Today, Amei moved, and I drove to the town where she lives early in the morning.
A Mei did not tell anyone about moving, including me. She asked about this on the phone last night and then she vaguely said she was going to move today.
A Mei was surprised when she saw me, and she held my hand and said incoherently: "Why are you here again so far? Didn't you say you didn't come last night? I want to tell you when everything is ready." As she said that, tears were already filled with tears.
Last night, I learned that Amei was moving, so I decided to make sure to go this trip today. Otherwise, I will be uneasy.
I patted her shoulder lightly and said relaxedly: I'm idle and I'm here to be a porter for you, and I'll ask for a cup of tea by the way!
A Mei controlled her emotions and lowered her eyes and said: It was too troublesome, too troublesome! The moving company's car will arrive in a while. I have packed all the items in the whole box, I can do it alone! Don't worry!
I looked around the hut, and there were neatly stacked cartons of large and small and bundled bedding against the wall, and the flowers and plants they raised were enclosed in buckets and bags.
The floor, kitchen and bathroom are all very clean, and I couldn't help but praise it: It's cleaned so clean! There are few tenants like you!
A Mei smiled and said: A house is the most expensive property of ordinary people. We have to cherish it if we rent it. Sometimes I have an inexplicable worry, fearing that one day I suddenly lose my energy and no one will know if I can't wake up. I am so afraid of "dirtying" other people's houses, wouldn't it be a sin?
I felt pity, but I blamed her and said: I was so stupid and thoughtful! When people eat grains and grains, no one can control the misfortunes and good fortunes at any time. The Bible says: "Don't worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will have tomorrow's worries. One day's difficulties are enough. ’99% of the unknown things you are worried about will not happen. If you don’t know the things about , Ming Dynasty , don’t pre-protect tomorrow’s worries. Take a step back and think, even if it happens, many things will not be as difficult as you imagined. Do you know?
A Mei looked at me and nodded like an obedient little girl. The car
came, and we loaded the car and set off soon. On the way to
A Mei told me that she went to City A to find a house and signed a rental contract a week ago. Paint and clean the entire room myself.
Listening to her words, my heart felt sad and I didn't know what to say. A person who is alone is not ruthless or introverted, but only after experiencing pain and seeing through people's hearts will he will give up everything he used to, live his own life calmly, and enjoy this purity of being alone.
A Mei said softly: Moving has become commonplace for workers like me. There will always be too many variables tomorrow, and I don’t know how many times I will move in the future. When I get older, I really want to live a stable life. Every time I move, I treat it as the last time, but everything is a beginning without an ending. For me, wherever I move, I am home.
A Mei is a transparent woman. After experiencing the worldly wise, she did not complain about the harm others had to do with her, but silently carried all the burdens that belonged to and did not belong to her in life. She did not complain, but instead worked hard alone with her weak body, living a cold, dull and free life.
When a woman faces the coldness of the world, she can keep her heart warm and have a peaceful state of mind. No matter what situation she is in, she will naturally reveal a kind of quietness and elegance of the world.
At this time, I just want to accompany her silently on the way to move. Let her feel less loneliness and less suffering.
A Mei looked at the vehicle passing by and said: In fact, a person does not have much material needs, it is just a three-day meal and a seven-foot sleep at night. I have carried too many things in my life. I used to be in a hurry and never really calmed down and thought about giving and gain. The past honor was only obtained at the cost of overdrawing the body; the so-called face was also obtained by consuming oneself and grievance oneself.Little do they know that face is the most useless thing, and in the end they just want to suffer for face.
Yes! People fight for a breath, Buddha fights for a stick of incense. When a person lives in the world, the most difficult thing to let go is face. The face we want is sometimes because of the word "fear". I am afraid of being laughed at by my colleagues, afraid of being looked down upon by my friends, and afraid of being pointed at by people around me. Don’t think that being wronged can bring you happiness. The grievances you endure are actually a kind of consumption of happiness.
cannot tear away face, can't resolve complexes, and blindly sticking to the wrong things will cause life to fall into endless difficulties, and in the end it will be the most faceless thing.
People need face when they live, but they cannot live for face. Face is for others, and the inner world is for themselves. Otherwise, no matter how good your face is, you will eventually be tired of face and ruin your life.
A Mei said quietly: Life is your own and has nothing to do with others. As long as you don’t take yourself too seriously, pour water and drink it yourself when you are thirsty, cook noodles and eat it yourself when you are hungry, and go to the doctor yourself when you are sick. These are all very normal things. You can't be depressed just because no one spoils you, and you can feel sad if no one spoils you. As long as you are free from worries, you can keep your own dignity no matter what situation you are in.
Be pure in mind and have few desires, feel light in yourself; be at peace with the situation and enjoy yourself. The best state of life is to be a simple and real self, let go of one thought, and be free in everything. We choose to let go not to forgive anyone, but to let ourselves go and make ourselves live more calm and elegant.
At this moment, I remembered a passage from Mo Yan , "One day, you will reconcile with yourself, swallow all your grievances, smooth out the edges and corners of your life, smile and face the people and things you once hated, and become a calm person. When you endure all the suffering alone, endure all the loneliness, swallow all the sadness, what awaits you is sunshine and good luck."
Suffering is not suffering, happiness is not happiness, it is just a moment of obsession. Letting go is not giving up, but letting go of "self-attachment" and adapting to the circumstances. People live in a kind of mentality. Only when you take the vicissitudes of the world lightly, you will be safe and sound inside.
A Mei bit her lip and whispered: Now that the life circle is small, it is also a great thing not to be paid too much attention, cared about, and talked about. A person lives for a lifetime, but in just a few decades, what's the use of fighting for a false reputation? You have your lofty ambitions, I have my love, I don’t want to please anyone, and I don’t want to force myself into anyone’s world. I just want to live my simple life quietly.
Only through life and death can one understand the importance of health; only through gains and losses can one understand the importance of indifference. Only after experiencing the hardships of the wind and rain can you understand that the most important thing is to learn to be kind to yourself.
Yang Jiang Mr. Yang Jiang once said a very transparent feeling, "No matter what level of life goes, there are people looking up to you at the bottom, and there are people looking down on you at the top. You look up and feel at ease. Only by looking straight can you see your true self."
people don't have to please or please anyone. Anyone needs to be pleased is false. Some people are not worthy of your being so kind to him, nor are they worth your waste of time and energy to cater to. People who treat you sincerely will cherish every effort you give more because they understand you. They will not be willing to let you suffer grievances. How can they bear to let you please humbly!
The car entered the bustling small town, and Amei smiled and said: From today on, I have a new environment and a new life.
Being alone is a state, a ability, a person's joy in the world, and the most real freedom. Women like Amei have a kind of character. Time has added white hair and wrinkles to them and enriched their life experience. In the process of cultivation, you must firmly maintain your original intention. Only by enduring the pain of loneliness can you have a temperament; and because you can quietly enjoy a person's ordinary time, you can hold your foundation.
No matter how years pass, only temperament lasts forever.
