Fu Hengjie stared at her in a daze, with a bitter smile on his lips.
"In my life, there are many accidental factors that have changed my destiny unconsciously. The thing I want to tell you tonight is also very accidental, but it has caused a great impact on me and left a deep scar in my heart."
two people walked out of Jiangbin Park , and walked slowly along the dizzy yellow street lights on the road. Their figures are long, short, and long.
An Yixue looked at the figure on the ground and her face suddenly turned red. In fact, what she saw was not these. What she saw was that she was holding his hand, and it was so natural, without any shyness or discomfort. This was not like the shy she used to hide when she saw the opposite sex!
"What happened to you later?" she asked softly.
"The year I repeated my studies, you were in the second year of high school. Did something sensation happen in the school that year?"
"Yes! You won't be...?" An Yixue screamed in surprise.
"Do you also think I will fight and hurt someone with a knife? Do you also think I am a gangster who is showing off his strength and ruthlessness and never corrects his lesson?" His voice became unusually sharp, and he seemed to relax when holding her hand.
"No...I don't think so." She held his hand tightly and looked up at him. Yingying's eyes were full of understanding. After a while, she asked softly: "But, I still don't know the truth. Are you really expelled from the school?"
"Yes, I was indeed expelled. My grades can be attended by key universities, but that accidental thing made me like this." His voice was a little cold.
"That day, after school, I went to buy a fruit knife nearby. On the way back, I saw a few little hooligans bullying a female classmate. When she saw me, she immediately called for help from me.
I recognized these little hooligans as my former brothers. At first, I wanted to rely on their previous friendship and hoped that they would not make things difficult for the girl. Unexpectedly, they no longer took me in sight, but instead laughed at me and asked me in an extremely boring tone, what was my relationship with that girl? Is it my "mazi"? If so, let her go. That kind of obscene I will never forget the eyes of my eyes in my life.
My blood suddenly surged into my forehead, and all fears and consequences were thrown out of my clouds. Then I rushed forward, but I was beaten up by a few little hooligans and was beaten all over. In desperation, out of instinct, I pulled out the fruit knife to defend myself...
First I was "invited into" the police station, and then the school found my parents and suggested that I quit school voluntarily. Although my classmates and the police station later proved that I was hurting people through self-defense and rescue, all this was futile. The school means: key middle schools will not accommodate students who hurt people with a knife. The plot is secondary. What is important is the reputation of key middle schools.
This news is like a thunder blew around me. For a moment, my head was as big as a fight, and my head was buzzing. I really couldn't believe this is the fact. If the school fired me a year ago, I would have nothing to say, but after a year of hard work like an ascetic, I finally got rid of my inferiority complex. I was about to drive to the other side of success with my sails. It was so incredible that this happened. . Is this fate or punishing my previous ignorance?
I was forced to drop out of school, and my father tried every means to find another school for me in a neighboring county. But the matter was not over yet. Middle schools in other counties heard my story from nowhere. Those who didn't know the truth still heard the legends from the beginning. They had no interest in this matter, so my reputation as a "little hooligan" was still spread among strangers. This situation often occurs in life: if a person is involved in a rumor, even if it was later proved that it was just a rumor, his reputation would still be damaged.
I can't stand the neglect and contempt of teachers and classmates after understanding me. Those indifferent eyes made me feel suffocated in the classroom. I had no choice but to escape home, although my wish was to get into Peking University and Tsinghua University..."
In the darkness, An Yixue's tears flowed, and she took out a handkerchief to wipe her tears: "You... After you dropped out of school, did you go out to work? "
"No," he trembled slightly, took a deep breath, and said, "I have nothing to do after I go home, and I often walk on the street aimlessly. Sometimes at the gate of the middle school, I see brightly dressed students walking out of the gate in groups of three and two. Their light laughter drifted away like a gust of wind beside me, just like the spring that once belonged to me will never return. Whenever this time, my mood is extremely sad.
When I get home, I have to face the sighs of my parents. I feel irritable and crazy. Thinking of the nightmare life and the slim and inescapable future, do I really want to be depressed because of this? Is my beautiful youth just bored in such a boring way? I asked myself in pain, I couldn't continue like this.
Just happened to be undergoing a recruitment physical examination in my hometown. I joined the ranks of recruitment without hesitation. Thank God, after experiencing loss and hardship, I regained a chance. I put on my military uniform as I wished. Although spring is still so far away from me, I have already set foot on the road with firm steps.
I went to the north, which was a city with snow. You also know that there is no snow in our hometown. So when I first saw snowflakes, I felt a special joy in my heart: they were all over the place, beautiful and light, they were the elves of winter and the messenger of spring. Even if the training in the military camp is so tiring, every time it snows, I will stroll in the snow. The snow scene is so solemn, especially at dusk. The simple, boundless, and vague white on the earth will make people's hearts very quiet and harmonious. People with rich emotions will produce poetry associations, painting artistic conception, and musical melody at such moments.
Whenever it snows, I will still think of you. A girl with the name "Snow" who likes to read books. Only at this time do I feel the mixed feelings of sweetness and bitterness.
After the college entrance examination, I wrote to her about her exam situation, and then tried to ask you in a plain tone, but my smart sister had long guessed what I thought from it. Every time she wrote to me, she would always talk about you, talking about your talent, your loneliness, and the imbalance of your liberal arts and science scores...
I don’t know whether to be sad for you or to be glad for me. Out of selfish concepts, I don’t want you to get into college, because once you get into college, I may lose the opportunity to get close to you forever, but at the same time, I hope you get into college, because only in this way can you be truly happy, and for this I am always in conflict.
Therefore, I repeatedly told my sister that during your studies, don’t tell you my feelings for you, because I am afraid of increasing your spiritual burden. Everyone knows how nervous you are in high school...
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