Weibo and sighed, "Hey, only handsome people can be so romantic these days. When can God allocate me such a boyfriend? "
I had a headache.
I had a bad fortune that Tang Jun was still at ease.
He said, "Let him do it, you can't escape anyway."
I decided to spread the matter well and talk to Zhou Jiali.
I called him to meet him at the cafe downstairs of the company.
He was stunned for a moment and quickly said, "Okay, I'll arrive on time."
had a hint of excitement in his voice.
That afternoon, a temporary investor visited the company. The boss attached great importance to it. Everyone worked overtime to prepare the meeting materials.
I was so busy that I was overwhelmed. When the meeting finally ended, I glanced at the clock and found that more than half an hour had passed since the appointment with Zhou Jiali.
I hurriedly explained the next work to the intern, put on my coat and ran to the coffee shop downstairs.
According to my understanding of Zhou Jiali, he has the habit of being late, but he will definitely not wait for someone for more than five minutes.
Push open the door of the coffee shop and I see Zhou Jiali sitting alone at the table by the window.
I greeted him guiltily.
Could it be that he just came here too?
He raised his head, his eyes showing a bright light.
"I thought you were not here."
"Why did it happen? Something happened temporarily." I smiled awkwardly and reached for the coffee on the table.
He hurriedly stopped me, "Don't, it's cold."
The waiter came to help me refill a cup of warmth, and said to me, "Your boyfriend is so considerate. I have been waiting for you here for more than an hour."
Zhou Jiali lowered her eyes and explained, "I have to come early, afraid of missing you."
I looked straight into Zhou Jiali's eyes, not wanting to go around with him.
"Zhou Jiali, you are so embarrassed by this. Didn't you decide to be with Lin Ran?"
He held the coffee cup tightly, and his finger bones were bluish-white.
"Not that. When Lin Ran and I contacted each other again, I realized that everything was different. The memory of high school was beautified in my heart. For so many years, you are by my side."
I sighed and sneered.
"So, you just hope someone can be by your side forever and be nice to you?"
Zhou Jiali raised his head in panic, trying to grab my hand.
I said to him impatiently, "But have you ever thought that I have always been following you, why did you turn around and look at me and treat me well?"
He hurriedly said, "Then give me a chance, He Xia, this time I will come to chase you, okay?"
I smiled, "Okay, then please show your attitude and strength that was twenty times harder than chasing Lin Ran, otherwise I will feel that you are not sincere."
10
Zhou Jiali comes downstairs to wait for me to go to work every day.
He holds a letter in his hand.
When he was in high school, he would pass notes with Lin Ran in class. Zhou Jiali said that he would now turn into a long letter to return it to me.
I find it boring.
"Zhou Jiali, we are all adults, there is no need to play such children's games."
I didn't even read it, so I gave it to him.
Zhou Jiali stood there blankly.
I quiz to the station to catch the bus
He rushed up and grabbed my hand.
"He Xia, I don't understand. Teach me what to do and how to win you back, okay?"
His eyebrows were lowered, his eyes were red, like a little beast abandoned by his master.
Later he took the letters and put them in the email address downstairs of my house.
On Friday night, I received a text message from Zhou Jiali: "He Xia, can you come to Zhiwei on Saturday?"
Zhiwei is a bar near our high school. In the past, we often went there for dinner after the exam.
A good weekend, I didn't want to go there.
Then I thought, I didn’t know what bad idea he would come up with, but I agreed to him: “Okay.”
Zhou Jiali called almost all the high school classmates.
is the only exception of Lin Ran and Tang Jun.
Others have always been very popular, and they respond to each other when they call each other.
I sat in the corner and didn't participate in everyone's carnival.
A large projector in front of the bar.
Zhou Jiali stood in front.
suddenly started playing every bit of our past relationship on the screen.
took a group photo together, graduation photos of senior year, short videos of occasional boredom attacks... and wedding photos that have never been resolved.
Most of the students received wedding invitations we sent out at that time, but later they heard that an emergency occurred and the wedding was forced to be cancelled.
Now seeing Zhou Jiali making such a statement, everyone thinks that our wedding will be put on the agenda again.
screams erupted on the spot.
See me wearing a white wedding dress and smiling under the starry sky.
I suddenly felt that I was not worth it at that time.
I grabbed my backpack and hurriedly left Zhiwei Bar.
All the classmates are calling my name.
I just pretend that I didn't hear it.
followed by anxious footsteps.
"He Xia!" Zhou Jiali called my name.
I stopped. In the narrow aisle, his tall figure enveloped me, and he frowned and took a step forward.
I followed me back and hit the wall behind me.
"What do you mean today?" I reached out to him and kept a certain distance from Zhou Jiali.
He took out a stack of photos from his handbag and handed them to me, lowering his eyes, exploring the expression on my face.
"He Xia, this is the wedding photo we took together at that time."
He forced himself to put it into my hand, "Look, you said you liked it very much."
I did say this.
When taking wedding photos, Zhou Jiali always disagreed with everything, was late, refused to make moves, etc.
Photographers are afraid of our new couple.
In order to get good wedding photos, I worked hard to establish a good relationship with the photographer.
Even if there is a little flaw, I will make a satisfactory statement.
I have already cut these photos bit by bit and thrown into the trash can.
I said, "Zhou Jiali, all these in the past are wrong! You still hold them to let go, what's the point?"
His lips were trembling, and it took him a long time to squeeze out a sentence from his teeth, "Are all wrong? He Xia, don't you feel a little happy when you are with me?"
I looked at him coldly, "What do you mean by happiness? For you, have you been bullied by other girls, or are you pointed at in the school forum? Or, even if you are allergic to alcohol, you have to drink with you until you are sent to the hospital for infusion and drip?"
Zhou Jiali's body was tense, and his lip line hanged.
"I don't know that time you went to the hospital."
"You never know anything."
I opened the window of the stairwell and raised my hand to throw out the stack of photos.
I used to be so full of expectations, just drifted to nowhere with the wind.
I stopped a rental car on the road.
"Where are you going?" said the driver, and he looked at me again and handed me a tissue, "Oh, girl, have you quarreled with your boyfriend? Don't cry, just say anything."
I shook my head.
Looking back from outside the car window, Zhou Jiali bent and was still picking up the wedding photos scattered on the ground.
11
Tang Jun never mentioned Zhou Jiali's matter to me.
I am very grateful to him.
His position has risen rapidly and his work has become busier and busier.
We were chatting in the evening, and he mentioned that he wanted to send him to Europe to develop new business.
I took a bite of apple : "It sounds good, you can also go to see Eiffel Tower ."
"It would be too lonely to watch alone without you," he said.
Lying on the bed at night, I remembered Zhou Jiali squatting on the ground, picking up photos one by one.
As the taxi drove away, his tall body kept shrinking.
until it is submerged in the sea of people.
The ringtone of the mobile phone suddenly rang.
I woke up from my sleep, grabbed my phone and looked at it, it was two o'clock in the morning.
"Hey?"
"Xia Xia! Can you come here? Jiali's situation is not very good now."
is Zhou Jiali's mother.
His parents were very nice to me. After the wedding was cancelled, she came to me personally to apologize.
I grabbed my coat and comforted my aunt while hurried downstairs to take a taxi.
I really don’t want Zhou Jiali because something happened to me.
does not count as our youth for ten years.
just hope everything can be separated.
I saw Zhou Jiali for the first time. He was lying on the table, his face buried deep in his arms.
Many empty wine bottles are scattered on the ground.
Auntie saw me as if she had seen a savior.
"Xia Xia, you are here!"
Zhou Jiali slowly raised her head when she heard the voice.
His cheeks were slightly red and he blinked in discomfort.
"He Xia..." A whisper came out of his throat.
He struggled to stand up while holding the table.
"I found all these photos." He groped in his backpack and took out one wedding photo after another. "Look, even if you throw them away, even if you are blown away by the wind, what should be back... will still come back..."
"But," his eyes turned red, "The one you like the most, we stood at the entrance of the campus to look at the stars, I can't find it..."
Zhou Jiali.
A deep sadness surged in my heart.
My stars are no longer you.
I asked my aunt to go back first, and then let his arms support on my shoulders.
"Don't worry mom, I'll take you to the hospital, okay?"
He lowered his head and rubbed his nose against my hair.
"He Xia, I'm sorry." His voice was very soft, "I'll give you all the ones I owe you."
He picked up another bottle of beer, and his back teeth opened crisply, "I don't know you are allergic to alcohol, but I'm still a bastard."
"If I were like you at that time, drunk and messy today... would you feel a little better?"
"Will you forgive me?"
I snatched the beer in his hand and fell to the ground.
Wine is winding like a small river.
"Enough! Zhou Jiali!" I shouted at him hard.
"When will you make trouble like this?"
Zhou Jiali's mother is not young anymore. I don't want her to worry, so I don't let her follow you anymore.
I spent the night with Zhou Jiali in the ward myself.
The next day, when Zhou Jiali woke up, I was holding my laptop to process the files sent by the company.
He snorted softly.
is probably a headache.
I stood up and wanted to find a nurse for him.
"He Xia," he turned his head away, "You have to worry."
"Don't say that, after all, we are high school classmates."
His face became a little deeper.
A sarcastic smile appeared on his lips.
"No matter how I do it, you won't stay."
After a long time, I said "um" softly.
"So, can you accept this?"
is the engagement ring we bought together at that time. Lin Ran came back, so I sent it to SF Express to send it back to his house.
A pleading look appeared in his eyes, "Even if we let me know, we still have a little contact, okay?"
I took the ring away and put it in the corner of the desk.
I certainly won't wear it again.
Maybe this is what I call "good together and good separation".
12
I applied to a European university to study mathematics.
When the boss went to the airport to send me off Tang Jun and me, he touched his head as if he had no choice and said, "Oh, I lost two of my generals all at once. What should I do?"
I smiled and said, "Okay, I'll point you at work when I come back."
Tang Jun and I went to France.
Under the Eiffel Tower, he half-kneeled and put the ring on my hand, "He Xia, are you willing to marry me?"
I was half-true and half-false, "Tang Jun, what should you call me now?"
He hugged me and circled.
"Wife! Wife!"
There are passers-by taking pictures.
The camphor tree in summer is so lush.
The lights are bright, and the stars rise at night.
He Xia, you finally found the star that belongs to you.
I posted a photo in my circle of friends.
and Tang Jun held hands.
Bi Shishi gave me a thumbs up.
Long time no see, we started chatting again on the cross-border phone.
Inadvertently mentioned a college classmate, and she sighed: I wonder if Zhou Jiali can adapt to the climate in the south?
My hands are tight.
hesitated for a long time and asked, "He is not in City C?"
Bi Shishi felt absent-minded and I heard her breathing in inhalation.
"I heard that he only took away the photos he had taken with you. The rest were left."
"Do you have anything to tell him?" Bi Shishi said carefully.
I shook my head.
I hope him.
Forgot me, start again.
Summer is going to pass after all.
(full text ends)
Author: Mengwang
Source: Zhihu
Reprinting has been authorized by the author
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