If there is a next life, I would not choose you to be my mother. Although you work hard to be a good mother, my user experience is not good.
1.
0 I was trying to move my wheelchair and try to get the A4 paper on the computer desk , my mother came in.
She lowered her eyebrows and walked over with a pleasurable eyebrow, took the paper straight, and handed me the whole pack of paper. I remained silent, pushed the wheelchair straight, and then climbed on the table to continue drawing illustrations.
I felt that she had been standing behind me for a long time. She wanted to say something to me, but I didn't agree and pretended to be calm and motionless. She sighed and turned around and walked towards the kitchen.
My mother is 50 years old this year and is unemployed.
I am an illustrator. I work at the computer desk every day and can support myself.
My online name is Rift. Because I am a disabled person, I live in the cracks of my life by half of my body in a wheelchair.
Before I was 10 years old, I lived in the town. My father worked outside all year round, and the people went out, but I didn’t see many money to get back.
I am in elementary school in the town. My mother gets up early and goes to bed late every day to take care of me three meals a day, and she does some casual work next to her to supplement her family income.
My dad is not at home, so I get into my mom's quilt when it's cold.
That winter, I slept very early. I was awakened by a sound in the middle of the night. When I saw that my mother was gone.
I just got out of bed with a cotton jacket and looked for my mother. There was no one at home. I was also confused at that time, so I opened the door and walked out. In the past, many houses in the town were built on the side of the main road, and this is how my home was.
I walked forward in a daze, but unexpectedly a truck came from behind. In the middle of the night, the driver was also driving in a daze. When I felt the dazzling lights on my back, it was too late to look at it.
I was hit by a car, and in the biting cold wind, I fainted from the pain.
When he woke up, he was already in the hospital.
My mother sat on the edge of the bed with red eyes, my pants were empty, and my mother was wearing big shorts and vests with cotton coats. Yes, my grandma later said with contempt that she had no time to wear clothes in the winter, and she heard screams and rushed out of the next house in panic.
Many people in the town have seen it.
My mother saw that I woke up, and she hurried over, "Baoer is awake."
I looked at her, "Mom, where is my legs?"
My mother didn't answer, just covered her mouth and cried.
That's it, I became disabled and spent every day in a wheelchair.
My dad came back from outside, looked at me, took a pack of money and put it under my pillow, and never came again.
My mother and my dad divorced, and my mom took me to the city, and my mom said it would be convenient for me to treat my illness.
My dad never saw me later. My mom said that my dad hated her and didn't even like me. I heard that he had two children when he got married.
dragged a disabled child, my mother had done everything.
My mom is pretty.
At the beginning, I sold clothes in a clothing store. I got up early and stayed in the store late every day, and my income was OK. Once I found out that I was pulling my feces and urine on my pants. My mother was washing and crying, but she didn't go the next day.
Then I help the kitchen in the kitchen, bringing me a lot of things every time. After doing it for a while, she fainted in the kitchen and said that she had brought me all the food and didn't eat it myself. The supervisor got angry and she didn't go.
Later, I will do this place today for a day, and that place tomorrow for a day, and work apart.
My mother said she had to take care of me and she had to go to the hospital every week. During that period, I felt a pain all over my body, and it was all over my body every day.
Spend money like running water.
Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night, my mother sighs and looks back at me and smiles again.
My father and mother had a very unpleasant divorce, so my father didn't give my mother much money either. When I came to the city, I wanted to do all kinds of rehabilitation. My mother wanted to install prosthetics for me, and we still had to live.
The money given by my dad, plus compensation and other things, was quickly spent.
It was that time that she started to make that kind of money.
My mother had a few good friends at first, and one of them solved my schoolwork.
I was so depressed when dragging my limbs every day.I hate myself and my mother. If it’s not her, I won’t go out in the middle of the night and I won’t be hit.
My mom asked me to go to school, I didn't want to go at all. I used to be able to jump, but now I'm pushing the wheels of the car, and it's sad to think about it.
My mother cried and said to me, Baoer, you are so young, how can you support yourself in the future without learning a skill? Mom can't be with you for the rest of your life. The car was talking about the same thing for a few days, but I got annoyed later, so I just went there.
This way, I started learning in the fourth grade. Every day my mother pushed me and picked me up and sent me away without any obstacles.
One day it was raining heavily, and the rain was like a pour, and my mother pushed me out. The car got wet as soon as I went out. My mother was wrapped in a raincoat all over her body, and nothing happened.
It usually takes only 20 minutes to get there. After walking for an hour that day, my mother's clothes were all wet. She smiled and told me, "It's OK, I'll wash my clothes for free."
When it snows, I don’t want to go. My mother pushed her away without saying a word.
Later, I got a tricycle and she rode her bike to see me off.
2.
When I was in high school, my mother saw that I liked painting, so she sent me to the painting teacher to learn.
That time, when I was in a perfect art class, I saw a man sitting on the opposite step crying from a distance, crying heart-wrenchingly. I took another look and it was my mother.
kept crying, just looking at her thin and small shoulders shrugging for a long time.
Later, a man came. My mother quickly wiped her face and was pulled to the small hotel next to her by the man. I looked at the hotel that was the same as the entrance of the cave and my mood was so deep that I was in the bottom of the valley.
I know that learning art is very expensive.
I decided not to study, I took the vocational college and learned illustrations.
When I was in college, I could already take advantage of the private work of illustrations to supplement my family’s income.
My mom doesn't wear that short skirt anymore.
But, I don’t think I can overcome that hurdle in my heart.
For many years, I haven't talked to her much.
In college, I met Xiaomi , a little girl who wrote online articles. She liked my illustrations, and we became friends after a while.
The first time I met, I was inferior and timid. She was a small figure and very beautiful.
But we can talk very well, and we are like a spring breeze with her.
It's been three years since she asked me, can I consider being her boyfriend?
I backed off.
later lost contact. During that period, I was very depressed and was confused all day long, walking zombies.
My mother did the meal every day and didn't dare to urge me, so she waited for me tremblingly.
Suddenly one day, Xiaomi called me to see me and I was so happy.
I confessed to her.
Xiaomi said my mother found her.
I was stunned.
Xiaomi says your mother loves you so much, you don’t cherish it. I have no father or mother, I don’t even want people to feel pain.
Slowly I wanted to be nicer to my mom, but I always felt like I had nothing to say.
When I got married to Xiaomi, my mother was so happy that she couldn't even close her mouth.
At home, she spoils Xiaomi as a treasure.
Xiaomi said what to eat, and the next day, there must be on dining table .
One day, Xiaomi accidentally said which dumplings made by the company were delicious, and my mother forced her to go to the company to learn other people's skills.
Make dumplings the next day.
Xiaomi was so happy that she hugged my mother and turned around.
3.
During that time, my mother always coughed at home.
I was annoyed when I heard it, so I asked her to go and take a look.
Xiaomi took it with her and was diagnosed with advanced lung cancer.
only takes half a year.
I suddenly felt that I didn’t have much time with my mom.
I was crying heart-wrenchingly in my bed.
Xiaomi also cried with me. Xiaomi and I told her about my mother, and she cried so hard.
Xiaomi said that people make mistakes, let alone her mother, she is quite pitiful. It is not easy for a woman to get through a sick child.
Later, Xiaomi and I took her around to play.
She didn't want to go there after playing in a place, saying that she wasted money.
Our days are still long.
I always wanted to chat with my mom, but I just couldn't open my mouth.
The day my mother died, she was already out of breath, and I realized that I had no mother anymore, who would I chat with?
I quickly put it into my mother's ear and said, Mom, I know that your life will not be easy, and you also work hard to be my mother. If there is a next life, I don't want you to be my mother, I want you to be my sister, so that I can take care of you, protect you, and not be bullied.
After my mother died, I installed a prosthetic.
I had a dream at night. When I dreamed of my mother, I left to show her. I also walked around for a few times. My mother smiled happily, and I laughed, and woke up with a smile. I found it was a dream, and my tears fell.
