1,
"Bald " means not a bachelor in Xiaoqiu's hometown. Its meaning is a bit subtle and difficult to describe. For example, if a certain person suddenly wears five or six people, drives a good car, looks flamboyant, and walks swaying, someone will say, "Look at how bachelor he is now!" It does not completely mean glory. It is between praise and criticism, and it implies a little jealousy, mostly referring to looking chic, self-self, and free, but not so formally demeanor.
Xiaoqiu was fascinated by a "bachelor" man back then. That guy wore a leather jacket all day, and he kept smoking, and had many friends. Xiaoqiu had a meal with him and was "taken off" by him. From then on, he followed him with all his heart. He drove outside to collect the bills, and she followed him like a shadow. He smiled at others, and she also showed a pretty look at others. He looked at others with a black face. She also lit a cigarette in the back, squinting her eyes in the smoke she vomited.
After a few fertility, he became pregnant again. Xiaoqiu wants to get married, but the man doesn't veto it. I got married in a sloppy manner. When Xiaoqiu gave birth to the child, I realized that living at home was completely different from dating. It was too late.
Xiaoqiu will tell everyone: "I'm so blind."
"The child is two years old and he has never changed his diapers."
"I don't stay in the house all day, I don't know what national affairs are going on outside."
"The money I handle is tens of thousands a day, but I can't even get five hundred a month!"
"I'm going to get a divorce!"
Divorce is nothing to that "bachelor" man, only Xiaoqiu is heart-wrenching.
After crying for half a month, she figured it out. It’s not that he doesn’t care about her, but that he doesn’t care who he is. He is more face than he is, he is selfish and self-centered, and has no sense of family. If you want to blame, you have to blame yourself for your natural love for bad men.
After the divorce, Xiaoqiu opened a small shop and was not going to remarry. She has already understood the marriage thing, what is the purpose of sex? It's everywhere. Want money? She will make it herself. Want to be company? Sorry, she is very busy now. Want to help take care of the children? The child has already entered kindergarten and doesn’t need to worry about it, haha.
So she changed several lovers one after another and became "bachelor". Until one day she met Lu.
2,
Lu is also divorced, looking a little lack of kidney energy, always smiling moderately, soft.
Lu lives in this community and always buys things in Xiaoqiu store. One Tianlu said, do you recycle tobacco and alcohol here? Xiaoqiu asked, "Are you the leader?"
Lu said, "Not counting, private enterprise , I'll take care of some chores."
Xiaoqiu said yes, take the cigarettes and wine and I'll take a look.
When the next night was about to close, Lu brought a few boxes, which were filled with good cigarettes and wine. Xiaoqiu turned on the light until the brightest and repeatedly looked at the packaging of the cigarette. Lu suddenly seemed a little nervous, as if he was afraid it was fake. Xiaoqiu was amused by his appearance: "You have no idea about it?"
Lu said that he was not good at smoking and drinking, and everyone else knew about it, so he didn't understand these things, and he didn't know that he needed to look at it so carefully.
Xiaoqiu suddenly felt that this person was a little cute. She asked, "If this cigarette is fake, can you still remember who gave it?"
Lu shook his head blankly.
Xiaoqiu laughed out loud completely and had a bad mind in an instant. After
was sorted out, she took out a slightly worn packaging: "This one has some problems, no charge. For the rest, give 60% of the market price."
"Is it fake?" Lu stared at the cigarette carefully.
She did not answer him positively, but said, "If you want to collect, you can get it, 20% off."
He accepted it, but he was puzzled: "What are you doing for collecting fake cigarettes?"
"Don't worry, the cigarettes I sell are fine, but someone I know wants this."
Lu "Oh" for a long time.
Xiaoqiu transferred the money to him, and he asked to add WeChat because he only bought something like that, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar, tea, instant noodles, ham, sausage, braised eggs, plus WeChat, she packed the things, and he could transfer the money in advance, and come over to get the things when he has time and leave.
But in fact, he didn't leave every time he took something. He always had excuses to stay for a while.Sometimes I chat with Xiaoqiu's children, sometimes I talk about the news about the community, and once I asked her if she knew whose car was whose license plate number was, and she was always stuck at the intersection.
Xiaoqiu can see his meaning even if he is a fool. She hummed and continued his words, thinking that this person is a little money, not the one who eats food for the Yin, but he is also careless, not her food.
3,
community water pipes exploded, the first floor was flooded half a meter deep, and the water pump could not be bought within a radius of dozens of miles. Lu borrowed the only water pump from the property to Xiaoqiu.
With the water pump, Xiaoqiu's anxious heart was relieved and he quickly began to clean the bottom shelves with the clerk. Unexpectedly, Lu Ye rolled up his trouser legs and came in to help. Seeing him working silently, Xiaoqiu felt a little uncomfortable. Why is it that a man who doesn’t feel good to her is a man who doesn’t feel anything? Is she the only life she loves? She can't even get excited if she doesn't care about her or care about her. The lovers who were in the front were like that. They were nice to her and couldn't resist her coldness. She was so excited that she always put her warm face on her butt. She felt it boring to put it on a few times. In the end, the "good" and "bad" were gone.
So her divorced life of "bachelor" is actually not a pity.
kept getting the shop ready before Lu left. Xiaoqiu said apologetically: "Are you late to work?"
Lu was sweating: "It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter."
Xiaoqiu drove out and said: "I'll treat you to dinner another day."
Lu said: "I'll treat you, I'll treat you."
Lu invited her to dinner the next day. The meal was extremely rich. She knew that no matter how he wanted to confess his love, he would reveal it until he was half drunk.
A few glasses of red wine were eaten, and Lu said, "Is my cigarette... really fake?"
Xiaoqiu choked. It was really hard to answer, because he liked her according to the direction of the atmosphere. He probably suspected that the cigarette was true, so he was embarrassed at this moment. He neither wanted to give up on her nor found a profiteer. He was full of small-mindedness in the market.
Xiaoqiu's eyes were like a tongue, sweeping around his face, wanting to study it and look at it. At the same time, she is giving herself time. If she insists that it is fake, one-third of them may lose him. Is he worthy of her nostalgia?
is just a mess, Xiaoqiu regrets it a little.
She said, "Actually, I'm not sure if it's true or not."
"Then why are you..."
"I have to give it to people who are more knowledgeable."
"What do people say..."
This honest boss even competed with her.
"I haven't met that person yet." She ate a big bite of food and raised her glass of wine: "Don't worry, if that person says it's real, I'll give you some more money."
Lu hesitated and said: "It's not about whether it's money or not. If it's fake, you know, I'll feel a little uncomfortable, but I don't know what's wrong, I don't know whether it's the one who buys cigarettes or sells cigarettes. Anyway... it's not hard, no one likes hard."
Xiaoqiu understood. She said, "I haven't confirmed it yet. What are you anxious about? It's not too late to be impatient after you make sure it's confirmed. Besides, your packaging is worn and not that easy to sell."
4,
0 for this meal, neither of them opened their hearts.
From Xiaoqiu's perspective, he wasted such a good opportunity. From Lu's perspective, it seems that he is not wrong to be serious about life.
Xiaoqiu found himself in a strange relationship. He was not in a hurry to go straight to the topic and add points; he was too solid and reduced points; he was afraid that she would cheat him, and he was afraid that he would like the wrong person, so he reduced and added.
Lu didn't come after a few days. Xiaoqiu lowered her head and was busy with this and that, but her mind was not on business. Every time someone came in, she would measure her makeup and look at the door. When she found that it wasn't Lu, she felt weak.
A few days later, Xiaoqiu's ex-husband wants to take the child out to play, which is a sudden success.
After the child was picked up, Xiao Qiu suddenly realized that for a child over 4 years old, the visitation right is very cruel. It is obviously a foregone conclusion, so why bother to appear and harass it frequently? Sooner or later, that "bachelor" will forget this family and forget to fulfill this responsibility. It will be completely broken sooner or later, why not break it as soon as possible?
Xiaoqiu went to pick up the child in the evening. On the way home, she tried not to ask the child what he had talked to his father, so that she could help the child forget what happened today quickly.
When she sat silently in the taxi, Xiaoqiu was shocked that these thoughts only burst out after she met Lu. In the past, her ex-husband came to see her baby two or three times a year, but she never considered anything, and she once thought that her ex-husband didn't see her enough.
Her feelings are shifting silently, although I don’t know why.
Two days later, Lu sent a WeChat message again, listing the things he wanted to buy very clearly, and then transferring the money. After get off work, he came to the store to get things. As usual, he leaned against the counter and chatted with her about family matters. Like acquaintances, the two have made no substantial progress.
Xiaoqiu knows that it’s time to make up her mind, no matter whether he wants to fuck her or not, at least he is not a bad person and she shouldn’t cheat him.
The next day, Xiaoqiu sent a message to Lu: I have seen that cigarette for people, it is a real thing, but the laser mark is a bit damaged. I try to sell it as much as possible. If you sell it, you will make up for your money.
Lu immediately replied to the message: I knew it shouldn't be fake.
Then he called Xiaoqiu for dinner. This time it was at his house, and he told me to cook in person.
Xiaoqiu is here, she sits on the sofa, and tossing and making a circle make her begin to feel reserved. She didn't put down the bag she was slung on her arm, pretending to leave at any time. Lu brought the dishes one by one, and Xiaoqiu was still sitting there. Lu was even more uncomfortable because of her discomfort. He walked towards the dining table awkwardly while calling her to eat. Xiaoqiu remembered the first time she met her ex-husband. She drank two taels of white wine and handed her cigarettes. She said she couldn't smoke. Her ex-husband said if you want to be my horse, my horse must be able to smoke. Everyone burst into laughter. It turns out that love can look different, that kind looks like love, and this kind of thing is also like it.
Xiaoqiu put down his bag and walked slowly towards the restaurant. Lu asked her: "Do you like to eat fish? That's what... I didn't make fish."
"It doesn't matter." Xiaoqiu sat down, and the two finally started to speak normally. He said that he had served as a soldier before. In Guangxi, it is said that the blood of the Red Army martyrs dyed the river red. Since then, the residents on both sides of the Xiang River will not drink Xiangjiang water for five years and eat Xiangjiang fish for ten years. Ten years later, some villagers wanted to eat fish, so they took one of them down the net, and there was still someone's hair in the fish's belly. So many people set the rules that they never eat fish, so they no longer eat fish.
Xiaoqiu was in awe of the sound of being so cowardly. There was something so hard under a shell that looked a little cowardly.
Lu began to inquire about her past: "How did you live when you were young?"
Xiaoqiu said she liked a man who was quite a "bachelor", but she ended up stabbing on the ice with bruises all over her body.
"I never want to get married again." She said vaguely, wrapping her mouth with a mouthful of food.
"I'll tell you a joke. After a veteran comes home, he will use his phone to hold his wake up number regularly at 6:30 in the morning, saying that I won't get up, I won't get up! Hey, only those who have been soldiers will understand this joke after listening to it."
is a little nonsensical, but Xiaoqiu still understands it. She hates a certain system, so now she must do the opposite and must live a "bachelor" life. Isn’t it just that I don’t care about responsibility? It’s like anyone can’t. If a person is knocked down, he has to fight back. It was her fight back in the past two years.
At that time, she had a secret meeting with her lover, and she didn't let others suffer losses in money. When she checked in a room, she would invite her to dinner, and sometimes she even took the initiative to check in. Others can think this is inferior or that this is equal. No matter what others think, for her, this is a kind of consumption. Once a person puts himself in the position of a consumer, he will be condescending and come and go freely.
She thought silently, are you happy? Is it a "bachelor"? Is it happier than sitting next to a honest man at this moment eating the fragrant radish stewed beef brisket ? She couldn't answer.
After eating, Lu took her back to the store, and she usually slept in the store. When he arrived at the door, Lu stroked her arm: "The cooling will be reduced tomorrow, you will wear less clothes."
Xiaoqiu returned to the store and did not fall asleep all night.Lu's remaining warmth stayed on her arm for a long time. That night, her arms were so crisp, as if they were not her own, like a girl's arm.
5,
Lu started calling her to have dinner every day, and had been eating back and forth for a week. Finally one day he said, "You can rest here tonight, just two steps away from your store."
Xiaoqiu asked, "Why?"
Lu couldn't answer, and her face turned red. Finally, she had to say, "You can rest in another room."
Xiaoqiu asked again, "Why?"
was obviously naughty.
Lu lost his brain like a teenager, "What's the reason..." he muttered.
"Do you want to have a partner with me?" Xiaoqiu asked.
"Yeah."
"Why?"
"You look like my first love."
Xiaoqiu almost squirted out a sip of water. As for how old-fashioned it? Lu said, really. As he said that, he looked for photos on his phone and showed them to her. Xiaoqiu froze when he saw it. What is her first love? Isn’t this her? She also has this photo in her hometown. She took it at the school gate in her first year of high school.
But why can’t she remember this person Lu?
Lu smiled as if he was exposed and said: "It can't be said to be a first love, it can only be a secret love."
"How many years are you... higher than me?"
"Two classes."
"You finished high school?"
"You finished high school?"
"Last year, I went to join the army and went to the military academy in Guangxi."
"What later?"
"Later I heard that you fell in love with someone else when you were in the second year of high school, and I felt a little regretful."
"Why didn't you write a letter to persuade me?"
"What qualifications do you have?"
Xiaoqiu was silent.
"How are you doing in the army?"
"Overall, I'm doing average everywhere."
"You should be doing well now, right? Someone will give you famous cigarettes and wine."
"I'm not afraid of you making fun of you. I'm in charge of the fleet, queuing, reimbursement and maintenance, etc., and the operation range is wide, so they like to give it. As a result, they all gave it to them, but I can't push it away, so I'll still take a bowl of water."
Xiaoqiu laughed and asked him why he divorced. He said that his ex-wife would give him a few hundred yuan in pocket money a month. His ex-wife said that you don't smoke or drink, why do you want so much money? He felt it was too unreasonable, and his advantages became a reason to be exploited. I can tolerate this, but in the end I caught my ex-wife cheating.
At this time, there was a helpless smile at the corner of his eyes, but suddenly it became much more solemn. There must be a serious explanation.
He said seriously, and accidentally discovered that she opened a store downstairs and was divorced. He suddenly felt that there were still many hopes in life.
His voice has a very strange power. Xiaoqiu was grabbed.
"And what? Then you kept hanging me, observing me, and testing me with cigarettes?"
Lu answered honestly: "I don't know whether the cigarette is true or not. I just feel that it is real. Everyone in the fleet knows cigarettes and doesn't use fake ones to scare me. Besides, when I met you again, I felt like you were like a social oil."
Xiaoqiu lowered his head and said for a while: "If I were real oil, I could be cheated by such a man."
She suddenly understood that many people seemed to be at ease and enjoyed taking advantage of it. In fact, they were all fake oils and didn't find the real self in their own heart.
6,
"Deficiency of kidney qi" is the illusion of Lu. This guy buried something confident in a deep way.
In the sage time, Lu hugged Xiaoqiu and said that he didn't understand the mood. He knew how to have sex with her, but he didn't have anything else.
Xiao Qiu smiled, what other mood is needed? Nowadays, he is very "bachelor" to earn two money by working hard in class. Do you know? Now that selling a house is not even a school district house, the sales department has to write down the property below the house. There are several nucleic acid testing points downstairs. Lu was happy to hear it and said that when the epidemic passed, he would at least compensate her for something that was really "bachelor", such as going on a trip. He asked her where she wanted to go the most.
Xiaoqiu never thought about this problem. She didn't know that her life was worthy of such a problem, Japan? Paris? USA? Just thinking about it makes me feel amazing.
But at the moment what she wants to go the most is not far away.
but stays on his shoulders all the time.
