As a concubine, I am very devoted to my job.
In the harem, I worked diligently to seduce the emperor and be jealous. In the court hall, Xie Fenglou, a nine-thousand-year-old man with great power, and I worked together to cause harm to the country and the people.
Just when I was finally favored by the harem, pregnant with the emperor's only child, promoted and raised in salary, and reached the peak of being a traitorous concubine.
Xie Fenglou and I had a falling out.
01
When Xie Fenglou came in, I was having morning sickness.
It was a small room with locked doors and windows, a bed in the middle, and iron chains on the four corners. Chains were tied to my ankles to prevent me from running around, and a spittoon was placed next to the bed so that I could spit into it.
I have to say that I am quite well prepared.
I gratefully said to Xie Fenglou, who arranged all this, "How come you haven't died yet?"
"Don't worry, it's not time for me to die yet." He said, "Mother, your Majesty's condition got worse last night."
I suddenly realized: "So, he is going to die?"
Xie Fenglou looked at me silently for a while, then suddenly touched my belly.
It is said that is pregnant with in ten months. I was more than seven months pregnant and my belly was already very big. His hand fell on it, like a feather. Even through my clothes, I was still burned by the heat of his palm, and screamed: "Don't touch me!"
He slowly withdrew his hand: "Your Majesty cares about you very much, and has written a secret decree. If this child is a boy, , he will make you a prince. If it is a girl... he will let you go home."
Go home?
What a beautiful word these are. At the tip of my nose, I seem to be able to smell a faint floral fragrance, which is the scent of orchid that is a specialty of my hometown. Before I entered the palace, my mother-in-law picked one and put it on my temple. I was reluctant to throw it away until it withered.
I haven't been back home for many years.
But I asked him: "Will you let me go?"
In the dim room, his face was also shrouded in shadow: "The child in your belly must become a prince."
He will not let me go. Go.
I wanted to cry and laugh, but in the end, I could only curse him and said: "Xie Fenglou, you gave birth to a son without an asshole!"
He said calmly: "You forgot again, I am a eunuch. Eunuchs don't have sons."
Every word he said made me sick. I leaned over and deliberately spit on his shoes. On the upper of the shoe, there is a four-clawed golden dragon embroidered with gold thread. This kind of transgression is worthy of a nine thousand year old man who has great power.
But I remember that when I embroidered an ugly reed flower on the corner of his torn clothes, he was already satisfied.
Time flies and people’s hearts change.
I lay back on the bed, the door closed, and the light that came through disappeared inch by inch. The little thing in my belly suddenly raised its foot and kicked me. I said to the little thing, "Don't be afraid, Mom will definitely protect you."
These words sounded so familiar. I racked my brains and finally remembered that it was when I was still young. He made a mistake and was punished by kneeling in front of the court. It was raining heavily. Someone held an umbrella for me and said softly: "Don't be afraid, I will definitely protect you."
中中 The loquat tree was crackling in the rain. I knelt there and my knees hurt. It was fatal, but my heart was filled with joy.
The joy at that time turned out to be insignificant.
Xie Fenglou, I think, I must kill you.
02
I entered the palace when I was ten years old and was initially a palace maid.
Being a palace maid is very tiring. She eats less than chickens and works more than dogs. The most unlucky thing is that she has no prospects for promotion and she still has to serve others.
As for Xie Fenglou, he was even more unlucky. He was a eunuch and had to be stabbed before entering the palace.
The first time I met him was in the summer. There were many plane trees in the palace, and the cicadas were chirping noisily. I ran out to hide away on the pretext of cicadas, and saw him standing by the lake.
The lotus leaves in the lake are touching the sky. He is wearing a light blue shirt and standing there, as if admiring the lotus.
There are no idlers in the palace. Those who are leisurely and elegant to enjoy the scenery are the masters. I quickly lowered my eyes and saw from the corner of my eye that he took two steps forward, and then... jumped down very lightly.
How can someone still be so calm when they commit suicide?
Without thinking, I jumped down with him.
I was born in the south of the Yangtze River and was good at swimming since childhood. I dragged him to the shore like a dead dog and punched him twice in the stomach. He coughed up two mouthfuls of water, and after a long while, he finally slowly opened his eyes.
He has a cold face, thick eyebrows, long eyelashes, and straight nose bones. Even though he is so embarrassed, he still looks expensive.
Could it be that he is some kind of big shot who conducts private interviews on private servers?
I was overjoyed and reached out to help him: "Are you awake?"
But he didn't appreciate it and brushed me away coldly: "You shouldn't have saved me."
Big people have big tempers, I understand. Suddenly there was a sound in the distance, and someone said angrily: "Where did the little building go?"
"He's hiding again! When the Za family finds him, he must know how powerful he is!"
They are two little eunuchs, look It doesn't look of high quality. I turned my gaze back and continued to talk to him: "You have to remember, my name is Xiao Lu. If you want to repay me in the future, be sure not to find the wrong person."
"Repay?" He heard this but He smiled and said, "What can I do to repay you?"
That's a lot! For example, gold, silver, pearls and emeralds, he must not think that these philistine things insult me...
But he had already stood up and said to the two little eunuchs: "I am here."
The two little eunuchs said The small building he lived in turned out to be him!
When the little eunuchs saw him, they immediately yelled: "You bastard! You didn't even notice it, but you came here to have a private meeting with the palace maid?!"
He just stood there and didn't speak, and water flowed from his face. Slowly rolling down the bed, but he looked so noble and fragile, I couldn't help but stand up and said: "You are blind! Who are you talking about having a private meeting!"
The little eunuchs were about to curse, but I was already Quickly showing off his waist card : "How dare you mess with someone with a phoenix?"
Youfeng Laiyi is a palace built by the emperor for the queen. The queen is a phoenix. The phoenix tree attracts the phoenix, and everything happens in the palace. Full of tung trees.
Holy grace is so great, we have Feng Laiyi people always walk sideways when they go out. The two little eunuchs were so frightened by me that they trembled: "This aunt, we are blind."
"Xiaolou and I He is from the same hometown, and you are not allowed to bully him in the future!"
They agreed, and I said to Xiaolouzi: "If anything goes wrong again, just come to me and I will make the decision for you."
There was a surprised look on his pale face, but he stared at me deeply for a long time, bowed deeply to me, and turned around to leave.
His back is as tall and straight as a orchid tree.
Unfortunately, he is a eunuch.
I thought sadly that my gold, silver, pearls and emeralds seemed to be gone.
03
I did one good deed every day and was beaten when I returned to the palace.
Aunt Cao, who took me with me, scolded me and said, "You are so talented. You still know how powerful a fox is and how powerful a tiger is! Is that your belt that you can use to become king?"
I was beaten so much that I cried for my father and my mother: "Auntie, I was wrong. ! "
When it was busy, the eldest aunt came over and said, "What are you making? I just woke up, and I heard you making noise here."
The eldest aunt was the person next to the queen. I was so scared that I didn't dare to say anything. Aunt Cao knelt down, but a gentle voice behind her said, "Ah Yue, don't scare them."
It was the Queen who was here!
I didn’t even dare to raise my head. I could only see the empress’s embroidered shoes embroidered with Phoenix auspicious grass getting closer and closer to me. When they came to me, she said softly: “Raise your head and let me see.”"
I raised my head, and the empress smiled: "I usually don't believe it when I hear you say it, but when I saw it, I realized that it really looks like me when I was a child."
asked me again: "What is your name?"
" When she was born, the reeds all over the lake turned white overnight. "
" It's a good name." The queen smiled, but there was a hint of melancholy in her voice, "My name is Ah. "Zhao", it rained heavily for half a month before I was born, but when I was born, it suddenly cleared up. My father said this was a good sign, so he named me "Zhao"
How dare I compare to the Queen?
I stammered and flattered her and said, "Your Majesty is like the sun and the moon, so you will naturally have auspicious scenes when you are born."
For a long time, I didn't hear an answer. I bravely raised my head, and my Majesty was already gone. I breathed a sigh of relief and asked Aunt Cao quietly at night: "Auntie, do I look like the empress?"
Aunt Cao patted me and said, "How dare you say anything nonsense!"
I said aggrievedly: "It's obviously the empress. "I said it first."
"Your Majesty can say it, but you can't either." Aunt Cao couldn't bear my pestering, and finally said softly, "My Majesty is also from Jiangnan. There are beauties from Jiangnan. You are somewhat similar to your Majesty. You are a great blessing."
There are so many beauties in the palace. The Queen is not the most beautiful I have ever seen, but she is the most gentle, dignified and maternal. Being able to look like her is naturally my blessing.
I was so happy that I fell asleep in Aunt Cao's arms. In the hazy moment, I heard her sigh and say, "I don't know if it's a blessing or a curse..."
04
Perhaps because of my kindness, the Queen Mother made a special statement and said, I started from the lowest-ranking maid, to the third-ranking female officer.
This is simply three levels in a row. If you go up any higher, you will be on an equal footing with Aunt Cao!
I looked at the things that the empress had given me, and excitedly said to Aunt Cao: "Auntie, even if I am a higher official than you in the future, I will not beat you."
I have been disciplined by Aunt Cao since I entered the palace. I don’t know how to beat you. After many times of prodding, she glared at me and said, "Since the Queen treats you differently, you must remember the kindness of the Queen."
I immediately patted my chest and promised, "I will never let down the love of the Queen."
The eldest girl suddenly suddenly Came in from the outside: "Meng Niang, I have something to tell you."
Aunt Cao kicked me out: "Go on and stick to the cicadas."
It was getting dark, even if the cicadas had already rested, I Deliberately taking a few steps slowly to go out, I overheard the eldest aunt saying: "What did you think about what I told you last time? Her resemblance to the empress is a blessing that has been cultivated for several generations. Don't be stupid."
But Aunt Cao I just shook my head: "She's still so young..."
Aunt Cao said and suddenly looked over. I was startled and quickly shrunk my neck and ran away.
Outside, there was a full moon, hanging far away in the sky. Unknowingly, I walked to the lakeside where I was last time. Suddenly I said with a smile on my face, "Little House!"
The Little House was also standing by the lake and turned around after hearing this. When he came over, he saw it was me and bowed: "Aunt Lu."
He called me that, which made me laugh: "What kind of aunt am I? Just call me Xiaolu."
asked him again: "They Isn't it hard for you anymore? Why did you jump into the lake last time? Was it because you were bullied?"
"Xiao Lu," he didn't answer, just asked me, "Why did you save me that day?"
" When you see nature, you have to save it." I scratched my head, "I can't just watch you die."
The moonlight fell on the lake, wrinkled by the wind, and the lake was covered with fine snowflakes. He smiled softly. , said to me: "You are a kind-hearted person. But in this palace..."
"What happened in the palace?"
But he refused to say anything.
He was an eccentric person, with a bit of aloofness. I took out a small purse from my arms and said, "Hand out your hand."
He looked at me, slowly stretched out his hand, turned the purse upside down, and the candy fell into his palm. I picked up a piece and threw it into my mouth: "This is called Dingding candy. It was given to me by the empress. Small building, I don’t know what happened to you, but in this life, if you believe in fate, you will be burdened by fate for the rest of your life. If you don’t believe in it, you may be able to make a new world."
He listened intently. I was a little embarrassed: "This is what my father told me. He used to be a doctor. He failed to treat patients properly and was imprisoned... But he told me not to be sad and to live happily every day. In this way, I don't deserve to live in this world."
After a long time, he finally put the candy into his mouth, but then asked me: "What if you still can't win with life after trying hard?"
"At least you have fought against life, and you will be able to win. Even if you lose, you will still be honored."
"Even if you lose, you will still be honored." He read it a few times and suddenly smiled softly, "Thank you, Miss Xiaolu. I have always felt like I was convicted and entered the palace. "Death, but after listening to your words, I realized that there is never a dead end in this world, only people who refuse to move forward."
It turns out that he entered the palace because of sin. No wonder people like him became eunuchs.
I looked at his handsome features and whispered: "It's just gossip, you're welcome."
"What you said is that you should keep the kindness in your heart and don't need to talk about it." When he stared at me, he seemed to want to express his kindness. I engraved it in my heart, "If one day, you need me, I will go through fire and water, no matter what."
"Where are you talking about!" The more he spoke, the more serious it became. I was afraid that he would soon go to the sword for me. Huo Hai hurriedly wanted to leave, but turned around and asked him, "Are you coming here tomorrow?"
"If the errands are done, I will come naturally."
"Then... see you tomorrow."
He said: "See you tomorrow. ."
Such a simple agreement makes my heart jump. I went back humming the song and saw Aunt Cao wiping tears under the lamp. I was surprised and said, "Auntie, why are you crying?"
She hurriedly wiped away her tears: "My eyes were smoked by the lamp."
She turned serious again Come: "From tomorrow, you will officially become a female officer , Xiao Lu, you should learn from your eldest aunt and stop being playful."
I felt a little guilty: "Is it difficult to be a female officer?"
" As long as you study hard, you will learn well. You are a smart child..." But Aunt Cao said, "I don't know if I should hope that you can learn well."
05
I really couldn't understand what she said.
Before dawn the next day, I was called up to study with my eldest aunt. I thought I was going to learn how to manage palace maids, keep accounts and other common duties, but I didn’t expect that my eldest aunt asked me first: "Are you literate?"
"My father is a doctor and has learned a little bit at home."
"What about piano, chess, calligraphy and painting?"
"I have memorized chess records, and I only read Mrs. Wei's words. I don't know much about piano and painting..."
My eldest aunt was already pleasantly surprised and said: "That's enough."
I looked at Aunt Cao in confusion, and her face was tense. , no joy in sight.
I became more and more nervous, but my eldest aunt said kindly: "Don't be afraid, you know a lot of things, it is really the best. It's just that the empress is proficient in all kinds of music, chess, calligraphy and painting, especially the piano. You must study hard in the future."
I studied piano with my eldest aunt for several hours that day, and my fingertips were so painful. When I saw the small building, I was still puzzled: "I really don't understand why a female officer has to learn these things."
He listened. He frowned: "You said you are very similar to the Queen?"
"Everyone says so..." I felt a little guilty, "I'm not bragging."
But he asked again: "How is the Queen's condition? "
The Queen has been ill for a long time. She and the Emperor were childhood sweethearts. When the Emperor ascended the throne, he named her Queen. The two of them were deeply in love, and it was said that they were a match made in heaven.It's a pity that the empress had an unexpected miscarriage three years ago. Since then, she has been on the sickbed, and her health has been good and bad.
I told him honestly, and when I saw his frown deepening, I poked him: "Why are you asking?"
But he only said meaningfully: "You might as well be stupid and don't do anything when learning the piano. He learned so well."
How come I can't even understand what he said? !
But I believed that he would not harm me, so when I went to practice the piano again, I made many mistakes and omissions. I pretended not to understand the musical notes that my aunt taught me, and I even played the strings made by the famous master. broken.
This happened for several days in a row. My eldest aunt was so angry that she said, "Get out!"
Okay!
I immediately rolled over and ran into Aunt Cao when I went out. I thought she was going to scold me too, but her tone was very gentle: "Since you are tired from training, let's take a good rest."
Waiting for her to go in, I slipped away with ease. I went to eavesdrop under the window and happened to hear Aunt Cao say: "I just said she is not the material. Xiaolu is already fifteen years old this year. When the empress and Your Majesty met, she was only eleven years old and became famous in Jiangnan. Only then did she become famous in Jiangnan. Your majesty fell in love at first sight. How can there be any good results if you try to force the child to grow like this?"
The eldest aunt's expression was very bad. After a while, she suddenly burst into tears: "Don't think that I have to force myself. Her body is really unbearable. . She is only thinking about her family now. The Gu family made a huge mistake this time. Your Majesty has forgiven you for the sake of your Majesty, but when your Majesty leaves, it will be a disaster in an instant. Meng Niang, we are looking at your Majesty. Growing up, I couldn't bear the thought of her not being able to fulfill her last wish."
Aunt Cao burst into tears when she heard this: "Even if Xiaolu is somewhat similar to the empress, how can she definitely win your majesty's heart? What is this harem? We don’t know this kind of place, so why push her into the fire pit..."
I didn’t listen to the rest of the words, but my heart was already beating fast. I ran towards the lake and saw the small building in the distance. Zi stood there, unable to brake in time, and crashed into his arms.
He hugged me with his strong arms: "What's going on?"
"Aunt... Auntie..." I took a sharp breath and said, "Auntie taught me to practice the piano because she wanted me to go Serve Your Majesty!"
For such an earth-shattering event, his face looked very calm. I came back to my senses and said, "Have you guessed it a long time ago?"
"It's not difficult to guess." He said, "My wife has been ill for a long time, and her whole family has been honored and disgraced. Of course you have to consider your family when it comes to marrying her. Since you are like her as your majesty’s young lover, you can remind your majesty to always think of your majesty and take care of your family.”
"How can I be worthy of..."
But he said: "Your Majesty has chosen you, so of course you are worthy."
"But..." I looked at him, anxious to tears, "But after serving Your Majesty, I will I can't go home."
His eyebrows were raised high, showing a surprised look. I choked and said, "My father was sentenced, and in order to save money to redeem him, I sold myself into the palace. My mother said she wanted me. Live well, and when I am old, you will definitely come and take me home. "
My hometown has a gentle stream, a clear blue sky, a jade-colored lake, and clusters of lavender orchids. When I left, the small tree in front of the door had just sprouted new buds, and it may have bloomed now.
He had a complicated expression: "If you marry the emperor, you will be rich and prosperous in the future..."
"I just want to go home!" I said fiercely, "I want to be rich and prosperous so that I can save it and take my mother with me after I leave the palace. Live a good life! I have been here for five years, but I have never liked this place. Xiaolouzi, if you have been to my house, you will understand that in this palace, people are just zombies."
I am over. He got even angrier, wiped away his tears fiercely, and turned to leave.
Behind me, a hand reached out and gently held my wrist.The moon was sparse, and the coolness on his fingertips penetrated his skin and poured into his heart.
"I said the wrong thing," he said with guilt in his voice, "You will definitely be able to go home."
I couldn't help it any longer, so I threw myself into his arms and burst into tears. I never wanted to say how sad I felt in the palace. Aunt Cao was strict and I was stupid. I received countless beatings after entering the palace. The masters had unpredictable thoughts. A little thing might be a disaster. I am careful just to stay alive. In ten years, I will be able to leave the palace.
"Xiao Lu." I heard him say, "I will help you."
My heart suddenly became quiet. I said "hmm" softly, looked at the bright moon in the sky, and quietly made a wish in my heart: Moon, Moon , if you can see the joys and sorrows of the world, I hope you will protect me and Xiaolouzi, and we will get what we want.
06
According to Xiaolouzi, it is not difficult to dispel the idea of empress empress.
She is a talented woman, so I want to be her substitute, and I also want to be fully developed morally, intellectually, physically, artistically, and physically. But if I can’t get on the wall, they will naturally give up on me.
I'm good at using it as mud!
To sum up, it is very simple. It is nothing more than splashing ink when my eldest aunt writes, singing when my eldest aunt plays the piano, sleeping when my eldest aunt reads, and flipping the table when my aunt plays chess.
My eldest aunt was so angry with me that she shook her head when she saw me. She probably thought that I was really hopeless, so she gradually stopped teaching me.
I was very happy and praised Xiaolouzi for his good idea, but he still looked worried: "There was news a few days ago that the Gu family was reprimanded by His Majesty in the court again."
The Gu family is the empress. My mother's family has always been favored by the emperor, so much so that they became arrogant and domineering. They did many unreasonable things in Jiangnan, and were sued all the way to the capital. In the past, His Majesty would always lift it up high and put it down gently when encountering such a thing, but this time he was furious.
Thick clouds are gathering, heavy rain is coming, thunder and lightning are hidden in the fields, and I only endure it for the final blow.
But I don’t understand any of this, so I just asked him: "Is Wang Li still causing trouble for you?"
Wang Li is the eunuch beside the emperor. He has followed His Majesty since he was young and has always firmly held the position beside His Majesty. But a few months ago, His Majesty bumped into Xiaolouzi by chance, and they struck up a friendship at first sight, so he made an exception and promoted him to his side as his personal chamberlain.
This greatly offended Wang Li. After all, in the harem, not only the concubines were competing for favor, but the eunuchs also wanted to win the emperor's heart.
Xiaolouzi smiled slightly when he heard the words: "I can still cope with it."
took out a handkerchief from his arms and unfolded it, revealing two small Ruyi cakes inside: "The newly made cakes in the imperial dining room, I remember You love to eat."
I couldn't wait to pick up a piece, and I just felt that it was so sweet all the way to my heart: "Xiaolouzi, you are so good to me! I will definitely miss you when I leave the palace."
He just smiled, his eyebrows deep, It's like he's hiding a lot of things on his mind.
That winter, the snow fell earlier than in previous years.
The Queen's illness worsened and she was bedridden. In March of the following year, the Gu family's misappropriation of disaster relief food funds could no longer be concealed. Your Majesty was furious. The Queen forced her sick body to kneel in front of the Minghua Hall for two hours, and finally won His Majesty's favor. He softened his heart and forgave the Gu family once again.
But everyone knows that the moment the Queen dies, the Gu family will be destroyed.
Therefore, when the empress called me in front of me, I just knelt on the ground without saying a word. The crabapples outside the window were scattered all over the ground. The empress looked at me for a long time and sighed: "Well, since you don't want to, why should I force you for my own sake."
Then she said to her eldest aunt: "After I die... Remember to send Xiao Lu out of the palace."
The Queen...she is really a good person.
I returned to the room with the things given by the empress, but I saw an unfamiliar little eunuch standing in front of the door. When he saw me, he said anxiously: "Aunt Xiaolu, something serious has happened! Mr. Xiaolou is away on business. Something went wrong and he was put in prison by Grandpa Wang and was going to be beheaded!"
The only one in the palace who can be called Grandpa Wang is Wang Li. I know that he has always been domineering, but I didn't expect that in order to exclude dissidents, he would frame it at will -
Xiao Louzi is always cautious in doing things. If someone hadn't framed him, how could he have gone wrong?
I was so anxious that I was about to run out. I hesitated for a moment, but then stopped. The little eunuch urged me: "Auntie, let's go quickly."
I said, "You go first... stall for a while, I will come right away."
What's the use of me going? Is Wang Li still afraid of me, a little palace maid?
So I took a breath, smoothed the corners of my clothes, and finally turned around and walked into the Queen's palace again.
There was a bitter smell in the palace. The empress was drinking medicine and her face was extremely pale. She was a little surprised when she saw me. I had already stepped forward and knelt down heavily on the ground: "Your Majesty, I am willing to serve your Majesty!"
She frowned slightly: "Are you willing?"
"Yes, your Majesty has to look at me differently. I am a slave." It's a blessing. In the past, the slave was ignorant, so he made a joke. Now... it will definitely not happen anymore."
"Xiao Lu," the empress said, "were you not willing just now? What happened?"
burst into tears. I rolled out, and I choked and said: "My dear, my dear, please... please save Xiaolouzi! I am willing to be a cow or a horse, as long as you save him..."
Wang Li will not be afraid of me, he can save Xiaolouzi. The only person in the building is the Queen. And I have no other bargaining chip, I can only repay him with my body.
The empress had complicated eyes: "He is just a little eunuch, is it worth it?"
Is it worth it?
I think of that beautiful moon, which shone brightly on his face. His eyebrows were bright, and he looked at me and said softly: "I will help you."
Everyone is forced to do what they want. Me, no one is willing to help me, only he is willing to send me home.
My forehead hit the ground heavily, and I said: "It's worth it."
"Ah Yue," the empress said to the eldest aunt, "take my sign and go for a walk."
I breathed a sigh of relief and sat down. On the ground, the empress sighed and said: "I just hope that in the future, you will not regret your choice today."
My father taught me how to play chess, and the first thing he taught me was "no regrets on every move." Besides, if I can save the small building, why should I regret it?
It's just a pity that there are no bluegrass in the palace, and there is no small courtyard beside the stream.
The red wall is so high that only the four corners of the sky can be seen. How many people are inside, they are destined to be trapped and besieged.
