I have been in love with Zheng Dawei for two years, and he has been close and distant.
learned that he was going to marry someone else in business.
I quickly sorted out my feelings and ran away and hid far away.
I didn't expect him to look for me.
1
My acquaintance with Zheng Dawei was due to a friend’s dinner.
I knew that he should have been a little moved by me that night.
Otherwise, he would not refuse my approach and gave me his WeChat contact information.
It was only later that I learned from his childhood friend that his ex-girlfriend proposed to break up that night, and he accepted me in a bad mood.
I admit that at that time, I was in my mind and fell in love with him uncontrollably, and I pursued him relentlessly.
As I took the initiative to approach again and again, the two of us finally got together and became boyfriend and girlfriend.
We have dinner and watch movies together, and it seems that we are having normal relationships.
But I always feel that I lack the kind of intimacy and familiarity that couples should have.
Because he is always close to me.
Two years have passed. He did not mention breaking up or getting married, and he just got along with each other indifferently.
But the two elders in my family couldn't wait and kept urging me to get married.
Especially my mother is anxious and often asks me, "What does that Dawei mean? If you don't want to get married, break up. Don't drag my baby daughter."
He can afford it, but I can't afford it. Girls have a few youths and waste their best time on being slack.
But girls can't go up and ask about marriage, as it seems a bit priceless.
My mother poked my head with a grudge, "Continue to waste this, the days when you cry will come later."
is the same. Even the people around me can see that I was rushing to chase Dawei, and I was not as important as others imagined.
But there is no way.
Who made me fall in love with this person wholeheartedly and resolutely.
I learned that he was going to work overtime on weekends, so I sacrificed my time to sleep in, got up early, ran to buy fresh ingredients, and was busy all morning.
Check that the time is almost over. Carrying the carefully prepared lunch, I took a taxi to Dawei's unit, wanting to give him an unexpected surprise.
But things are often like this, surprise becomes scare.
arrived at the door of his office. I checked my clothes and tried to appear in front of him in the most beautiful posture.
even dreamed in his mind that he would be so touched when he saw me so considerate.
At this moment, in the room with the door open, the conversation between the two people caught my attention. The content of the
conversation was exactly related to me, which made me stop.
"You really promised to marry Xu Jiaqi and . What should Xiang Hui do?"
is talking to Dawei's young master He Qiang. His voice was so low and hoarse, especially recognizable.
The Xiang Hui he mentioned is me, and I am Xiang Hui.
My steps are stagnant, marriage...? Why don’t I know when
?
Xu Jiaqi I know you. I have had two meals together. I know she is interested in Dawei, which can be seen from the way she looks at him.
But Dawei didn't like her before, and even sneered at her.
, I forgot, at the beginning, Dawei seemed to have the same attitude towards me, but it changed a little later.
Just as my thoughts were twisting, Dawei's voice floated out quietly, "Do what to do. This project invests in hugely, and marriage is the best choice."
My tears flowed down my face.
It turns out that he already knew it and made a decision. So what am I?
I resisted the urge to smash the food on his face, tried hard to remain calm, and turned around and went downstairs.
There was a ragged man picking up rags at the door, and I handed him all the food in my hand.
Uncle looked at me in surprise and said many "Thank you!" and "Thank you!" in succession.
Look, this is how people are. My slaughter is exchanged for so much sincere thanks from the bottom of my heart.
And he seems to take Dawei's efforts for granted, and he will lose it as soon as he says, and he doesn't know how to cherish it at all.
That's because, I am definitely not as important in his heart as he is.
Besides, compared with Xu Jiaqi, I am much worse than others in terms of appearance and family background.
It is understandable that he chooses her.
But why does this heart hurt so much!
2
I was bored and walked aimlessly on the street, feeling empty in my heart.
Two years of hard work are ultimately a joke.
I can't sit still and wait for him to dump me.
I have to find something for myself to distract myself and get out of this trough.
I made a phone call that I haven't contacted for a long time. I was the director of the firm where I used to work. After the phone call was answered, the director's voice came, "What, you finally remembered me? Do you want to come back to help me?"
I tried my best to suppress the bitterness in my heart, "If you need help, just say it, don't beat around the bush." Director
said that she was in the office at this moment and asked me to go over and find her.
When we arrived at the place, the director raised his head from a bunch of reports and looked at me carefully, as if he could see a clue.
"You said you did a good job and didn't make a lot of money, why do you have to be a small accountant in that small unit? Just to get from 9 to 5, just to accompany your boyfriend, is it worth it?"
I have to say that ginger is still old. Although I tried my best to hide it, I still couldn't get a trace of loneliness in my eyes.
I could only smile bitterly as the teacher and friend's director, "I can say anything to serve." Director
took out a piece of information and put it in front of me, "I happened to have a order on hand to urgently deal with it."
The team leader who was in charge of this project was pregnant and went home to protect the fetus and give birth to a baby. It took half a year to leave.
The information I just collected in the early stage then asked for leave, and the group urgently needed someone to replace it.
When I saw the amount, my heart was moved. After doing this order of
, the commission alone is tens of thousands, which is higher than my salary in a small unit for several months.
What interests me especially is that this unit is a company from another place.
Then I can take this opportunity to leave the familiar Nancheng and be far away from Zheng Dawei. Director
also saw what I thought, patted my shoulder, and spoke earnestly.
"Women, no matter when they still have to be financially independent, they can have personality charm. I find that you have lived a listless life in the past six months of your stay. They are not the ones you used to."
I was an elite in the workplace before, and I was very straightforward and straightforward in my words and work, and I was not dragging my feet at all.
But since I learned that Zheng Dawei likes gentle and virtuous, he doesn’t like strong women.
I am patient, suppressing my nature, and trying to be a timid little woman.
But no matter how I do, people disdain me in the face of interests, so why should I humiliate myself again?
I had a deep communication with the director on the details of this project.
This is a land increase liquidation job. If you go, you may need to stay in the company for about a week.
And you have to set off every afternoon and officially enter the site to start work on Monday.
For me at this moment, I was simply sleepy and encountered a pillow.
I didn’t expect things to go so smoothly. On the way home, I was still wondering if God saw me pitiful and helped me?
people are so strange. Although they know in their hearts that he has given up on me, they still pick up their phones from time to time, for fear of missing his text messages or phone calls.
It’s a pity that I was disappointed. From Friday until I left, there has been no word from Zheng Dawei.
is the same. People have a marriage partner, what am I?
can just propose a dispensable existence to break up at any time.
Even if it is a breakup, I should have brought it up first. I dumped him, not him dumped me.
Thinking of this, I called him.
Zheng Dawei's voice on the other end was cold and his attitude was as serious as ever. "What's the matter?"
I tried my best to remain calm, "Zheng Dawei, let's break up! Don't look for me again from now on, be bye!"
After saying that, I quickly hung up the phone and blocked all his contact information.
Tears couldn't stop flowing out.
3,
I cut off the long hair I specially collected for him, leaving only a short ponytail, which is convenient to pack.
took off the long skirt on his body and changed it to a shirt and trousers. It was completely a professional white-collar worker's equipment.
I am no longer the gentle little woman I used to be, but a tomboy in the workplace. The team members assigned to me by Director
have known each other before, and I was very happy to meet and asked me about my long and short questions.
A strange environment, a lot of things on hand cannot tolerate me being sad about spring and autumn.
people are like this. Busy work is the best medicine to heal all trauma.
On Wednesday evening, I exchanged information with the team members on the day's information with the team members in the hotel and received a strange call.
I hesitated for a moment. I felt that this should be Zheng Dawei's phone number, so I blocked all his contact information.
I didn't want to answer, but my phone kept ringing there, and both team members raised their heads and looked at me curiously.
had no choice but to take my phone to a more secluded place.
I asked, "Hello, who are you?"
A low voice from the other end of the mobile phone came from Zheng Dawei, "Where are you?"
I suppressed the urge to curse, "Mr. Zheng, is there anything wrong with making a phone call?"
His attitude was very impatient, "Where are you? Now?"
I reminded him, "Mr. Zheng, I said that we have broken up, so there is no need to report to you where I go!"
After saying that, I hung up the phone immediately and blocked the number.
Through time, space and distance, I could feel that Zheng Dawei on that end should be so angry that he jumped.
He never expected that he would be dumped when he was arrogant.
Why didn’t I realize his bad nature before and waste my two years in vain?
It was already a week after returning from a business trip. It was already evening when I got home and I happened to receive a call from the director.
I stood in front of the window to answer, and accidentally lowered my head, and saw Zheng Dawei's familiar car parked downstairs.
At this moment, he was tilting his head and looking towards my home.
In the past, I must have cheered and ran down to him.
But tonight, my heart was calm, I pulled the curtains and ignored him selectively.
Since you will choose others for your benefit, why should I have to do it?
Why do you want to hang yourself on a tree?
The next day, in order to take care of my new job, the director specially took me to discuss business with his partner.
The other party’s boss is more interested in our industry and asks more professional questions.
It was noon after this round, and the other party asked us to have a meal together.
There is such an opportunity, so the director will naturally not refuse, so we drove to have a meal. The place to eat at
is a Chinese restaurant near the lake, and the layout is elegantly decorated.
As soon as I entered the hall, I saw a familiar face, which was Zheng Dawei whom I hadn't seen in a week.
He saw me and was stunned for a moment when he was talking to someone.
I found his sight staying on me for so many seconds, and his expression was shocked.
At this moment, I have returned to my previous image as a crazy girl.
is no longer the pretty and gentle little woman in his eyes, he should be surprised.
This is the real me, without any false elements.
It happened so coincidental that the boss who was treating him also knew Zheng Dawei and took the initiative to go over and say hello.
After greetings, he saw that there were only two people on the other side, and warmly invited them to join the table together, and he agreed.
I was secretly complaining in my heart.
Why didn’t Zheng Dawei know how to refuse?
In the past, he didn't like to eat with unfamiliar people. The cold smell on his body made people retreat.
What's wrong with this today?
We have five of us in total and we have asked for a private room.
I sat there, feeling uncomfortable all over.
, especially Zheng Dawei's eyes stayed on me from time to time, making me restless.
The boss who was treating him also noticed his behavior, so he asked, "What, Mr. Zheng knows Manager Xiang?"
I looked at him leisurely, and I wanted to know how Zheng Dawei introduced me as his ex-girlfriend.
Sure enough, he pulled the corner of his mouth and said lightly, "It's just an irrelevant person."
4
I'm really angry.
is irrelevant, what do you mean when you look at me from time to time?
After he finished speaking, he started chatting with the boss and asked us what was going on.
Learning that the director and I were here to discuss agency business, he looked at me again, and a cold light flashed in his eyes.
I was unconsciously shivering.
Under his low pressure, I ate this meal without any taste.
Fortunately, I have the strengths to deal with each other, so it will not be a mess.
When I was sitting in the car and went back, the director asked me, "Do you know the Mr. Zheng just now?"
I couldn't hide it, so I had to tell the truth, "Ex-boyfriend." Director
opened his mouth wide in shock, "You are the job you quit for him?"
I nodded.
When I first met him, I worked in the firm. The nature of my job determines that I often run around and get along with him.
As a last resort, I gave up my favorite job as a registered tax accountant in and found a small unit to be an accountant, and went to normal.
The reason I do this is just to spend more time with him.
But he is very busy and doesn't like me to stick to him, so we don't have many opportunities to get along with each other.
The only thing that is thankful is that that weekend, I took the initiative to run to show my attention, but ended up in a cold sweat, which also made me awake instantly. After all, Director
has many knowledges, is older than me, and has countless experiences.
She shook her head, "You are not suitable for him, you can't control such a man. You are too cunning and not your ideal companion for you, a little cabbage."
Okay, people are more important to know themselves, I have given up.
Back to the unit to prepare a new contract, and in the afternoon he rushed to the leader to sign and stamp.
When I got home, it was already the lights on. I didn’t expect Zheng Dawei to wait at my doorstep.
I have known him for so long, and I have always been waiting for him for a little more time. I am always the little girl who ran behind his butt.
It is rare for the first time that the leader came to me to come to me on his own initiative, but my heart is no longer in my mind.
I stood in front of him, "Is there anything wrong with Mr. Zheng?"
My place is a little small, and he is a little condescending.
Today, he had a little messy hair. He had two buttons of his shirt unbuttoned and his sleeves rolled to his elbow.
His voice was as if it was quenched with ice, "Are you short of money? You show up and go to the business."
I didn't open the door, but just stood in front of him, "Man is dead for money, birds die for food."
No one doesn't like money, aren't you the same?
For economic benefit, you can marry someone else, but in the end you blame me.
Why!
He pointed to the door, "Open the door, go in and talk."
I stood still, "Mr. Zheng, let's talk about anything here, there is no need to go in."
After all, we have broken up, so there is no need to entangle each other again.
He looked at me with an incredible look, "Are you sure you want to do this? Don't you regret it?"
I told him with certainty and affirmative, "Yes, we have broken up, there are not so many topics to talk about between you and me."
I proposed the breakup first, I don't regret it, I know what I want.
The arrogant Zheng Dawei hit a nail in front of me for the first time and was a little unwilling to accept it.
He glared at me fiercely, pulled the corner of his mouth, and finally said nothing, turned his head and entered the elevator and went downstairs.
I think from now on, we two shouldn’t have any intersection again, right?
After all, life circles are different, I am just an unknown man, and he is a tall boss.
What I didn't expect was that Zheng Dawei would come to me more than once.
(Unfinished, next article)
