In an ordinary ward in the Oncology Department, 44-year-old Tan Ling was half lying on the hospital bed. Her severe ascites made her look more like a pregnant woman with full term pregnancy. Her swelling and swelling of her body and face also made her look beyond recognition. The sound of the monitor's drops and the sound of bubbles beating in the oxygen tube all indicate that she is in danger of life.
She is a patient with advanced breast cancer liver metastasis and ascites. Her life is coming to an end. Her short life has not left her much beauty, so she has no nostalgia. The only thing she can't let go is the daughter who was silently crying by the bed who just turned 18 years old.
A year ago, Tan Ling was diagnosed with breast cancer . She never dreamed that a life of already miserable and compassion would make it worse. Why is God so unfair? Why did she bear all the misfortunes alone?
Tan Ling's father died of an accident when she was four years old. At the age of six, she followed her mother into a new family. The happiest childhood in her life did not leave him the most beautiful memory, but was more of a pain of living under someone else's roof.
The hardships of life made her mature too early. She is very beautiful. This may be God’s only favor for her, and I don’t know whether it is good or bad. Although time and illness have already covered her body with dim and sad colors, it still cannot completely cover up her beautiful face. It can be imagined that she must be very beautiful when she was young.
However, a wrong choice made her youth that should have shined dimly, and she accidentally acted as a third party.
Maybe it is because her life lacks care too. Whether it is fatherly love, motherly love, or relatives’ love, it seems that it has nothing to do with her. She is particularly eager to feel cared for, so she cannot tell what true love is. She easily believes that a man’s show of kindness is true love, but she does not know that this man already has a wife and children, and Tan Ling actually gave birth to a daughter for this man.
From then on, her life has entered a more tragic and embarrassing situation. How could a man with a family fulfill the responsibilities and obligations that a man should fulfill for her?
In the days when no one cares about it, she could only rely on her daughter and raise her daughter alone with great difficulty. At the same time, she had to bear the pressure of discrimination and scolding from others. Her mother and her stepfather's family also cut off her relationship.
At this time, her life was surrounded by enemies. The burdens of life and spiritual burdens made her breathless. The only thing worthy of relief was that her daughter grew up slowly, and she was very sensible and knew how to love her mother.
The mother and daughter worked hard, and their lives were getting better slowly. They could finally see the dawn, but there were unexpected situations in the sky, and their ordinary life encountered even greater disasters.
Life is really hard. She doesn’t have much energy and time to pay attention to her health. Although she felt uncomfortable in her body, she did not seek medical treatment in time. When she was diagnosed, she was already in the late stage of breast cancer.
The mother and daughter took out all the savings at home to treat the disease, and later sold the house to maintain chemotherapy and radiotherapy. Even so, the treatment effect was not very satisfactory because there was no more money to maintain subsequent treatment.
The disease continued to worsen. A year after her surgery, she developed liver metastasis. The swelling and severe ascites caused her torture. had difficulty breathing and was unable to bear wheezing.
At this time, they had already given all their money, and their daughter even exchanged all their necklaces for money, just to give her mother a breathing penis to reduce the pain and make her mother feel more at ease.
However, once a abdominal distension cannot solve the problem at all, and the ascites are rising again, and it will soon take a second and third time...
At this time, my daughter is penniless and has borrowed everything she should borrow, especially in this case, who is willing to lend the hard-earned money she has earned to such a family with no hope of repayment?
The daughter made a desperate decision: give up treatment.
At this time, Tan Ling's whole body was swollen, and her ascites stretched out the abdominal wall. If she did not undergo abdominal dissection, no medicine could be input into her body, and even the most basic support treatment could not be carried out.
My daughter sat in front of her mother's hospital bed, holding her mother's hand, holding her tears, and repeating the sentence repeatedly: "Mom, I'm sorry, mom, I'm sorry..."
watched her mother get farther and farther away from herself with helpless, concerned and painful eyes...
Mom left and went to another world. Maybe that world would be better, maybe there is no disease or pain there.
just made this poor girl suffer, and there is no one around you who can depend on each other.
Life is short, these four words are the most appropriate summary for Tan Ling’s life, the bitter childhood, the regretful youth, and the painful middle age, as if she was coming to the world to overcome the tribulation.
Life is unpredictable, and things are impermanent. No one can predict which one will come tomorrow or disease or accident first. When you feel that life is helpless, it is recommended to go to the hospital to see it. The wall of the hospital carries too many prayers and witnesses too much sadness. Perhaps after you have seen it, you can truly understand that except life and death, everything else in life is the true meaning of scratches.
