Today is the third anniversary of my father’s death. At around six o'clock in the morning, we drove to the cemetery to pay our respects.
Originally, it was good for my husband and I to go with our niece, but my mother said that it was cool in the morning and she wanted to go see my father, so we went together.
It only takes ten minutes from home to the cemetery. When we walked up to the tall tombstone, the breeze blew gently and it was a little cool.
When I first bought a cemetery for my father, I chose a very high location, almost on the top of the mountain. Therefore, every time you go to pay homage, you have to walk up a steep cement road and then climb dozens of steps to reach it.
Standing in front of my father's tombstone, looking into the distance, I feel like " will be the top , can see all the mountains and small ". This seems to be in line with my father's wishes. He always likes to go outside and watch the scenery. Well now, he is at the top of the mountain, with the scenery in full view.
But this was a pain for my sister. Because her legs and feet were inconvenient, she did not walk up the high steps on the day her father was buried. After that, every year during the Tomb Sweeping Festival, Death Anniversary, Winter Solstice and New Year's Eve memorial ceremonies, she could only watch us go up from a distance, because she really couldn't afford to go up. I admire my mother very much for burning paper with us every time. Although I asked her not to go up every time, she went up every time.
We burned a whole basin of paper money and gold ingots folded with paper for Dad, and then kowtowed to Dad, asking him to bless us and our family in safety and health.
I jokingly said to my niece: "Your grandpa has always said that he is pitiful and has not had the care of his parents since he was a child. Now he is better. He has found his parents in another world and the family is reunited."
Although I have always been I am a materialist person who does not believe in superstition. But as I grow older and things change, I think people still need to believe in something. It is better to have a spiritual sustenance than to have nowhere to rest your soul. Although I know this is self-deception, I am willing to let such deception relieve people's mental pain.
People are always going to die, it's just a matter of time. It can be said that there are not many people in this world who are not afraid of death. Therefore, viewing a person's death as the cycle of life can alleviate people's fear of death.
Therefore, we often talk about death as going to see Marx and going to heaven. And sometimes I really think that there is another world or another space, where the dead people exist in another form. Thinking like this, death is not terrible.
I think that my dear dad may have started his new journey in another world.
