"The reason is very complicated. Do you want to keep listening?"
"Think."
"Social, family and personal factors are all there, and impulsive rebellion in personality should be the main reason, right?
When I was sixteen, I was admitted to the county key high school with the best score of the first place in the town. This made my parents very happy, especially my father, who never drank alcohol. He took out the Wuliangye that he had treasured for a year to celebrate. We father and son, one cup of each, and we drank red and drunk.
"I heard from my grandmother that my father was a very talented person when he was young, but unfortunately he was very unlucky. Now it seems that it is also the destined fate of their generation: after graduating from high school in 1966, he was admitted to Sun Yat-sen University with excellent grades. Sun Yat-sen University is a national key university ! After taking the notice home, the illiterate grandmother held the small piece of paper under the lamp and looked at it with a smile for countless times. The mother and son were so happy that they couldn't stop talking.
But fate loves to tease people. The Cultural Revolution has begun, and nothing is left. The admission letter has become worthless waste paper.
However, my father still has the admission letter from CUHK, which witnessed the most glorious history and the most exciting moments in his life.
That's it, my father had no chance to go to college and could only stay in the countryside to farm.
At first, he was in a state of pain, and his grandmother even worried that he would go to find a short-term view. Later he slowly calmed down, and in another sentence, he was to succumb to the arrangement of fate.
Like a cow, my father worked in the countryside for seven or eight years. Almost the villagers forgot that he was a high school graduate. It was not until one of his very good classmates was a director of the town government that he found out that he was in the countryside. He was thinking about his old classmates and introduced him to a unit as a worker. When the leader thought that he was knowledgeable, he asked him to be an accountant in the bureau.
Soon after, he met his mother through an introduction, formed a family, and had a pair of children.
1978 resumed the college entrance examination . He originally wanted to take the college entrance examination, but he was tired of his family, so he had to stop this idea.
You may be wondering why I told so many stories about my dad? It's actually very simple. It has a huge impact on my growth. He put all his unfulfilled university dream on our brother and sister. He said that he was waiting for retirement in the town, but his children must not follow his old path. He hoped that my sister and I would be admitted to prestigious universities and open up a new world in big cities in the future.
Yes, their generation lost too many things, and they really wanted to live again with their children's lives!
My parents’ salary is not high, but they are not stingy with the various payments we have in our studies, giving whatever we want, and instead they are strict requirements for our studies.
Dad is not worried about his sister at all, because she has loved reading since she was a child, has been very conscious in her studies, and has excellent grades. But I am different. When I was a child, I was lively and active, and extremely naughty. I was a famous troublemaker. How could I have the patience to do my homework obediently at the desk? I have been punished a lot for this.
When I was in the second year of junior high school, I was fascinated by martial arts novels and my grades declined. My father burned my newly bought " Pingzong Xiaying " in front of me. This book is my favorite novel! I really hated him a little at that time. He was afraid that I would read and read martial arts novels, and even if I had something to do, he would specifically remind my mother to stare at me.
Because of his strict supervision, I had nowhere to go and could only study quietly at home every day. In fact, I had nothing to do except study. However, even though he had such strict requirements, I still read a lot of extracurricular books...
After I got into No. 1 Middle School, I became a boarding student. In the first semester of my first year of high school, with my talent and diligence, my grades were among the best in the whole grade.
After the final exam, I excitedly handed the transcript of the first place in the grade to my father, hoping to get his praise. He glanced at me at that time:
‘Do you know how many points will be for the first place in the city this time? Do you know the top students in the province and the whole country? Do you know the junior class of the University of Science and Technology of China? ’
The question that struck me was like water flowing down from the ice peak and snow ridge, immersing me in it.Does
need an answer? This is clearly a rhetorical question. But I still answered: ‘I don’t know. ’This cold answer contains my resentment and my grievances.
My father glared at me fiercely.
The semester of high school was a national Chinese language competition. I was the first to hand in the paper and got more than 70 points. When he found out, he immediately slapped me in the face, which made me sad. Actually, I was still number one that time.
Three days before that Chinese language competition, something happened that made me lose face: two classmates were talking about Beckham with great enthusiasm.
I asked rashly: ‘Who is Beckham? ’
’You don’t even know who Beckham is? ’The classmate looked at me with a slight sneer and said, his tone made me feel that I was a country bumpkin who had never seen the world before.
I was extremely annoyed, but I had nothing to answer. Because I really don't know who Beckham is? When we were studying at home, my father only allowed us to watch the news and then turned off the TV. I have never played football, so I made a fool of myself in front of my classmates...
I was recalling this incident sadly, but my father said again: "I did so poorly in the exam. I think how you can take the prestigious university in the future?" ’
When I heard this, I became popular and shouted: ‘Take the college entrance exam, take the college entrance exam! All you think about is to let me study and take a prestigious university! I am your son, not your tool to realize your college dream. I won't read it anymore. ’
’ slap again.
You are a woman, and it may not be easy to understand how a boy feels when his self-esteem is hurt. I clearly got the first place in the exam, but I was slapped twice, and the one who hit me was my always respected father.
Two hot water droplets slid across the cheeks. Is it tears? Some people say that a man shed blood and does not cry. I couldn’t call him a man at that time. I was just a sixteen-year-old boy. A sense of anger surged in my heart. I glared at my father:
’I won’t take the college entrance exam anymore! I won't study anymore! ’After saying that, I ran away with tears in my eyes.
That night, I thought about it over and over in the dormitory in the middle of the night, and was indignant. I thought why should I study so hard? No matter how good my grades are, I can't satisfy my father.
I even feel that he cares about my grades more than me. This idea made me very sad and shaken my ambition to be admitted to a prestigious university, who was originally as strong as a stone.
Of course, I was sad to think of every bit of my nearly ten years of reading: it was really unreasonable, and in addition to reading, I was also studying! There is no fun, no enjoyment, no knowledge except the knowledge in the book, and I have never heard of the name of King of Football Maradona .
My youth is completely gray, without any other colors, I have lived for 16 years in vain. At that time, a strong idea of rebelling against my father's authority broke out and took root in my mind: I won't take the college entrance exam! "
Fu Hengjie said this in one breath, his voice no longer appeared.
"You will not deliberately make annoyed with your father..." An Yixue asked in confusion.
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