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On November 9, 2004, a wail broke the silent night.
Just before that, Zhang Chunru's mother Zhang Yingying received an emergency call, and her son-in-law Bret told her that Zhang Chunru was missing for no reason. This situation has also happened before. Since Zhang Chunru was diagnosed with depression and started taking a lot of medication, he has had the idea of missing or suicide one after another.
Perhaps as a mother, Zhang Yingying always feels that the situation this time is a little different.
She knew that the reason why Zhang Chunru came to this point was because she wrote "Nanjing Massacre", and a book "takes her life".
When it comes to the Nanjing Massacre, we are all very familiar with it and hate it to the core, but do you know that the overseas attention to the Nanjing Massacre was not as good as that of traffic stars.
That happened in 1937. At that time, more than 300,000 compatriots were killed. On average, every 12 seconds, a Chinese were ruthlessly killed, either burned, dug, or tortured to death...
However, Japan concealed all this and even tampered with textbooks, resulting in many overseas countries only knowing about the tragedy of the Nazi concentration camp.
In order to restore the historical truth, Zhang Chunru stood up and exposed the fact that the Japanese invaded China, but she also suffered from depression.
So why did Zhang Chunru get into this "mutty water"?
Because Zhang Chunru's grandfather was Zhang Tiejun, the general of the Anti-Japanese War , he often told Zhang Chunru about the tragedy in Nanjing. Unfortunately, their family lived in the United States at that time, and there was very little information about this.
She also suspected that her grandfather had exaggerated it until she saw photos of Japan invading Nanjing at an exhibition:
The child was kneeling on the ground and his head was cut off by the Japanese army;
The pregnant woman was suffocated by a cruel long knife;
The old man was thrown into the cesspool and suffocated to death;
The girl was ravaged by the Japanese army with broken wine bottles and golf clubs...
After seeing these, she was deeply hurt. That year, she was 26 years old, but she picked up the pen and prepared to uncover the scars of the war.
Little did she know that her words would become her "death talisman".
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In order to restore the facts, she investigated a lot of relevant information and also strengthened the producer Tang Meiru.
Tang Meiru once went to Nanjing to interview survivors. She said:
"You never know how miserable they are. The people have no money to buy medicine, and eating has become a problem, while those Japanese invaders who kill people are completely the opposite."
was originally a thug with crimes, but instead became a national hero, living in a spacious house with government subsidies.
This made Zhang Chunru even more heartbroken. She began to collect relevant information such as articles, English, Japanese , and also collected key information in some diaries or government reports.
This also caused problems in her body. Zhang Yingying looked at her increasingly negative daughter and advised her to stop writing books. She didn't do it and others would do it.
Zhang Yingying's worries are not unreasonable. At that time, some pastors had witnessed the murder of people in Nanjing, and some committed suicide due to psychological trauma.
So how good can Zhang Chunru be as a woman?
But Zhang Chunru's reply to her mother was also firm: "If everyone thinks so, then Japan's atrocities will be overwhelmed."
Zhang Yingying had no choice but to respect her ideas.
1997, after three years of investigation and writing, Zhang Chunru finally completed the "Nanjing Massacre". Once this book was published, it caused a sensation in the world.
As Zhang Chun wished, Japan's crimes were published in the public. At that time, the book was translated into the language of 15 countries and became a proof of history.
But with Zhang Chunru's "big fire", Zhang Yingying became more and more worried. She knew that her daughter would have to bear things that others dare not imagine next.
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Zhang Chunru wrote a letter to his mother during his writing. It seemed a bit scary to think about it. The general meaning was:
- For safety reasons, I want to move.
- Only when the "Nanjing atrocities" are known to the world can I be safe.
- In order to protect this home, I think it is necessary to hire a private detective.
From these texts we can see that Zhang Chunru has been threatened by his life.
The Japanese ambassador to the United States formed a committee to study the Nanjing Massacre. They tried to find loopholes from it and overturn the authenticity of the information.
even picks out "faults" from the perspective and light of a photo, which is tantamount to "picking bones in an egg".
Zhang Chunru also responded to this matter: "I hope Japan can stand up and face the facts."
The daughter's approach made Zhang Yingying both proud and afraid. What would happen if a Japanese right-wing nationalist learned about this?
Sure enough, Zhang Yingying's premonition was right again.
Since then, Zhang Chunru has often received intimidation messages, and some people even want to put her to death. When she is most afraid, she is a envelope with two bullets wrapped in an envelope.
Under the mental torture, Zhang Chunru's face began to turn pale. It was impossible to say that she was not afraid at all, but she was still standing in front of the camera reading out Japan's crimes.
If a book is just Zhang Chunru's "death talisman", then there should be two more things that will further destroy his spirit:
- She suspected that her son had autism, which was nothing more than adding insult to Zhang Chunru.
- She wanted to make "Nanjing Massacre" into a Hollywood movie and expand her publicity efforts, but she was disappointed after talking to many investors.
During that time, Zhang Chunru began to lose appetite, hair loss, and her weight loss. Zhang Yingying advised her to stop again, but it was still fruitless.
From books to movies, every step is full of difficulties and difficulties. Zhang Yingying feels that if her daughter considers the movie again, she will undoubtedly repeat various violent and bloody scenes over and over again.
In order to relieve the pressure on his daughter, Zhang Yingying specially found a psychiatrist and a psychiatrist, but the pills did not work at all.
It was not until one day that she accidentally saw her daughter’s browsing records online that she realized that things had reached an uncontrollable point. It turns out that these drugs have side effects, and they will make people feel suicidal.
Zhang Yingying loved her son and immediately discussed this matter with Zhang Chunru. Perhaps someone was unwilling to find the "secret" and Zhang Chunru became distant from her mother.
Not long after, Zhang Yingying found a gun safety instruction and a pistol in her daughter's bag. At that time, all her sweat was standing up, and sweat also left her cheeks on her chin.
Immediately afterwards, Zhang Chunru disappeared, and her husband Britt immediately informed Zhang Yingying.
That night, Zhang Yingying and her husband drove around in a crazy way to look for Zhang Chunru. They went to various shopping malls, libraries and surrounding hotels that their daughter often visited, but they did not see the familiar figure.
In fact, this is not the first time Zhang Chunru has disappeared. In September last year, the old couple tried their best to find her. The next day, she came back by herself, but her tired look was really heartbreaking.
So this time, will Zhang Chunru appear after dawn?
Maybe she just went out to relax? But don't forget that she has a gun in her hand.
And this time she was not going out alone, and she was also following her an old-style white sedan.
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After Zhang Yingying and her husband returned home late at night, the two sat side by side on the sofa and remained silent for a long time. They both wanted to comfort each other in a certain way, but they couldn't say anything.
"Will she be in trouble?" Zhang Yingying was so panicked that somehow, she felt that her daughter was getting farther away from them.
Zhang Yingying leaned against the sofa with her eyes closed, as if only warm fabric could bring her a little sense of security. At this moment, she suddenly remembered something.
Zhang Chunru once said after a lecture: "Some people say that if I don't join them, I will die."
All the threat of intimidation, coercion, and death finally defeated the weak woman. Not long after, she sent her son away. She said, "He is not happy with me, but only danger."
Zhang Chunru even said to Zhang Yingying nervously many times: "Mother, someone is following me."
Zhang Yingying will never forget Zhang Chunru's eyes when she said this, her empty eyes were covered with bloodshot, as if they would disappear at any time.
But Zhang Chunru has depression after all, and long-term medication and the progress of her condition will cause her to have hallucinations or "dirty paranoia", so it is hard to say whether anyone follows her.
As the pendulum on the wall was clattering, the couple entered a light sleep state. At this time, a sharp phone ringtone suddenly rang. Zhang Yingying thought it was Zhang Chunru called, so she immediately got up and answered the phone.
Due to long periods of mental tension and fatigue, the moment she stood up, her eyes were filled with black and white light spots, and she almost fell to the ground.
But the voice on the phone was not the daughter, but the son-in-law Brett. He almost made a cold voice:
"I will go over with a police officer later."
The two soon appeared in front of Zhang Yingying's house. The police officer looked a little unnatural. He walked to Zhang Yingying and gently supported her shoulder with one hand, as if he was afraid that she would fall:
"Auntie, I'm sorry, your daughter Zhang Chunru is dead."
In the early morning of November 9, 2004, Zhang Chunru drove a white car and parked under a tree. She slowly picked up her pistol and pointed it at her head, ending her 36-year-old life with a "bang".
When the police found her, her body was already a little stiff.
Zhang Yingying and her husband cried heart-wrenchingly, but unfortunately Zhang Chunru could no longer hear it. The book "Nanjing Massacre" has brought Zhang Chunru into danger. In addition, she wanted to make a movie, and she had long become the "thorn in the eyes" of the Japanese invaders. However, it was not someone else who killed her in the end, but she herself.
Later, someone asked Zhang Yingying if she regretted not persuading her daughter and asked her to put away her pen in time?
Zhang Yingying said: "Zhang Chunru told me during her lifetime that if history is submerged, it may come back. I think this is not the time for sadness and regret. We must pass on her hard work and last wishes."
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After Zhang Chunru passed away, there was another heated discussion in various countries, and no one could believe that this well-known writer would say goodbye in this way.
On the funeral day, thousands of strangers came to send her off. The mailbox in front of Zhang Yingying was full of mourning words to Zhang Chunru. For everyone, this is also a way to remember the heroes.
Because of Zhang Chunru, we have a better understanding of the Nanjing Massacre, and because of Zhang Chunru, those survivors are lucky enough to express their inner sorrow when they are alive.
There is a saying that goes:
"Forgot history means betrayal, and denying guilt means repeat offense."
Don’t forget the national humiliation, it is our most basic patriotic sentiment as Chinese people.
Now, 17 years have passed since Zhang Chunru committed suicide. "Nanjing Massacre" has not been made into a Hollywood movie, but the story of Zhang Chunru and "Nanjing Massacre" has been made into a documentary.
Thinking back to Zhang Chunru's journey, in order to write this book, she visited everywhere and kept backups everywhere, for fear of being destroyed by those who are interested. She was so cautious that she still couldn't escape the invisible "murder".
Some people may wonder why the Nanjing Massacre has been so long since it has been mentioned frequently. What does our generation have to do with the dead undead?
I believe Zhang Chunru has already said the answer.
As a Chinese, everyone has a common home no matter where they go or what happens. It has become particularly powerful now. Its name is China!
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