I was born in a rural family. My parents are honest and honest farmers, and I am also a very honest child. But such an honest child later tortured his family. Because I was very honest when I was a child, I was so honest that I could not be more honest. No one believed that I said it. I never ate other people's food and would not lie. The people in our village honestly like to tease me and scare me because I am timid. When others scare me, I hide behind my mother. The children in the village often bully me. From then on, I had a thought deep in my heart that I could not be too honest. It is this idea that changed me and laid the foreshadowing for my miserable life.
Because I studied well when I was a child, and by chance, a middle school in the city came to our school to recruit students, so I went to the city to go to school. People can't be too honest" The idea came to my mind again.
I went to high school, and I didn't like studying anymore. I went to the Internet cafe and game hall every day. I even slept in the Internet during the day at night, and sometimes I only went to three days of classes a week. I either slept or read novels during class. Sometimes I went to the video hall to watch sq movies. I spent my high school time in a daze, caught up with the expansion of my enrollment, and ended up going to a college.
I think it was already a miracle to be able to go to a college because of what I did in high school. My parents worked hard, but in the end I got such a result, and my parents felt that they were blind.
ml0 I don’t know why I started to love studying. Fortunately, I studied well in majors. So I ended my three years of study with excellent grades. After graduation, I also found a job that I could easily find. At that time, I could be said to be the object of envy of my classmates. I was full of expectations for my future and felt that my future was bright.
But the good days were over soon. The ancients said, “If you don’t match your position, you will have a disaster”. What I did in the past caused me to not have the ability to enjoy now, so I had a conflict with a leader of the company and resigned.
This company is very good, colleagues They are also excellent. After leaving, the company took the initiative to introduce my job, but I refused. When I left, I not only did not know how to be grateful, but also complained to the company. I didn’t know how to be grateful. The company gave me a chance to internship by this person with no work experience, and when I left, I took the initiative to introduce my job.
After many years of bad habits, the consequences came to me. My favorite father, I had a car accident just a few days before I went home for the New Year. I was very happy to call a few days ago, but he disappeared in a blink of an eye. When I called my father and I usually had no more than three sentences to quarrel. In the last call, we didn’t quarrel, but he left. It was so sudden that I was not prepared at all. As soon as he left, the pillars of the house collapsed.
Think about my father working hard all his life, never enjoying a blessing for a day, but in the end, it was all caused by poverty. "I must change, I must make a name for myself." From then on, I became impetuous and could no longer sit still. I began to reflect, can my current work change my future? No, I want to change. I want to be a boss, but I don't have the capital to be a boss. I heard from others that many bosses start with sales. So I gave up my corresponding job, which is also the job I am best at. I started my sales career.
At the beginning, I was very excited. After a long time, I found that it was difficult for me to adapt to sales work. I used to work on technical work, and the right machines were all machines. The machines were simple, and they would execute according to your operations. Sales are now facing people, and people are more complicated than machines. I feel that I am under increasing pressure, but in order to change myself, I can only persist. Sometimes people are so obsessed with it, and they have to hit their heads and run out of blood in a dead end.
Just like that, I think the job I chose can change myself. I continue to persevere and feel very stressed. It is so easy to see my colleagues doing sales, it is easy to find customers to get orders, but I don’t have an order. Sales are based on performance. If you have poor performance, you will be eliminated. In this way, I had to keep changing jobs. In the more than a year of sales, I don’t know how many jobs I changed, I can’t remember clearly. Not suitable, I am still obsessed with it. My pressure is getting stronger and stronger, and I begin to like drinking and numb myself with drinking. I am completely confused about my future. The pressure is getting bigger and bigger, so great that drinking is useless. What exactly to use to relieve stress? I chose the bad habit because at least that moment I was very happy.
Because I was still very young at that time, men and women had a strong desire. I originally wanted to have a serious girlfriend, but nowadays, no one wants to go with you without a car or a house. Even if someone is willing to follow you, can you afford this responsibility? And so, I continued to adopt this almost crazy approach - the vices continued to release my desires and pressure.
I remember calling me xy is a nurse in a hospital. For several nights, we were on the phone xy. I really don’t know how she takes care of her patients during the day after she called me at night. Later, due to uneasy conscience, he broke off contact with her.
Due to years of bad habits, I have to hip tuberculosis , lumbar tuberculosis , plus pulmonary tuberculosis . Tuberculosis is also known as "tuberculosis". "The disease of wealth and honor" is difficult to cure. In the past, it was a disease that poor people could not afford. This disease can torture people even if there is one person, but I have three kinds of it at once. In severe cases, the legs are different, and many people become cripples because of this disease. And this happened to me at that time.
You can imagine now that my dilemma was - a young man with two different legs and a big pustule on his waist. He would get tired and panting when he walked two steps. His physical condition was worse than that of an 80-year-old.
How can this happen all of a sudden? At that time, I didn’t understand, and my family didn’t understand either. This time, I spent more than 30,000 yuan on my family. I stayed in the hospital for three or four months. I often took videos and took blood tests. I had to hang at least 5 bottles of water when I was lying in bed every day, and in severe cases it reached 7 bottles. Both of my hands were pierced, so I couldn't find a place to get the needle in the end.
Family relatives take turns to the hospital to take care of me. I have never been filial to my parents, and now I still ask my mother to serve me. Sometimes I even feed me food. I am too sick and can't even sit up and eat. During this time in the hospital, I was simply not as good as S. I won’t say anything else. I won’t take anesthesia and have heard of the surgery. In order to make the wound heal well, I have to undergo two minor operations a week, allowing scalpel to cut and scrape my body, because I have to cut off the necrotic tissue and scrape the broken S bones. After the treatment, I will disinfect it with hydrogen peroxide, and each time it is a large pot of xue water. All the patients in the same ward were scared to tears.
You can imagine my situation now. A serious illness made me understand a lot. What is the purpose of life? Money, fame, and status, these are so worthless than health. Maybe I wanted to give me another chance to revise myself and become a new person. Just when the doctor was about to have a major operation for me, I actually recovered, all the wounds healed, and the examination was normal. This was simply a miracle! After being discharged from the hospital, I rested at home for more than half a year.
I have been thinking about it for a long time when I am about to reach my thirty years. Except for a healthy body, I really have nothing, no car, no house, no career, and the job I did was not as high as before when I graduated. When I was graduating, my salary was higher and it was more tiring and harder. I had no savings, and I didn’t even have a relationship.
Now I realize that there is no medicine for regret in the world. The only thing I can do is to sincerely reflect on myself and never make any mistakes again.In your lifetime, you must be filial to your parents. Here I would like to ask those who are destined to read this article to learn it!
